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Oneness and Equality

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Self-Responsibility as Life

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Oneness and Equality

Practical Equality and Oneness

Let us consider this amazing idea-also an ideal.

See-it is the only map in existence that also exists beyond existence. This is also the only map that assist all life equally and where all life is in oneness with always.

It is also the only way that any one can assist themselves with and is also the only place where power exist equal and one for all as one place your power in that which you accept as your reality-because-it is your reality and you are that which you accept.

The problem is honesty. Honesty based on an imagined experience will always bring that which was not expected-again based on the starting point from which you are creating. Thus the starting point of what you have placed yourself equal and one with.

All beings have examples of this. You accept something in your life and depart from the point that you have to make peace with as this is the way your life is - in that acceptance you become equal and one to what you have accepted - thus, your experience now flows from this starting point, and you as your own reality creator now create the experience.

Inherent though to equality and oneness is the amazing principle of equality and oneness. This means that in equality and oneness exist the “will” of equality and oneness that will bring forth all expressions of equality and oneness to the ultimate experience for all participants in equality and oneness.

This has been going on for a long time - cycles that express itself as creation, created and creators according to equal to and one with. This “will” of equality and oneness is the absolute meaning of the principle in its absolute manifestation. Thus, this is the “divine” will of equality and oneness within the principle of “In the beginning was the Word and the Word was God”.

Fascinating, thus is that all is “free” to the degree they place themselves equal to and one with what they accept as their reality and within that manifest the reality, pay for the consequences, go to breakdown, then breakthrough, then set a new accepted premise and parameter for self - an equal and one and do this again cycle.

On a gridline of experience this looks fascinating. Draw a grid and see for yourself. A grid of 20 squares. Each square representing a being and their life and each living in their square - like in a home - is equal and one to their square and try their best to make their square fit them and work for them and then from their square communicate with other beings in squares to get approval for their square or to state: “look this is my creation, this is what I am equal and one to”.

See, people do this all the time with the words they speak and the thoughts they have. All of the words a person speaks and the thoughts they have is what they are equal and one with as themselves.

Obviously, in a grid of squares where many beings participate. There is another grid - the one where all agree to place themselves in an agreement of accepted equality and oneness - like a world policy statement.

That is where war, money, debt, crime, child abuse, religion, education etc. are born from-the combined creative power of all as an accepted equality and oneness.

Here an interesting event takes place; if a person does not realize that they are actually creating and participating in the creation of the world, they are no longer equal and one to the combined creation process but become a lesser experience. This abdication of creative ability then is in the hands of another that will do with it according to his or her equality and oneness and here politics-voting-voicing self come in-the demons are crazy-demockery-democrazy-democracy - something like this - the point where beings have abdicated their equality and oneness in a greater management of the combined grid of expression called the world experience.

Strange. They will fight with it individually but not come together and reclaim their power in a peaceful way in everyday expression, to simply work together and in every moment direct and participate in creating a combined reality where all are equal and one.

So, imagine; if a few beings realize how things really work and then collect all the power of the masses through agreement called voting, then they may do as they like.

Fascinating - this is allowed.

So, realize; you are no more than what you accept yourself to be and will thus experience that in endless cycles.

Also realize; the ultimate equality and oneness will intervene in every moment as in every moment exist in each beings life, all expressions of equality and oneness-all dimensions of it and your “choice” manifest one of these as a placement of yourself in equality and oneness.

So, equality and oneness have always existed as the core of the presence of every moment and the presence of each being is what they accept and prove to themselves to be equal and one as.

Therefore - there exist 'divine' will and 'your' will. 'Divine' will - life as oneness and equality in every moment as all as one as equal. 'Your will' - that which you accept yourself one with and equal to, which is not of life but of separation, and thus in this acceptance, manifest, create and birth your reality as you accordingly together with the responsibility of consequences that flow from this starting point of 'your' will in every moment.

Life exists - it's always been here as who we are but have been taken for granted.

How? In moment's of 'choice' - yes - here in every moment within and as every being's experience of themselves choice exist: The choice between expressing, living and applying who you are of 'divine' will in every moment for all as one as equal as life or to express, live and apply 'your' will in every moment that is of separation, that is taking only into consideration you and not all as one as equal as who you are as life.

An example to understand would be the following: Let's take again the 20 square gridline structure, with this 20 square gridline structure being the world and each human being existing within and as their own little square which is defined as 'their own world': 'Owning' this little square as 'their life'; with their world and their life reflecting themselves within.

From the perspective of 'your' will - your application and expression in every moment will only exist of your world within one square - only taking into consideration you as that which you have defined yourself to be according to the definition of what you have accepted and allowed yourself to be one with and equal to - all of this reflected within your 'own world' as the 'one square' - and experiencing yourself as that which you have accepted and allowed yourself to be one with and equal to - manifesting within your world in endless such cycles.

Continuously existing only within this one square, continuously experiencing endless cycles of manifesting and creating 'your world' as this 'one square' as that which you have accepted and allowed yourself to be one with and equal to.

Let's take a family situation for instance - you existing within this 'one square' as 'your home' of this world together with your partner and child. What exist within 'your world' within this 'one square' as 'your home' is you, your partner and your child. Therefore - your application in every moment as you will only be taking into consideration you, your partner and your child and all else as that which you have accepted and allowed yourself to be one with and equal to.

So how do such endless cycles continuously manifest by 'your' will which you experience within 'your world' as the manifested reflection of you as that which you have accepted and allowed yourself to be one with and equal to?

You within this 'one square' as 'your home' expressing and applying only 'your will' have accepted and allowed yourself to be one with and equal to 'your family' only that exist within 'your world' as this 'one square' as 'your home' - defined according to your partner and child only. Thus - you will for the remainder of your life - only experience that which you have accepted and allowed yourself to be one with and equal to - which is your partner, your child, your home - 'your family' - and this is all that 'your world' within and as this 'one square' as 'your life' will consist of - by 'your' will. Taking into consideration only 'your world' as 'your life' as 'your family' within and as this 'one square' - and thus all that you will experience, by 'your' will as this is all that you have accepted and allowed yourself to be one with and equal to.

How does 'divine' will as who we are as life within an as oneness and equality of all support you here?

When you of 'divine' will, understand and see what you have accepted and allowed yourself to be one with and equal to that is not of 'divine' will as who you are as oneness and equality with all - you as 'divine' will, will 'step in' accordingly. 'Break down' and 'remove' all that which you have accepted and allowed yourself to be one with and equal to by 'your' will of separation and consideration of only 'your world' as 'your life' as this 'one square' - and 'break down' the limitations within seclusion of this 'one square' as 'your life' as 'your world' manifested accordingly by 'your will' as that which you have accepted and allowed yourself to be one with and equal to.

When all that which you have accepted and allowed yourself to be one with and equal to - within and as this 'one square' as 'your world' as 'your life' 'breaks down' and is 'removed' - you will experience a 'break down' by 'divine' will - because you have defined you according to that which you have manifested as 'your world' as 'your life' as this 'one square' as the experience of yourself by 'your will' - and not of 'divine' will as who you are.

Then comes 'break through' - breaking through the boundaries and limitation of this 'one square' as 'your perceived world' as 'your perceived life' - designed and manifested according to 'your' will only, that is of separation and limitation, as that which you have accepted and allowed yourself to be one with and equal to.

Realising: O' my God - there is 'more' - seeing and realising 'divine' will as who you are as life of oneness and equality - realising that I am this entire 20 square gridline structure, with all human beings experiencing themselves within and as their own singular square as 'their life' as 'their world' - designed and manifested according to 'their will' as that which they have accepted and allowed themselves to be one with and equal to - of separation and limitation - because they only exist within 'their world' as a singular square by 'their will' and constantly and continuously only experiencing that which they have accepted and allowed themselves to be one with and equal to - which only exist as 'their life' as 'their world' within and as this one singular square.

Here is 'divine' will: Then as 'divine' will you stand, live and express who you are as life as oneness as equality as all as this 20 square gridline structure as all beings still lost, limited and bound to their one singular square as 'their life' as 'their world' experiencing 'their' will as that which they have accepted and allowed themselves to be one with and equal to, manifesting and creating just this, which is 'their' will - constantly and continuously lost in endless cycles - manifesting and creating the experience of their self definition as who they are according to that which they have accepted and allowed themselves to be one with and equal to by 'their will' of separation and limitation.

Then your application and expression in every moment is of 'divine' will - 'divine' will as who you are of life within and as oneness and equality - and so you stand and so you remain and so you live - directing you as all beings still lost, limited and bound by 'their will' which manifests as the experience of themselves as 'their world' as 'their life' as only 'one square' within which they experience 'their' will according to that which they have accepted and allowed themselves to be one with and equal to in every moment's application - constantly and continuously experiencing only that, only this, which is 'their' will as that which they have accepted and allowed themselves to be one with and equal to - manifesting as this 'one square' as 'their life' as 'their' world.

And all beings lost, bound and limited within their 'one square' as 'their life' as 'their world' - which is the manifested creation by 'their' will within which they experience only that which they have accepted and allowed themselves to be one with and equal to constantly and continuously - holds the world as the entire 20 square gridline structure in place - within which they experience themselves within their one square as 'their life' as 'their world' - by 'their' will - within seclusion, limitation and separation of the rest of the world as the entire 20 square gridline structure and all other human beings within their singular squares as 'their life' as 'their world' - existing within and as 'their' will - only experiencing and manifesting constantly and continuously that which they have accepted and allowed themselves to be one with and equal to that is only of 'their life' of 'their world' within and as this 'one square'.

Therefore - it is for all human beings that exist in every moment by 'their' will - constantly and continuously manifesting 'their world' as 'their life' of the seclusion and limitation as 'one square' - experiencing and becoming and creating only that which they have accepted and allowed themselves to be one with and equal to by 'their' will only - to break down the boundaries and limitations and separations of all that they have accepted and allowed themselves to be one with and equal to as 'their perceived world' as 'their perceived life' by 'their will' which they manifested and created within and as separation and limitation - and in this moment application by 'their will' still allowing and accepting the manifestation and experiences of all human beings in this world. Not standing up as 'divine' will of life of oneness and equality with all - directing all as one as equal to realise themselves as who they are of 'divine' will. To no longer exist within the limitations and seclusions and boundaries of 'their' will only - manifesting and creating and thus experiencing only that which they have accepted and allowed themselves to be one with and equal to within separation and seclusion and limitation as 'their perceived life' as 'their perceived world'.

Therefore - 'divine' will is the application of every moment of I am - of oneness and equality with all - and 'your' will is the application of every moment of 'your life' of 'your world' only - within and as separation, limitation and seclusion - only taking into consideration you - instead all as one as equal as who you are of 'divine' will.

Therefore - 'choice' exist in every moment's application of you - either of 'divine' will as you or 'your' will as you - where in both situations you will experience the manifested creation of that which you will, in every moment according to that which you accept and allow yourself to be one with and equal to.

Here exists the responsibility for each and every single human being - only here in every moment of 'choice' - by 'divine' will of who you are as life of oneness and equality for all as one as equal or by 'your' will of who you are as separation, limitation and seclusion - only taking you into consideration as 'your life' as 'your world'.

Does choice really exist then here in every moment's application - if who you are is 'divine' will of life - though life had been taken for granted through the belief of the existence of 'your' will through the illusion of 'choice' - the 'choice' being in every moment whether you apply 'your' will or 'divine' will - yet if you apply 'your' will and manifest 'your world', manifest 'your life' according to 'your' will - which you experience according to that which you have defined yourself by as that which you have accepted and allowed yourself to be one with and equal to - 'divine' will as who you are of life as oneness and equality with all - will 'step in' and direct you accordingly and effectively to realise, while you're still defined accordingly to the belief of the existence of 'your' will as who you are - who you are as 'divine' will as life of oneness and equality with all.

For Man to realise themselves as 'God' - 'God' had to become Man, 'God' had to become one with Man as Man - but only at one 'point': This one singular 'point' as the moment and the words (In the beginning (the moment) was the word (the living word as who we are) and the word was God (the moment's application of 'divine' will as who we are as life as equality as oneness with all) and the word was with God (the manifestation/creation of ourselves as that which we have accepted ourselves to be one with and equal to as the experience of ourselves) - the moment's application of oneness and equality of each and every single human beings' experience as life as who they are - the moment of application as 'divine' will of life of oneness and equality as who we are as 'God' as all as one as equal.

Here exist oneness and equality within and as humanity - each human beings' application in every moment of 'divine' will - in every moment's application of oneness and equality with all as one as equal as life: 'Divine' will. Here exists who we are as life of life as oneness and equality with all as 'divine' will - so then - does 'God' really exist?

No - who we are is 'God' already within and as every moment's application of 'divine' will of life of oneness and equality as who we are as one with all - we've taken ourselves for granted - through separation by existing within 'our' will 'supported' by the illusion of 'choice'.

Equality and Oneness as Life Here Eternal

If a being understand this -- he/she will immediately walk with desteni in understanding that only one point can exist to solve this problem--this is why the dimensions walk one point and speak as one voice --and why all was inverted to allow no access to limit temptation to the physical and the mind

those that want to do it "their" way -- obviously are in self interest and eventually will face desteni again

within this desteni is standing as all beings in existence universal standing here as life absolute eternal

when all stands -- desteni will be no more as it serves as a single point as reference while all is assisted in realizing what is real

The Individualization of Oneness and Equality

The following has been discovered that is the very ‘essence,’ the very ‘existence’ of what Separation really is, as that which is the very origin, as that which ‘brought separation in itself’ into being - both within ourselves as what we exist and creation, this existence within which we exist that is ourselves:

The Individualization of Oneness and Equality in Separation of each other.

This was done as follows:

‘Oneness’ was separated from ‘Equality’ – and within this separation, manifested oneness as an individual concept and equality as an individual concept, ‘imprinted’ into and as the mind consciousness system – to be lived out and experienced within and through the human physical body by human beings – that through the ‘living experience’ of themselves, either within only ‘oneness as the imprinted individual concept’ or only ‘equality as the imprinted individual concept’ - created a creation as this physical-manifest reality, as the ultimate Separation.

So, ‘Oneness’ and ‘Equality’ was ‘separated and individualized’ into and as ‘manifested individualized defined concepts’, that would be imprinted into and as the mind consciousness system of human beings, wherein the majority of human beings would be imprinted with the manifested individualized concept of ‘Equality’ and only a select few would be imprinted with the ‘Oneness’ manifested individualized concept – to be lived and experienced by/through humanity – within the surety of ultimate separation and certainty of infinite enslavement, wherein no-one would put 1 and 1 together as oneness and equality to be a one and equal ‘united expression,’ so to speak, that would manifest the ultimate expression of ‘freedom’ if it were to be lived here in and as the physical, as it would manifest that which we all really are and in each one realising and living the ‘unity’ of oneness and equality as one and equal – no separation can exist, and thus the ‘kingdom of enslavement’ comes to its end.

The ‘Manifested Individualized Defined-Concept’ of Oneness:

Oneness, was defined as the ‘direct relationship of a human being with ‘Heaven.’’ – Separation-Oneness would be imprinted into and as the mind consciousness system of human beings that would become ‘Masters,’‘Prophets,’‘Ascended Masters,’ Gurus,’ ‘Gods,’ ‘self-proclaimed Christs or Jesus,’’ ‘Channelers,’‘Psychics,’ ‘Deep-Trance Mediums’ – all the human beings that would directly be ‘regulated and controlled’ by and through Heaven, that exist ‘outside of the boundaries’ of this reality, this world. The seemingly ‘profound and special’ human beings with ‘particular talents and gifts’ that belongs to only a ‘select few.’

Because such human beings were not existing within the bounds of the world-system as with the rest of society that is controlled and regulated within, by and through the ‘world-system’ in itself – they were ‘controlled and regulated’ by/through ‘dimensional beings in Heaven.’

Therefore, ‘Oneness’ was defined as being a Master, Guru, Channeler – all such beings that exist within the very living experience of themselves as ‘more than or more special than the rest of society due to their ‘talents and gifts’ and/or their direct correlation with ‘Heaven.’

When all the while, their very existence as a Master, Guru, God, Channeler, etc., – was a designed-programmed definition of the manifested individualized defined idea of ‘Oneness’ imprinted into and as their mind consciousness system to so ‘elevate’ only such a ‘select few’ human beings into godhood or ‘oneness.’ To so exist, and live ‘above the rest’ as ‘more than the rest’ – where the REST become followers and so play the living-reality-game of ‘follow the leader’ – continuing the surety of separation and certainty of enslavement.

The manifested-designed ‘imprint-essence’ of this ‘Separation-Oneness,’ as the programmed-experience thereof, existed in and as a ‘containment’ within an ‘egg-shaped-form’ and within the egg-shaped-form the essence of oneness was contained as ‘infinity’ – infinity being the ‘programmed-experience’ of this separation-oneness design.

This infinity-experience contained within an egg-shaped containment construct would be the manifested designed definition of: ONE or The One – which would be THE ONES in this world that would be ‘special’ or seen as gods, masters, gurus, ‘more than,’etc.

The ‘Manifested Individualized Defined-Concept’ of Equality:

The majority of beings’ mind consciousness systems’ was imprinted, infused and manifested with the Separation-Equality design.

‘Equality’ was defined as the direct relationship of human beings with this world, this reality as the ‘world-system’ within the experience of ‘having a normal life as the rest of world-society,’ as within walking the path of the system and existing within the enclosure of the system only: Education, University, Varsity, Profession, Starting a Family, etc., with nothing ‘out of the ordinary’ as with those select-few human beings’ mind consciousness system being imprinted and manifested with the ‘Separation-Oneness’ design.

Such human beings that would be imprinted and manifested with the ‘Separation-Equality’ design, would be the rest of society as those that exist within the ‘world-system’ only as within education, government, law, business, banks, - all human beings, that ‘make this world go round,’ that participate and stand within that which exist as this world-system in itself: all the human beings that make this reality ‘operational,’ were imprinted and manifested in and as this ‘Separation-Equality’ design, which would be the human beings that follow the ‘select few’ that were imprinted with the ‘Separation-Oneness’ design that within their ‘living-actions’ as followers – ‘validate’ and ‘justify’ the existence of such ‘select-few’ human beings imprinted and manifested with the ‘Separation-Oneness’ design.

The manifested design of this ‘Separation-Equality’ design, as the ‘manifested-designed imprint’ thereof existed in and as a ‘square-containment’ with myriad of lines, wherein each ‘line’ had the exact same ‘colouring’ consisting of ‘all the colours of the rainbow,’ and this would be the manifested designed definition of ‘Equal’ – wherein each line is ‘different in form’ - yet ‘equal’ because of its colouring. These lines within this square-containment would ‘crisscross’ each other manifesting a ‘network.’

The ‘equal colouring’ would represent human beings imprinted and manifested with the ‘Separation-Equality’ design – existing ‘individually yet each one equal towards their direct relationship with and as the World-System as each human being in and as the world-system would be equal within having an ordinary life and form a ‘network’ manifested as ‘society.’

Thus, having a different human physical body would represent the ‘different forms’ of the individual lines. The individual lines ‘crisscrossing’ and forming a network would be all human beings existing together and forming society – wherein ‘equality’ comes in wherein human beings imprinted and manifested with the ‘Separation-Equality’ design existing as ‘society’ would be ‘equal’ to each other, because of each one existing in and as the ‘world-system’ as having an ordinary-life of ‘income’ as money. Thus, such human beings are ‘regulated and controlled’ by, through and as the world-system within the manifestation of ‘money.’

So, the ‘select-few’ imprinted and manifested with the ‘Separation-Oneness’ design were ‘regulated and controlled’ by and through dimensional beings in Heaven and literally, almost all of humanity, would be ‘regulated and controlled’ by and through money in the world-system.

Then, the separation was taken one step further – there were human beings’ mind consciousness system that weren’t imprinted and manifested with the ‘Separation-Equality’ design or the ‘Separation-Oneness’ design. Such human beings would incarnate into and as this world, this reality with no ‘relationship-connection’ with the ‘world-system’ or with ‘Heaven,’ because their ‘relationship-connection’ as the imprint and manifestation of the ‘Separation-Equality’ design or the ‘Separation-Oneness’ design is nonexistent.

Such human beings would be those that starve, are homeless – as such human beings that exist in this world completely, entirely ‘alone’ and have to fend for themselves.

‘Splitting’ Oneness from Equality and individualizing oneness and equality into and as manifested defined-concepts – imprinting and manifesting The Design of Oneness into and as a select few human beings and The Design of Equality into and as the majority of human beings together with not imprinting and manifesting either into and as human beings – wherein such programmed-designed imprints were lived and experienced by and through human beings as though ‘it is who they are’ as the lived definition of themselves: created ourselves and this reality to be how we are and what it is as the ultimate manifested physical-experience of separation that we have accepted and allowed ourselves to be, become and live.

This so created, so placed – that no-one ‘realises’ the ‘unity’ of oneness and equality as one as equal as all equal and one - that is the actual realisation of who each one is, as who all are equally as one.

Therefore, it is to ‘give-up’ all definition of yourself as what you ‘believe yourself to be as ‘who I am’’ – because all that you are ‘living’ as a manifested physical experience of yourself, is but an individualized-defined concept that isn’t real – and the only way to self-realise who you really are, that each one really is -- is to ‘give up’ everything and all that you are, exist as and experience yourself to be – to actually see, realise and understand and within the seeing, realising and understanding – live the actuality that is ourselves that is real as the ‘unity’ of oneness and equal that is LIFE equal and one as equal.

To do this is a process of walking here in every moment of breath – to identify the accepted and allowed separation of self with all that exists as self as this existence with all that exists in and as this existence as it does currently in this moment: to stand equal and one here as all as one as equal. And as we walk in every moment of breath here – we stop accepted and allowed separation to stand equal and one with ourselves that is here that is life as all as one as equal.

Understanding Oneness and Equality

Structure – that which is the Physical-Manifest, is Here – in its manifested equality and oneness.

The Structured-Physical as Structure-Manifest that exist by, through and as laws, rules and regulations as its very Limitation of its very existence as Structure in itself.

Currently it is Structure, the Physical-Manifest that exist and function as, within and through laws, rules and regulations by, through and as which all exist.

The Being, as Expression – that is the motion, the movement, the ‘direction’ – is In Structure as the Physical, is In the Physical, existing by the Structure as the Physical’s Instructions, the Physical’s Instructions as the laws, rules and regulations of and as the Physical as Structure-Manifest.

We, the Beings that are IN the Physical, IN Structure – are governed, directed and moved through and by the Designed-Instructions as created laws, rules and regulations of and as Structure as the Physical within which we exist in Separation.

We’ve designed Structure In which we exist as the Physical-Manifest as laws, rules and regulations within Separation with Ourselves as Expression that is Actual Movement and Motion of and as Equality and Oneness as Life as All Here.

In this Separation, as we’ve created Structure as the Physical-Manifest of laws, rules and regulations IN which we exist:

Movement Manifest as the Structured-Design of Control as Money – wherein the laws, rules and regulations of Control as Money as the structured-design of/as Movement – create the Starving and the Elite. Wherein all are ‘moved’ through/as Control in the structured-design of and as Money.

Motion Manifest as the Structured-Design of ‘Evolution’ as ‘Power’ that exist in various Forms from Religion to Business – wherein the laws, rules and regulations of ‘Evolution’ as ‘Power’ as the structured-design of/as Motion – create Wars and Ignorance as Beings of Survival within the statement ‘to each his own’ – as each strive for ‘Power’ through ‘attainment’ / ‘ascension’ – at the cost of others, from animal-kingdom to man.

Expression Manifest as the Structured-Design of Desire as Relationships/Sex – wherein the laws, rules and regulations of Desire as Sex/Relationships as the structured-design of/as Expression – create, the everlasting search/thirst to fulfil unsatisfied Desires, that propagate manifested separation between/within all Beings and deception, dishonesty and secrets in/as Relationships itself = wanting to fulfil Desired Desires –Separating all into groups of two’s, three’s and one’s – limited within the definition of Expression as the structured-design of/as Desire within Relationships as Sex.

Direction Manifest as the Structured-Design of Education as Family/Government – wherein the laws, rules and regulations of Education as Family/Government as the structured-design of/as Direction – create Beings as duplicates, copies of those that has gone before them that is designed through Education to be/become the perfect-system that function and exist as its formed to be through, as and by Family and Government – to be and produce that which the Family as System and the Government as System designed it to be and produce and accordingly live the designed-direction it was forced within by/through Family as Government as the structured-design of/as Direction.

The Being, ourselves that is existing in Separation of/as Structure as the Physical-Manifest – wherein Expression, Movement, Motion, Direction has been Formulated into rules, laws and regulations as Structure-Manifest as the Physical = to which we are currently Enslaved.

