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Veno - PRACTICAL support and Guidance with Self Forgiveness Part 2

As transcribed and typed by Veno through the interdimensio­nal portal

Date : 21/12/2007

I forgive myself for thinking that since i am light skinned i can do more, have more and be more



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define ‘freedom’ as ‘what I can do’ because of the colour of my skin. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define me and others as me according to the colour of skin. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define me and other as me through what I see with my human physical eyes. I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to judge others based on the colour of their skin and judge me according to the colour of my skin because of what I was said or taught while I was growing up with regards to ‘skin colour’. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed separation within me through accepting and allowing me to judge others based on their skin colour and compare me to them based on my skin colour. I forgive myself that I haven’t allowed myself to realise that if I accept and allow me to continue existing within such judgments as beliefs or ideas or perceptions of the mind, I am supporting this entire world system as the mind system within me of separation.



Here you also have to be ‘more specific’ in answering this question for yourself, Why do you ‘think or believe’ you are ‘more than or better than others because of your ‘skin colour’. Every reason as thought that come up in your mind, Apply self forgiveness, because whatever your judgment on other human being is based on skin colour, you have either heard from someone else or was taught this and ‘programmed the belief or idea’ into your mind and accepted it as you, instead of in such a moment not accepting or allowing you to judge or compare you to others based on skin colour.



i forgive myself i have to be always right or better than someone else



I forgive myself that I have allowed and accepted myself to participate in the ego of the mind which exists within such reactions of, ‘always wanting to be right’ and ‘better than someone or something else’. I forgive myself that I haven’t allowed myself to realise that ‘always wanting to be right’ and ‘better than someone or something else’ are attributes of the ego of the mind. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define who I am according to the ego of the mind. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to ‘feel better’ when I participate in the ego of the mind. I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to participate in the ego of the mind to be ‘accepted and or appreciated’ by others and to be noticed by others to fit it. I forgive myself that I haven’t allowed myself to realise that I am accepting and allowing me to participate in the ego of the mind because I have not yet accepted me as who I am. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed self dishonesty within me because of accepting and allowing me to participate in the ego of the mind. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be and become the nature of ego as the self defined nature of ‘who I am’. I forgive myself that I haven’t allowed myself to realise to what extent I compromise me by accepting and allowing me to participate in my self defined nature as the ego of the mind to impress others, because I am not living and applying self honesty as me. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear being self honest with me and in this fear, I compromise me and then exist as the ego of the mind to hide my fear and then attract others into my world within which I will manifest the experience of self compromise such as sleeping with a prostitute to show myself how I am accepting and allowing me to compromise myself and the consequences that go with self compromise. I forgive myself that I haven’t allowed myself to realise that self compromise exists because I have accepted and allowed myself to be self dishonest with me, that self compromise originate from self dishonesty. I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to fear the consequences for which I am responsible for because of my accepted and allowed self dishonesty within me.


i forgive myself that i think others are lost and i am aware and at the top



Realise that this is also a thought which originate from the nature you have accepted and allowed within you as ‘superiority’, it’s how the mind works. You know you are lost, when you see beings within your world you see yourself as lost as you are and because you fear your ‘lostness’ and what you have become there inside you, you will try and hide it or justify what you accept and allow inside you, which you do unto others through having such thoughts, which is absolutely dishonest.

You know you’re not aware at all, you know you are lost, you know what you do to yourself and to others inside you. Yet you still do it and don’t take self responsibility and don’t live self honestly in every moment. And because you don’t, you will deliberately try and convince yourself through such thoughts that you are better than others, while you know what goes on there inside you is most definitely not awareness, but self dishonesty and self deceit. The only way you’re going to assist and support you, is through applying yourself effectively within self forgiveness and self application in every moment.

So, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to try and hide my self dishonesty and what goes on inside me through trying and or attempting to convince myself in my mind as thoughts that I am not lost and I am aware, more so than others. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear my own self dishonesty and self deceit and because of this fear, I try and hide what I have become within me from others in ‘hope’ that they will not see what I have accepted and allowed myself to be and become. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to try and run from myself as what I have accepted and allowed myself to be and become and do unto myself and others as myself. I forgive myself that I didn’t allow myself to be self honest with me in moments where I knew I’d compromise me and others as me, but did it anyway because I accepted and allowed me to fall into the ego of the mind. I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to fear being lost.



