As transcribed and typed by Veno through the interdimensional portal
Date : 21/12/2007
I forgive myself for thinking that since i am light skinned i can do more, have more and be more
I
forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define
‘freedom’ as ‘what I can do’ because of the colour of my skin. I forgive
myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define me and others
as me according to the colour of skin. I forgive myself that I have
accepted and allowed myself to define me and other as me through what I
see with my human physical eyes. I forgive myself that I have allowed
myself to judge others based on the colour of their skin and judge me
according to the colour of my skin because of what I was said or taught
while I was growing up with regards to ‘skin colour’. I forgive myself
that I have accepted and allowed separation within me through accepting
and allowing me to judge others based on their skin colour and compare
me to them based on my skin colour. I forgive myself that I haven’t
allowed myself to realise that if I accept and allow me to continue
existing within such judgments as beliefs or ideas or perceptions of the
mind, I am supporting this entire world system as the mind system
within me of separation.
Here you also have to be ‘more
specific’ in answering this question for yourself, Why do you ‘think or
believe’ you are ‘more than or better than others because of your ‘skin
colour’. Every reason as thought that come up in your mind, Apply self
forgiveness, because whatever your judgment on other human being is
based on skin colour, you have either heard from someone else or was
taught this and ‘programmed the belief or idea’ into your mind and
accepted it as you, instead of in such a moment not accepting or
allowing you to judge or compare you to others based on skin colour.
i forgive myself i have to be always right or better than someone else
I
forgive myself that I have allowed and accepted myself to participate
in the ego of the mind which exists within such reactions of, ‘always
wanting to be right’ and ‘better than someone or something else’. I
forgive myself that I haven’t allowed myself to realise that ‘always
wanting to be right’ and ‘better than someone or something else’ are
attributes of the ego of the mind. I forgive myself that I have accepted
and allowed myself to define who I am according to the ego of the mind.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to ‘feel
better’ when I participate in the ego of the mind. I forgive myself that
I have allowed myself to participate in the ego of the mind to be
‘accepted and or appreciated’ by others and to be noticed by others to
fit it. I forgive myself that I haven’t allowed myself to realise that I
am accepting and allowing me to participate in the ego of the mind
because I have not yet accepted me as who I am. I forgive myself that I
have accepted and allowed self dishonesty within me because of accepting
and allowing me to participate in the ego of the mind. I forgive myself
that I have accepted and allowed myself to be and become the nature of
ego as the self defined nature of ‘who I am’. I forgive myself that I
haven’t allowed myself to realise to what extent I compromise me by
accepting and allowing me to participate in my self defined nature as
the ego of the mind to impress others, because I am not living and
applying self honesty as me. I forgive myself that I have accepted and
allowed myself to fear being self honest with me and in this fear, I
compromise me and then exist as the ego of the mind to hide my fear and
then attract others into my world within which I will manifest the
experience of self compromise such as sleeping with a prostitute to show
myself how I am accepting and allowing me to compromise myself and the
consequences that go with self compromise. I forgive myself that I
haven’t allowed myself to realise that self compromise exists because I
have accepted and allowed myself to be self dishonest with me, that self
compromise originate from self dishonesty. I forgive myself that I have
allowed myself to fear the consequences for which I am responsible for
because of my accepted and allowed self dishonesty within me.
i forgive myself that i think others are lost and i am aware and at the top
Realise
that this is also a thought which originate from the nature you have
accepted and allowed within you as ‘superiority’, it’s how the mind
works. You know you are lost, when you see beings within your world you
see yourself as lost as you are and because you fear your ‘lostness’ and
what you have become there inside you, you will try and hide it or
justify what you accept and allow inside you, which you do unto others
through having such thoughts, which is absolutely dishonest.
You
know you’re not aware at all, you know you are lost, you know what you
do to yourself and to others inside you. Yet you still do it and don’t
take self responsibility and don’t live self honestly in every moment.
And because you don’t, you will deliberately try and convince yourself
through such thoughts that you are better than others, while you know
what goes on there inside you is most definitely not awareness, but self
dishonesty and self deceit. The only way you’re going to assist and
support you, is through applying yourself effectively within self
forgiveness and self application in every moment.