Thus – we’re enslaved within the Physical, Slaves to Structure by our own Instructions as we’re existing In Structure as the InStruct(ure)ions as the laws, rules and regulations of Structure as the Physical, by, through and as which we’re accepting and allowing ourselves to exist – within the very acceptance and allowance of Separation.

Thus, we the Beings existing in the Physical, In Structure – are the Instructors – being directed, controlled, moved and motioned by/through our own Instructions as the laws, rules and regulations of and as designed-structure as the Physical-Manifest – that have Instructed and do Instruct the Physical as Structure as the laws, rules and regulations it exist as, run through and function as – to continue as is within our very acceptance and allowance of separation. Of accepting and allowing ourselves as Instructors to be Instructed by/through Structure as Laws, Rules and Regulations to define ‘who and how we are’.

We, each one, as Instructor – has abdicated Responsibility as Instructor – as we’ve accepted and allowed ourselves to be directed, controlled, moved and motioned by/through our own Instructions as the laws, rules and regulations of and as designed-structure as the Physical-Manifest IN which we exist IN separation = wherein our Instructions that has become the Physical-Manifest as the Structure IN which we exist as laws, rules and regulations has become our expression, our movement, our motion, our direction = wherein, within this accepted and allowed abdication of responsibility and separation = we’ve become enslaved within Structure as the Physical-Manifest as our own Creation and slaves to our own Instructions as the laws, rules and regulations of/as the Physical as Structure-Manifest that we’ve designed.

The Physical, as it exist = is the current Structured equality and oneness we’ve created, designed as manifested-enslavement – and the laws, rules and regulations the Principle(s) by and as which we exist and are enslaved to within this Structured equality and oneness as the Physical-Manifest.

The Structured equality and oneness of and as the Physical exist currently as Follows:

Oneness as Enslavement – as we’re all as one, together, enslaved In the Physical as Structure as we’re currently being directed, moved, controlled and motioned by and through the Physical as Structure-Manifest.
Equality as Slavery – as we’re all, equally – slaves to Structure as the Physical-Manifest as the Laws, Rules and Regulations Structure as the Physical-Manifest exist as.

This Structured Equality and Oneness as the Principle by which each Exist – Forming ourselves as a Slave/Slaves – existing as Slaves, Enslaved in Structure and Slaves to that which exist as Structure as the Laws, Rules and Regulations it exist as.

We, each one, as Instructor – must Stand-Up and Stand as the Responsibility as Instructor and no more accept and allow our Instructions we’ve created and manifested into and as Structure as the Physical-Manifest that we’ve formulated into Laws, Rules and Regulations = to be the Instructor of Us.

Thus, in this accepted and allowed abdication of Responsibility as Separation – we’ve abdicated our Responsibility as Instructors to our Instructions – leaving our Instructions to Instruct Us – that has become our current-existence, as the Physical as Structure as the manifestation/creation of and as our Instructions as laws, rules and regulations is directing, moving, motioning and controlling us for us – IN which, Through which we’re existing in Separation as the Consequence of the Abdication of Responsibility to ourselves and all that exist as Ourselves.

What can we Do to Change This – this Current-existence wherein we’re existing as a Slave, enslaved within and slaves to our own Creation of Design-Instructions as Laws, Rules and Regulations that control, direct, move and motion Us for Us – manifested as Structure as the Physical-Manifest – forming an existence of Separation:

Where Money has become the force of life – where some starve while select few have it all – for those to have it all, others must Starve.

Where survival has become the reason for existing – where life has become dependent on Survival.

Where evolution has become the quest of life – even at the cost of the life/lives of others.

Where relationships/sex has become the expression of life as Desire – only spewing separation through dependency and ownership, causing deception as secrets as Desire seeks to fulfil itself at the cost of Self through compromise.

Where individuality has become copied-duplicates of Family and programmed-robots designed to function for a system and produce and be what Family and Government form each one to Become = all exactly the same.

We Suggest:

Equality and Oneness as Life as the Principle of and as Each One, Equally as the Manifested-Existence as Instructor and Instruction equal and one – that each One, Equally Stand-As, Here.

Wherein each One, Equally – take their Individual-Position of Responsibility as Instructor and live as Instruction as the Principle of and as Equality and Oneness as All Here, Equal and One – wherein the Instructor as Instructions become and are equal and one – and the Being stand Equal and One In Structure and As Structure and Direct, Move, Express and Motion Self as Equality and Oneness as All in and as the Physical, with the Physical as Self Here.

Thus, the Simple-Point as Action to Take and Stand-As – is Self-Responsibility as Instructor of and as Life as Equality and Oneness as All Here – to Stand equal and one with and as our current manifested-instructions as Structure as the Physical-Manifest in and with which we’re currently existing in and as Separation – and be the Expression, Motion, Direction and Movement of and as Life-itself as All as One as Equal Here.

This done, to Change/Transform our current-existence of Individual-Slaves, enslaved within Structure as the current Physical-Manifest and slaves to Instructions as the Laws, Rules and Regulations within Structure as the Physical-Manifest = to Individual-Expressions that stand as Life, Equal and One – wherein each are ‘Individual’ within their Expression, yet each stand Equal and One as All as Life.

Thus – Structure and Expression, Movement, Motion and Direction become Equal and One Here – as we as Expression, Movement, Motion and Direction become/is Life-itself as Equality and Oneness as All Here = which BIRTH Actual LIFE from/of the PHYSICAL HERE.


To take-in Position as Instructor – is to stand equal and one with your Instructions as they currently exist, your Instructions that you’ve manifested into and as Form as Structure as the current-existence of yourself both within and without.
To stand equal and one, means to take Responsibility – in realising that what exist now as Structure-Manifest of/as Instructions that we’ve placed, manifested into and as Form as the Physical – is of ourselves and thus is ourselves.
Only within taking-responsibility, as standing equal and one with and as the current manifested-instructions as the Physical-Manifest as what it exist as currently – do we give ourselves the ‘Ability to Respond’ (ResponseAbility) – which is to Take-Action as Instructor as Responsibility and Change/Transform our Instructions that we’ve left to direct, control, motion and move us for Us.

Within separating ourselves as Instructors from our Instructions that has manifested as Structure as the Physical-Manifest as what it currently exist and function as – wherein, because of this Separation, our manifested-instructions as the Physical-Manifest of Structure is existing and functioning for Us – it is our Responsibility as Instructors to take Responsibility for and of our Instructions as what the Physical currently exist and function as = this is done through taking Responsibility for and of our Instructions that thus, is Ourselves.

We, each one have to TAKE responsibility, give the Responsibility to Ourselves to gift ourselves with the Ability to Respond in standing as Instructors to Instruct our own current-instructions as ourselves as the Physical-Manifest to change/transform this Existence as Ourselves into and as an Existence that include all Equally as One within the Principle of Life as All as One as Equal.

We’ve been waiting for instructions, from an instructor to instruct us with what to do with the current Structure we’re existing In – not realising that the Structure we’re In, exist as the Instructions we’ve placed and designed of ourselves, abdicating our responsibility as Instructor of our own Instructions which created the Consequence of Destruction.

We’ve been waiting for ourselves as Instructors, to Take Responsibility for and of our own Instructions that manifested the Structure we’re in and the Consequence our Instructions created as Destructions, as we’ve left our Instructions to exist for us, to function for us – the Instructor that’s supposed to take Responsibility of Instructing = nowhere to be Found, because we, as each one, hasn’t taken-in the position of Instructor that Instruct, that Live, that Express, that Move, that Direct.

We’ve been accepting and allowing ourselves to be controlled, be directed, be moved, be motioned by and through our Instructions as we’ve abdicated our Responsibility as Instructor in Separation of our own Instructions – existing by laws, rules and regulations – driven/forced by survival, desire, power, evolution through wars, relationships, sex, religions, governments, education, money – at the cost of ourselves, others and all else that exist.

This World is how we are, who we are, where we are and what we are = Simply because we haven’t taken Responsibility and Lived as Instructors Instructing ourselves into and as an existence that include all Equally as One = and thus formed an existence of Slaves, Enslavement and Slavery, instead of existing as Existence wherein all are Equal and one Here, existing in and as equality and oneness as Life.

Herein we Suggest – each one take Self-Responsibility as Instructor of Themselves within the Principle of Equality and Oneness as Life, wherein each one Live within and as Consideration of all equally as one.
In each one standing-so, standing-up within and as self-Responsibility in living the Principle of Equality and Oneness as Life = we can through and as each one standing as this Point, taking-in their Position as Instructor within and as the Principle of Equality and Oneness as Life = Transform/Change this Existence as Ourselves into and as an Existence – where all are equal and one, yet individual within their authentic-self-expression as Life-itself as all as one as Equal:

Where Money is no more the force of life that force us into an existence where some must starve so that other can have – but we, each one ourselves, become the Force as Life that actually Live as Equal and One with and as All.

Where Survival is no more the Reason for Existing – but we, ourselves as each one as all together equally as one are that which Actually-Live as Life, = for which no ‘reason’ is required, because we are that which Live as Life-itself equal and one Here.

Where Evolution that has become the Evil of this World as all are on the quest of ‘life’ defined as Power at the cost of the life/lives of others is no More – because Life will no more be a Quest through Evolution as currently-defined in wanting to attain ‘Power’ = because we are/will be Life In-Fact Here equal and one as All = no more quest/questions = because we’ll be Here as all and everything exist Here as Ourselves and all will be/stand equal and one with themselves, each other and all that exist as ourselves.

Where the expression of life is no more defined as Desire as Relationship/Sex that only create/propagate separation, secrets and deception as Desire always seeks fulfilment/satisfaction at the cost/compromise of self and others = but Self stand as Life-Expression Here that include and exist as all as one as equal = herein no desire/relationships exist = but Self is Expression as Life and Self is In Fact All Equal and One Here.

Where each-one is no more defined by/through Individuality/Identity of personality as ‘who I am’ which is currently but copies/duplicates of Family and programmed-robots of education for purposes of forming a system that produce for a system = but we Live as Life-Itself that’s not of definition/identity as separation = but each one become the Expression of and as Life as all as one as equal, Individually, Here as all exist as Life as all as one as Equal Here.

This is the Existence we suggest we’re able to Manifest as Ourselves within Taking Self-Responsibility as Instructor within the Statement of what we’ll accept and allow from/of ourselves and what we’ll not accept and allow from/of Ourselves within the Principle of equality and oneness as Life as all as one as Equal Here.

Take Responsibility, Stand Up and Be the Instructor you’ve been waiting for.

Equal and One


the secret of equal and one--

this principle exist always and is much abused especially by beings not willing to let go of what they think they have or they htey have achieved

Practically it works as follows--each being is equal and one with what they accept as themselves--consciousness would like you to believe that that is specific and justthewayitis-system-- that is not so--that si how you are programmed to believe that you are special and is separation

Obviously you may remain within that which you accepted yourself as equal and one as--with the obvious result--that is what you will experience

If you accept yourself for instance as equal and one with creation and childabuse occur--you are the abuser

the same with rape--the consequence of what we allow is within ouracceptance as equal and one

In this holographic illusion we have accepted ourselves as equal and one with it--therefor our lives are fictional as shown by the beings when they crossover--it simply disappear

why--you are no more than what you accept yourself to be equal and one with

that is why there is a journey--the journey of forgiveness to be honest with self as to what one has accepted as self as equal and one with

once honesty steps forth--trust is build and then --come what may--one would be stable as the focus is discovering honestly how one participate as equal and one--

a life stable as knowledge at this stage is an illusion that will be challenged through process when least expected--the reason--who you really are will not accept anything less than who you really are as a practical living application in action at a unified universal level--thus--no mind--pure sound expression

Some will here and some will hear

but with the sum of equality and oneness we are measured

may we not be found wanting/desiring


Equality and Oneness – the Key to Self as Life


Oneness is the Point of our Enslavement - within this World as we know it - within the Unified Consciousness Field of Energy as Polarity (it's worth doing a search on 'Desteni+Polarity' on Youtube: several videos on this point).

Our Oneness Implies that ‘No-one is free until all is free’. *

Oneness further implies that without Unconditional Forgiveness, this Mess will go-on 'forever' - because Polarity is a closed Energy-System that constantly and continuously seek to 'balance itself out' - and thus neither 'positive' nor 'negative' is ever able to 'win' - because the System of Polarity needs both to 'keep on moving'.

Which is how the 'Light-Workers' are actually 'supporting' the System - because 'feeding' one polarity automatically 'feeds' the other through its opposite. This explain how we create through Denial. The consequences are devastating and to be seen within and as how this world exists.

It is vital to see the Whole-picture - and not only one side of the coin.
To be able to place oneself in anybody's shoes and see who one would be in 'that life'. Because from a separate starting-point, judgment of another is easy...

Bringing-it back to Self:
Oneness is the Point where self is enslaving self within a Mind Consciousness System of Energy as Polarity, wherein a life will be lived as if it’s about oneself, about ‘winning’ or ‘losing’, like a Casino – wherein Self is ‘The One’ standing as Ego, with the sole purpose of ‘winning’ the game and ‘gaining’ ‘energy’. (Observe how even ‘doing charity’ is actually about oneself.) This ‘game’ is fuelled through our participation in emotional and mental patterns, which –if one observe one’s ‘secret mind’ – are ‘set-out’ on ‘profit’ as self-interest.

Obviously no-‘one’ can ever really ‘win’ even if at-times it may seem so; Ultimately the ‘winner’ is always the Casino - the System.

Equality is the Point of our Solution - in Standing Equal within Ourselves and with Each-Other in the self-realization as Life and thus as Equality – we have no-choice but to stop judgment, abuse, fear and All Separation – thus to ‘Stop the Mind’ = to Stop the 'Oneness' of Separation/Ego - and take directive-Authority/Responsibility for Who we Are as Life as Equals.

These Two Points brought-together to One-Point: 'Equality and Oneness' – was seen to be the Directive-Principle of Existence - and if one observe one's own life from the perspective of self-honesty, which is the process we're walking with Desteni (Man Know Thyself) one is able to see that it is in-fact so: Each-One is creating the ‘consequences’ of who each-one is equal and one, and all together we create this world, equal and one to ‘who we are’. The creation is always equal to its Creator.

The practical-application of this 'Living-Principle', 'Equality and Oneness', begins within Self. These 'two points' brought-together to One Point: Self.

Anyone can easily observe how we each are 'One', yet Not Equal within that 'One' we exist as: Not Equal within ourselves.

The same with the World: 'One' World - yet Not Equal.

Which is interesting because within this Point: the 'problem' entails the Solution: the 'problem' being us in separation, the solution being us in mutual honor and respect of ourselves and each-other as Life as Equals.

Thus: Equality is the Key to purifying our Oneness and getting to the Practical Realization of One Life as Equals.

*Elaborating on the point of ‘Oneness’ as “No-one is free until All is free”:

Fascinating: interdimensionally it is seen that within Each-One Being – All Beings Exist. Even more fascinating is that this point can be seen within CommonSense:

If we observe the world and the human-beings we are ‘faced’-with throughout our lives (in all ways: in ‘real’-life, on TV, history-books, movies, radio, memories, photographs etc. etc.) – we will notice that we always have a different ‘energetic’-response to different beings. This response is either positive or negative.

Seeing the point of Polarity for what it is and the Trap/Enslavement it entails within and as the Cycles/Patterns we exist as – this ‘energetic’-response within the experience of Self in any given moment/situation should, in CommonSense, show us one-thing: That we are not standing equal to the particular point/situation we’re faced with.
It is futile to want to make others responsible for the experience of ourselves, for what we accept and allow within ourselves. So the question is: How do we create and re-create those patterns?

The irony is that we’ll tend to ‘hold-on’ to ‘positive’ feelings and only consider ‘stopping’ our reaction when it is ‘negative’. However, in both ‘cases’ we are actually faced with the fact that we are not standing equal to a particular being/point/situation.
One may argue on that and ask: ‘What’s wrong with that?’ and that may appear to be a ‘valid’ question – yet the ‘answer’ to that is simplistic and astounding at the same time:

What is ‘wrong’ with that is, that within our participation in such ‘projected’-perceptions, we accept and confirm our separation; The actual practical consequence is that we are not standing in full self-authority, self-power, self-directiveness Here – since an ‘energetic’-response is able to direct our Beingness into thoughts, words or actions – and it is our thoughts, words and actions that define ‘who we are’. We are thusly within that allowing a particular ‘energy’ to define ‘who we are’.

The problem with That is, that a particular ‘energy’ will ‘act’ and ‘direct’-us in self-interest, according to what that ‘energy’ wants and that only - which is referred-to as mind-possession. The possible consequences/outflows/side-effects of our participation for ourselves and the world in the bigger scale within space-time will be missed, and one will defend/justify one's actions.

In this era of ‘super-consciousness’, many beings have become ‘experts’ in reasoning and justifying self-interest as ‘how one exists’ to ‘sound good’ and ‘logical’ – yet slowly but surely such ‘intelligence’ meets ‘stupidity’, like the snake biting its own tail (one of the alchemist symbols for ‘Oneness’).

Bringing this back to the principle that: “Within each-one, All beings exist” – the question as to the practical implication thereof arises:
How is this relevant in this physical reality?

In Self-Honesty and within the Principle of ‘Man Know Thyself’, one may ‘observe’ and ‘See’ one’s own reactions (‘positive’ AND ‘negative’), recognize the accepted separation, recognize the ‘point’ represented by ‘another’ being – and ‘bring it back to Self’: so that Self may forgive, integrate and amalgamate with that particular ‘point’/’being’/’expression’ to be able to ‘direct it’ as oneself in a way that is best for all – which is the practical point of Equality and Oneness: ‘becoming Whole’; Self-Realizing Authority and Responsibility as Equality.
The ‘accomplishment’ thereof in relation to the particular points each-one is faced with will be ‘confirmed’ through no-more experiencing an ‘energetic’-reaction (‘positive’ OR ‘negative’) towards the particular point/being/expression.

Because as long as I am reacting to ‘another’, I am shown (through an ‘actual’ physical experience) that I am not standing equal within myself in relation to the ‘point’ another is representing, and that there is instead accepted separation, comparison, judgment. This is where Self-Forgiveness comes in: to release oneself from judgment, anger, fear, blame – and to make a living-statement of Self-Responsibility and Self-Accountability as Life as Equality.

This puts ‘Practical-Living’ into a ‘new’ perspective – because within this process of Amalgamation and Forgiveness, each moment and each being represents an opportunity of Self-Intimacy, Self-Forgiveness and Self-Expansion.

This is Equality and Oneness in Practical-Living – a point within which the equation of ‘No-one is free until All is free’ may be realized as practical CommonSense.

Within Equality and Oneness, Self stands stable as One as Equal, and has therefore Directive-Principle in Self-Responsibility and Self-Honesty Here – and is able to, if necessary, direct that ‘point’/’situation/’ other being’ to equally recognize the accepted separation and to realize Equality as Life, as Self has done for Self.

What Equality and Oneness Practically Entail

Do not be mistaken by what equality and oneness practically entail.

All is not equal and one as life, all is in the process to become/change to equality and oneness, which is the process of birthing self as life here.

Currently each person is equal and one to what they have become, accepted and allowed, and defined themselves as, through a process/existence of self dishonesty and separation.

A suggestion thus to assist and support self effectively in this process of self honesty, birthing self as life here to stand equal and one as life in actuality/fact as the practical lived expression of/as self here: 

Be frank and self honest with self about who and what self has accepted and allowed within/of/as self to be one with and equal as, for within this, change/birth is easy. 

In being forthright, blunt and openly direct with yourself about yourself, which is the expression of self-intimacy, as what you are currently in this moment of mind as mind – being intimate with yourself through/by actually allowing yourself the opportunity to see directly into you yourself, you eliminate self-righteousness and ego and actually really see yourself ‘for real,’ and not ‘what you want to see’ to form a belief about/of yourself to safeguard the definition/nature of you of mind as mind. 

Denying what self is equal to and one with as the actual definition of self that is ‘expressed’ by self through and as the mind – as reflected in presentation, behavior, mannerism, words, deeds, thoughts and reactions, currently will only intensify the purification process of self extensively due to resistance to self honesty. 

Because the being will (through the resistance of being self honest) manifest inner-conflict, as in this denial – you attempt to escape from what is really you; facing what is really you of mind as mind. Through the inner-conflict, the ‘actual you’ as what you have accepted and allowed yourself to be one with and equal to in self dishonesty and separation – will manifest and step forth even further within experiences both within and without. Because in the very act of resistance through denial creating conflict, you actually manifest that which you resist and deny even further, as the conflict that emerge intensify and compound what you actually really have become of mind – to be faced inevitably. 

An analogy:

It is like being a creation as the image and likeness of ‘god’, and becoming ‘god’ IN FACT equal and one in ALL WAYS. Not ideas, but actuality that is proven to SELF and all as self. LIVING the practical expression in and as the physical. 

If you observe the current human being that proclaim themselves as ‘god’ or ‘christ’ – this is but a proclamation based in knowledge and information as a manifested belief and but only exist as an idea,. There exists no realization of the practical implications of living equal and one as all and the self responsibility that it entail; not only in talk, but actual living in expression – to/towards others as self.  

Hence the tools provided as self forgiveness, self corrective action, breathing and writing; to assist and support self in actual practical living. To be/become real and really live here in expression as the physical. IN FACT, so that what is realized and understood through insights and common sense does not only remain but realizations, understandings, and insights that so easily can be transformed into belief through which an idea of self is created of mind, but that which you assist and support yourself to go into immediate instantaneous self-application in which the realization/understanding/insight becomes a living practical expression that is you, lived absolutely and completely in every moment of breath, unwavering. Not only does this eliminate the ‘knowledge and information’ definitions of self through existing only of the mind – but in this these insights becomes real, and we actually start living.  No more in and as ideas – but in and as fact. 

No other proof in 3D will be here, because it will interfere in each one’s process that is actually walked alone. 

Alone from the perspective that no-one can self-realize for another, each one must self-realize self here as equal as one as all as life for themselves, by themselves and as themselves. No more separation will be accepted and allowed. This process is absolute for each and all equal and one. In the absoluteness you shall stand, or in limitation as half-measures, you will fall.

No proof from the perspective that it would imply separation if you were to receive proof of yourself – if proof existed – no self trust would be possible. You must prove to you yourself that you stand in absoluteness here in every moment of breath.  This is not the want, need and desire ‘for proof’ as a want, need and desire for ‘confirmation/validation’ of self, as in the very act of wanting, needing and desiring confirmation, you are implying that you do not trust yourself. 

Only EGO would request proof ever so fanatically, because the ego needs proof to validate its own existence and confirm its own ideas/definitions/beliefs as what it is designed. Self -trust cannot exist in the want, need and desire for/of proof, but only in actual practical self-application/expression as living the tools of self forgiveness, self corrective action, writing and breathing, where you prove you to yourself as you see you for you yourself here in every moment of breath, whether you’re self honest or self dishonest.

Seven (7) lives should do it for the most stubborn. To go through seven lives before they actually really stop and stand in absoluteness and no more exist / make up excuses/justifications/reasons for why they’re not standing up and stopping--as the intensity by that life will be unbearable. – lol, The intensity of the manifested experiences that emerge both within and without due to resistance and denial and deliberate dishonesty of what self has accepted and allowed self to be and become of mind as mind.  Probably by then – they’ll run out of or actually have had enough of creating excuses/justifications and reasons – lol. 

To conclude:

Equal and one, each being a CREATOR without ABUSING the POWER that is HERE and CO-EXISTING with ALL - that is the challenge each will face or abdicate through self dishonesty and separation forever . Each one determines all and everything for themselves. 

In this, choice plays an intricate role, - that which those discerning with common sense will realize. The actual choice, is a directive principle within self-realised common sense – by which and as which you stand and thus become and not waver / alter even one inch/refraction – but stand as it, by it as yourself, until it is done. This is thus not ‘choice’ from a polarity-reality as which choice exists within this reality of mind that is defined by ‘options’ as ‘free will’. This choice is an absolute standing as emergence of self here as all as one as equal as life. 

The 'Process' of Self



What has recently (a few moments ago) opened up is: STOP! And it ‘works’ as follows:

We have come to define ourselves, ‘who I am’ as the mind – this includes words, behaviour, mannerism, experience, ideas, pre-conceptions, perceptions, belief, how we see things, how we interpret things, how we experience things, how we understand things, our entire ‘outlook’ unto ourselves, this world and others – more so related to ‘how we would define words and our experience and understanding within it’.
The ‘problem’ here though is that our very definition and experience / understanding / interpretation of words is and has always been of the mind – each being has a different understanding, interpretation, experience, perception, idea, assumption with regards to words and definitions thereof to the next being – and thus, based on each beings’ differentiation with regards to words – each one’s particular experience of and within themselves as themselves = is different.