So here also I suggest observing you intently and specifically in every moment as you participating in this world. And stop immediately such thoughts of superiority that come up in your mind because when or if such thoughts arise, know that you are being self dishonest within you, then you stop, breathe and apply self forgiveness accordingly.


i forgive myself for allowing destructive thoughts, emotions and feelings to come in me



I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to participate in destructive thoughts, feelings and emotions within me. I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to be destructive towards me and others as me.



Also here. You have to specifically look at the thoughts, feelings and emotions that you ‘define as destructive’ and apply self forgiveness specifically. Because here in this self forgiveness statement – you’re only covering the foundation, from here you have to ‘go into it’ more specifically. Understand that this is a self dedicated and self disciplined process. It’s not about just quickly applying self forgiveness and then it’s gone. It’s to apply self forgiveness specifically and apply you accordingly as you participate in this world, so, it’s a process. Do this unconditionally in totality for you as you. Not just because you ‘fear possibly having AIDS’, what is relevant about this process is YOU sorting out your nature as what you have accepted and allowed you to be and become.


i forgive myself for thinking that something outside of me will help me



I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to want to or desire to have someone or something get me out of this experience of me, instead of me taking self responsibility for me. I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to want to or desire to have someone or something sort out this situation of the experience of me, for me. I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to participate in the thoughts of the mind such as, I don’t want to do this, and someone else must do this for me. Instead of me assisting and supporting myself, and thus by doing so, others as me assist and support me. I forgive myself that I haven’t allowed myself to realise that no one can do this process for me, I have to do it for myself as myself. I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to doubt myself and participate in the mind of thoughts which say, I can’t do this.


i forgive myself for allowing negative energies to come within my life



Here also with regards to ‘negative’ and ‘energies’, both are designs of the mind, from within the mind, who you are is not of energy. Understand that thoughts are thoughts, emotions are emotions, feelings are feelings, memories are memories, beliefs are beliefs, and pictures within the mind are pictures within the mind. As they are all, of the mind, not ‘positive’ and ‘negative’ this is another ‘polarity design definition’ of the mind as I have mentioned before. Here you also have to be ‘more specific’ with regards to what exactly do you ‘define as’ negative energies and apply self forgiveness accordingly. So,



I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to define that which I perceive and believe as being ‘bad’ within me as ‘negative energies’. I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to resist and fear and deny that which I perceive and define as being negative energies of the mind. I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to participate in the polarity of the mind as positive and negative. I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to define me according to the polarity of the mind as positive or negative.


i forgive myself for wanting and playing with an ouija board with my brother



Here I would not yet suggest to participate in ‘playing with the Ouija Board when your mind is still so active within which you still participate, because it leaves room open for extensive mind influence and then you can really fuck with yourself.


i forgive myself for saying that someone else had aids



I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to fear mentioning that I have or might have AIDS or HIV because of fear of what others might possibly think of me. I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to fear mentioning that I fear possibly having AIDS or HIV because I had sex with a prostitute through fear of being judged and ridiculed by others. I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to judge me because of the fear that exists within me that I might possibly have AIDS or HIV. I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to fear others’ responses towards me if I could or might possibly have AIDS or HIV.



As I have mentioned, you specifically have to go into this fear, everything that comes up in your mind related to the fear of possibly having AIDS or HIV to release yourself from this fear completely and totally. Because you cannot assist and support you effectively if you exist in fear. So, release the fear through applying specific self forgiveness.


i forgive myself for lying about people and myself



I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to lie to me and thus because I lie to myself, I have accepted and allowed my nature as me to be of lies and thus I lie to others as me. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be self dishonest with me, within me and my world which manifest the application and action of lies towards me and others as me.



Here in application you have to specifically observe you as you participate in this world and no more accept and allow you to lie. Because this would be self dishonesty in application towards you and to others which will inevitably manifest consequences. The consequences is for you to realise that you have to stop lying and being self dishonest within you. You will either realise that you have to stop this now, through applying self forgiveness and practical application, or you have to go through certain specific experiences for you to finally realise you have to stop. I would suggest not going the ‘experience of consequences route’, but the self application and self responsibility route. So, STOP LYING TO YOU, being dishonest with you and live and apply self honesty,

absolute brutal self honesty in every moment.


i forgive myself for being offended easily when someone says something to me



I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to react to others within my world. I forgive myself that I haven’t allowed myself to realise that I will only react towards others as me if I do the exact same application as they do towards others. I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to take others comments towards me personally. I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to ‘feel inferior’ because I experience me as being a sensitive being.