So, I forgive
myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to try and hide my self
dishonesty and what goes on inside me through trying and or attempting
to convince myself in my mind as thoughts that I am not lost and I am
aware, more so than others. I forgive myself that I have accepted and
allowed myself to fear my own self dishonesty and self deceit and
because of this fear, I try and hide what I have become within me from
others in ‘hope’ that they will not see what I have accepted and allowed
myself to be and become. I forgive myself that I have accepted and
allowed myself to try and run from myself as what I have accepted and
allowed myself to be and become and do unto myself and others as myself.
I forgive myself that I didn’t allow myself to be self honest with me
in moments where I knew I’d compromise me and others as me, but did it
anyway because I accepted and allowed me to fall into the ego of the
mind. I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to fear being lost.
So
here also I suggest observing you intently and specifically in every
moment as you participating in this world. And stop immediately such
thoughts of superiority that come up in your mind because when or if
such thoughts arise, know that you are being self dishonest within you,
then you stop, breathe and apply self forgiveness accordingly.
i forgive myself for allowing destructive thoughts, emotions and feelings to come in me
I
forgive myself that I have allowed myself to participate in destructive
thoughts, feelings and emotions within me. I forgive myself that I have
allowed myself to be destructive towards me and others as me.
Also
here. You have to specifically look at the thoughts, feelings and
emotions that you ‘define as destructive’ and apply self forgiveness
specifically. Because here in this self forgiveness statement – you’re
only covering the foundation, from here you have to ‘go into it’ more
specifically. Understand that this is a self dedicated and self
disciplined process. It’s not about just quickly applying self
forgiveness and then it’s gone. It’s to apply self forgiveness
specifically and apply you accordingly as you participate in this world,
so, it’s a process. Do this unconditionally in totality for you as you.
Not just because you ‘fear possibly having AIDS’, what is relevant
about this process is YOU sorting out your nature as what you have
accepted and allowed you to be and become.
i forgive myself for thinking that something outside of me will help me
I
forgive myself that I have allowed myself to want to or desire to have
someone or something get me out of this experience of me, instead of me
taking self responsibility for me. I forgive myself that I have allowed
myself to want to or desire to have someone or something sort out this
situation of the experience of me, for me. I forgive myself that I have
allowed myself to participate in the thoughts of the mind such as, I
don’t want to do this, and someone else must do this for me. Instead of
me assisting and supporting myself, and thus by doing so, others as me
assist and support me. I forgive myself that I haven’t allowed myself to
realise that no one can do this process for me, I have to do it for
myself as myself. I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to doubt
myself and participate in the mind of thoughts which say, I can’t do
this.
i forgive myself for allowing negative energies to come within my life
Here
also with regards to ‘negative’ and ‘energies’, both are designs of the
mind, from within the mind, who you are is not of energy. Understand
that thoughts are thoughts, emotions are emotions, feelings are
feelings, memories are memories, beliefs are beliefs, and pictures
within the mind are pictures within the mind. As they are all, of the
mind, not ‘positive’ and ‘negative’ this is another ‘polarity design
definition’ of the mind as I have mentioned before. Here you also have
to be ‘more specific’ with regards to what exactly do you ‘define as’
negative energies and apply self forgiveness accordingly. So,
I
forgive myself that I have allowed myself to define that which I
perceive and believe as being ‘bad’ within me as ‘negative energies’. I
forgive myself that I have allowed myself to resist and fear and deny
that which I perceive and define as being negative energies of the mind.