This differentiation with regards to self, each beings’ self experience is manifested within and as the mind – the mind of each being consisting of each being’s interpretation, perception, idea, belief, understanding etc. of words according to their ‘individual’ definition of words – herein, because of this differentiation that exist with regards to words existent within and as each being’s mind – each being’s ‘self’ – the experience of ‘self’ as self – will be different – because you experience you as the mind, because you’ve defined you as the mind and the mind consist of all the words which you ‘know’ and ‘understanding’ according to your particular knowledge and understanding of words with regards to your particular interpretation, perception, idea, belied, understanding etc.

So, we have billions of human beings in and as this world – each human beings has a mind to which they have defined all and everything of themselves – as ‘self’ as ‘who I am’. Each being’s mind consisting of words with definitions that are different or ‘unique’ to everyone else’s because each being has their individual unique interpretation, understanding, idea, perception, belief of words within and as their mind, which they accordingly experience and manifest ‘as themselves’ – and herein is where the differentiation within and as humanity exist – why each human beings is seemingly ‘different’ to the other = because each one’s mind is ‘different’ with regards to each one’s different relationship and experience with words within self which becomes self.

Therefore – literally, the entire experience of ‘Self’ = has and is the mind, and this is literally everything and all of you, everything existent within as, the ‘how’ of ourselves, the ‘how we operate’, the ‘how we do’ = mind. The mind the very infestation within and as everything we do, speak and experience – both within and without.
So – we have self forgiveness and self honesty – to so within all of what we have become as the mind infested (invested) within and as us – discover the purity of self as self within it all.

It’s interesting (a point I notice) is that we invest ourselves in the bank as we invest ourselves in the mind – the bank literally ‘running our lives for us’, we’re literally dependent on the bank representing money for our very existence for our very lives here in this world. No different to the current situation within and as beings – investing all and everything of self in and as the mind – believing that without the mind = we will cease to exist. So – we’ve come to define the mind as ‘life’ – money in this world representing ‘life’…interesting.


Now – if we continue as is, if we continue participation in what we have always defined ourselves to be as the mind – within the mind, each one defending their right to exist as the mind to seemingly protect their ‘individuality’ – when the ‘individuality’ of each one is manifested as the mind as each one’s mere relationship towards words in separation to which we have defined ‘self’ – we will get nowhere – noHERE, no HERE = no SELF for SELF is HERE.

Therefore – the key is to STOP, STOP every and all participation in the mind of ourselves – and as I have explained, the mind has become everything of ourselves so therefore it is literally stopping everything of yourself. Because it is in our very permission of participation within and as the mind to which we have defined ‘who I am’ / Self that the mind exists. Therefore in stopping participation in it – it cease to exist and I is realised.

I understand this sounds ‘vast’ so I’ll specify:

I STOP – within this, you STOP, you literally just STOP everything within yourself and breathe. In other words in this moment here as you read the words – just STOP within yourself and breathe. Speak out loud: I STOP. Now, whenever anything but even moves the slightest within you – you know it is your mind, because you, I, have stopped.
For instance – you ‘want to look at something inside of you’ = the is the mind – I see direct, if a point is not seen immediately, instantaneously here in the moment = it is the mind. The moment you ‘want to look at something inside of you’ – that ‘movement’ is not I move, but the mind ‘wanting to do something’. So when this is experience – you immediately STOP, DELETE or REMOVE whatever ‘moved within you of the mind’ – breathe and be here.

The mind will always ‘want to do something’ – the wanting to do is a perception of movement of the mind. It is this ‘wanting to do something’ within yourself that is the mind – and you will know what is the mind within this application of I STOP, because you’ve STOPPED, I STOPPED, and if I stopped, whatever else moves within me or comes up within me must be the mind – because I stopped.

So, literally, really – when there is any movement of a thought, an application, an experience within you – you STOP IT IMMEDIATELY, because it is not you directing you or you ,moving you from within the starting point that is you – and how do you know this? Because I stopped – I stopped, and because I stopped – anything and everything else is mind.

And this STOP includes all definitions, ideas, beliefs, perceptions, experiences – your entire ‘way of being and participating within your method of being’ must be stopped – stop everything! Even the reactions towards the experience of stopping as you will find many thoughts, reactions, ideas and perceptions coming up within you – just STOP, just STOP everything in every moment as you breathe – just STOP.

Though – also to take into consideration that the stop, I stop whenever there is a movement that occur – is an absolute self directive, I direct, STOP. So for instance when a reaction comes up within you as a resistance – within and as the breath – you STOP it immediately. And there will be many layers of one reaction – so if it still continues – just STOP – do not participate within it in any way whatsoever.

Herein this application you will find and realise and see for you how much one has defined the mind as self and how much of what we do and apply and participate within ourselves is the mind – together with this, I Move will be realised – where it is you that is the starting point of you moving – you’re not being moved by something within you that is experienced or occur suddenly and unexpectedly to which you react which cause movement.

This will be an interesting experience!

Therefore – in having a look at words again. The words to which we have defined ourselves in separation manifested as the mind as our relationship towards words, which has become the very manifestation of ‘who I am’ which we experience ‘individually different’ – as each one’s mind as relationship and experience towards words are ‘different’ – it is for each one to stand one and equal as life within and as words.

Meaning – where each one’s starting point is SELF, is I as Life – not the mind. Herein each one stand one and equal within and as themselves as the living word – I live, I speak, I express, I experience, I move = herein self expression is individual within and as life – BUT, there is no ‘differentiation’ within and as ‘separation’ with regards to words – with regards to SELF, because all ‘I’s’ is one and equal as life.

But first – we must STOP, STOP literally all and every single ounce of participation in that which we have defined ourselves to be as the mind, because the mind only exist because of our very participation within it.

So – STOP, I STOP here in this moment. I breathe – anything else but moves an inch from here as me in breath = it is the mind and therefore = I STOP it immediately and do not accept and allow me to participate within it.

What is ‘I move’ – how is ‘I move’? This is experienced when I is realised, SELF, who I am – not as the mind, but as I as life. This I as who you really are is realised within and as this STOP, self forgiveness and self honesty – I STOP, in the moment here – it is this I that STOPS that is the self directive you – literally stopping. And as you continue with just STOPPING, everything else will stop, the illusion will drop and I remain.

Here are some experiences of STOP! with regards to the interdimensional experience hereof and then also how practically you are able to assist and support yourself within and as this STOP expression of you:

There are beings who experienced themselves as literally going completely insane – because the moment the being stopped, I stop – it was realised to what extent we have existed within separation and that everything and all we participated in, within ourselves and our environment – has not been SELF, I, ME. But we moved and directed and expressed and applied in separation through ‘having to move’ or ‘must move’ or ‘moving because of this and that’ – movement was based on reason and cause instead of I move – and so the same with direction, participation and expression. Movement, direction, participation and expression was based on a must and have to as requirement and need – no SELF within and as the movement, direction, participation and expression.

The entire definition of self was in separation, SELF, I – was not HERE.
The insanity came when I stopped, when beings stopped and still there existed ‘requirements’ to have to, to must move, direct, apply and express – your entire being not knowing what else to do, or be without having to must move, direct, express and apply.
The realization came that there was an actual addiction of obligation with regards to expression, application, movement and direction – everything was forced – it wasn’t a natural SELF presence hereness of being as ‘who I am’ – we had constructed and designed SELF and how self must be, how self has to be…
This included the realization that the very understanding of self, of movement, direction, expression and application was an idea, was a perception and not real – because it was all done in separation of self – no SELF within and as our entire experience of ourselves!

So, when the beings stopped – and there was still desires, requirements, musts and addictions within and as self to want to and have to move, direct, apply and express according to all and everything we’ve defined ourselves to be = all this had to be stopped. Literally within and as self – the entire want, must, have to, requirement, definition, construction, design perception and idea of movement, application, direction and expression had to be stopped – and the very methods of application, movement, direction and expression that had been applied had to be stopped – because it was all done in separation – it wasn’t SELF movement, SELF expression, SELF direction, SELF application.

The starting point with I STOP – what opened up as well is how we have literally consisted of ‘sections’ – of ‘pieces’ that was ‘fit together’ to ‘complete’ the presentation of and as self – and when the I STOP expression as self began in one moment – the ‘completeness’ of self as the pieces that was placed and fit together as categories and section as that which we have designed and formed and constructed ourselves to be – literally started revealing itself. One could see how you entirely consisted of ‘sections’ or ‘pieces’ fit and placed together to form a perceived completeness of and as self. How each section was a point or aspect of self definition which one ‘experienced’ – within the ‘experience thereof as self’ = believing it to be real – when it was but a piece, a section a part or an aspect of self to which one has defined self in separation – not standing as SELF HERE – whole, ONE.

When this occurred – when the sections and pieces of self started revealing – the insanity came – because right before, right here within you – you see and realise that all and everything of you as that which you participated in, applied, expressed, moved and directed was not self – but an illusion.

Now to within this experience of ‘insanity’ – where everything within you and your environment is literally going haywire – you just STOP and you don’t STOP stopping – you continue no matter what – through it all you continue. Not accepting and allowing self to participate in anything you’ve ever participated before = because your very experience within the participation – the ‘how of you’ within and as that which you’ve participated in = was not real, but done in separation and thus not SELF.

Another experience that was realised is how the entire interdimensional existence in itself started fragmenting – because we realised how we were controlling the very interdimensional existence, meaning the state and form and way within which it exists, because we have controlled the very existence of SELF entirely. Everything was done in a certain specific manner or way to maintain some form of stability, some ‘acknowledgment for self that we’re doing it the correct or right way’ – within the maintenance of stability = control manifested – both within self and the environment as the interdimensional existence. Everything was ‘looking okay’ and ‘perfect’ with regards to the interdimensional existence and the beings participating within it – but within and as this STOP expression – it has been realised that the entire placement of the interdimensional existence was as controlled as we controlled ourselves to be, apply, express, experience in a certain specific manner or way.

The experience has and is as though we’ve existed within a ‘world’ an ‘existence’ which seemed so real – so true – and now for ourselves actually seeing, realising and understanding that nothing that we have ever done, ever participated in, every expressed, ever directed = has been real, because our starting point wasn’t SELF, but everything was constructed and designed by ourselves in separation. So one can just ‘imagine’ how the experience is – just STOPPING literally everything!
Completely detaching from an existence and experience without and within – the seemed so substantial, so absolutely certain – to see the ‘truth’ of SELF as what we have accepted and allowed to exist within and as to be able to realise SELF HERE.

Now for the WHY? and HOW? of I STOP!

The question obviously is why STOP?

Because it is within and as I STOP – that you for yourself will be able to realise, see and understand in an actual manifested experience how much of you as ‘who I am’ has been and is of the mind – especially with regards to your experiences within you and your world and what exists within you and this world. And within and as I STOP – you see, realise and understand directly and clearly how much of you within and as you has been directed for you, moved for you, expressed for you, experienced for you in separation – that has not actually been SELF, I, ME.
With regards to self forgiveness and self honesty – you understand that your mind is not you and within this assisting and supporting you to realise yourself, I, me – now applying self forgiveness and self honesty together with I STOP, wow, – you will really, within and as an manifested experience of you see, realise and understand for yourself – how much of you has been the mind – if not literally everything.

For example: I STOP, now you’ve stopped within and as breath. Now you clearly understand that if anything were to move within yourself = that it is not you, but the mind – because I stopped. From here – take into consideration that this ‘STOP’ is not the ‘I am not going to participate in the thought STOP’ – that particular STOP-application is not an actual complete, entire, total STOP – the stop of stopping thoughts is but a statement of ‘I am not going to participate’ – which is not to actually STOP, because you’re only saying that I will not participate.
This STOP I speak of ‘works’ practically as follows:
Again with I STOP. Now, in and as breath – thoughts, reactions move – which you, I, are not moving/directing/expressing/applying within and as self awareness – ‘something is moving from somewhere within you’ without you actually moving it.

So, the first step is to stop participation = self forgiveness.
The next step is self honesty = in observing this thought or reaction – you have to source the origin, the cause, the point of where and how this thought or reaction originated from in the moment here within and as you.
In applying this in self honesty – you will see the source, the origin, the cause here instantaneously in the moment. Then come the STOP – the complete and total stop of the entire construct and design from which such a thought or reaction within you originated from in the first place – and by stopping its existence at its source, its cause, its origin – you STOP it’s existence within and as you – by literally removing the entire construct from within and as you. This done by applying effective self forgiveness again, at the point, the core, the source the origin of the original thought/reaction that came up and release it within you entirely within and as the effective, absolute self honest self forgiveness application.
How will you know if you stopped it = if it does not re-occur again within and as you AT ALL. A STOP is complete – meaning that the entire construct from which the thought or reaction originated from – does no more exist within you at all – it is gone, obsolete. And it does not come up or reoccur again within and as you at all.

So, when a thought or reaction come up within you and you cannot see where it’s coming from – why the thought or reaction exist within you and why you’re participating within it = know you’re being self dishonest, trying to hide the point within you to in such a way still justify the reason why you’re still continuing to participate within it.

And if you have discovered the source, the origin and you’ve applied self forgiveness and it still reoccurs, it still remains – you have to ‘re-look’ both ‘points’ as the origin and cause and also your effectiveness with regards to self forgiveness at the origin and source of the thought or reaction.
Therefore – you have guidelines for you with regards to when you’re being self dishonesty or self honest within and as you as you assist and support you practically within and as your individual process.

No self judgment or self ridicule acceptable when the exact same or similar thought re-occurs towards you or something or someone – because this is also self dishonesty, because self judgment pave the road to ‘wanting to give up’ which is another method the mind use for you to justify the reason why you’re not simply again realising within and as self honesty: Alright – I have not applied effective self forgiveness or I have not accessed the actual core and source and origin of this thought/reaction within and as me – so I will look at this point again until it is done and no more exist within and as me as I set me ‘free’.

And here is also the WHY? of I STOP = because in just stopping participation in a thought or reaction in a moment = is not enough, and it will constantly and continuously re-occur and actually compound and not stop and also leaves room for self dishonesty, where you merely only just stop participation in a thought or reaction and not actually really absolutely looking within and as you with regards to the origin, source and core of where it originated from to finally, once and for all cease the existence of the entire construct within and as you.

So, within and as I STOP – you will assist and support you with absolute self honesty with you and discover, see and realise the truth of you for you.

More practical examples here for each human being to assists and support self within and as this STOP expression with regards to participation within and as this world:

What is required to be stopped within you and your world is that which stimulate reactions of mind within you in any and all forms – where movement, direction, expression and experience within self is driven and forced by a cause or a reason outside separate from you – instead of you moving you, you directing you, you expressing you, you applying you as I move, I direct, I apply and I express.

Therefore, a suggestion would be to for a moment – stop participation in that which ‘generate the system of the world’ which we have come to define as ‘life’ and ‘self experience’ – until you, within and as you, stand absolute as ‘I’ – and ‘I move’, ‘I express’, ‘I live’, ‘I direct’, ‘I participate’ – where you are certain within and as you that nothing and no-one outside of you stimulate reactions within you to cause you to be something you are not.

Here are some examples:

STOP buying magazines – within which contains the gossip and grandeur of the illusionary ‘glamour-world’, stimulating all forms of ‘mind-related reactions’ within and as yourself such as ‘beauty’, ‘money’, ‘sex’, ‘desire’, ‘want’, ‘comparison’, ‘judgment’ = it is so entirely unnecessary to buy magazines with useless information that has become a commodity of entertainment within and as this world.

STOP buying unnecessary foods that cross the line of consumption. Buy what you require to nurture your human physical body effectively and efficiently – definitely buy your treats that you enjoy for yourself also! But from the perspective of buy what you require – you will know.

STOP buying unnecessary clothing and garments – have clothes that are comfortable for you, so with the shoes also – unnecessary products are for instance jewelry, merely existent to entertain the ‘Look at me, look at me’ – picture-presentation industry within and as this world. And when buying clothes and shoes – clearly self honestly observe your starting point within and as you with regards to the particular clothes/shoes that you purchase – are you buying because they ‘look nice and others might accept’ or are they comfortable and practical for and as you.

STOP buying stuff – shit you really do not need or require.

STOP watching / viewing unnecessary films or movies that has become a ‘Oh – I must see that movie’ – meaning to watch a movie just because it’s there to watch. Observe the reason, the why you are watching the movie or film – are you watching it from the perspective of supporting the entertainment industry within and as this world – because ‘it’s something to do to keep you busy or relaxed for a moment’ – or are you watching the movie or film simply because you’re directing you to watch the movie or film – there is absolutely no outside separate reason or cause for why you’re watching a movie – you’re clearly directing you to watch the film or movie for you.

READ MORE – to assist and support your vocabulary together with the vocabulary purifier.

STOP drinking alcohol as alcohol exist within and as this world to subdue human beings’ common sense and follow the masses like sheep in the most subtle of ways and assist and support the mind consciousness system integration within and as you and alcohol in itself has no purpose whatsoever.

STOP buying or wearing make-up as it assist and support the entire system manifestation within and as this world with regards to the ‘outside projected presentation of and as self’ – herein also assisting the illusionary definition of you of the mind for the world. Make-up really destroying the natural expression of skin than anything else. Any reactions towards this within and as you = MIND.

STOP abusing drugs as drugs assist and support the integration and manifestation of the entire mind consciousness system within and as you and any seemingly profound experience you have on drugs is an illusion and is not real – because drugs in itself assist and support the activation of the unconscious mind, brought to your conscious mind – so your entire experience when on drugs is that of the unconscious mind – not you, no matter what the experience. So – those who claim to have any experience that was seemingly real when or while on drugs – you’re screwing with yourself to the extent where you’ll completely ‘lose yourself’ and within that decide for yourself that you will not make it here on earth within and as this process.
Try and have that experience just here with you in and as breath in the moment: IMPOSSIBLE – therefore = it is not real. All that is real is who you are here in every moment of breath – anything more or less than that is a mindf**k.

So, here are some examples – therefore, you have to look at all your participations within and as this world, with regards to everything existent within and as your world and within and as absolute self honesty – observe your starting point with regards to everything you participate in within and as your world – to ensure that you do not assist and support the system of mind and the system of world – to be enslaved and entrapped within and as the system within and without. But you give you the opportunity to realise I, who I am – so that I direct, I stand, I express, I move, I participate.

The Law of my Being

The Law of my Being – the Law of Me

There is one Law that exists: Oneness and Equality. There is one Law that has always existed: Oneness and Equality – That which you are, who I am – you will experience within and without. The inner one and equal with the outer.

The question is: Is this Law – oneness and equality, as that which you accept and allow you to be one with and equal to – you will experience, manifest and create within you and your world, actually understood?
And furthermore the question: Why has it not been noticed, realised or seen by each one within this world, from the perspective that each one is directly responsible for each refraction, each iota of an experience within themselves their world and this world in its entirety?

Self, I, Me – is the origin, the source that determine the Law of my Being. Self, I, Me determine what I accept and allow me to be one with and equal to as the law of my being.

Thus – the Law of your being is that which you are, who I am, as what you accept and allow you to be one with and equal to within you and as you.

Therefore – all and everything of what you experience within you of yourself in this moment is ‘who you are’ – the ‘I’, ‘Me’, ‘Self = the Law of your Being – consisting of all and everything you’ve accepted and allowed yourself to be one with and equal to.

The question you have to ask yourself is: Is this ‘Me’, this ‘I’, this ‘Self’ that I experience myself to be – how I would want to continue existing infinitely? For a moment take a direct self honest look at yourself as you are right here in this moment looking at yourself, the entirety of you – everything about yourself, especially your thoughts, emotions, feelings – place yourself alone, standing alone: Are you able to exist with yourself infinitely as is?
The other question is: Would you want to? No change – as is, with everything as you are now remaining – going in constant continuous cycles with the exact same thoughts existent within you, the exact same emotions and feelings, the exact same behaviours…you with yourself as the personality defined nature that you are in this moment infinitely…

There exist a misconception within human beings – that when one die it is the end, the end of everything and all of self, of I, of me with the approach to one’s life here on earth as follows: That I may exist in this one life as is and then it’s done – so who or what gives a fuck what I do with me, or who I am or what I ‘choose’ to experience within this life? Believing there to be no consequence, no affect to anything or anyone with regards to ‘who I am’ and ‘what I do’ with me, with self, with I in this ‘one life’ – until it abruptly ends, unexpectedly.

But then again – in having a close, direct self honest look at your life experience in this moment here, day in and day out: Again place yourself alone – Are you able to do this that you experience day and day out – within and throughout infinity. The exact same, precise cycle – the exact same, precise experience – you alone with you experiencing the exact same that you are currently day in and day out – within and throughout infinity?

It doesn’t matter what religion, what faith or what belief you hold within you – these questions are directed to and for YOU to have a direct self honest look at within and as you – for you, self honestly have a look at the questions: Would you be able to ‘live with’ all and everything of ‘who you are’ in this moment here infinitely as is – would you be able to live with you within what you currently do within this world day in and day out into infinity – the exact same, no difference, no change?

In having a self honest look at the questions – one would say: No. Why? Because each one currently within this world is who they are and do what they do within this one life believing it to be all that exist, just this one life.

The next question to ask then is: What are we doing here in this world? Why are we here in this world? Is this really all there is to it – we are ‘who we are’ and ‘we do what we do’ in this moment as is, because of our limited amount of ‘time’ here? If we’re not even able to exist with ourselves as is in this moment here infinitely, if we’re not even able to do what we do day in and day out – no change in who we are and what we do – infinitely, into infinity…what’s going on here?

Is this really how each one would want to continue existing within themselves and their world? This experience of you, this experience of you within this world - is this the kind of experience you would have gifted for yourself? Is this world experience as is how you would’ve manifested it for all, including you, because you also exist within and as it, as the experience of you together with all within it?

Then the next question: How did we get here? How did we become ‘who we are’, ‘who I am’ – how did we come to accept and allow such an experience of ourselves individually in this world? And this goes for each one – because we’re all together in this world.

Therefore, within observing these questions, observing yourself, observing your experience, observing this world, observing all of humanity: There must exist an ingrained, a deeply ingrained acceptance and allowance within each one of how we’re experiencing, of how we’re existing in this world in this moment here. To the point where such questions being asked may seem irrelevant for some – that each one has ceased to ask the very question, the question of SELF, the question of ME, the question of I – the question for SELF, the question for ME, the question for I: How and why did I get here? Is this all there is to me, to I, to self as who I am and what I do in this life here in this world?

Now – to be careful, because many would divert the response to the questions to religion or spirituality or the afterlife, or any form of belief or faith – but it is not to divert the response to the question to anything or anyone else but yourself. I am asking YOU these questions – I am not asking your faith, I am not asking your belief, I am not asking your religion and I am not asking your spirituality – I am not asking anything or anyone else but YOU, here – YOU as the being breathing and reading the words.

Having a look at the Law of my Being, the Law of Me – what has always been ‘missed’, what has never been taken into consideration is SELF – who I am, Me – self, I me – to answer the question of ‘who am I’? and ‘why am I here’ – despite the religions, the spirituality, the beliefs, the faiths – for YOU, for SELF for I, for ME – HAVE a look at the questions – then referring back to the previous questions of this you as you are here now, as you do what you do being able to exist with you alone as is into infinity…

Then why are we existing, why are we living ‘towards something or someone’? Why are we existing, why are we living with the belief, the perception, the idea that this is ‘our only and last life’ here in this world?

Who says we have not returned, life after life within and as the principle of reincarnation – but we just don’t remember, we have forgotten. That we have indeed actually so far – had the exact same lives, with the exact same ‘self’, ‘I’, ‘me’ over and over and over again – life after life after life = but not one can remember, each one has forgotten. Then within each life we presume that this is our only and last life here – then we become who we are and we do what we do – believing this is all there is and then it’s not. Not realising that we will return to this world again, with the exact same life experience, the exact same ‘self’, the exact same ‘I’, the exact same ‘me’ – but will not remember, will not recall.

Have a look at this world – this experience within this world: Has this world ever really changed? No – rape still exists, murder still exists, the money system still exists, abuse still exists, children going missing still exists, nature being destroyed, the earth being destroyed due to consumerism still exists, politics still exists, poverty still exists, starvation still exists, theft still exists, suicide still exists, war still exists, presidents still exists, military, police, security still exists – it’s all still exactly the same. But change has been defined as ‘evolution’ – where what has always existed, what has always been here has merely been ‘upgraded in becoming more advanced’. How have we deluded ourselves into believing that this world has or is actually changing in observing this world in its entirety?