Here you also look at to what comments other make you ‘react’ within you by taking it personally, because it’s showing you that you do the exact same thing to others, but haven’t realised it yet. Then you so apply self forgiveness accordingly and when such a moment arrive, you stop within you before the reaction compounds. If you react and it continues, self forgiveness required for allowing and accepting you to take the comment personally then specifically look at where you do the same to others and apply self forgiveness for this also.


i forgive myself for fear that there are demons trying to destroy or attack my family



There are no more ‘demons’ within this existence as what is previously believed. What human beings experience within them, including the experience of themselves in their world with other human beings, is manifested and designed by themselves through allowed and accepted participation in the mind. So,



I forgive myself that I haven’t allowed myself to realise that I am responsible for my own experiences within me and my world as all human beings are responsible for themselves as what they design and manifest as the experience of themselves within themselves and their experience of themselves within this world. I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to want to blame the experience of me within me and my world on something or someone else separate from so as to use this as an excuse that I don’t have to take self responsibility for me. I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to attack myself and destroy myself through accepting and allowing me to participate in the mind and living in self dishonesty.


i forgive myself for lustful thoughts



I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to participate in the ‘desire of lust’ of the mind. I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to try and fulfill a desire within me through participating in lustful thoughts of the mind. I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to participate in pictures within my mind connected to the word lust. Lust being a mind manifested emotional and feeling charged desire within me I am attempting and trying to fulfill within me. I forgive myself that I haven’t allowed myself to realise that desire exists of the mind. I forgive myself that I haven’t allowed myself to realise that lust exist of the mind. I forgive myself that I haven’t allowed myself to express me as who I am in every moment of breath within and as oneness and equality as who I am.



Here you have to go into the ‘lustful thoughts’ specifically and apply self forgiveness on each one. Let’s say for instance you imagine you with this red haired green eyed ‘babe’ with the perfect mind designed body and great breasts then you say,

I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to participate in the illusionary pictures within my mind as the presentation of the woman with red hair, green eyes, great breasts and perfect body. I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to connect desire and lust to this illusionary picture in my mind. I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to define sex and sexual experience according to this illusionary picture in my mind. I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to become aroused when I participate in this illusionary picture of the mind. I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to define me according to this illusionary picture within my mind which then becomes an experience I apparently have which is actually generated and charged by emotions and feelings of the mind. I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to participate in illusionary pictures of the mind, instead of realising that if I continue to accept and allow this, I am supporting rapists and abusers and molesters within this world because of me participating in the mind, which charge this entire world system as all human beings within it. I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to be addicted to participating in such illusionary pictures of the mind. I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to obsessed with woman and sex and girlfriends. I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to be obsessed and possessed and hypnotized and mesmerized by such illusionary pictures of the mind.

And so you go into the self forgiveness specifically


i forgive myself for stealing, cheating and being dishonest



Here the same. You have to go into specifically in answering the question for yourself, Why did you steal, why did you cheat and in doing so why did you accept and allow you to be self dishonest when doing so, though look at this with brutal self honesty within you. What thoughts went into your mind, what did you experience inside you that led you to participate in such actions, and then apply self forgiveness accordingly. The simple question you must ask yourself is, If you were that being unto which you have done such acts as stealing, cheating and vandalism, would you do this to yourself? Really place you in their shoes would you do this to you, honestly. No, you would not, because you know what you’d experience.



You know what is not worth it, is trying to be this ‘tough son of a bitch’ for other human beings, the absolute male ego bullshit. Because whoever you’re doing this with or for will not be with you later in life, then only later in life when experiencing the final consequences, which you manifested, then only you realise the absolute stupidity of being something you’re not for others. So really, ‘clean you up’ through living self honesty and just not accepting and allowing you to participate in any self dishonesty within you and your world. And you know with who and where you deliberately apply self dishonesty. I would even suggest not to participate with such beings any more, because realise that you’re only ‘friends’ with them, because they support you in your current accepted and allowed self dishonest existence and you’re doing the same with them. So take self responsibility for you, live self honesty and just stop participating in dishonesty within you and your world. Just applying self forgiveness is useless. You have to direct your world also to assist and support you, otherwise everything else is useless.