I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to participate in the
polarity of the mind as positive and negative. I forgive myself that I
have allowed myself to define me according to the polarity of the mind
as positive or negative.
i forgive myself for wanting and playing with an ouija board with my brother
Here
I would not yet suggest to participate in ‘playing with the Ouija Board
when your mind is still so active within which you still participate,
because it leaves room open for extensive mind influence and then you
can really fuck with yourself.
i forgive myself for saying that someone else had aids
I
forgive myself that I have allowed myself to fear mentioning that I
have or might have AIDS or HIV because of fear of what others might
possibly think of me. I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to
fear mentioning that I fear possibly having AIDS or HIV because I had
sex with a prostitute through fear of being judged and ridiculed by
others. I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to judge me because
of the fear that exists within me that I might possibly have AIDS or
HIV. I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to fear others’
responses towards me if I could or might possibly have AIDS or HIV.
As
I have mentioned, you specifically have to go into this fear,
everything that comes up in your mind related to the fear of possibly
having AIDS or HIV to release yourself from this fear completely and
totally. Because you cannot assist and support you effectively if you
exist in fear. So, release the fear through applying specific self
forgiveness.
i forgive myself for lying about people and myself
I
forgive myself that I have allowed myself to lie to me and thus because
I lie to myself, I have accepted and allowed my nature as me to be of
lies and thus I lie to others as me. I forgive myself that I have
accepted and allowed myself to be self dishonest with me, within me and
my world which manifest the application and action of lies towards me
and others as me.
Here in application you have to
specifically observe you as you participate in this world and no more
accept and allow you to lie. Because this would be self dishonesty in
application towards you and to others which will inevitably manifest
consequences. The consequences is for you to realise that you have to
stop lying and being self dishonest within you. You will either realise
that you have to stop this now, through applying self forgiveness and
practical application, or you have to go through certain specific
experiences for you to finally realise you have to stop. I would suggest
not going the ‘experience of consequences route’, but the self
application and self responsibility route. So, STOP LYING TO YOU, being
dishonest with you and live and apply self honesty,
absolute brutal self honesty in every moment.
i forgive myself for being offended easily when someone says something to me
I
forgive myself that I have allowed myself to react to others within my
world. I forgive myself that I haven’t allowed myself to realise that I
will only react towards others as me if I do the exact same application
as they do towards others. I forgive myself that I have allowed myself
to take others comments towards me personally. I forgive myself that I
have allowed myself to ‘feel inferior’ because I experience me as being a
sensitive being.
Here you also look at to what comments
other make you ‘react’ within you by taking it personally, because it’s
showing you that you do the exact same thing to others, but haven’t
realised it yet. Then you so apply self forgiveness accordingly and when
such a moment arrive, you stop within you before the reaction
compounds. If you react and it continues, self forgiveness required for
allowing and accepting you to take the comment personally then
specifically look at where you do the same to others and apply self
forgiveness for this also.
i forgive myself for fear that there are demons trying to destroy or attack my family
There
are no more ‘demons’ within this existence as what is previously
believed. What human beings experience within them, including the
experience of themselves in their world with other human beings, is
manifested and designed by themselves through allowed and accepted
participation in the mind. So,
I forgive myself that I
haven’t allowed myself to realise that I am responsible for my own
experiences within me and my world as all human beings are responsible
for themselves as what they design and manifest as the experience of
themselves within themselves and their experience of themselves within
this world. I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to want to blame
the experience of me within me and my world on something or someone
else separate from so as to use this as an excuse that I don’t have to
take self responsibility for me. I forgive myself that I have allowed
myself to attack myself and destroy myself through accepting and
allowing me to participate in the mind and living in self dishonesty.
i forgive myself for lustful thoughts
I
forgive myself that I have allowed myself to participate in the ‘desire
of lust’ of the mind. I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to
try and fulfill a desire within me through participating in lustful
thoughts of the mind. I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to
participate in pictures within my mind connected to the word lust. Lust
being a mind manifested emotional and feeling charged desire within me I
am attempting and trying to fulfill within me. I forgive myself that I
haven’t allowed myself to realise that desire exists of the mind. I
forgive myself that I haven’t allowed myself to realise that lust exist
of the mind. I forgive myself that I haven’t allowed myself to express
me as who I am in every moment of breath within and as oneness and
equality as who I am.
Here you have to go into the
‘lustful thoughts’ specifically and apply self forgiveness on each one.