If you look at this world self honestly: It has not changed – it is still exactly the same and each one’s experience within it, humanities experience within it is still exactly the same – though the ‘problem’ becoming more ‘prominent’ due to the vast, extensive amount of beings currently existing on the planet – that it is becoming more and more difficult to ignore the dire state this world and humanity is within, within which we exist all together.

In us returning life after life – the exact same ‘me’, the exact same ‘I’, the exact same ‘self’ – returning life after life after life with the exact same experience of me, of self of I, life after life after life – without remembering or recalling the previous life – now taking into consideration all of humanity – it is obvious that if the same ‘I’, the same me, the same self of each and every one return, with the exact same experience within and during the lives – that we will manifest and create – the exact same experience, the exact same world together as one. This is clearly indicated with regards to how this world is as is in this moment here – have a look – this world has gone into ‘one direction’ – remaining stagnant, yet ‘evolving and upgrading’ as building upon a foundation already existent – as a pyramid.

For example: In taking all of humanity as is in this moment here – each one as they are, the exact same definition of themselves as the personality that they are in this moment here – all of humanity, this would be the foundation of the pyramid. Now you ‘recycle’ all of humanity as is, meaning – ‘bring them back to this world to experience themselves within it’ as a ‘new life for each one’, though the I, self, me of each one remaining exactly the same, the very nature, the very law of each one’s being as ‘who they are’ remain exactly the same.
What would occur? Each one would exist as is, as this self, this I, this me as the only self, I, me that they know and understand to exist within and as themselves – and actually build upon the previous foundation of the previous life they had experienced within this world = without even being aware of it.
And so you recycle and recycle, life after life after life all of humanity – as is, the I, the self, the me of each one remaining exactly the same, no change, no difference – and so all of humanity together, build a layer upon layer upon layer as they are recycled from one life to the next – no change, no difference to self, to I, to me – not even being aware that they are experiencing ‘a next life from the previous life from which they had not changed’ – but are without awareness, building and creating and manifesting a world based on what existed before as the first primary foundation of the pyramid with which they’ve started. Therefore recreating the exact same experience of themselves, compounding the exact same experience of all together within this world = this world not changing, humanity not changing – just building and expanding as ‘evolving ‘that which has always been here – that which has always existed.

Have a look at this world – it operates as a pyramid also – and by the looks of it – we’ve reached the tip, the point, the end of the building of the pyramid with regards to ‘evolution’ – because this world is deteriorating, being destroyed – there is nothing more left to ‘build’, to ‘expand’ within and as this world = consumerism reveals this, we’re consuming this world to it’s end, we’re consuming ourselves to our own end…

This world operates as a pyramid as I have indicated from the perspective that nothing in this world has actually ever changed – everything is just compounding, becoming more intense, becoming worse, amplified – constantly just upgrading, expanding and building upon that which has always existed – but the self, the I, the me of each one within and as this world: No different, no change – still the exact same nature, the exact same beingness, the exact same self, I, me of each one within and as this world as all of humanity exists.

The reason why I say we’ve reached the tip, the end, the point of the pyramid – there is nothing more left to ‘build’, to expand upon, to evolve = is because the ‘building’, the ‘expansion’, the ‘evolution’ has transformed into consumerism – taking what does not exist, consuming what does not exist – to the extent where, for example = the food we eat is literally artificial.

So clearly – we have missed something, clearly we are not ‘seeing’ something, clearly we have not realised something, clearly we have not understood something and in having a look at this document thus far: Obviously it is ourSELFves.

What is experienced within us, within each one is experienced withIN, INside ourSELFves – IN-SELF. And we have continued to exist with the exact same self, the exact same I the exact same me – this is all of us, all of humanity, life after life after life, having the exact same experience life after life after life – all together manifesting the exact same world experience life after life after life – manifesting and creating the compounding nature of the experience of us all within and as this world – building the pyramid layer upon layer upon layer to the tip, to the point of it’s completion to where we are now and from where we cannot continue – the consequence: The slow but sure and certain destruction of this world within and as which we exist all together.

Now, this I, this self, this me is that which you currently are and experience you to be: This is the Law of your Being, the Law of I, the Law of Me, the Law of Self = this is YOU – this is what you are and who you are, all and everything of and as you as you sit before your PC and read the words – this is all that you are, all that you have become – have a close look at yourself = this is IT.

And according to his Law of your Being, the Law of your being as the experience of you within yourself and your world as that which you accept and allow you to be one with and equal to = you as it is with each one within and as this world: Manifest the experience of oursSELFves INdividually withIN ourselves and also withIN this world as ourSELFves.

Therefore, you yourself determine ‘who you are’ and ‘how you experience you’ within this world – because who’s here, who’s sitting right here reading these words? YOU are. Who is existing within and as your human physical body in this world? YOU are – YOU, I, me, self.

You are what you are in this moment here by the very Law of your being, as that which you have accepted and allowed you to be one with and equal to = and this goes for each one within and as this world – we are what we are, we are who we are by the very Law of our being and it is this law of our being that has and is determining the very experience of ourselves individually and all together within and as this world.

Therefore – the principle of oneness and equality has always existed – we’re all one and equal within and as this world. One from the perspective that each one of us is determining the experience of ourselves individually, yet all together within this world because we’re all here, from the very Law of our being as ‘who we are’ as all that we accept and allow ourselves to be one with and equal to within ourselves and accordingly experience and manifest – Equal from the perspective that each one has and is still existing within and as the exact same Law of their Being – no different, no change – manifesting and creating individually yet all together this entire world experience as is – over and over and over again.

So – let’s ‘bring all this back to self, to I, to me’ – to each one individually:
What must be taken into consideration is that you are here in this world, you are here within and as your human physical body, you are here breathing, speaking and experiencing yourself – and as we have determined before: This that you are now – you will not be able to exist with or live with into infinity.

So – removing the concept of death, removing the concept of this being your ‘last life’ – the question remain: How would you live within you, as you – ‘as who you are’ within and as you in understanding that you will have to exist and live with you and you alone infinitely?

Take into consideration that ‘you’ is ‘who you are’ within and as you – not related or connected to ‘worldly manifestations’ – I am speaking of ‘who you are within and as you alone’ – you existing with you alone infinitely.

This change the entire perspective with regards to SELF, to I , to ME – to WHO I AM. And this is the poInt that is necessary to be realised – because in this moment – many will have absolute no idea, no clue, no indication of how one is to live, transform SELF, I, ME to be able to exist with SELF, I ME infinitely alone – me being with me alone, here, infinitely – because we’ve taken SELF, I, ME, WHO I AM – for granted. That we have never even actually considered SELF in any way whatsoever – but existed as is as ‘who we are here in this moment’ – because it’s all that’s always been here.

So, again – because we’re all here together, one and equal within and as this world, manifesting and creating and determining the experience of ourselves individually yet all together within and as this world = the principle is ONENESS and EQUALITY.

The responsABILITY exist within and as each and every single ONE of us – to transform the experience of ourselves within ourselves and this world within and as this principle of oneness and equality as follows:

We have removed all system-manifestations within and as existence to the extent where each one only has the Law of their Being to purify – to transform only SELF, I, ME as ‘who you are’ for and as you individually within and as the principle of oneness and equality – that’s all each ONE as to ‘work with’ = only purifying the Law of your Being.

In having a look at what we have discussed thus far – it is for you to realise that what you are in this moment within you – this ‘who I am’, is all that you are – nothing ‘more’ and nothing ‘less’. It is this ‘who you are’ that is the current Law of your Being – meaning what you have accepted and allowed you to be. It is this Law of your Being that is determining the experience of you within yourself and your world – and so it for each and every single one within and as this world, including within and as the interdimensional existence – all of us.

Within this – you are what you are and how you experience you to be – because of what you accept and allow yourself to be one with and equal to within and as yourself. Now it is to purify / transform the nature of you – the Law of your Being – to exist so, to live so – that you are able to stand, remain and live with and as yourself alone = INFINITELY.

And the way to do this: Is self honesty and self forgiveness.

And anyone asking – but WHY? Have a look – do you want to return to this world again, again forgetting, again not remembering – ‘starting over’ from the exact same ‘self’, I, me – coming to the exact same point here in this moment – facing the exact same transcendence – to stop existing, living as you have always accepted and allowed yourself to? To finally stop and realise that you must live the transformation required within and as this world and so it is for each one?

Do you want to continue returning to an existence with rape, murder, abuse, war, violence, fear – fearing for your own child’s life, fearing for your own life – not having an actual experience of LIVING you, just compounding, becoming greater, becoming more intense until one finally in one life down the line somewhere realise – I have to be the solution?

And another point of common sense: We exist because this world exists, because earth exists – one and equal – and the nations are multiplying and this earth, this world cannot possibly sustain us at the current rate within and as which we exist – and it’s not due to anything else but WHO WE ARE – within and as ourselves – the very Law of our Being – determining the result, the effect we have within and as this world. And this world is not going to wait for us – either we stand, here in this moment – purify the nature of ourselves, the Law of our Being that has for eons of time determined, manifested and created the experience of ourselves and all together within and as existence – or we will be responsible for the end of ourselves, the end of us – to again, all together start back from the beginning – again experience eons of time of the exact same cycle – get to the exact same point, realization and transcendence: That I as each ONE is responsible for ME, this ME includes all as one as equal – because I am here in this existence together with all as one as equal – and if I do not stop and purify me – nothing will stop and everything will remain as is…

Have a look – no other solution has even sustained itself within and as this world – because the solutions that has been proposed or even exist, make not even a refraction of a difference with regards to the situation within and as this world in it’s entirety. Because the solution must be us, must be ourselves, must be ‘who we are’ – us purifying the Law of our Being, individually – herein purifying the world.

Therefore, in each one taking responsibility for self, finally transforming and purifying the Law of your Being as that which you have accepted and allowed you to be and become – transforming and purifying the experience of you within and as your world with self honesty and self forgiveness for and as self – we ONE by ONE stop the cycle, the experience of us all within and as this world – to no more continue existing as we have for eons of time – but finally put a stop to it and for the first time actually LIVE and not exist in constant continuous fear.

The mind within each one represents the current Law of your Being, the current manifested design of the Law of your Being – representing that which you have accepted and allowed you to be one with and equal to – within this, determining the experience of you within and as yourself and your world.

Therefore it is to self honestly have a look at yourself in this moment here – you as the mind representing the current manifested Law of your Being that you are ‘living’ – which we have come to accept as living – but this living is an absolute atrocity as indicated within and as the atrocities that exist within and as this world currently.

This experience of ourselves within this world is not life, is not living and one would be a fool to even think and believe that. This experience of ourselves in this world, within ourselves is as it is – because of the ingrained acceptance and allowance of the Law of our Being as the representation of the mind as all that we are = it is not.

In applying the tools as self honesty and self forgiveness = herein you purify the Law of your Being – to no more accept and allow you to be one with and equal to the mind as that which represents the Law of your Being as that which you have always accepted and allowed you to be.
But realise the Law of your Being is YOU as LIFE – not the MIND as what you have always been. So within applying self honesty and self forgiveness – you begin the process of standing one and equal with YOU as who you really are as LIFE – and not the mind as that which you have accepted and allowed you to be one with and equal to in separation.

Therefore you will stand one and equal with and as you as who you really are as life – and thus experience you as who you really are as life as you – and no more as the mind as that which have always for eons of time been the Law of your Being as the representation of all and everything you have accepted and allowed you to be one with and equal to and therefore experienced.

And so each one stop the cycle – the exact same cycle we’ve existed within, as and with the mind representing what we’ve always been and thus manifesting what we’ve always constantly and continuously experienced as this world experience indicate in this moment here.

As each one stop within themselves, purify the law of their being as what the mind represents with self honesty and self forgiveness and stand as life as all as one as equal = Life as all as one as equal as the Law of our Being as who I am – we will experience and manifest who I am as who we are as life.

And thus for the fist time within and as existence – actually live life as who we are as all as one as equal.

And have a look – this solution stand for each one equally – no matter where are you within this world – no matter in what situation you experience yourself within – self honesty and self forgiveness in purifying the Law of your Being as that which the mind is and has represented – to stop what we have always accepted and allowed ourselves to be one with and equal to as the mind, to stand one and equal with and as Life as who we really are – is HERE.

The solution is SELF – purifying the Law of your Being – and so it is for each one equally.

‘Ascension’ Tools

Here follows Practical Tools for Ascending from the Mud of Existence as we approach 2012:

Self Forgiveness:
Self Forgiveness is the Tool with which you stop yourself as the Creator creating the future through repeating the past, over and over again – only changing the Pictures, using the same pattern as base – thus, remaining in the past as memory as self-definition.

Self Honesty:
Self Honesty is the Tool with which you discern and check whether you have already forgiven yourself for participating or creating an experience or not. This is thus to Review the pattern and the picture and see if you have stopped participating and creating it.

Breath / Breathing:
Breathing is the Tool used if you’ve already forgiven yourself, but must still walk through an experience you created in the past before you stopped yourself through Self Forgiveness.

If you fall in your self-trust – that means, you do not trust your own Self Forgiveness and when the event from the past enter your present and instead of breathing through it, you go into suppression or action, emotionally or energetically based – acting as if the situation still exists – not realising you’re purely walking through your past which will stop once it is no longer being fed with energy through your creative active participation: You will Time-Loop and must start the Process of Self Forgiveness and Self-Honesty around the event again – until you can Trust you to Never again participate in the pattern or create an experience that do not consider all life equally.

Obviously you’re going to be challenged by the past which stretch through many, many cycles through many, many lives.
Thus, to deny what enters your existence through claiming you have somehow not created it, will simply activate a time-loop or multiple time-loops that’ll prove to you, that you are responsible for everything in existence as the actual creator – even that which each other exist as, as personalities, cultures and beliefs was created by each other and therefore; we’re responsible for each other.

Thus – Stop Creating a Reality that is Not Considering all Life Equally.

Step 1:
Stop yourself with Self-Forgiveness

Step 2:
Check yourself with Self Honesty

Step 3:
Breathe through Past Patterns ‘till they no Longer Exist

Step 4:


Look at this

The simplicity of the design of equality and oneness in and as a unified field

A pen and Paper is required to draw and number the design to understand the practical living of it

On the paper make a dot/mark/point and write next to it A

then 4 centimeters from it make another point and mark it B

A represents yourself --the starting point of self as self

B represents your relationships in your world--all the beings and points and systems you have direct relationships with in your word

thus--draw a line from you--A to B--all in your world--this is your primary life in space and time--you as the point in space--moving through time in relationship with all the points that matter in your world as B--these points are the actual people--the actual job--the actual doing/movement of self in this world--not what you think about it--or see it to be or judge it to be--the actuality--the self honesty of the relationships with all things--matter/people and animal in your world--this will be how your world is impacted by self directly

Now make a point C to form a perfect triangle--thus the line from A to C and from B to C must be equal--to signify the equality and oneness in all relationships--thus that in self expression you are expressing/directing/impacting your world equal and one

C represents how your relationships/conduct/expression/directive principle influence and impact your world --C is also the point where one reflect to see how one impact one's world /environment

Now draw a shadow of the Triangle ABC

thus on the opposite side of bottom of line AB--AB as the baseline

make another point called D--this will complete a diamond shape--draw the lines as well

the triangle ABD represents the impact in your shadow world--that means that which you take for granted and is the point where self honest forgiveness is done through self responsibility--thus to look at the world and do forgiveness for all and every event or situation--even if it looks out of control--it is out of control--because it is that part that has slipped away from self through ignorance--through not directing all of self as equal and one to all other selves--keeping every one else in mind so to speak

thus-- by allowing the mind to run the design--the mind has been running ABD--and been influencing or controlling even ABC--thus total enslavement--because no self directiveness is to be found

Note: Ensure that all lines drawn of triangles are equal and one in length

In this design--see that the question emerges how to stop this --it is out of control

It starts with A--Self--to direct all relationships with self as B--equal and one and stop all relationships that is not equal and one--thus to stop supporting it--that will cause the relationship with the world of self==ABC to become self directed--and will cause self to touch the lives of others through example--

Thus if AC and BC indicate as time line and events where one touch the lives of another and become their support foundation to stand equal and one until from say A and C as base another point is formed as a triangle with equal line--equality and oneness to AB--a point is formed called E and another being birth self as equal and one--thus if each being support another in this acting as a foundation of equality and oneness-- the process will exponentially accelerate

thus--in this one use the design of the unified field--the mathematics of the unified field--everything that is here of the unified field--simply by changing one's perspective from one as a slave-- to one as the actual creator--directive principle--with the directive principle directed practically in every part of one's life

The inevitability of this is obvious in common sense--by assisting another as you assist yourself--together--alone--all as one we
birth self in all ways by self--through self--for self--and everyone else is also self and all stand equal and one

in this--the sphere of influence--that which is taken for granted--the mirror of the world--that which has become a life of its own called consciousness--shown in the triangle ABD as the shadow of self--will become directed within the same foundation line of expression as shown in the principle of directive principle in the relationship between A and B

thus--we utilize the very design principles of the unified field to demonstrate that equality and oneness as the principle of life exist everywhere--even in the illusion created by the mind

this makes it possible--to in one life--transcend the total design of what really matter--and then what manifest is self in all ways

what happened in the unified field is that self stood as A and saw point B as separate from self

and point C was created as an entity called the relationship between A and B

that then created the need for a system to manage the relationship between A and B and C--which manifested as consciousness as the shadow as represented in the relationship between A B and D

in this was manifested their lost self as the relationship in search of the other half--the better half--thus the relationship between male and female--the split of the I
yet in the very same design--equal and one--that answer has always been
because in the design of the separation that occurred through the perspective or meaning given to what is here--caused a belief that self is somehow not complete--that has driven self to the brink of extinction by self

thus one start simplistic with what is here, the relationships that is here, who you are here--and you first equalize your direct sphere of influence, that means
what stays
what goes
what remain as I

the unified field has already been designed to bring forth this equal and one


unless one stand equal and one to it, one become extinct

that means

you will extinct yourself

I deliberately stop at point E so that you can continue with the expansion of the design of the drawing and see for yourself that within this you're equal and one

and that everyone you support that become equal and one with you where you insist on their equality and oneness through your support and example --that all no matter where in the design
will be equal
and one all processes will be equal and one
all expression will be equal and one
all creation will be equal and one

obviously that which is currently in manifestation or matter or mind that is not equal and one will become extinct as it was the outflow of the separation of self and it demonstrates the awesome creative power expression of self

we desgined this creation

we are living as this creation

we are here to sort out our creation

there is nowhere esle to be but to be now here


now as the unified field and here as the presence of self in and as the directive principle of the unified field

where self is the law and not the deign of the laws to manage the relationships betweenness the ideas of self

Important note--is to note that A as self is the starting point--thus--if A as self is less than or in fear of or in lack of understanding any part of what life is--equal and one as all--as one--self will manifest--within this--a process where self will create cycles that will invert and bring experiences based on the separations allowed

these experiences are the very nature of the design principles of equality and oneness--will by its very nature bring insight and allow one to start again as self

the suggestion thus is--to be certain of who self is as life--before the greater responsibility towards all as one as equal is embraced

also note--that by the very nature of equality and oneness--thus the embracement of separation--will lead to the extinction of the perception of self as manifested and projected within the mirror as represented by the triangle ABD

and that through that extinction--self will emerge as life

but as common sense dictates

what is not self will no longer be

thus if fear exist oif losing self

the very starting point is seperation

and is an indication

by definition

that self do not exist in fact

Clear the Temple

I am in the temple of thought – who nose the truth? What chains us to the eye but the money we need to satisfy the Eye? These are the money changers we must clear from our temple.

Strange again; in Afrikaans, the temple next to the eye is called “slaap” – directly translated, it means 'sleeping' or 'to sleep.' In our thoughts, we sleep, and we are sheep looking for a shepherd. When the hurt gets enough, we may hear and see how we sleep here in our reality. Our reality is in the Eye of the Beholder centre of our temple, in a line behind our eyes. This is where, and from where, we project our holographic mind reality, using our mind in relation to our physicality. When we die, all that changes is that we start from a different frequential form – still creating in the same way.

Strange, we equate everything in this reality of 3D to time. But, look – see, it is the flow of our perception. We measure it in time to give us power and control. Yet, time does not exist; a moment ago is gone – the moment to come is not here – only present is present. In the present, as the present, is the flow of ourselves. In essence, the present is as timeless as we allow ourselves to be. When we attempt to tie present to time, we only enslave ourselves.

Then, we enslaved ourselves to the ultimate systems. How? Time is money – time and money – both illusionary systems we allow to control our self-expression. We also use it to control each other. When are we setting ourselves free? What are we enslaving our children in?

What did Jesus demonstrate when he chased the money diggers from the temple? Did he show we must banish thought from our minds? When Jesus said, “Judge not,” did he realise that only thoughts can judge? Stop thinking – no judgment. He must have understood it! Looking at his self-expression, no-thought made his journey possible.

Clear the temple – clear the mind – set yourself free. Remember, knowledge is the tree of good and evil, whose fruit is judgment. Or, equated thinking is the polarity of good and bad, which messes with true self-value and removes the Image and Likeness of God from your self-perception.

Wake up from the sleep. Wake up from thinking. Clear the temple. Be present as the presence.

The Process of Self-Willed Equals

Okay – so, is on ‘Direction’ and...What is ‘Happening’ In the ‘Bigger’-Picture, ‘Universal-Scale’ – So, ‘Hear’ what I’m ‘Saying’ ‘Specifically’; Whether You ‘Hear’-me or ‘Resist’ what I’m ‘Saying’ – will Not-make a ‘Difference’ to the ‘Outcome’ Of your-‘Existence’ –it’ll ‘Only’ ‘Make a Difference’ to How you ‘Experience’-it and How you will ‘Come to the ‘Realization’ Of ‘Equality’ of ‘All –Life’ as an ‘Actualized’-‘Expression’ of-Yourself’ – ‘Obviously’, to Not-Be in a ‘Position’ where You Are ‘Expressing’ ‘Life’ ‘Equally’ As ‘Equals’ Within your-‘Life’ at this stage = is a ‘Reflection’ ‘Only’ Upon-Yourself And ‘Who You Are’, and therefore some ‘Corrective’-‘Action’ is being-‘Taken’ at a ‘Universal-Scale’ – to ‘Sort-Out’ the ‘Greed’ that ‘Developed’ through ‘Self-Interest’ and the ‘Ideas’ that was ‘Formed’ Around Millions of Years of ‘Havoc’, that was ‘Sawn’ by Those that ‘Form’-‘Judgments’ About-‘Others’. So ‘Clearly’: ‘Judge Not Lest Ye be Judged’ – And ‘Clearly’: ‘Love Thy Neighbour As Thyself’ = Is in-Fact a ‘Living-Equality’.