i forgive myself for not listening to my heart



‘Listening to your heart is an illusion’ and will ‘get you nowhere’. The ‘truth’ of the situation is that you know what is ‘best for you’, but you denied such moments by allowing and accepting you to participate in the mind, instead of really applying self honesty and honouring you. It’s simple. It’s not about ‘listening to your heart’. This is ignorant thinking and belief of the mind, it is to actually be self honest with you and applying you accordingly.


i forgive myself for not giving hugs because i was shy



I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to fear giving hugs because I know that when I hug another, I am self dishonest in giving the hug. I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to only accept hugs from certain specific human beings, but will not hug others whom I judge in my mind.



Here when you give hugs, realise that the being you’re hugging is you, so you’re actually giving you a hug.


i forgive myself for doubt of not being able to be healed



It’s not about ‘healing’. You cannot ‘heal you’ or ‘heal someone or something else’. It is to realise that you manifested possible having AIDS or HIV because of the consequences of you being self dishonest with you and thus compromising you. So, AIDS or HIV is here, or even just the fear thereof, as you to assist and support you to realise that you must sort you out and stop accepting and allowing a self dishonest and self compromising existence. It’s not about the illness and disease, it’s about YOU as who you are and you will only assist and support you effectively through absolute self disciplined application and self forgiveness in every moment of breath.


i forgive myself for doubting desteni-universe forums and videos at times



I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to project my self doubt and self uncertainty towards Desteni Universe and the video interviews I watch and hear. I forgive myself that I haven’t allowed myself to trust me in every moment of breath. I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to fear change. I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to fear letting go of my mind because I have accepted and allowed me to define ‘who I am’ according to my mind. I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to fear giving up that which I hold onto separate or outside of me and within my mind because I have defined me as ‘who I am’ according to the mind. Instead of realising that who I am is not the mind.



Realise that it’s not about ‘trusting us’ or ‘believing us’. This process is about YOU for YOU as YOU. So you may trust you, establish self trust within you through applying and living the tools provided. Because in ‘wanting to trust someone or something ‘separate outside of you, is separation. Apply and live this process and establish self trust within you as you, which is done through living and applying self honesty in every moment and no more accepting and allowing a self dishonest and self compromising existence within you and your world.


i forgive myself for being a materialistic person



I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to define me according to materialistic possessions of what I have and or own and or possesses.



As I have mentioned before, here you have to look at what materialistic possessions you own and apply self forgiveness specifically for each one for allowing and accepting you to define you according to that which exist as a materialistic possession.


i forgive myself for not caring about others needs



This is also a ‘mind sentence’ of the mind. Because ‘caring and needs’ are ‘self definition designs’ of the mind because ‘caring for others needs’ is actually done from an origin of guilt and fear within human beings which is defined as apparent ‘love’. And this is not love nor is it caring. This is human beings that try and ‘cover up’ their own dishonesties within themselves through ‘caring for others’ which apparently make them a ‘good person’ or ‘better person’, because they fear others finding out the truth of themselves within themselves. It is to assist and support you so in not accepting and allowing anything less than who you are and thus assist and support others as you in not accepting and allowing anything less than who they are, though this process of self application and self direction will come, you must first ‘sort you out’. So,



I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to ‘buy into the belief’ that ‘caring for others needs’ makes me a ‘good person’. I forgive myself that I haven’t allowed myself to realise that in ‘caring for others needs’ I am being self dishonest. I forgive myself that I haven’t allowed myself to realise that I hide my self dishonest truth within me by projecting an false presentation of me as ‘caring for others’ needs’. I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to project the false presentation of me as ‘caring for others’ needs’ because of fear that others might actually see and notice my self dishonest truth within me. I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to define ‘caring for others needs’ as being a ‘good cause’ which makes me a ‘better person’. I forgive myself that I haven’t allowed myself to realise that ‘caring for other’s’ needs’ is actually supporting their mind system as it supports my mind system as what I have defined as ‘who I am’.