Let’s say for instance you imagine you with this red haired green eyed
‘babe’ with the perfect mind designed body and great breasts then you
say,
I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to participate
in the illusionary pictures within my mind as the presentation of the
woman with red hair, green eyes, great breasts and perfect body. I
forgive myself that I have allowed myself to connect desire and lust to
this illusionary picture in my mind. I forgive myself that I have
allowed myself to define sex and sexual experience according to this
illusionary picture in my mind. I forgive myself that I have allowed
myself to become aroused when I participate in this illusionary picture
of the mind. I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to define me
according to this illusionary picture within my mind which then becomes
an experience I apparently have which is actually generated and charged
by emotions and feelings of the mind. I forgive myself that I have
allowed myself to participate in illusionary pictures of the mind,
instead of realising that if I continue to accept and allow this, I am
supporting rapists and abusers and molesters within this world because
of me participating in the mind, which charge this entire world system
as all human beings within it. I forgive myself that I have allowed
myself to be addicted to participating in such illusionary pictures of
the mind. I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to obsessed with
woman and sex and girlfriends. I forgive myself that I have allowed
myself to be obsessed and possessed and hypnotized and mesmerized by
such illusionary pictures of the mind.
And so you go into the self forgiveness specifically
i forgive myself for stealing, cheating and being dishonest
Here
the same. You have to go into specifically in answering the question
for yourself, Why did you steal, why did you cheat and in doing so why
did you accept and allow you to be self dishonest when doing so, though
look at this with brutal self honesty within you. What thoughts went
into your mind, what did you experience inside you that led you to
participate in such actions, and then apply self forgiveness
accordingly. The simple question you must ask yourself is, If you were
that being unto which you have done such acts as stealing, cheating and
vandalism, would you do this to yourself? Really place you in their
shoes would you do this to you, honestly. No, you would not, because you
know what you’d experience.
You know what is not worth
it, is trying to be this ‘tough son of a bitch’ for other human beings,
the absolute male ego bullshit. Because whoever you’re doing this with
or for will not be with you later in life, then only later in life when
experiencing the final consequences, which you manifested, then only you
realise the absolute stupidity of being something you’re not for
others. So really, ‘clean you up’ through living self honesty and just
not accepting and allowing you to participate in any self dishonesty
within you and your world. And you know with who and where you
deliberately apply self dishonesty. I would even suggest not to
participate with such beings any more, because realise that you’re only
‘friends’ with them, because they support you in your current accepted
and allowed self dishonest existence and you’re doing the same with
them. So take self responsibility for you, live self honesty and just
stop participating in dishonesty within you and your world. Just
applying self forgiveness is useless. You have to direct your world also
to assist and support you, otherwise everything else is useless.
i forgive myself for not listening to my heart
‘Listening
to your heart is an illusion’ and will ‘get you nowhere’. The ‘truth’
of the situation is that you know what is ‘best for you’, but you denied
such moments by allowing and accepting you to participate in the mind,
instead of really applying self honesty and honouring you. It’s simple.
It’s not about ‘listening to your heart’. This is ignorant thinking and
belief of the mind, it is to actually be self honest with you and
applying you accordingly.
i forgive myself for not giving hugs because i was shy
I
forgive myself that I have allowed myself to fear giving hugs because I
know that when I hug another, I am self dishonest in giving the hug. I
forgive myself that I have allowed myself to only accept hugs from
certain specific human beings, but will not hug others whom I judge in
my mind.
Here when you give hugs, realise that the being you’re hugging is you, so you’re actually giving you a hug.
i forgive myself for doubt of not being able to be healed
It’s
not about ‘healing’. You cannot ‘heal you’ or ‘heal someone or
something else’. It is to realise that you manifested possible having
AIDS or HIV because of the consequences of you being self dishonest with
you and thus compromising you. So, AIDS or HIV is here, or even just
the fear thereof, as you to assist and support you to realise that you
must sort you out and stop accepting and allowing a self dishonest and
self compromising existence. It’s not about the illness and disease,
it’s about YOU as who you are and you will only assist and support you
effectively through absolute self disciplined application and self
forgiveness in every moment of breath.