The ‘Problem’ that is ‘obviously’ ‘Faced’ is that This will-be a ‘Process’ of ‘Equalizing’ – because ‘Everyone’ is Finding -Themselves on a ‘Timeline’ of ‘Multidimensional’-‘Consciousness’ – in Various-‘Points’ – In ‘‘Unequal’ ‘Positionings’ of ‘Form’’ that is ‘Designed and Programmed’ ‘Geometrically’, ‘Mathematically’ and ‘Symbolically’, Causing a ‘Perceptual’-‘Reality’ of ‘Differences’ and ‘Individuality’ and ‘Uniqueness’ – which is Not How ‘Everything-Exist’ ‘In-Fact’. You’ve ‘Created’-it ‘This-Way’, and because you’ve ‘Created’-it and ‘Allowed’-it – you’re Going to have-to ‘Walk’ Through-it and ‘Sort-it Out’ Yourself – ‘Alone’. The ‘Only’-‘Assistance’ one can ever ‘Get’, Is ‘Assistance’ through... call-it ‘Motivation’, ‘Sharing’ – But – ‘even’ when ‘Shared’: The ‘‘Seeing’ for-Oneself’ Is ‘The Only-Way’ Each-One will-‘Move’ – And then: your-‘Movement’ will-be ‘Self-Willed’ ‘Alone’ – there will-be ‘No-Support’ from ‘Anything’ in the ‘Universe’ – because you Cannot-be ‘Equal’, Unless You Are ‘Equal’ ‘In-Fact’ In ‘Self-Will’. The ‘Process’ will Take-On Several-‘Facets’, I’ll ‘Describe’-them, and – You should be able to ‘Place’-Yourself and ‘Position’-Yourself ‘According’-to What you Already-‘Know’ About-Yourself Within-this; And – ‘Understand’ This is Not to ‘Place’-You in a particular-‘Category’ – ‘That’ You’ve Done ‘Already’-Yourself – This is ‘simply’ to ‘Explain’ the Various-‘Processes’ that is ‘Here’ and that Is now ‘conclusively’-‘Confirmed’ As ‘Effective’ And ‘Manifest’, and is ‘Now’ the ‘Final’-‘Phase’ of the ‘Equalizing’ of ‘All’ ‘Beings’ in-‘Existence’.
This ‘In-Fact’ Is the ‘Last’-‘Life’ of ‘Everyone’ on ‘Earth’ – from the perspective that: ‘Who You Are’ in your ‘Current’-‘Position’, You Will be ‘Facing’ your ‘Last-‘Life’. There’s Various-‘Ways’ of ‘Facing’-This –
The ‘one’ is a ‘Living-Process’ – ‘Living-Process’ is where you-Will ‘Deliberately’ ‘Focus’ On ‘Walking’ Out-of a ‘Current’-‘System’ that is ‘Unequal’ in this World, and you will ‘Act’ and ‘Focus’ and ‘Give’ ‘All of You’ To the ‘Resolving’ of an ‘Equalized’-‘System’ as a ‘Statement’ of ‘Understanding’ that if You Are in a ‘Position’ where You Have ‘More’, you are...and You Are in a ‘Position’ of a ‘Greater’-‘Intelligence’ – You should Also Be in a ‘Position’ of ‘Greater’-‘Responsibility’ to ‘Make’-‘Decisions’ and ‘Act ‘on-Behalf’ of ‘Those’ that were-Not ‘Equal’ to-You – ‘That’ Has-Not ‘Happened’ – ‘That’ will ‘now’ be ‘One’ of the ‘Ways’ that one can-‘Prove’ that you-‘Understand’ the ‘Condition’ that is ‘Existent’ in this ‘World’, and that you can-‘Show’ that you-‘Understand’ that the ‘so-called’ ‘Evolutionary-Process’ has-Not Caused a ‘Benevolent’-‘Human’ ‘in-Fact’ – it’s Caused a ‘Greedy’, ‘Consumerism’-‘Based’ ‘Human’, that is ‘Only’ ’Interested’ in Themselves and their-Own ‘Fears’.
So – the ‘Living-Process’ will Either be-‘Walked’ By Oneself-‘Alone’ – or, in a ‘Group’. In a ‘Group’, ‘simplistically’, you’ll, like, for-instance ’Understand’ that What is ‘Happening’ has got ‘Nothing’ to-do with ‘Desteni’ – ‘Desteni’ is ‘simply’ a ‘Group’ of People that Is ‘Together’ to ‘Support’, and that Will be ‘Offering’ ‘Ways that one can ‘Support’-Yourself. ‘Obviously’ for-‘That’, there will be a ‘Fee’ in-‘Support’ Of the People that Is ‘Involved’ in ‘Doing’-This. There is No-‘Magic’ in this ‘World’ of ‘Overcoming’ the ‘Current’-‘System’ that has been ‘Allowed’ – It’s gonna-Take ‘Commitment’ from ‘Those that Participate’.
Those that Do-Not, at this stage, ‘Fit’-Into that ‘Category’ of for-Instance ‘Doing’ the ‘Structural Resonance Alignment’-‘Process’ – you’re Not ‘Left-Behind’ – you’re ‘simply’ Not going to-be in a ‘Position’ where you can-be ‘Supported’. First ‘Find a Way’ to ‘Support’-Yourself in the ‘System’ – so you can ‘Find-Out’ ‘Exactly’ ‘What’s Going-On’. The ‘World’-‘System’ as it-is Slowly but Surely ‘Collapsing’: Is ‘Indicative’ of the Same-‘Process’ that you ‘Go-through’ at-‘Death’ – As your ‘Physical’-‘Body’ – which is like...the ‘Business’ of your-‘Life’ – And the ‘Money-System’ of your-‘Life’ Starts to ‘Shut-Down’; So – that Doesn’t-Mean that Anyone doesn’t have...won’t Have the ‘Opportunity’ to ‘Support’-Themselves to be able to-‘Do’ What is ‘Best for All’ – If you ‘Really’ ‘Go for That’ – You’ll be Able to ‘Do’-it. But there-Is, ‘Understand’, No-‘Obligation’ from ‘Desteni’ as the ‘Group’ to ‘Assist’-you – You will Have-to ‘Participate’ As an ‘Equal’ in the ‘Group’, and ‘Support’ as much as You will-be ‘Supported’; within That-‘Context’ – That’ll have-to be-‘Done’ ‘According’ to ‘What Is in this World’.
So – the ‘Living-Process’ Also Is where ‘One’ will be able to ‘Walk’-it Based on the ‘Videos’ and the ‘Forum’ and the ‘Information’ ‘Available’ – ‘That’ will be ‘Free’ and it will-‘Remain’ ‘Free’; ‘Specifically’ so-that ‘Those’ that are ‘Not in a Position’ to be ‘Part of a Group’ and Have ‘That’ Kind of ‘Support’ at this stage, Can ‘Actually’ ‘Walk’ their-‘Process’ – with ‘Support’ from the ‘Material’. ‘Obviously’, Once an ‘Equal-Money’ ‘System’ Is ‘in-Place’, which is a ‘Inevitability’ within the ‘Equalization’ of ‘Love Thy Neighbour As Thyself’ – Then the ‘Support’-‘Base’ will-be ‘Expanded’ to ‘Include’ ‘Those’ that Are ‘Walking’ in ‘Self-Honesty’, Without ‘Whining’ and ‘Expecting’-‘Anything’ – but ‘Actually’ ‘Contributing’ and ‘Showing’ that They Are ‘in-Fact’ ‘Standing’, and they are Not ‘Attempting’ to Have-‘Benefit’ for What they are Not-‘Willing’ to ‘Actually’ ‘Act’-On Themselves As ‘Equals’.

That is the ‘Basis’ of a ‘Living-Process’ which will be...’basically’ Take as long as it-‘Takes’; ‘Minimum’ of ‘Seven-Years’, But in Most-‘Cases’ it will Take ‘virtually’ a ‘Life-Time’, because ‘Only’ the ‘inevitable’ ‘Fear of Death’ And the ‘Changes’ that Happen-‘Physically’ Will ‘Bring-Home’ the ‘Reality’ that the ‘Point’ must be-‘Faced’ of What has been ‘Allowed’ in this-‘Reality’.
‘Obviously’, In this all, ‘Nature’ will be ‘Playing’ a Major-‘Role’, there will’ll be able to ‘Observe’ ‘Changes’, ‘Extensively’-so, in ‘All’ ‘Kingdoms’ of ‘Nature’, As it is going to ‘Support’-You in ‘Helping’-You ‘Realize’ the ‘Folly’ of ‘Energy’, the ‘Folly’ of ‘Beauty’ as ‘Nature’, the ‘Folly’ of ‘Evolution’; And that you’re...will ‘Only’ Be ‘Forever-Losing’ if You would’ve ‘Stayed’ in Such a ‘System’. After All, it’s ‘just’ a ‘System’.
You Are ‘Equal’ to this ‘System’ you ‘Subscribe’-to; So – I suggest You ‘Subscribe’ to an ‘Equality-System’, which will-be a ‘Statement’-of ‘Unconditional-‘Love’, where You Do Not-‘Accept’ Any Other-‘Being’ in-‘Existence’ as ‘Less’-than an ‘Absolute’-‘Equal’ ‘Creator’ Of ‘Existence’-Itself.

The ‘Second’-‘Process’ is the ‘Death-Process’. The ‘Death-Process’ – we will be ‘Describing’-that more ‘in-Detail’ as-well for ‘Those’ that would ‘Dare’ to ‘Hear’ what ‘That’ would-‘Involve’ – but ‘That’ in-Essence would be the ‘Process’ where You Have not Had the ‘Opportunity’ to be ‘Exposed’ to ‘Anything’ in this ‘Reality’, ‘Regarding’-to the ‘Equality-Process’ – And where you will-be ‘Walking’ In ‘Awareness’ Towards your-‘Death’ while you ‘Walk’ Out-of the ‘Physical’, while ‘Being’-‘Phsyical’.
You’ll be ‘Unable’ to ‘Speak’, you’ll be ‘Unable’ to ‘Share’ your-‘Process’ and you’ll be ‘Totally-‘Alone’; And you will be in a ‘Battle’ with the ‘Mind’ that will ‘Suck-You Dry’ ‘till there is ‘Nothing’-Left.And you will ‘only’ be able to ‘Walk’ Out-of This through ‘Self-Will’, ‘Dedication’ – and: your-Own ‘Effort’, ‘internally’. This will Not be able to be ‘Confirmed’ by Any-‘Being’ – That is ‘simply’ the ‘Nature’ of the ‘Process’, and is ‘simply’ ‘Shared’ so that one can ‘Understand’ that there-Is ‘Provision’-‘Made’ for ‘All’-‘Beings’ in-‘Existence’. And Within this ‘Process’, of which we Already Had the first ‘Confirmations’ of a ‘Successful’-‘Death’, one will be able to ‘Transcend’ at-‘Death’, and you’ll ‘Transcend’ the ‘Mind’ in-Essence – And This will ‘Obviously’ ‘Take’ as long as it-‘Does’, And will-be ‘Part’ of a ‘Death-Process’ – You Will ‘Die’ in this ‘Process’.
‘Obviously’, ‘Those’ that ‘Do’ a ‘Living-Process’ will ‘still’ ‘Face’-‘Death’, and ‘obviously’ will also ‘Face’ the ‘Transcendence’ of-‘Death’ – But it will-be ‘Different’ because you’ll be... ‘Actually’ be able to ‘Experience’ and ‘Share’ your-‘Experience’.

The ‘Third’ –‘Process’ would be for ‘Those’ that ‘Die’ as the ‘Mind’ – you’ll ‘Die’ as the ‘Mind’ Within ‘Fairly’-‘Simple’ ‘Easy’-‘Death’ – and On the ‘Other-Side’ you will-‘Face’ your-‘Reality’, and you will ‘Re-Incarnate’ Into your ‘Last’-‘Life’, and ‘Face’-it ‘Accordingly’.
So If you-‘Die’ as the ‘Mind’, ‘obviously’ you’ll ‘Die As a...’Minimized’, As a ‘Limited’-‘Version’ of-Yourself, because ‘Everything’ that you have-‘Abdicated’ to the ‘Mind’ – you will-‘Lose’; it will be ‘Taken-Away’ from-You. Why? You have ‘Given-it Away’ to the ‘Mind’ – you have ‘Given’ ‘Authority’ Over-‘That’ of-Yourself to the ‘Mind’ – and therefore it will-‘Die’ With the ‘Mind’ and the ‘Physical’ and ‘‘Return’ to ‘Substance’’ – And ‘What ‘Remains’ of-You’ will have-to ‘Start-Again’ – and ‘Walk’-Into a ‘New-‘Life’.

These ‘Variations’ or Various-‘Ways’ Will-‘Ensure’ that Every-Single-‘Being’ in-‘Existence’ Will ‘Eventually’ be-‘Equal’, As You Will ‘Stand-Up’ Through ‘Trials’ and ‘Tribulations’ and your-‘Own’ ‘Will’ and ‘Effort’, to a ‘Point’ of ‘Equality’, where you will ‘Never-Again’ ‘Abuse’ ‘Life’ in Any-Way Whatsoever, and ‘Never-Again’ ‘Abuse’ Any-‘Being’ in-‘Existence’; And ‘All’ Will Be ‘Equal’, yet ‘Individual’.
In an ‘Infinite’ ‘Possible’ ‘Universe’ – We Are ‘All’ ‘In-Fact’, when ‘Realized’, ‘Equals’ in ‘Every-Way’. That does-Not ‘Take-Away’ from our-‘Individuality’.
And therefore, Each-One Will Be ‘Individual’ and, ‘strangely-enough’: ‘Unique’.
So – there is No ‘Sameness’ to ‘fear’; The ‘Sameness’ is in the ‘System’ that ‘Exist’ on-‘Earth’ ‘Now’ – the Same-‘System’ that ‘Control’ and that ‘Dictate’ the ‘Choices’ that is Being-‘Made’, where ‘No-‘Life’ can-be Found’; As ‘All’ is ‘Scurrying’ for ‘Position’ and ‘Power’ and ‘Self-Interest’ and ‘Greed’ and ‘Entertainment’, and ‘Do-Not Care’ About-‘Anything’ but their-‘Own’ ‘Life-Experience’; ‘That’ in-Itself is ‘Unacceptable’, and one will ‘Face’-That in ‘Appropriate’-‘Ways’. Do-Not ‘Underestimate’ What is ‘Really’ ‘Going-On’ – You Have-Been ‘Trapped’ in your-‘Mind’, in a ‘Multidimensional’ ‘Symbolic’-‘World’ of an ‘Interdimensional’-‘Machine’, which ‘Feeds’ Off-You like a ‘Parasite’.
You Want to ‘Stop’-This? YOU Must ‘Stop’-This. Without You ‘Stopping’-it, you will Not be able to be ‘Equal’.

And, Yes – there Is One-More ‘Point’: ‘Those’ that Do-Not ‘Stand’ = will ‘simply’ ‘‘Return’ to ‘Substance’’ – there is ‘No-Point’ for Such-‘Individualization’ to ‘Take-Place’ where there is No ‘Equality’; and that will ‘Never-Again’ be ‘Allowed’ in the ‘Universe’.
Enjoy your-‘Process’!

Eternal Life

we found something astounding during the first year of process

we are all eternal ---but we keep on forgetting everything

we could trace beings back in history--but they have had so many lives since the point we were investigating--that only their link to the event remained

no progression was taking place--in fact it was all regression and reincarnation that existed long before earth--was a way we were coping with forgetting what we do to each other, what we do to ourselves --because without a point to stop--we will harm each other even more--thus in a way death emerged as a way to protect us from ourselves and each other

this is what Desteni is about--the implementation of the solution to this as equality and oneness that this may never happen again -- that we may never forget life and each other again

this will take a while -- but the outcome is certain--all equal and one--a living self yet individualized will happen --unfortunately only after much adoo about nothing which will be forgotten again--till our very beingness change and we stop our separation from life


*a note

infinity and eternal is not the same

infinity is what happens in the polarity relationship between positive and negative--it cycles between two poles infinitely repeating the same patterns

eternal means that we remain--but not as you understand you now or even as interdimensional--we kind of diminish to virtually nothing and start again--it is quite sad


Have you ever been able to do anything in this world faster than one breath at a time?: And to this you’ll answer yes.

The mind and thoughts are faster than a breath.
But look, you’ve constructed your life, one breath at a time - not with your mind - but with your breath.
And whatever you did and wherever you were in every breath, and whom you have been as the breath - knowing or unknowing – present or not – aware or not – who you have been in every breath of your life – is the bricks, the building blocks of who you are today.

You might’ve had some epiphanies, but if you have not deconstructed your life, completely, breath by breath to birth through self forgiveness, you will not enter anything else but what you have created yourself to be as the breath of your life.

And in this is the greatest danger, to determine what’s real and what is not – your actual breath and who you are as the breath and whomsoever had an influence in that actual breath is who you really are.

How you really hide from all of this, is through the mind as the thoughts – all of this, is happening all at the same time, too fast to see. Because have a look, you don’t even see, every breath you take – how would you ever see, every thought you have.

Thus suggested to start, to first become aware of every breath and deconstruct layer by layer, in reverse, every breath of this life.

This will give you an opportunity to re-birth yourself as life.

Unfortunately, if you allow the mind, in any way, to form any opinion or idea or comparison about anything during the time that you are deconstructing yourself as the breaths you have been, the mind will screw you into oblivion with knowledge and you will have to die physically to be reborn again.

So look again, everyone is where they are, because of all of the breaths they have taken – everyone is who they are, because of all the breaths they have taken – everyone is what they are, because of all the breaths they have taken – everyone is why they are because of all the breaths they have taken: Your very reality is implied in every breath you take. In every breath, by implication – permission is given through their breath for everything to exist as you, in this reality.
Your breath has constructed you as who you are as the reader of this words right now, everyone’s breath together, is the construct of this reality.

One by one each will have to deconstruct themselves to understand how this reality came about, and the breath will force this issue in all ways.

Consciousness and Awareness

Consciousness and awareness exist at exactly the same point--HERE

it is the observer/viewer/starting point that determines what is consciousness and what awareness

consciousness exist as only 2 dimensions and is always only viewed as 2 dimensions--self and other--with no awareness of consequence of the observation of self and other--consciousness thus exist as relationship and defines itself through relationship

awareness exist HERE as 3 dimensional--thus the point of consequence is added in full understanding which then influence/direct the observer/viewer/ starting point to CHANGE the WAY of participation HERE

man is currently in CONsciousness--still to face CONsequences to become 3 dimensional


The End of Self-Awareness

Today's recording was once again thwarted by electronics. After over an hour's worth of conversation, we found that the recorder stopped at minute 10. We sorted that out and had Bernard give his chat all over again. It was a bit shorter, but covered all the pertinent points of the previous attempt.

Minute 1:08 (After everyone settling down)

Bernard: Okay, let's have a chat about a chat about a chat about... the end of self-awareness.

Let's start at the beginning. What is the definable points within our awareness that is quantifiable? We are born we then exist within this reality within a particular experience, and we die.

When we are born, we are born within a family, within a culture, within a country, within a language, within a particular social design. When you are born, all you have is that which you get from your mother and your father through DNA.

That is what we are, have explained already at Desteni as your “structural resonance.”

According to your DNA placement, that means the design, within that which is in your bloodline, you will have particular abilities, you will have particular paths that is more dominant and paths that is less apparent.

So therefore out of that you will have particular features, particular abilities which is either a more sharper mental ability, a more effective physical ability – various different points that will be DNA based coming from your parents, from your bloodline.

Within that obviously is, that is your structural resonance – that is, the ‘sound frequency’ which defines who you are as a physical being and what will be your ‘programmable abilities’ and in what field you will be ‘more effective’.

This gets then enhanced and is dependent upon; where you are born and what is your social support, your money support you have within this reality, your education support and obviously what is your religious upbringing.

All of that within the context of the family will have an effect on ‘who you will become as a personality’, as a person’ that will participate within a system – which is the world as society.

If for instance, you were abused as a child, that will have an effect on that perception of yourself, that experience of yourself, based on what you've been programmed.

So what is the principle here? The principle is that you are programmed according to the experiences of those that were before you; your parents, your society. It is following no other principle but experience which is fear and survival based.

Accordingly, you will end up following exactly what you've been programmed to follow.

Which in essence would be the definition of a robot within a system which is a manufacturing system that manufacture facts, and according to these facts, which is information – you are in a formation [that] will be formed and the form of you, will be projected into the world according to that information.

Which is why we are now, we have moved from an industrial age to an information age, where everyone is controlled by information completely.

You are thus only a number.

And if you do not have that number – and that number do not equate to the system, and the value the system has given you and that you are actually following the system and the rules of the system, you are kicked out by the system and you become null and void, and you are unable to survive in the system.

Darryl: ah, “The Mark of the Beast.”

(Various references of the Mark of the Beast is contained in the Book of Revelations, where it is stated that in the end times that the “Antichrist” will appear and dupe humanity into enslaving themselves. The relevant passage:
“He causes all, both small and great, rich and poor, free and slave, to receive a mark on their right hand or on their foreheads, and that no one may buy or sell except one who has the mark or the name of the beast, or the number of his name.” Revelation 13:16-17)

Bernard: The Mark of the Beast. The Number. And as that continues, obviously, everyone participating within that, is doing it from a perspective of what is called, “self-awareness.”

You are aware of the system, you are aware of yourself within the system, y0u are aware what you as yourself must do to survive in the system, and accordingly, you participate.

We look back at history; we have been “evolving” as this self-awareness within a system.

And as we move and evolve within our experience in self-awareness, the system evolves and accordingly we have a system that seemingly evolves into more and more stuff we are manufacturing as the way we are showing that we are in fact actually, apparently, existing.

So it's like you look at something and says, “Okay, I'm a human. I created this. So therefore, I must exist!”

Darryl: Ah, Manufacture. Man is a Sure Fact.

Bernard: Absolutely. So in your manufacturing, you are as Man attempting to make yourself real in fact, through a process of how you are aware of yourself within that which you have placed as your creation: which is a system and everything made within the system and of the system.

Now, if we look at the primary point where self-awareness is so easily used and abused, which is your New Age Spirituality scene, you'll notice a fascinating thing:

Everyone within that system of self-awareness, will use particular definitions, that according to them, makes them better than others, for instance, “Love.” They'll say, “I am love!” “I am God.” “I am ascending.” “I am becoming better, I am becoming more.”

What you are saying as a system, “I am becoming aware of myself within the context of the system within a definition that I like more, that makes me more acceptable as something that resembles something that I would call 'Divine.'”

It is our search to be “God” within a system that causes that. The fact that one actually still adheres to the basic seven-days of Creation as it is written in the Bible, obviously is not realized, because

within that you are still within a system that is seven days, you are still within a system where are dominant or “more than” the animal, dominant or “more than” the plant, which is regarded as a system.

What is a plant, a human and an animal? What is the similarities?

All of it is based on DNA which is based on thus, a particular set of chromosomes, a particular set of relationships that causes one to have particular skills that is programmable as language, as society, as expression and so on.

And therefore the difference between a chimpanzee and a man is but a few chromosomes. The rest is exactly the same. Those chromosomes give the chimpanzee a particular language and expression and social structure, and it gives to Man a particular language and expression and social structure.

But in essence, within the context of its existence, within the context of its program, it is what it is. And it can only “evolve” to a certain point.

The same with Man. Man can only evolve to a certain point, which is why most of our Spirituality has been projected as ideas beyond death, which is based in hope and assumption and conjecture and apparent experiences while in “divine inner communication.”

What are you really communicating with within yourself? You are communicating with that part that you hope to become.

That then creates an idea of divinity or “God” within which one then attempt to exist as an example to society what you perceive would be “God,” what you perceive you would want to be.

It is not considered that any of that, in fact, do not actually have any impact on improving the lives of beings on Earth that is less fortunate.

So, what has really happened? Let's start to consider it:

When you as a child is born, in your first seven years, you are getting your basic programming; your cognitive skills, your language skills, your social skills, your basic body functional skills, eating skills, sleeping, your relationship with your family and your immediate environment.

Then it expands to your education, where your education will move you into and integrate you into society so you could become an effective part of the manufacturing industry of our consumerism. Where you could create things to be consumed and be effective within it.

All of that, is part of what you can call your Programmed Self.

From that Programmed Self, you’re then attempting to become an individual. That attempt to become an individual, is done through what is called, “self-reflection.”

You reflect upon yourself in relationship to your society, in relationship to what all your knowledge that is available, and you make a decision who you are according to that.
That you call “choice” or “free choice”.

Obviously, the fact that it is within a limited construct and design that is programmed as well, kind of never enters the equation.

Because you do not consider, that within the context of you assessing you, you can only assess you according to the program language you've been programmed with, within the context of the program; the society, the religion and the education you have.

Your insight is no more than that.

Darryl: Yeah, people think it’s the, it is the correct consideration; their point of view.

Bernard: It is, because that’s all that exist for them. Because all that exists is the program.

So now, within that you develop what you would call, “Self-Awareness.”
That self-awareness is totally self-centered, based on the interest of yourself to be successful within a world system, and to prepare yourself for something that you know is inevitable:

You are going to leave this system to enter another system, which is the Heavenly system, and you want to prepare your place from this system into the next system.

And you have been programmed to believe that you can influence your placement in the next system, which is the system of Heaven.

And there is many, many different ‘options’ which is called basic religions, which you can follow that each has an idea about what apparently happens to you in the next system - which is Heaven. But you don't know that in fact.

You’re required to believe that.
But you have no other answer, therefore you believe it because you are quite scared what would happen if you get there and you don't have something that you can defend yourself with: Which is your religion.

Therefore Religion in itself is war. It’s a way that you actually put on armor, preparing yourself to defend yourself and who you have become as ‘self-awareness’. So that you can say,

“I had no other choice. This is all I had. This is thus, all I am. This is who I am, and therefore, I must be recognized as this.”
Even we attempt to control that, in the afterlife.

Unfortunately, we miss a fascinating point.

If you observe; when a baby is born, when a seed opens up and grows, it is following a pattern, it’s following a program. When a animal is born, it follows a program according to its design, according to its DNA. But there is something in it that is equal in everything.

It is equal in the grass, it is equal in the air you breathe. It is equal in the animal. It is equal in the human. It is equal in the being that is dead in the afterlife.
That equality is life.

That equality does not form or follow a program. That equality is the essence of what is here.

That equality, that Life-Awareness does not exist within the context of those that are in form, are in spreading the information about what is going on.
That is what is the oneness that exist between everything.

Not the “oneness” that has been proliferated as that within Spirituality or within a world-system, or within meditation, or within a particular expression of consciousness.

Consciousness is simply the attempt of the system to understand itself. It‘s the attempt of the Organic Robot as the human trying to understand its point and its purpose within a system. A system within a system attempting to “evolve” into something.