The ‘caring’ application is the most dishonest action that exists within this world within human beings.


i forgive myself for not looking into oneness and equality



I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to fear applying oneness and equality because I fear letting go of my mind because I know that if I apply me effectively I will change and change is what I fear. I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to participate in the thought of the mind, I don’t want to change and I still want what I have and who I have. I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to deny, resist and fight who I really am through participating in the mind. I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to fear applying this process through fear of ‘losing my friends’ and ‘what I have, own and or possess’. I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to place value and worth into that which exist separate from me, outside of me as friends, possessions, family and in doing so, I compromise me because I do not accept me as who I really am and thus change me to ‘fit into, be accepted and be noticed’ by others within this world. I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to change me to conform and condition myself to who and what exists within this world to fit in, be accepted and be noticed instead of me living me as who I am in self honesty in every moment of breath.



Here also, go into this ‘more specifically for yourself’. With regards to ‘what you fear losing’, because understand how this process work, if you ‘want to hold onto’ that which you fear losing, you will lose that which you fear losing, why? Because this is you showing you that you were but ‘holding onto the fear of loss’ as an excuse and or justification to not apply you effectively in assisting and supporting you as who you are, so then you’ll have to ‘lose’ what you fear losing so you can finally realise that you have to assist and support yourself. Because then there’ll be no excuse not to and so you’ll force you to apply you in realising who you really are. So, I suggest to unconditionally apply self forgiveness for that which you fear losing. So you can stop participating in the fear and assets and support you to live and express you in self honesty in every moment so that you don’t have to go through the experience of the perception of ‘loss’ within your world.

Then you’ll also realise that ‘fear of loss’ only exist within the mind of the mind because you have defined you according to that which exist separate from you. That if you were to ‘lose it’ or no more exists within your world, a ‘part of you will be gone’ which is bullshit. And so you establish oneness and equality within you and no more define you according to someone or something that exists separate from, but you as who you are is here in totality in every breath.


i forgive myself forfeeling disconnected/ out of the source



I forgive myself that I haven’t allowed myself to realise that I will only experience ‘disconnection’ and or ‘separation’ when I accept and allow me to participate in the mind. I forgive myself that I haven’t allowed myself to realise that I am here, in every moment of awareness as me in breath.



So, whenever you have such an experience of ‘disconnection’, realise you’re in the mind. You stop, focus on breath and apply self forgiveness for accepting and allowing you to participate in the mind instead of remaining here in breath as you.


i forgive myself for taking my health, family and friends for granted



I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to take myself for granted. I forgive myself that I haven’t allowed myself to realise that in taking myself for granted, I will take everything and everyone else as me for granted also. I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to take my self responsibility towards me for granted. I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to take self honesty in expression as me in every moment of breath for granted. I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to take nature as me for granted in providing me with the ability to breath unconditionally as I exist and experience myself within this world. I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to take myself for granted by not accepting me as who I am, but changing me to fit into, be accepted and be noticed by others, which manifest self dishonesty and self compromise within me.



Here you have to look at where and with who and why you have taken YOU for granted, which will be moments where you were self dishonest, where you lied and where you did unto others what you would not even considering doing unto yourself.


i forgive myself for the fear of the school system



I forgive myself that I have allowed and accepted fear within me. I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to project fear within me towards the school system.



Here I suggest to look specifically at why you actually fear going to school, as well as ‘fearing facing the people’ at your school and apply self forgiveness so that the ‘fear of going to school’ no more controls or influence you.


i forgive myself for fear of what others think of me



I forgive myself that I have allowed and accepted myself to fear what others think of me because I know what goes on my mind as thoughts towards others and thus I will fear what others think of me because I know what thoughts exists in my mind of others and I would not enjoy them thinking the same about me as I do towards them. I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to use the fear of ‘what others think of me’ as a justification for why I act and behave in such a way as to impress, to be accepted, to be noticed, to be better and superior towards others when in truth, I act and behave in this way to ‘feed the ego of the mind’. I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to participate in the thought of ‘fearing what others think of me’ to hide and justify the reason why I exist as the nature of me as the ego of the mind. I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to act and behave in such a way in self dishonesty and self compromise through wanting to impress, wanting to be noticed, wanting to be accepted, wanting to be more than and wanting to be more superior than others.



Every time such a fear come up, realise it’s the activation point where you’re preparing you to enter and become the ego of the mind. So, the moment you have such a thought, you stop it immediately as to not go further into the becoming and participation of you as the ego of the mind which will manifest the experience of you as self compromise and self dishonesty