i forgive myself for doubting desteni-universe forums and videos at times
I
forgive myself that I have allowed myself to project my self doubt and
self uncertainty towards Desteni Universe and the video interviews I
watch and hear. I forgive myself that I haven’t allowed myself to trust
me in every moment of breath. I forgive myself that I have allowed
myself to fear change. I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to
fear letting go of my mind because I have accepted and allowed me to
define ‘who I am’ according to my mind. I forgive myself that I have
allowed myself to fear giving up that which I hold onto separate or
outside of me and within my mind because I have defined me as ‘who I am’
according to the mind. Instead of realising that who I am is not the
mind.
Realise that it’s not about ‘trusting us’ or
‘believing us’. This process is about YOU for YOU as YOU. So you may
trust you, establish self trust within you through applying and living
the tools provided. Because in ‘wanting to trust someone or something
‘separate outside of you, is separation. Apply and live this process and
establish self trust within you as you, which is done through living
and applying self honesty in every moment and no more accepting and
allowing a self dishonest and self compromising existence within you and
your world.
i forgive myself for being a materialistic person
I
forgive myself that I have allowed myself to define me according to
materialistic possessions of what I have and or own and or possesses.
As
I have mentioned before, here you have to look at what materialistic
possessions you own and apply self forgiveness specifically for each one
for allowing and accepting you to define you according to that which
exist as a materialistic possession.
i forgive myself for not caring about others needs
This
is also a ‘mind sentence’ of the mind. Because ‘caring and needs’ are
‘self definition designs’ of the mind because ‘caring for others needs’
is actually done from an origin of guilt and fear within human beings
which is defined as apparent ‘love’. And this is not love nor is it
caring. This is human beings that try and ‘cover up’ their own
dishonesties within themselves through ‘caring for others’ which
apparently make them a ‘good person’ or ‘better person’, because they
fear others finding out the truth of themselves within themselves. It is
to assist and support you so in not accepting and allowing anything
less than who you are and thus assist and support others as you in not
accepting and allowing anything less than who they are, though this
process of self application and self direction will come, you must first
‘sort you out’. So,
I forgive myself that I have
allowed myself to ‘buy into the belief’ that ‘caring for others needs’
makes me a ‘good person’. I forgive myself that I haven’t allowed myself
to realise that in ‘caring for others needs’ I am being self dishonest.
I forgive myself that I haven’t allowed myself to realise that I hide
my self dishonest truth within me by projecting an false presentation of
me as ‘caring for others’ needs’. I forgive myself that I have allowed
myself to project the false presentation of me as ‘caring for others’
needs’ because of fear that others might actually see and notice my self
dishonest truth within me. I forgive myself that I have allowed myself
to define ‘caring for others needs’ as being a ‘good cause’ which makes
me a ‘better person’. I forgive myself that I haven’t allowed myself to
realise that ‘caring for other’s’ needs’ is actually supporting their
mind system as it supports my mind system as what I have defined as ‘who
I am’.
The ‘caring’ application is the most dishonest action that exists within this world within human beings.
i forgive myself for not looking into oneness and equality
I
forgive myself that I have allowed myself to fear applying oneness and
equality because I fear letting go of my mind because I know that if I
apply me effectively I will change and change is what I fear. I forgive
myself that I have allowed myself to participate in the thought of the
mind, I don’t want to change and I still want what I have and who I
have. I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to deny, resist and
fight who I really am through participating in the mind. I forgive
myself that I have allowed myself to fear applying this process through
fear of ‘losing my friends’ and ‘what I have, own and or possess’. I
forgive myself that I have allowed myself to place value and worth into
that which exist separate from me, outside of me as friends,
possessions, family and in doing so, I compromise me because I do not
accept me as who I really am and thus change me to ‘fit into, be
accepted and be noticed’ by others within this world. I forgive myself
that I have allowed myself to change me to conform and condition myself
to who and what exists within this world to fit in, be accepted and be
noticed instead of me living me as who I am in self honesty in every
moment of breath.