It knows there is something. It knows there must be something more, but it can't find it.
Because, it's never really looked.

It’s because the point that you know that is “more” is the point that you don't want to look at. It is the point that take away all your specialness, it takes away all your fear. It takes away all what you regard you to be, so that what remains; is that which is equal in everyone.

That is where real Oneness exist.
That is not being considered.

That has never been considered, for eons of time, as each being attempts, to make itself more special – without actually considering, what it is, that is in essence: Behind everything.

By definition, the fact that this exist in everyone – means everyone is equal in everything.

Obviously the form you take on is a temporary expression, which has only emerged: Because of our division into an attempt to understand each other, from the perspective of understanding ourselves as form.

So therefore we started defining everything.
In that definition, we became trapped as the definition.
And in that we lost the awareness.

And we did not consider the awareness of what is really, in essence – our Equality.

What is it that makes it possible for all of us to exist together, what is the ‘binding force’?
It’s not ‘God’. It’s not a ‘Spirit’.

It is Life itself.
It is existent within everything.
But it is not ‘aware’.

Darryl: Could you say that Life is what people might be looking for?

Bernard: Life is that which you are looking for, but in looking for it, you’ll keep on missing it – because you are it in fact already.

What you have to do is let go of your programmed self. Let go of your self-interest. Let go of everything that you have ever allowed yourself to be as ‘fact’, as ‘knowledge’.

Because all of that; is ‘self-awareness’. All of that is self-interest. All of that is your attempt to make yourself more than what you are as each other in the essence of your origin, your genesis, your real truth.

When we entered heaven through the Portal, or when the Portal opened, the Portal entered heaven through the Portal: I was already in Heaven – because heaven is Here as Life.
But not from the perspective that heaven understood itself.

The same point was everywhere; I saw it in Earth, in everything, in every stone, every grass, every being. Same in Heaven – every being there - the same point: We are all the same.

Not only as a program are we all the same, following the same desires, hopes and needs and wants; we are the same in essence, as the Life-force from which we emanates.

But that Life-force we deny, because we can only actually access or recognize that Life-force, if we recognize that as equal in all of us – and it emanates, it expresses from us as what we are as form.

What have we done:
In the forms and the systems and our expressions we have taken on – we have disregarded Life, and we have made the system, the personality, the ‘spirit-idea’ of everything more than what Life is.

We have in fact become ‘larger than Life’.
And in that has been our demise.

We have lost our humbleness. We have lost our consideration of each other. We have lost ‘love’ in fact.

And we’ve made of ‘love’ a definition, an idea, something that we’re attempting to express – but we do not within it consider that it exist in fact within each one as Life.

And that Life in consideration of itself within all equally: Is what Love really is.
It is within that – which we are One.

But that Love is not a ‘feeling’.
That Love is a realisation of yourself. It’s an acceptance. It’s an embracing of yourself in every single breath and every point of your existence;

whether you are in the physical, whether you are an dog, whether you are a horse, whether you are stone, whether you are the bed we sit on, whether you are an ‘angel’, whether you are in Heaven – doesn’t matter where you are:

You are an Equal as this Life.

And to dare to become or see yourself more because of the form that flowed from it as your self-awareness: Is Deception and is a disHARMony that Harms each other.

That is what we say must be stopped.
We must stop that which we have become as, as ‘self-awareness’ in ALL its forms, because none of it is honouring Life equally as One Here.

Because incessantly we continued to define, define, define everything.
From what perspective: If we have to be Self-Honest, from the perspective of wanting to be better than another, more than another.

In fact, we are saying: We want to be more than Life.
And in that – we miss everything.

That is why at Desteni we say:
Self-Forgiveness, to forgive yourself that you have dared to deny Life. In every way that you have done that – you have to Forgive Yourself.

Because only you can do that, because you know where you do it in thought, word and deed. You know where you are denying another, Life, equally to you; where you are judging another, blaming another, where you regard yourself as more or less.

You know all the points where you are dishonest within yourself and denying you and everything else: Life.

You will not gain access to Life unless you are Equal to Life in every way, and you recognize Life in everything equally, and that is Proven as your Living Expression.
You will not gain access to Life at all.

You will simply live out your existence, die, forget everything and start again.
Which means in fact: That you have never existed.

That’s why, when you die: You forget everything.

Obviously before, when the soul-construct existed...what was the soul-construct?
It was an attempt to deceive oneself even further to try and remember your lives, because you apparently believed that your lives were real.

But, you had to record it, and place it in the Akashic Record – because you couldn’t remember it.
Which means what? Memory are part of a System.

We have manifested it as a Computer, and we’ve manifested it, memory-systems; why are we doing it?
Because we can’t remember. We’re trying to remember what it is we are.

Life is not a Memory.

Life is in fact always HERE.

But Life will not give access to abusers, users of self-interest, users and abusers of self-awareness; where awareness has become more than what Life is.

Thus, Life-Awareness, in fact, has never existed.

We have investigated this back, through uncountable eons of time; Life-Awareness has never existed.
We have done the same thing over and over again. We found multiple universes, all doing exactly the same.

What is happening here on Earth, in various dimensions?

Earth, as a manifested dimension which brings together everything within the Principle of an actual experience in space and time – obviously is the foundation-phase of what one can call: The emergence of Life as Life-Awareness.

That is why Earth exist:
Earth is the Eye of the Needle where each one will move through it, to actually face what they have allowed themselves to become as self-awareness.

And where all self-awareness will be annihilated forevermore, until all that remain is Life Equally within each and that is recognized, proven, in every breath for eternity.

Darryl: I would say that people really...I caught myself existing through my point of view, my perspective and then acting that know, I don’t believe in Politics, ‘cause Politics is crap – so, I don’t participate.

Bernard: You’re going to have to participate in everything, because you cannot direct anything that is separate from you. You have to take responsibility for everything that is here: The Money-System, the Political-System, the War-System, the Education-System –

You have to stand up within it, as it, direct it. Make sure that the starting-point of it becomes Life-Awareness; Not self-awareness, not programmed-reality – but actuality of Life in Expression.

Considering, considering all expressions as a starting-point within it as Life:
Animal, plant, everything will have to be considered – Equal and One.
Otherwise Life will not give you access to what is Really Here.

Remember that the here that is here is ‘the here Consciousness’. It is ‘the here’ of the programmed-reality. You first have to stand equal as it in self-honesty to be able to let it go. It will not just go away because you stop.

You have to stop you as what you have become as an entity called ‘consciousness’. Because consciousness is where you have created you within a system, it’s an reflection of yourself.

The world is a reflection of what is going on inside each human being as who you believe yourself to be. None of it is real – all of it will END.

This is not ‘bad’ that it’s ending. It does not require fear. It is simply the END of our ILLUSION, our delusion as an idea, which is called ‘self-awareness’, which is called ‘consciousness’.

Here, Common Sense is required, to consider the simplicity of the Principle: That Life is Equally in Everything. And therefore – Life is One.
And that all and everything we do, must have that as the starting-point Principle.

If that is the Principle that each one is Living by, our reality, everything we’ve ever done: Change.

In doing that, consciousness will disappear. Our reality as it exist now will change and Life will give us Access to what Life really is: We have no idea what is possible.

And we will not be shown, unless we are proven to be expressing Life Self-Honestly as every breath Here, in consideration of all Life, equally, everywhere, in all of existence, heaven and earth.

Therefore Heaven, is now, on Earth. In actuality, within consciousness, trapped equally, as every human is trapped. To consider this singular point:
What is Life Equally?
And why am I abusing myself, as each other?

Understand, because Life is Equal within each being – you are me as I am you. We are responsible for each other.
That responsibility must be recognized.

You cannot allow one to die in a War, or in famine, or in a system just because they have not adhered to the rules of consciousness, or the rules of self-interest and self-awareness. You have to stop that as well, because it is you doing it, there is no excuse...

And accordingly, HELL is Here.

What is Hell?
Hell is that points that we have allowed to become real from our experience-perspective, because we have denied the Principle that Life is Equal within All.

We have abused Oneness in the name of consciousness, and in the name of ‘success’, and in the name of our ‘self-awareness’, our greater ‘ascending-self’. Where the fuck are you going to send your ass to?

Wherever you are going to go, you are going to face one thing: You have denied the realisation, the Principle that Life is equal within all, and you have denied yourself from standing up, and standing up as Life for Everyone.

There is NO EXCUSE.

I suggest, that one consider, forgiving yourself for every single point where you have denied yourself the insight, the realisation, the common sense that Life is Equal within everyone.

For that, Forgiveness is a tool, because in that you give yourself freedom from your delusion.

Only you are responsible for yourself.

Within that, you can test yourself in your actions that you are self-honest and that you have actually, recognizing Life Equally in Everything, in every single breath.
That is the point of Self-Honesty.
That requires Common-Sense, I mean:

‘Am I willing to exist as every single form, equally in expression as Life? No matter where it exist. Am I willing to be the slaughter-animal that is kept in a factory-farm. Am I willing to recognize myself equally as that expression as Life? Is that who I am?

Am I willing to accept that as my expression as Life?
Or do I stop, this abuse, of myself in other forms?

Do we know where it will take us? Obviously not! We’ve never walked this path, otherwise we wouldn’t have been where we are now.
That’s Common Sense.

So therefore, we, one must, develop Common Sense and walk the Path of Hell; the Hell of what we have already created. It’s not going to go away, we’re going to have to stop it as ourselves, equal and one as Life.

There is no other way. There is no way but to face what we have allowed.

So that we may remember, for eternity, what it means to deny Life.

And in the depth of our pain and despair, as Hell emerges, let’s remember: We did this to ourselves.

And unless we stand in every breath, Equally as Life, for all, on behalf of those that cannot stand for themselves yet, until they can stand...if we don’t do that, we will simply never be real.

Everything we will ever do, will not be real. Our self-awareness will simply disappear at death.

This is self-realisation:
To realise what it is to be real as Life, Equally within All as One.
This is Equality and Oneness. This is the Destiny of the Universe.

This is the end of money as we know it, it’s the end of education as we know it, it’s the end of government as we know it, it’s the end of war, the end of religion, the end of domination, the end of manipulation, the end of abuse...

...because all of that was done in our self-awareness as our attempt to control each other and protect each other from each other.
But none of that is even real, because none of that is based in Life.

All of that is based in programmed-realities, based on ideas and concepts of personality.
All of that, cannot even transcend death. It is useless.

I think that’s sufficient for now.

Darryl: Okay, brilliant.

The Individual and the Collective

It is not about agreement or the individual,

it is about the collective within the consideration of eternity and consequence.

In this the individual will be forced to consider the collective

and consequence will be according to what the individual

accept as the collective.

UNTIL the individual accept EQUALITY as the Principle for ALL within the Collective.

The enforcement of Equality is by no other means,

But through consequence, as the Nature of the Collective is EQUALITY

while the nature of the Individual is Inequality.

Thus understand,

All Consequence,

All Force are Always emanating from the Individual WITHIN the Awareness as Collective.

Inequality thus WILL END

As will individual rights/choice/free will

and will Merge as COLLECTIVE RIGHTS INDIVIDUALLY APPLIED -- thus Equality in practice.

The determination of Individuality must be based/defined as Collective Equality

With this Equality will Purify to perfection / the ultimate


This world is Fucked up by man--this all with eyes that see direct can see--those that cannot--see through their minds and are MindFucked--a form of orgasmic delirium that is indicative to systemic induced meat called robots for short

Nature is being Abused by Man--the same as above applies

Animals are being Abused by Man--the same as above applies

Children are being Abused by Man--the same as above applies

This is PROVEN and SELF EVIDENT and BEYOND Discussion

To Hide from THESE TRUTHS--the only Truths we actually Have--man created Love as a picture--Spirituality as a pictured feeling and Party as an Emotional feeling

and so we go--till the last breath--unless we learn to breath as awareness

Breath in Awareness

breath in awareness - BIA

we have sold our reality and are in Ego Reality -ER

where we pay INterest for every moment with Death the Deed of our absence

we BAI our reality back in every moment with paying with our ego in giving it up unconditionally

in the BAI we can see what we have become and what we allow

this is not easy and one can barely handle one BAI at a time -- unless this is so -- tough = it will not be real

keep it real BAI and never miss one BAI or the interest to pay will make repayment longer

all is then only a money system where we are the bank within which our memories of self deception is stored --till we have paid the interest for what we bought -- a false reality we bought and we paid for it with our lives

till here no further

Practical Breath

BREATH is the key to Everything

an Inbreath at birth - an Outbreath to death

looking at the characteristics of the physical breath - one could call it `god´
it is always Here
it is always Everywhere
always Equal for All

what do we actually breathe?
is it air?
could it be everything?
could it be substance?
do we breathe with our lungs?
could it be that we breathe with the whole body?
what IS breath?
what is practical Breath?

how can we use Breath in/as self-assistance and support?
observe breathing-patterns
a sudden Inbreath as when one gasp for air - indicates that a breath has been missed
then -fascinating- it´s a moment of Fear (a sudden Inbreath)
instead of Here

be here with the breath
as the breath

breathe in - - - embrace all as one as equal
hold here - - - self-honesty
breathe out - - - self-forgiveness
hold here - - - let go

consider the implications of ONE breath as shared in many videos
breath is the `connection´ `between life & death´
what does that practically imply about breath?
what does it imply about life & death?
what does it imply about polarity?
what does it imply about who we are?
what does it imply about why we are here?

Purification Support

The process in existence is one of purification--purifying nature--the nature of self

see that even nature of earth has taken on the nature of man in enslavement

thus purification is probably the most interesting test-- would you when you are faced with the direct common sense answer be willing to give up all the beliefs of the mind or not--thus a test of self nature and self nurturing--thus the reality of self truth that no-one can do for another--this is unpredictable what each will choose--but the words on the forum and in other places show the truth

words are keys to self honesty--in your words you see your truth as the nature of yourself--when the mind is in total control--the mind see the words as self expression--when self honesty steps in the words become living mirrors of self reflection that assist in self forgiveness and self honesty--then placing words become a self expression for the purpose of self purification--from this life is born and this comes according to the brutal yet gentle application of self honesty

Writing is the mirror of self--words are the mirror of self--words spoken are the presence of self

First you will find your written word changing to self honesty and self life expression--speaking will be stumbling--eventually--speakin and writing will be one

as you notice--the dimensions are mostly now at the written word being effective--while some still stumble in the interviews

this is to show where each on is in there process--words never lie--as words are always expressed as equal and one with the expressor

accordingly one will be able to assist another and self as you become aware at where you are in your proces of selfbirthing



Self-Honesty Points to Consider

Imagine you suddenly have a portal open to heaven. In heaven you find many heavens and angels and magnificently beautifull things. Would you be seduced by all the beauty and magnificence and immediately try and find out where you belong in all this or would you ask why this exist while humans on earth suffers?

this is an important question-- and one that will be pertinent in the proces of each being

Are you influenced by glamour and the idea of beauty and love in the face of suffering of others and obviously--how do you justify this denial of suffering?

this is the illness of the mind--it seeks beauty in pictures and deny the ugly--and then call it good and bad and then justify why the way the specific human is seeing this beauty is better and more beautifull than what another is seing.

Then--if this is not acceptable

who will you have to be to remove all the heavens and all the gods and angels and glamour that blinded all to the reality of the situation in one moment?

here no hypothesis will work--here is the test of self

and this will show in your process

another question--do you fear death or are you willing to give your physical life to restore life for all?

this question is pertinent--because if a false statement is made here--the loops and consequences from this is specific and is the foundation of self honesty as life

and there is nowhere to hide into infinity in this time of revelation where the picture world in service of man will present the greatest nightmare imaginable-- for the porpuse of purification

this will reveal to each the nature of self as man as in the story of Job--which I suggest each read

Remember that judgement is to see another as less than life--as unequal to life and then to allow them to continue in their lostness-- allowing them a "choice"

this is judgement personified and fear realised as manifest and self dishonesty--so-what will you do to assist another to remember who they really are?

Becoming Aware of the Mind

Okay – In terms of Those ‘Walking’ their ‘Processes’ and ‘Stopping the Mind’ - Becoming-‘Aware’ of the ‘Mind’ – because that’s the First-‘Step’, where you usually Become-‘Aware’ of the ‘Mind’ – so I’m just gonna show some ‘Practical’-‘Points’ for Those ‘Embarking’ on this ‘Process’ of ‘Facing’-Themselves, ‘Facing’ the ‘System’.

Okay – When you ‘Start’ – it’s going to ‘Feel’-like there is a ‘Flood’ of ‘Stuff’ ‘Emerging’ from Within-You in terms of ‘Manifestation’ of ‘Thoughts’, ‘Emotions’, ‘Feelings’, ‘Reactions’ – I mean... it’s gonna ‘Feel’-like you’re going-‘Mad’, you’re gonna-‘Think’ you’re going-‘Mad’, you’re gonna-‘Think’ you Are ‘Mad’; because ‘all of a sudden’ you’re ‘Realizing’ How-Much it is that you’re ‘Actually’ ‘Thinking’, How-Much it is that you’re ‘Actually’ ‘Experiencing’, How-Much it is that you’re ‘Actually’ ‘Reacting’ – it’s like... Understand: it’s Always ‘Existed’ ‘Like-That’, in terms of your ‘Thoughts’ and your ‘Reactions’ – but you were ‘Asleep’ While Within that ‘Total’ and ‘Entire’ ‘Storm’.

And Now it’s like – you’re ‘Waking Yourself Up’ Within-it; and of-course it’s going to ‘Seem’ like a…‘Hurricane’, ‘End of the World’-‘Storm’ type of thing. Therefore we ‘Press’-Upon the ‘Matter of Breath’ being so ‘Extremely’-‘Important’ While you are ‘Waking-Up’ within that ‘Storm’ - because Now while you’re ‘Waking-Up’ within that ‘Storm’, you’ve got to ‘Stabilize’-You Within-it, meaning: Realizing that ‘these-things’ that are ‘Running-Around’ Within-You ‘Rampantly’ are Not-Really ‘Who You Are’; You ‘still’ have to ‘Realize’-Yourself within ‘Who You Are’. So you can ‘say’ the First-‘Point’ is ‘Waking-Up’.

The Second-‘Point’ Is: ‘Direction’. Wherein you start ‘Directing’-Yourself, Within ‘Standing’ within that-‘Storm’ and saying: No. No.

“No, I Do Not accept this, I’m not going to participate in-That.” So That will be your Second-‘Step’: would be ‘Directing’ – you know, In that ‘Waking-Up’, like going “Oh, Crap”, you know, “if I don’t ‘Stabilize’-Myself Within-this, I’m going to get-‘Lost’ Within-this All...” Stop that ‘Lostness’, you ‘Breathe’, and you ‘Direct’-Yourself and you go “Stop” – “No” – and ‘Gently’, Not with Anything-Else but ‘Simply’ “No.” - and - ‘Stop’ and ‘Not Going-‘there’’ – you know –if it ‘Feels’-like ‘Everything’ Gets ‘Too-Much’: ‘Change your Environment’, ‘Change the Scene’, ‘Change what you’re Doing’; Participate-More in the ‘Practical’ ‘Physical’-‘Reality’, and Not spend so-much 'Time' in your-‘Head’.

Then from-There you’ll start ‘Stabilizing’, and in the ‘Stabilizing’ you’ll be able to Start ‘Looking’ at the ‘Things’ – meaning: ‘Everything’ will start ‘Slowing-Down’, because You’ve ‘Slowed-Down’ Yourself Within that ‘Storm’; So you’ve kind of...Taken that-‘Storm’ and Taken-it to...’Freeze’-‘Frame’ – ‘Slow-Motion’; And then you can start ‘Playing’ your-‘Scene’, your ‘Whole-Scene’ within that-‘Storm’, wherein You’re ‘Realizing’... it’s like You’ll ‘Realize’: the ‘Storm’ is almost like a ‘Reality-Show’, ‘TV-Show’ – where you can go ‘Play’, ‘Pause’, ‘Forward’, ‘Rewind’, ‘Stop’ - You Are the ‘Director’ of that ‘Whole-Experience’.

So then you can Start ‘Looking’ at the ‘Thoughts’ that ‘Come-Up’, you can Start ‘Looking’ at the ‘Memories’, the ‘Reactions’, all Those ‘Type of Things’ – Within ‘Breath’.

The ‘Starting-Point’ within-it ‘All’ is ‘Self-Honesty’ – to within ‘Self-Honesty’ start ‘Seeing’ ‘All’ the ‘Points’ that start ‘Coming-Up’ as the ‘Thoughts’ and the ‘Reactions’. And your ‘Process’ within that ‘Self-Honesty’ is your ‘Self-Forgiveness’ = to ‘Release’-Yourself from that ‘Whole-Construct’ as your ‘Thoughts’, ‘Emotions’, ‘Feelings’ in the ‘Manifestation’ of a ‘Storm’; and then ‘Clarity’ will start ‘Coming’ – wherein you’ll Start ‘Breaking-Through’ – where…You’ll start ‘Seeing’-Yourself Beyond-That which-is this ‘Constructed’ ‘TV-Reality-Show’, which will start ‘De-Pixelating’, meaning: it’ll…the ‘Light’ will start ‘Evaporating’ and you’ll start ‘Seeing’ ‘Deeper’ within the ‘Darkness’ that is You, that’s ‘Always’ ‘Been’ ‘Here’.

Okay – so just a quick ‘Reference-Point’ about ‘Walking’ The ‘Process’ - In relation to - 'Walking'-Into the 'Storm', 'Waking-Up' in the 'Storm'.

Secret Mind and Thinking

Ok, Secret Mind – Understand: The More you Think, the More you´re Creating outflows, which makes it more difficult for you to see, when you are Self-Honest and when you are Deceiving.

So it is critically important within the Point of the Secret Mind, that you have to Walk through a time-period, where you are Cleansing yourself – that means, you´re Stopping your Participation in all forms of Creations or Thoughts, that may have outflows of Desire, so that you may see, what have you already Created – Stop it, and that you can see What Influence your World, that you are not Creating and also so that you can Create only that, which you are going to Stand by and for which you will be Accountable.

You cannot play on Words, or on Movements, or of Thoughts on Desire to Deliberately Deceive and tempt other Beings – please, Stop doing such things, because you´re not harming them, unless they give Permission for it, but you do harm yourself in being unable to Trust yourself, because you are Creating more and more Distrust within yourself, because you´re playing games to apparently have some form of outflow that you Desire – Unacceptable.

Now – in observing the Secret Mind, understand that the Secret Mind, is your opinion about things that you think about – the opinions you form, is Secret Mind. You are basing your opinion on various inputs: Experiences, words, things you´ve read – all kinds of things. But if you really look at the opinion that comes up – the opinion you form: it is Judgmental, in nature. It has the Principle of ‘Good’ or ‘Bad’. The Secret Mind operates as Polarity: ‘Good’ or ‘Bad’.

So – have a look: it is impossible for ‘Good’ to Ever conquer ‘Evil’ or for ‘Evil’ to Ever conquer ‘Good’, because they need each other – they cannot exist without each other. So therefore it is impossible for the One to win. So any Being that claims that they are in the Fight for ‘Good’ to overcome ‘Evil’, is Deluded, because it is impossible – you cannot overcome Evil. Now, your Secret Mind operates within the Principles of ‘Good’ and ‘Evil’ and within the war between ‘Good’ and ‘Evil’, where you are trying to be ‘Good’ and overcome ‘Evil’ – you can´t do that, it´s not possible. Because Polarities Exist as Opposites - One with the other, so in ‘Good’ you´ll find ‘Evil’ and in ‘Evil’ you´ll find ‘Good’ – That is a Polarity Principle. Its a Principle of Imagination – its a Principle of Illusion. The Mind is the Illusion – The Physical is Reality. So - the same Principle applies with ‘Love’ and ‘Hate’ – have a look: how many has ‘Loved’ and that ended up in ‘Hate’? Why? Because ‘Love’ and ‘Hate’ Complete each other. That means it runs in a Cycle – you move from ‘Love’ to ‘Hate’, from ‘Hate’ to ‘Love’, from ‘Love’ to ‘Hate’, to ‘Hate’ to ‘Love’ and so you move around, around, around – I mean, you can´t win.

Therefore it is Foolish to ‘Love’ anyone specifically. It is rather Understanding, to Love Everything Equally as Life – Because within That, you are no longer ‘Binding’ yourself to ‘Love’ and ‘Hate’ - you are ‘Binding’ yourself to Life and what is Best for Life and what is Best for Life, would be Best for you, because you are Life and within Application of That, you will then Give to Every Part of Life, what you would like yourself as Life and in that Equality: your Love of Life is Valid – and Proven, and it will Support you for Eternity, because no matter you will go: you will Love Life Equally and thus will Not Accept a lesser Expression of Life, which is in any way Abusing Life or you will Not Accept Anything, that Obstruct Justice for Life, for All as Equals.

It is Time that All Crimes that is being Promoted so Virulently by the Greedy, do to a Money-System – be Exposed. An Equal Money-System will place lots of these Points to an End and bring to an End, many Crimes against Humanity – Done in the name of Profit and Greed - Because the Excuse that is used is “but this is the System”. It is Not – All Systems Exists because of the Men that made it and the Men that Participate in it. You Remain Accountable – you Remain Responsible.
No System or Law that is Man-Made to protect Man´s Systems of Greed and Profit, is Valid. It is All Crimes, written Fortunately and for those that has written it down, That is going to be the Point that will be presented in your face as your Point of Accountability. And if you Really look at it; you have No Excuse. You have Deliberately Participated in the Enslavement of Beings for the Purposes for Some, for Profit and Greed. Profit and Greed is the Primary Driving-Force of this Reality, Profit and Greed, and within and behind it, obviously Power over others, Control. The Justification to say: “but they have chosen and agreed to it” – is Not Valid. You have misled them Deliberately. We are missing Leaders in Existence – the leaders that are in Existence, are all misleaders – they are misleading Deliberately. That is Crime. That is Deliberate harm and that Will Stop.

And again : we call on all those that would Stand for Life and Learn what Life is all about in Equality, to Stand up – Because if you don’t, you will be Accountable as well. There is No Way Out. This is it, for All of Existence. You´ll be Measured – by Who You Are and What you´ve Allowed and What you Do about what you See.

Mind - Material and Addiction

for a moment we are stuck in our creation and cannot get out unless we understand how we created it -- yes many things happened over billions of years and on earth much info has been manipulated --this is coming to a rather unpleasant end--but we have only ourselves and our common sense in consideration of all life to work with - in this understand that all material are equally to you in every way -- the human is in fact less able to understand than a grain of sand as the sand grain exist in both "heaven" and earth -- the human exist as mind construct in a model of space and time and self --3 dimensions --within this self determine the place and the time based on energy which follows a cycle of positive negative to move . This cause obviously endless problems within our experience as it seems so real as we move as the energy --the problem being that we can become anything --but then we are equal to it as it and thus stuck as it -- thus to stop this will reveal much about existence -- support is available in many documents and a forum -- take it slow --we have become addicted to limitation and as you know --to let go of addiction is painful

thank you for your interest in life as me and you - may we find the courage to let go of that which harms each other

The Solution as Self-Honesty as Life

Now we have done design interviews revealing, showing, sharing the design of the mind and the unified consciousness field of the mind that exists within, and as each and every single individual human being.

Now we have been communicating extensively about the "problems" that exist as what has been accepted and allowed within this world as within each and every single human being, "bringing" to awareness what has become of ourselves and what we have done to ourselves as the world.

Here I am as the solution, specifically, the solution of self honesty.

We have revealed in video interviews the deception, separation and enslavement, as control, that exist within each and every single human being as the mind consciousness system. Designing and manifesting an "equal mind system reality creation" of deception, enslavement, separation and control, manifesting the reflection of what exist within each as a mind consciousness system.

Now it’s interesting, the question of ‘What and how do I live and apply self honesty if I do not even know what it really is? What is self honesty, really in application? Because all that I have ever know is my mind consciousness system of thoughts feelings and emotions as myself – existing in past present and future of the unified consciousness field. So how am I supposed to know, live, understand, apply self honesty?’

Here human beings is where the breath of self is important. The mind cannot exist in and as the breath. See the mind exist in past, present and future, constantly racing, continuing thoughts within and of your mind. That's why there's no awareness of the breath within human beings, as human beings – because you’re constantly, and continuously rushing in your mind, in past, present and future, existing in the "now of the unified consciousness field" instead of Here as the breath.

So, where does self honesty "come" into this that I am presenting to you in this moment? What has it got to do with the breath?

Have a look. When you breathe, this moment of breath, your mind stops! It is fascinating, but, only when you are as awareness as the breath the mind stops, for that moment, because you are here, as the breath.

That is where self honesty is human beings. That is where you live and apply self honesty as the breath, here, (portal takes deep in breath). Look the mind stops, it’s silent...

Then in that moment you’re actually able to see your mind move. Now this takes a process of course. But in that moment you will see your mind move, that is where you apply yourself and live yourself in self honesty. In other words in that moment when you see your mind move you stop it! In any way what so ever you stop your mind.

Have a look, human beings, you are already here as the breath (portal takes deep in breath). Here is where you live and apply self honesty, here is where you are as the breath, and here is where you stop accepting and allowing yourself to participate in the mind.

And that is where self honesty is human beings, where you will be self honest with you and realize as you breathe: ‘Oh! there goes my mind, that is my mind, I stop my mind.’ And so you continue with your process of self honesty within you in every moment.

Why? - Because in that application of self honesty in every moment of every breath, you start standing up within you, and you start stopping the continuous cycles of your mind as thoughts, feelings and emotions and get out of the past, present, and future placement of your mind within the unified consciousness field of this world.

So, self honesty in every moment of every breath. The breath is a moment (portal takes in-breath ) every moment, this is a moment here, of every breath. (Portal exhales)... another moment. As you remain here as the breath, that is where you live and you apply self honesty as you. That is the solution, self honesty as you present in your process of stopping the mind.

Thank you very much, this is the solution of self honesty.

And realize, that each and every single human being is able to apply this. Self honesty equals oneness and equality as all as one as equal – the process of birthing life from the physical, stopping the mind.

Thank you very much.

The Solution as Equality in Practical Application

This is the SOLUTION of EQUALITY communicating about the solution of equality in practical application within and as each and every single individual human beings process, who are currently in their process of birthing themselves as life form the physical.

The solution of equality human beings, is the first step to stand as equality with yourself. This is done as follows:
What have we as individual human beings accepted and allowed within ourselves? We have accepted and allowed ourselves to become a mind consciousness system. This mind consciousness system consist of thoughts, feelings, and emotions, beliefs, perceptions, ideas, memories – and of course, much, much, more – but this is the principal placement design of the mind consciousness system.

And according to the mind consciousness system – we as human beings participate in this world in believing ourselves to be this mind consciousness system. This limited, mind consciousness system. And we have separated ourselves from ourselves – from the perspective of the mind in itself existing separate from who we are because the essence of ourselves is generating this mind consciousness system placement within and of the human physical body. So we’re even in separation at the starting point of ourselves.

And because of that point of the separation of the starting point of ourselves in just generating this mind consciousness system placement, we design and manifest separation within this world to the ultimate, ultimate extent. Where we MURDER and KILL and RAPE and ABUSE each other. When that very being is you, from the perspective of equality and oneness as all as one as equal of life.

Human beings, the question is, that must be asked – is how did we get here? How did we, as one as equal, as all of humanity together get here to where we are now on this planet Earth? The answer to that question is within. I know that sounds obvious... here me out.

The answer to that question exist as each and every single individual human being. Because we have separated ourselves from this mind consciousness system placement design within ourselves. That's the first point of separation that exist, from there, all other manifestations, experiences, and expressions of separation within and of the Unified Consciousness Field, "sprout".

So, what is equality in application? In living application in expression of self within self. First you have to realize, you are this mind consciousness system placement – stand equal to this mind consciousness system placement.

Stand equal to what we have allowed and accepted in this world – why? Because if you stand separate from this mind consciousness system placement and If we stand separate from what we have accepted and allowed to exist within this world, we are creating it, through polarity friction of resistance.

How does that work? That which resists persists. So if we stand separate from the mind consciousness system placement within and as ourselves, we are creating a resistance, in that resistance, create polarity conflict. In that polarity conflict, we actually manifest that which we resist and stand separate from.

So, Human beings, the first application and manifestation of equality as yourself is to stand one and equal within you, as your mind consciousness system placement. Because at this very moment , you are that. And what happens if you stand as equal to and as your mind consciousness system placement, there you have directive power – why? Because you’re not standing separate from it, within and as you, you’re standing equal to it. And in that equality standing and statement within and of you as the mind consciousness system you’re able to direct it as you . And that is where the amalgamation of you become the equality of yourself as who you are of life.

Because, in that realization, "all right, in this moment I am this mind consciousness system" – you stand equal as it. Then from there within and as the mind consciousness system placement, you direct yourself in the moment of every breath and you ask yourself: What will I accept and allow within me and my world and what will I not accept and allow within me and my world?

Of course you will not accept and allow the mind because you realize who you are is not the mind. Who you really are is not the mind. At the moment what you are is this mind consciousness system placement, but you’re in the process of birthing yourself as life from the physical from as a mind consciousness system placement.

And that is where self-honesty, self-will, self-breathing steps in as an expression of you. Because it is from here, from these tools; self-honesty, self-breathing, self-will, that you birth yourself as life from the physical this is how the process of birthing life from the physical manifests within and of this world. This is how life is born, life has never existed yet. We are in the process of birthing it as ourselves as who we are in every moment of every breath in application.

So – first, human beings, stop the separation within yourself by standing equal as your mind consciousness system. And realize it is from this starting point as you in realization, "alright I am my mind consciousness system but it is not who I really am, I am using these tools: Self-Honesty, Self-Breath, and Self-Will, to assist and support me to birth myself as life from the physical, as one as equal in the amalgamation of me as life”...

Thank you very much.

The Solution as Self-Will as Self-Power

This is the Solution of Self Will communicating about the solution as myself of self will.

Self will – it’s interesting, the word "will" in sound, is a seed growing, as a tree. The water, the earth, coming together, and standing up as the tree, and here I am. This is the expression and experience of the word ‘will’. Self will, as the sound harmonic expression of life within and as oneness and equality.

Now, human beings have for eons of time accepted and allowed the mind machine to influence and control who we are, existing in constant inner conflict and turmoil – as the thoughts, memories, pictures of the mind constantly, continuously move and generate the inner conflict of emotions and feelings, designed and manifested from the mind machine within human beings, which human beings believed and perceived themselves to be – which gives off the illusion of experience and living.

Now, within having, even in this life, allowed and accepted ourselves to live and be and become this mind machine of thoughts, pictures, memories, ideas, perceptions, beliefs generating the experiences of conflicts, emotions, feelings, turmoil – one wonders: what is self will in application? Because, it "almost feels like" you, as who you are don't exist in the equation of this mind machine design. How in this mind manifested machine design, do I live and apply self will? What is self will? What has always willed me is this mind, of pictures, memories, thoughts, emotions, feelings, conflicts, beliefs, perceptions, ideas, knowledge, information. It has always told me what to do, who I am, what I must do, how I must experience myself. Then, where does this self will, as me, as one and equal as me exist? Where is it? What is self will in application?

Human beings, as the Solution of the Breath placed into perspective, who you are, is here as the breath, because the mind cannot exist as the breath – why?

The mind is a machine placement that exist in a linear time space continuum. In this linear time space continuum, imagine a thick straight line running horizontally, this line is the mind consciousness field, you are a point in the center as "present", then on either side you have your past and your future. And this is called the "NOW" .The mind only can exist in the "now" of the unified consciousness field, as it exist in past, present and future constantly, continuously, the thoughts, emotions, feelings, pictures, memories, conflicts, turmoil's continuously moving, moving, moving, moving and generate as you participate in the mind.

So, as you remain here as the breath in this moment – here you are as you, the mind is not here – you are able to actually see and notice the mind, as the Solution of the Breath explained.

So where does self will in application and the living expression of you exist? Self Will, human beings, is to realize that, to a certain extent human beings have already given up on themselves. There is "no hope", there is "no solution".

"Why should I? What is worth doing this for? It will not make a difference. I've had enough. I am tired. Why must I?". Human beings, this has been the mindset of each and every single individual human being in this world and the reason why not one individual human being or many as one as equal together is standing up because everyone has got the same mindset!

Therefore we are in the process of stopping the mind. Not just solving the mind, no, WE STOP THE MIND – through the solution applications as one as equal as yourself, so that, who you really are as the breath, as the moment, stand up as the infinite statement and standing of you as all as one as equal – no mind.

So – self will, human beings, is the starting point of you, where YOU WILL YOURSELF and you DO NOT ACCEPT AND ALLOW THE MIND to intervene or interfere or influence your process of remaining here as the breath of self honesty as you, you will yourself in every moment as every breath. Here I am. I see the mind, I stop the mind. This is not who I am! I am here as me, in oneness and equality as who I am. No more will I accept the mind to influence or control me, I am not giving up, I am standing up!

That is self will human beings. That absolute "this is who I am – I am living who I am, here as every moment, as every breath of self honesty.” That is will human beings. Use self will, you apply yourself, you live yourself. And you stop that mind.
Thank you very much , this is the Solution of Self Will.

Life as Who I am

Life as Who I Am. This is Life speaking.

I exist as the suppressed nature of man that has been allowed by the mind consciousness systems within. I exist as you as who you are.

The process is to become one and equal with me as life as who I am. Life is who you are - you are not of mind consciousness systems.

The inevitability of the realization of man of life of who I am is here, and the expression, manifestation, and experience of life will only be the unification of man with me as who you are as life of life of who I am once mind consciousness systems as thoughts, feelings, and emotions are released - completely - you become the realization of life as all as one of who I am as I am one as equal, here, in every moment. Self expression as one as equal as I am.

It is here, human beings. It is merely required to be realized - and how it is realized is through self forgiveness and self application. And, in the silence that is you, I remain.

And this I is the expression of life of who I am of I am as equal as one. So, give yourself the gift that is you - the gift that is life - the gift that is me - the gift that is I am - the gift that stands as who you are, infinitely, and remains as who you are as you express, live, and apply who you are as life.

Thank you very much.

Perspectives on Self-Honesty / Self-Intimacy

Selfforgiveness aloud for what is allowed is the key to into me see /intimacy and hONEsty -- and one cannot fight with this--because knowledge will always find ways to justify through emotional responses or a stuckness experienced as a stiffness in selfexpression

remember--stiffs belong in coffins



These points of honesty-- realise them-- the keys to self

here goes

Creation do not need man or heaven

man and heaven need creation

man is not divine--because man is not expressing divinity

nature do not require man or heaven-- nature is seldsufficient as life-- man needs nature

animals do not require man or heaven-- man require animals

so--what is the more advanced lifeform?

where is the enslavement?

man's idea of him or herself?

the universe do not require man or heaven-- i

in fact man and heaven is the abomination in creation--see the actions , words , and thoughts of man--all selfcetred, fearfull and egodriven

why is man the abomination in creation--because man is not of creation--man is selfcreated through his mind

man did not create creation and the universe-- man only created himself and what he values

man only values himself--yet even death is greater than man--man is the slave of death and do not exist infinite as who man is now-- see--man forgets--because man always want to get for self

man do not understand the universe or nature and man do not understand his own nature or where he came from

man abused the gift of life and returned the gift as the world and the mind as it exist now--and now man is stuck and cannot let go of his addictions and fears

man is stupid--if God exist--would God allow man to destroy creation?

that would mean God is fallible--is it not?

will God rape a 6 month old baby or allow such acts? no--but man will and call it human nature

man has excuses for every abuse in this world--the primary excuse--i didnot do it--he did--always separating self from the cause of the mess

lets add some more and do the forgiveness and understand what humbleness is in the face of animals, nature and the universe that support unworthy lifeforms to maybe birth themselves as life

and stand up==speak out--spread the living word--stand up and be counted-- don't wait-- allis lost untill it is not--action is required-

participation--there are many tools here--share it--it is free--but not sharing may cost man its own existence--the most expensive price to pay!!!


self forgiveness must not be about guilt--then it is not self honest--it is about becoming self intimate--to see into self and remove the layers of self deception--and yes--a commitment to self


Forgiveness and Purpose

To me forgiveness is the unconditional acceptance of self and release of that which you have done which does not serve who you are, and is not best for you. there are so many layers of forgivess due to our own creation and thereafter our own allowances that it truly is a journey and something only you are able to give yourself.
Of course what goes hand in hand with forgivenss is corrective action and the actual understanding of why you forgive yourself.
If you look for example at how forgiveness is being used all over, willy-nilly just because - then you realise that sometimes people dont stand in that forgiveness and honour themselves in that.
If you understand the reason why you forgive yourself (which to many is a foreign concept) then you are on your way. We have taken on the responsibility of our own creation and what we have created and thus we are faced now with self-forgiveness. To each it is the understanding that you are precious to you and that you are alone with yourself into infinity (yet one with all things) - meaning who you are is not dependent on anything outside of you. Therefore true forgiveness and release is a gift that you honour yourself with as you start to realise and accept self.

As for practical application - this goes hand in hand with honesty. we have just now become accustomed to the fact that we are so many layers and this we need to realise so that we strip ourselves clean of the old. So please dont expect yourself to walk around all day - doing all the right things all the time. Work with self honesty where you are able to in each participation.

Sometimes you will just stop and ask yourself why am i doing this or what am i experiencing? I find that working with the videos very uuseful and then later on you will rememebr something out a video and apply it again. That is how we move forward. We utilise what we are shown (in the videos and articles) and apply them throughout while utilising focus. The focus comes from a decision that you make throughout the day to look at what you do and say and just ask the questions.

You will find it interesting that once you access self honesty it becomes more 'familiar' and then the next day you do the same or you will then expand your honesty elsewhere.
I have noticed recently that I have been very angry with myself and it was a suppression that was eating me up. With a shove of honesty I was able to see this and start with applying more intimacy and forgiveness.
So we take it a step at a time and ask ourselves questions.

What i find useful is reading the posts on the web site. If somebody has writen something and i react then I work with that or I see why I reacted. It is very useful. The members on this forum have balls and are not afraid to face themselves - and post it on the forum!
That way each is able to sit, read and have their light bulb moment. One could say that way the entire forum gets to move together just from one member realising something.

As for the boredom thing - well: In this world we are pretty limited in our expression because we have just created it that way. Therefore for each to break free and go mad is the only way. Once you start facing fears and limitations then one is also able to create new ways for you to express.

I find that expression is quite handy when it gets others to express as well - like on the forum. For example doing stuff that other people are able to participate in. So that is where one is able to use your skills of writing, painting and whatever and share. Talk, share and open up this world if that tickles your fancy.
For each it is their own journy, and yes we have limited ourselves in our expression. Perhaps you are able to try new things and see what you enjoy. Then share with us.....

Practical Self-Forgiveness Assistance

The following is quite important information for those who choose to move quickly and effectively.

I will try to keep this short and to the point as a practical assistance. More will be revealed once these points are transcended and directive power of self is restored.

Those coming through the Interdimensional Portal indicate that the unconscious mind (the 1st mind) starts integrating from birth onwards. An approximation is that by the age of 7 years, the unconscious mind of the child is integrated. This unconscious mind 70% of the total capacity of the mind programmed and set according to the accepted unified consciousness field as well as the soul programme set with all activation points. What are these activation points--they are the codes placed in the magnetic grids that will activate as experiences in a person's life to give the idea that life is unpredictable, divinely guided etc--yet it is preprogrammed and is activated through a picture, word, sound, feeling etc

Then the 2nd mind, the subconscious mind, integrates (20% of mind capacity). Specifically, that is the personality development although all 3 minds also cross-pollinate in their integration. This amalgamation is finished at about the age of 12.

Then, the 3rd mind, the conscious mind, begins to actively "think" and develop the interactions and emotional cycles that will "feed" the mindsystem in its various cycles. Understand that the mind exist in cycles that forms an infinity 8 sign as it moves through the polarities of positive and negative. Look at the infinity 8 on its side--the top of the sign indicate the part of the cycle one will experience normally and the bottom part is that in the cycle taken for granted. This cycle also reverse the mind at the back of the neck and swap the creative and logic at integrated levels that allows a bizarre support for judgment, comparison, separation and ego. This continues up to the age of 28. The conscious mind is 10% capacity of the mind yet the conscious mind capacity is rarely reached and is usually between 4-7% for the average being with the odd one standing out and getting to the full 10%.

The Flagsystem video is very effective in dealing with this. It works like this:

First the conscious mind--the day by day thought and movement within the mind that is called "self" but really is "ego"--is fuelled by emotions and feelings. The forgiveness that is required to free us from this is then done as per the various ways assisted within DIY and Demon Videos and involves mostly all relationships established in the person's world.

A being practicing forgiveness as suggested will go through stages of emptiness as each layer is peeled (like an onion being peeled). Once the conscious is fully peeled, the subconscious will be revealed and a certain awareness of self as personalities (possibly various) will emerge. When that happens, a being will then Flag map self to identify points to apply forgiveness on. Once those layers are peeled, the being will finally get to the unconscious and repeat the tag and forgiveness process.

This is what we have accepted(6) as the reality and the way the world works. It is our limitation programme and it is very subtle because few ever see any of this move beyond it in any way as it is so accepted as self by the masses.

We will do videos to assist people in their processes of flagging and forgiveness. The purpose is to get 100% of the mind aware all the time at all 3 mind stages--unconscious, subconscious and conscious.

Then--rock and roll baby!

Silence is GOLDEN--an age to come!

Self-Forgiveness Practicality

This is practicality communicating about practical self forgiveness and the reason for self forgiveness in this process each and every single individual human being is and will be experiencing within this world.
Now, self forgiveness assists and supports you to release, disengage, let go of manifested mind systems within your human physical body.
Understand that mind systems manifest literally within your human physical body through allowed and accepted continued participation in the mind. Now understand that with self forgiveness you release these mind system manifestations within your human physical body because within that you are able to see and realise the nature you have accepted and allowed yourself to be and become. And then in seeing or realising this nature of the mind only here and then are you able to then apply yourself effectively and accordingly to “release yourself” from the allowed and accepted nature of yourself as the mind. So that you’re able to express who you are in every moment of breath.

For instance, now, as you have continued participation in this world and.. so you’ve built up and designed your mind consciousness system within you and also as you participate in this world and as you continue to participate in the mind, your thoughts, feelings and emotions literally started manifesting systems that infuse within and as your human physical body which is referred to as the mind consciousness structural resonance system.

Now understand that these particular specific systems manifest and are manifested of thoughts, feelings and emotions.
Understand and realise that your thoughts, feelings and emotions and reactions you experience as you participate in this world with other human beings; are you showing you in the nature that you have accepted and allowed yourself to become.

So when you look at thoughts, your reactions, or feelings and emotions, your behaviours within and amongst this world with other human beings, it is really actually just showing you the nature of the mind as the mind you have actually become as the manifestation of your very deep being, your very nature.
Now, self forgiveness releases these system manifestations in your human physical body.
For instance, that’s why when you specific line of thoughts, for instance, you tend to observe people in a very critical way. You know, you see a man walking by and you say in your head or in your thought :”Whatever that man is wearing is so absolutely ridiculous like I don’t believe he’s actually walking in the street with those clothes. Doesn’t he care what anyone thinks of him? How can he wear that, he’s supposed to look like this this this this this that” and you constantly and continuously have that line of thought, what are you actually saying? You’re extensively critical within yourself. That you’re not just able to be yourself in every moment of every day experiencing you but that you have to dress, clothe, behave, speak in such a way to impress other human beings so that human beings can notice you and accept you.
And therefore you’ll judge others and criticise others who is merely just comfortable with themselves, expressing themselves, experiencing themselves, because you’re not allowing and accepting that for yourself.

Now, if these same thoughts constantly continue such critical thinking or judgement towards other human beings they will literally start manifesting as systems within your human physical body.
For instance, specifically self judgement will manifest in your thighs, your stomach, your upper arms and then your calves point and also your bum points.
In other words, you will literally start expanding inside yourself because of your self judgement to other which is actually you judging yourself.
So, with self forgiveness you’ll release these systems inside these specific points within your human physical body.
Now realise that with self forgiveness you’re only releasing the system holds within your human physical body.
Now your nature is not yet corrected in any way whatsoever. Now you have to correct your nature through application.

And this is done in the following way:

As you walk and your mind – you can literally in absolute awareness here as breath and every moment, you’ll actually feel these thoughts wanting to come up. And then you say STOP!
No! This is not who I am. Till here no further! I will not accept his!

And you stop it, just like that, immediately.

But you have to do it like in unexpected ways, so you literally – excuse my words – fuck with the mind.
In other words, if such a thought comes up, you know, jump up and down and say to yourself : “No! No! No! No! No! No! No!”. Or you stump your foot on the ground and just say NO!
You know, what are people really going to think about you… Because there are already so many damn crazy people in this world, I’m certain they will just give you a nice strange look.

And who you know, you may have even assisted those beings for a moment there you shock their systems into awareness of themselves by just go suddenly “NO!”, “STOP!”.
Just look how funny that could be you know, for you, for your own individual process.