Here also, go into this ‘more
specifically for yourself’. With regards to ‘what you fear losing’,
because understand how this process work, if you ‘want to hold onto’
that which you fear losing, you will lose that which you fear losing,
why? Because this is you showing you that you were but ‘holding onto the
fear of loss’ as an excuse and or justification to not apply you
effectively in assisting and supporting you as who you are, so then
you’ll have to ‘lose’ what you fear losing so you can finally realise
that you have to assist and support yourself. Because then there’ll be
no excuse not to and so you’ll force you to apply you in realising who
you really are. So, I suggest to unconditionally apply self forgiveness
for that which you fear losing. So you can stop participating in the
fear and assets and support you to live and express you in self honesty
in every moment so that you don’t have to go through the experience of
the perception of ‘loss’ within your world.
Then you’ll also
realise that ‘fear of loss’ only exist within the mind of the mind
because you have defined you according to that which exist separate from
you. That if you were to ‘lose it’ or no more exists within your world,
a ‘part of you will be gone’ which is bullshit. And so you establish
oneness and equality within you and no more define you according to
someone or something that exists separate from, but you as who you are
is here in totality in every breath.
i forgive myself forfeeling disconnected/ out of the source
I
forgive myself that I haven’t allowed myself to realise that I will
only experience ‘disconnection’ and or ‘separation’ when I accept and
allow me to participate in the mind. I forgive myself that I haven’t
allowed myself to realise that I am here, in every moment of awareness
as me in breath.
So, whenever you have such an
experience of ‘disconnection’, realise you’re in the mind. You stop,
focus on breath and apply self forgiveness for accepting and allowing
you to participate in the mind instead of remaining here in breath as
you.
i forgive myself for taking my health, family and friends for granted
I
forgive myself that I have allowed myself to take myself for granted. I
forgive myself that I haven’t allowed myself to realise that in taking
myself for granted, I will take everything and everyone else as me for
granted also. I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to take my
self responsibility towards me for granted. I forgive myself that I have
allowed myself to take self honesty in expression as me in every moment
of breath for granted. I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to
take nature as me for granted in providing me with the ability to breath
unconditionally as I exist and experience myself within this world. I
forgive myself that I have allowed myself to take myself for granted by
not accepting me as who I am, but changing me to fit into, be accepted
and be noticed by others, which manifest self dishonesty and self
compromise within me.
Here you have to look at where and
with who and why you have taken YOU for granted, which will be moments
where you were self dishonest, where you lied and where you did unto
others what you would not even considering doing unto yourself.
i forgive myself for the fear of the school system
I
forgive myself that I have allowed and accepted fear within me. I
forgive myself that I have allowed myself to project fear within me
towards the school system.
Here I suggest to look
specifically at why you actually fear going to school, as well as
‘fearing facing the people’ at your school and apply self forgiveness so
that the ‘fear of going to school’ no more controls or influence you.
i forgive myself for fear of what others think of me
I
forgive myself that I have allowed and accepted myself to fear what
others think of me because I know what goes on my mind as thoughts
towards others and thus I will fear what others think of me because I
know what thoughts exists in my mind of others and I would not enjoy
them thinking the same about me as I do towards them. I forgive myself
that I have allowed myself to use the fear of ‘what others think of me’
as a justification for why I act and behave in such a way as to impress,
to be accepted, to be noticed, to be better and superior towards others
when in truth, I act and behave in this way to ‘feed the ego of the
mind’. I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to participate in the
thought of ‘fearing what others think of me’ to hide and justify the
reason why I exist as the nature of me as the ego of the mind. I forgive
myself that I have allowed myself to act and behave in such a way in
self dishonesty and self compromise through wanting to impress, wanting
to be noticed, wanting to be accepted, wanting to be more than and
wanting to be more superior than others.
Every time such
a fear come up, realise it’s the activation point where you’re
preparing you to enter and become the ego of the mind. So, the moment
you have such a thought, you stop it immediately as to not go further
into the becoming and participation of you as the ego of the mind which
will manifest the experience of you as self compromise and self
dishonesty