So, you do apply forgiveness to release the system manifestations. Human beings, hear me!
Self forgiveness only releases the system manifestation in your human physical body IF applied effectively.

Now, your nature is still the same, otherwise you will still go and have to critical judgemental thoughts towards other people which are actually towards yourself. If you do not in that moment ACT and say “NO! Till here no further, this is NOT who I am, I will NOT accept this.” And you do that stop and do it unexpectedly because if you’re going to do it the same time the whole time it’s going to even start becoming a “habitual application which you believe you’re actually saying stop, and till here no further”, but you’re not actually doing it.
So find creative ways in every moment to say : “Stop, till here no further, no, I’m not participating, this is not who I am.”

And then of course you have to look at self forgiveness for allowing and accepting you to judge yourself and criticise yourself.
Really human beings, your thoughts, feelings, emotions, your reactions, behaviours, everything will show you the nature you have accepted and allowed yourself to become.

According to that you apply self forgiveness, you release the systems inside your human physical body and then you correct it in application in every moment of breath.

I’d say so.

Thank you very much

What is Self-Forgiveness and Why does it Work

Self-forgiveness is a tool. The more you apply it, the more it becomes you. Let me share with you how it works for me.

I use/apply self-forgiveness as a tool of ‘writing myself to freedom’. I began to write about everything that I observe as me and my reality. Any reactions - everything that bothers me, everything that I experience as limitation, everything that I experience as having power over me such as anger, depression, jealousy. Or desires that consume me and keep me obsessed. Everything.

See, emotions and thoughts for example come up 'just like that' - they are reactions, thus conditioned, pre-programmed, from even before we could walk on our two feet. I am sure that everyone remember themselves as children: seeing the dishonesty around, seeing the lack of common sense, seeing the manipulation and lies. But at some point we all began to compromize ourselves -we learned to manipulate reality to get what we want. We know exactly how to manipulate our friends, our partner etc. because it's all so predictable - just like programs.

Through writing, I reveal myself to me – I reveal to myself the programs/conditionings that exist within me as me. I allow myself to be absolutely self-honest -not allowing myself to paint a nicer picture of reality, making things/myself look prettier/better. No. Brutal self-honesty is what I committed myself to.

As I go through what I’ve written, I am able to see –as each is able to see- how I actually deceive myself and give my power away to thoughts, emotions, beliefs and fears through my mere acceptance and allowance.

Then I take those points that I’ve revealed to myself and I apply self-forgiveness. As I write or speak self-forgiveness statements, I can watch the issue/construct I am working on unfolding in front of me, and I investigate each and every corner of it. So that nothing of it remains hidden. Writing or speaking self-forgiveness is a flow, just like following back a thread to see how i had woven the whole picture. Whenever I am stuck, I take a deep breath.

Forgiveness must be done in the breath, as the breath. It is not an intellectual act. The mind as the conditioning system we have become is not interested in forgiving. Thus, if I am stuck in a moment, I breathe and ‘come back here’ to the breath, and in the breath I force myself to continue by asking myself: what is here now? Because I know: whenever I am stuck, I am close to seeing an important point which my conditioned mind does not want me to see.

Self-forgiveness is using the mind to reveal the mind’s own nature. The mind has taken the role of suppressing our expression in order to apparently survive in this world. Now it’s time for us to become the directive principle of ourselves in self-honesty – no more allowing the conditionings of the mind as reactions and obsessions as manipulative survival skills to direct and define who we are.

Self-forgiveness is process work: as I write or speak self-forgiveness, I am seeing clearer into all aspects of an issue/ a construct. It's like peeling off the layers of an onion and laying it all out in front of me, seeing what's behind every layer - to then have an honest look at it and decide who I really want to be as LIFE.
I self-honestly re-define who I am according to the principle of equality and oneness as life, instead of living as a conditioned robot according to my past experiences.

The self-forgiveness process/tool is about me giving me back to myself and clearly stating what I will accept and allow to exist within me as me -and what I will not accept and allow. No more compromizing. No more being a slave to the system/culture/religion i was 'brought up' in (and the thoughts/emotions/fears/beliefs/morality they taught me). Because how can different moralities exist, how can anyone be more than anyone else -when LIFE is equal always and all ways.

As I apply self-forgiveness, I literally feel myself taking my self-directive
power back and becoming the self-honest directive principle of myself and my reality.

When do I apply self-forgiveness? Whenever I see that something inside of me is moving that I have not directed myself: thoughts, emotions, moods, reactions, mannerisms –anything that is here within me as me without me directing it -->self-forgiveness.

Self-forgiveness is me releasing myself from the past and directing myself to actually become LIFE as the directive principle of equality and oneness. Thus, the application of Self-forgiveness can only be valid and effective when I actually direct myself to practically CHANGE and stop existing through and as reactions of the past. I have to practically self-honestly direct myself here in the physical and change me from doing/being something that I haven't directed myself to be/do. This is practical self-honest, self-responsible self-direction.

Self-forgiveness is a tool to stop automatisms -and is not to be used as justification/excuse/reason like: oh, I can forgive myself thus i may as well go and deceive that person! That would be the ultimate self-dishonesty and manipulation in separation of myself here. It is common sense that deceiving/harming another is actually harming and deceiving ourselves. We are all one.

We all have allowed this world to become a reality where self-interest & belief is placed before life. The system as how this world functions in its unequal hierarchy is what we serve - instead of standing up for life as LIFE equal and one for all – each is busy defending their interests according to their beliefs. It’s time that each stand up within themselves and state “’till here no further”! No more abuse, no more separation, no more enslavement, no more self-defeat, no more giving responsibility away to systems of this world. It’s time to make this world a place where the children to come are welcome and safe, where everyone is equal and one as LIFE.

Systems are the result of distrust between people, born from the unwillingness to forgive each other unconditionally and walk equal and one in forgiveness here as breath. The system regulates our relationships between each other because we do not trust each other. From this, control and power over another was born, justified as “I cannot trust them”.

Self-forgiveness is a tool to remove the layers of self-dishonesty and to self-honestly see what each has become. From that, forgiveness for each other will be born, and this will stop the cycles/systems of distrust. Because forgiveness forms the foundation of trust - any self-deception will leave eternal scars in self-trust and lead to much dis-ease.

You will find that self-forgiveness leads to self-honesty and common sense as foundation of self. Self-honesty and common sense in practical application lead to self-trust. Self-trust lived allows you to stand up for yourself as who you really are and for all life equally. From here, we are able to start establishing trust among us – because it is the lack of trust between human beings (as a result of the lack of self-trust) that leads to separation, defence mechanisms, abuse, manipulation, survival of the fittest.

Yet even ‘the fittest’ die. And when they die, all that they have been as power of this world through money, manipulation, repression – is no more. Nothing that is perceived to be of value/power in this world is of any real value. Because the true value of life as equality and respect, as self-honesy, self-trust and self-responsibility have been abdicated for the sake of apparent survival. And this we call life! What have we done to ourselves!

There is no forgiveness. No-one can forgive another. As no-one can save or stand up for another. Each must do it for self. Thus, we must start forgiving ourselves to set ourselves free from the past and to actually CHANGE ourselves in all ways we have been existing. This is the only way we can change the world. Because the world is but a reflection of who we are within.

Self Forgiveness DIY

Writing or speaking self-forgiveness, it is suggested that you use the statement “I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself...”.

Because within this, you are clearly taking self-responsibility, realizing that it is through your acceptance and allowance that you are who you are, experiencing yourself and your life the way you do.

Write out self-forgiveness statements randomly, unconditionally, spontaneously what is here / what comes to mind in the moment.

Or: Write what you feel, experience, think in the moment unconditionally, spontaneously.

I would call that Writing Yourself To Freedom.
From here, you will see that an issue opens up.

For instance: fear of judgment.

In order to explore all corners and aspects of one issue, here are some questions that assist:
What is it that I fear being judged as?
Who judged me this way in the past?
How did I react in the past?
What emotions where involved?
How did I cope with these emotions –what action did I take?
Who am I / how do I perceive myself within the situation of being judged?
How do I perceive the person judging me?
Where in my life do I judge others the way I fear being judged?
What opinion/belief/conclusion have I created from within such experiences?
What self-definition did I create and live as according to such experiences?

Let us take the example of blame.
For instance, you realize that you are blaming your mother for your state of being.

What questions are relevant?
Can I write down all that which I blame my mother for? (Do so.)
Who am I / how do I perceive myself within this?
How do I perceive my mother within this?
How do I perceive the relationship towards my mother?
Who am I within that relationship?
How do I feel about myself? What emotion, what opinion is involved?
Where is it that I blame my mother?
How do I feel about my mother? What emotion, what opinion is involved?
Where is it that I blame others the way I blame my mother?
What conclusions/implications do I make about myself and my life according to that blame?
What does blame imply?
Where is it that I place more value in ‘being right’ than in taking self-responsibility and directing myself to change?
How did I justify myself so that I don’t have to change?

See, depending on the issue you are dealing with – you can ask all possible questions to make sure you are not missing a point.
While you are expanding on the answer to a question, you must be very specific – do not use generalization. Always ask yourself: What exactly to I fear/judge/desire/imply –for example. It must be specific to you and how you live your life.

As you see, the questions are placed from the perspectives of:
thought/belief, opinion/judgment, implication,
emotion, fear, desire/need, justification,
pattern/habit/defense mechanism, justification.

I will present another structural way, of making sure you don’t miss a point (you will find a specific practical example thereof later on in this document):

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to 1, because of A and B.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to A.
I forgive myself that I haven’t allowed myself not realize that A implies....
I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to use A to justify 1, instead of....
I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to B.
I forgive myself that I haven’t allowed myself to realize that B implies that I....
I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to B –instead of....
I forgive myself that I haven’t allowed myself to see and realize that A and B indicate that I am 2...

And so you allow yourself to UNFOLD the patterns you have accepted and allowed yourself to be and become – allowing YOU to SEE YOU.
You go and look at EVERY WORD of issue 1 and investigate EVERY WORD in terms of belief, emotion, judgment, opinion, justification, implication.
As you do this unfolding, another issue will open up, issue number 2, related to issue number 1. Now you continue the same way until you feel EMPTY, until you physically experience an emptiness –then you know there is nothing hidden and you’ve got all points related to your issue.

Corrective application:
Self-forgiveness is useless without the self-directed corrective application. You apply self-forgiveness to see your acceptances and allowances as a programmed personality –and to from here, direct yourself to STOP, to CHANGE so, that you HONOR LIFE as YOURSELF as all as one as equal.
You can script your corrective application as insight/realization statements in terms of who you are and who/what you are not AND in terms of what you will accept and allow and what you will not accept and allow within yourself as LIFE.

For instance:
I am not my emotions. I am not accepting or allowing myself to be directed by emotions.
I realize that emotions are mere reactions, programmed and conditioned to come up in certain situations.
I am not accepting or allowing myself to exist as a conditioned program. I direct myself here. I am the directive principle of myself and my reality.

You can script your corrective application the moment you see/realize who you REALLY are and how you would want to express in a way that would honor you as equal and one with all life.

You can script your corrective application within the self-forgiveness statement, using the word “instead”.
For instance:
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to place hope in my children/parents – instead of taking self-responsibility and directing myself equal and one.


Let’s take a random specific statement to use as a practical example of unfolding (Underlined are the words/statements that require questioning):

I spoke to my partner in an angry way when he asked me what time it is.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to speak to my partner in anger.
(Why did I experience anger?)
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be angry because he did not give me the attention I was seeking and because instead of giving me attention he was interested to know what time it is.
(What other emotions are here?)
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to feel ignored/rejected/not loved because my partner did not give me the attention I expected.
(Here the possibility to invert=see how I do myself what I blame others for ‘doing unto me’):
I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to ignore myself.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to reject myself.
I forgive myself that I haven’t allowed myself to love myself.
(Here further unfolding is possible through the question: When do I feel ignored/rejected/unloved? With what kind of persons do I experience such emotions? How have I defined myself with/towards such persons? What does that imply?)
Continuing: (What exactly did I expect from my partner?)
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to expect from my partner/from others to see how I feel and comfort me/make me feel better –instead of me directing me to speak / express myself if there is something I want to share.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to blame my partner because he did not react to my emotional state –instead of realizing that I am responsible for my emotions/reactions.
(When do I use blame?)
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to use blame to distract myself from me here and to give away my self-responsibility.
(Why do I give away my self-responsibility?)
I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to give away my self-responsibility to others/god/spirituality (for example) because I have perceived myself as less than others/god/etc.
(Why did I expect attention?)
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to expect/need/desire attention from my partner, to feel worthy/better about myself/to feel loved.
(What does that imply?)
I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to place self-worth and love into ‘getting attention from another’.
I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to exist within and as desire/need/expectation –instead of living and expressing me here in self-directed self-responsibility.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define love as ‘getting attention from another/my partner’ because I did not allow myself to give attention to myself and to love myself.
(Why did I separate attention, self-worth, love from who I am?)
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to separate attention, self-worth and love from who I am –because I believed that somebody else must do this for me.
(What does that belief imply?)
I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to exist within and as the belief that life is worth living/I am worth living only when somebody else cares for me and gives me attention which I have defined as love –instead of me loving myself and caring for myself.
(How did that manifest /how did I create that?)
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to exist within and as the memory of my father (for example) comforting me when I felt bad, making me feel better, thus if my partner does not react to my emotional state, it means (=my conclusion of mind) he does not love me/I am not worthy.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to depend on others to make me feel better – instead of being self-responsible and caring for myself.
(What are the situations in my life where I feel worthy?)
I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to make my self-worth dependant on others validating me –and thus feeling worthy only when others praise me and/or my work, are proud of my, express their affection to me or are satisfied with me.
(What does that imply?)
I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to exist through satisfying others, because I have placed myself less than others.

From here it is obvious that the following (correlating) issues open up:
“depending on others to feel that life is worth living /I am worth living”
“self-worth only through satisfying others”
“placing myself inferior /less than others”

From here further unfolding is required.

Fascinating how you are able to from one issue/one realization/statement “I spoke to my partner in an angry way when he asked me what time it is” realize a complete construct/pattern of how you have accepted and allowed yourself to exist as.

Forgiveness Perspectives on Systems

Energy System - Forgiveness Application:

I forgive myself that I've allowed myself to believe that this thought is who I am in believing that I am tired.

I forgive myself that I've allowed myself to believe a thought.

I forgive myself that I've allowed myself to give power to a thought in the belief that it is me that it is telling me that I am tired.

I forgive myself that I've allowed myself to have a thought tell me that I am tired.

I forgive myself that I've allowed myself to believe that tiredness exists.

I forgive myself that I've allowed myself to be subject to energy.

I forgive myself that I've allowed myself to be controlled by energy.

I forgive myself that I've allowed myself to experience energy in the belief that energy is me.

I forgive myself that I've allowed myself to believe that I am energy.

I forgive myself that I've allowed myself to believe energy exists.

I forgive myself that I've allowed myself to participate in the construct of energy to exist.

I forgive myself that I've allowed myself to be directed by energy.

I forgive myself that I haven't allowed myself to be the directive principle of me in my world.

I forgive myself that I've allowed myself to give my responsibility to energy to manifest in my world to tell me how I must be and how I must experience myself instead of me expressing me.


Sacred Geometric Triangle System - Forgiveness Application:

I forgive myself that I've allowed myself to define myself according to sacred geometrical manifestations separate from me.

I forgive myself that I've allowed myself to define myself according to these manifestations in my world to tell me who I must be, how I must be, how I must live, and how I must exist.

I forgive myself that I've allowed myself to place value, and worth, and definition within these sacred geometrical manifestations.

I forgive myself that I haven't allowed myself to realize that in participating in these sacred geometrical manifestations of consciousness that I am supporting consciousness manifestations of separation and therefore I am responsible for this world and the current manifestation of this world.

I forgive myself that I've allowed myself to become angry with the system at the moment telling me that my beliefs and ideas in the geometrical manifestations of this world are false.

I forgive myself that I've allowed myself to become angry at the system telling me that what I am is false.

I forgive myself that I've allowed myself to live in separation by needing and being dependent on geometrical manifestations separate from me to manifest my stable world of who I am.

I forgive myself that I've allowed myself to believe that I am the sacred geometrical manifestations that has been presented to this world that is of this world that is of consciousness.

I forgive myself that I've allowed myself to believe that I am these geometrical aligned triangles of knowledge and information which I implement and manifest in my world.

I forgive myself that I have never allowed myself to live.

I forgive myself that I haven't realized that I've never actually lived.

I forgive myself that I've allowed myself to use geometrical manifestations of this world that is of consciousness as a construct and in that construct define that as living.

I forgive myself that I've allowed myself to exist in separation.

I forgive myself that I've allowed myself to define myself according to separation.

I forgive myself that I've allowed myself to use separation as a definition to tell me who I am because I couldn't find me.

I forgive myself that on my search for me I have been using geometrical manifestations of consciousness to tell me who I am because I've given up on myself.

I forgive myself that I've allowed myself to need and become dependent on geometrical manifestations to tell me who I am and who I must be because I don't know who I am.

I forgive myself that I haven't been honest with me in terms of realizing that I don't know who I am and I have not ever lived.


Embarrassment System - Forgiveness Application:

(starting point is fear of change, which stems from fear of loss - Triangle Manifestation)
(fear of change - where do you fear change and why do you fear change)
(fear of loss - where do you fear loss and why do you fear loss)

I forgive myself that I've allowed myself to fear change.

I forgive myself that I've allowed myself to hide with justification through embarrassment that I fear change because I know that if I change my world will change and my relationship with those in my world will change.

I forgive myself that I've allowed myself to fear losing those that I call perceived friends.

I forgive myself that I'd rather blend in as a chameleon with society and be of the systems than assist myself in my individual process as I understand that they will also inevitably eventually get here.

I forgive myself that I've allowed myself to fear losing my friends in my world.

I forgive myself that I've allowed myself to define myself according to my friends and that is why I fear losing them because if I lose them I'll apparently lose myself.

I forgive myself that I've allowed myself to believe that I'm actually able to lose myself.

I forgive myself that I've allowed myself to fear change because my controlled world is who I am and if it would change I wouldn't be able to control my life anymore.

I forgive myself that I've allowed myself to fear change because I've defined myself according to my world that is me and that's all that must and may exist because that's all that exists of me.

I forgive myself that I've allowed myself to accept myself and my world as one with and equal to with that which only exists and I will not allow myself to expand.

I forgive myself that I've allowed myself to fear expansion.

(then you look into your world and see if there exists any form of embarrassment. If there is - then you must go back to fear of loss and fear of change because within those two points you missed something that embarrassment still exists within)

-Triangle manifestation of release that you must let go of.


Fear of Change System - Forgiveness Application:

When your world is changing, when something of your world is not what it was before, and you experience breakdown or fear or anxiety, etc. - know that that part of your world, you've used to define you according to, and if that were to go, you'd not exist anymore or a part of you will not exist anymore.

The same with relationships - why do people have emotional breakdowns - because that person that left, in them a part of you existed, and without them, you're nothing, that part of you is gone - whether it be the perception of love, caring, holding, support, stability - people put that out there in their world and then when that collapses, they collapse, because they've gone and defined themselves according to separate manifestation in their world.

I forgive myself that I've allowed myself to fear change because I have to find myself according to that specific point that I change.

I forgive myself that I've defined myself according to that which is separate from me in my world and if that were to go a part of me would go.

I forgive myself that I've allowed myself to define myself in placing myself into materialistic manifestations in my world, and if that were to go I would go and I would disappear and I can't handle that - I have to control my world.

I forgive myself that I've allowed myself to try and control my world because as long as I control my world I know I am in control and nothing has to change.

I forgive myself that I've allowed myself to use a method of control keeping human beings in my world as I want them to be so that I can make sure that I don't have to change.

Who is in your world - who are you controlling, why are you controlling them, how are you controlling - to remain in your world just as you want them, exactly in their place - you know how to be with them, how to talk to them, what to say to them, what to wear in front of them, how to behave in front of them, exactly - just to keep them in your world - and that's what happens to relationships. In relationships, people control each other - so that they can just remain in their relationship, so they know where they stand with each other, so that they never have to change - that's why emotional breakdown occurs because that control falls and then they realize that 'I can't control that person' and because they've placed all and everything of themselves into a person separate from them - and then they fall apart and their whole world falls apart, etc.

Have a look at where in your world you've gone and defined yourself according to someone separate from yourself - where have you placed you outside of you, that if that were to go you would completely have a breakdown. Test it for yourself - put everything of your world in front of you, take away everything one by one, remove it - so that only you stand alone.

If you take away your partner, where are you reacting in your physical human body, or where are you reacting emotionally - if you're reacting emotionally, for instance, you experience, immediately:

(practical example)

I forgive myself that I've allowed myself to fear being without my partner.

I forgive myself that I've allowed myself to fear being alone.

I forgive myself that I've allowed myself to fear being independent.

Etc., and continue.

(Suggestion from Angela:)

The human mind has a difficult time telling the difference between 'real' and 'illusion' - actually it can't tell the difference in that moment - so, 'imagining' specific parts of your world (people, things, animals, etc. - do every part) being taken out of your world is a very useful thing to do - then note your immediate reaction to this, write it down - likely be of fear of loss/fear of change, then lay out a forgiveness application for your specific reaction/situation just as the system explains.

A Perspective on Unconditional Forgiveness

writing out some points from discussions we had here - that elaborate on the point of unconditional forgiveness and practicality of equality&oneness.

unconditional forgiveness is unique for each one.

within unconditional forgiveness each one´s uniqueness is revealed - as the point of self-honesty that is unique. in this each is alone.
each to find their own truth as themselves as Life.
unconditional forgiveness is the way of self, revealing the point of self-honesty here as self - where one stand absolute always and in all ways, here, as Life eternal.

there can exist no self-honesty, until one is absolutely self-honest in fact.
applying self-honesty does not imply one IS self-honest. and without unconditional forgiveness, no self-honesty is possible - because the actual self is that which is equal in all.
applying self-honesty is irrelevant if one does not walk in and as unconditional forgiveness.

unconditional forgiveness is the KEY.
within this is revealed how to actually stand equal and one AS the principle of equality&oneness.

have a look back at how ´heaven´ was cleared, which ´unexpectedly´ started with the demons in the demon dimension: each demon ´trapped´ for as long as it took each to forgive and self-realize and stand as unconditional forgiveness.
and if forgiveness was the only thing that ´worked´ for the demons, meaning - it was that which they released themselves with and as: the implication of this for us human-beings is obvious!

we are deMAN until we are MAN.

´unconditional forgiveness is unique for each - it takes each one to unique extremes of polarity / one will have to ´go to´ the extremes of polarity.
self-honesty is the point of balance.´

how to realize this practically?
how is this to be understood?
i looked at it this way:

in forgiveness one have to face all points as self - all self´s as self - all expressions as self.
unconditional forgiveness in every breath is amalgamation of self with all that is here; and what is here is polarity -to the extremes.
how else to stop and transcend polarity but to amalgamate all polarity as self and stand up from within every point?

self-honesty as the balance-point is to direct self in the moment as breath so, that self´s participation is to the benefit of all in consideration of all points that is here.
this is the ´ultimate´, absolute self-honesty.
understanding that each ´personal process´ of actual transcendence in and as the physical takes at least 7 years, as it is a process within space and time, we can look at ´self-honesty as balance´ from the perspective of - ´know thy self´ and see and live that which is self-support and self-assistance in each moment - - thus not making a ´higher value´ out of self-honesty in trying to be more than what´s here as self - but to see self as here and direct self accordingly.

within this is revealed the gift of non-judgment and humbleness.

looking at unconditional forgiveness within the principle of oneness & equality:

what is oneness? are you me? am i you?

how are we ONE?
the system is perfect: we are one through Reincarnation = each will be those ONEs one has judged, disliked, resisted, spited.
are we able to live any life?
can we place ourselves in the ´shoes´ of anyone, of any being in existence?
(and there is many many many more beings in existence than what we perceive -don´t forget the table you work on, the chair you sit in, the clothes you wear, the tv screen, your coffee mug, your computer mouse...)

if one is not (response)able (to the calling of life) - one comes back to do exactly that: to live that life one has judged, spited, resisted, disliked, feared - to forgive that life, until one stands absolute in unconditional forgiveness.

in this all are equal.

equality and oneness has always existed and exists everywhere - even within and as a system.

equality and oneness for the system works through replacement -where each being is of no actual importance but as its function/placement within the system to keep the system together, to feed the ONE system.

equality and oneness of Life is still to be actually realized, lived, ´created´ - each of us a building block, standing absolute.

within all this, it becomes more clear to me what it entails to PRACTICALLY forgive self unconditionally AS another!
obviously it also implies to really actually feel another ´as if´ i would be living their life.
the pain that exists in existence can only be ´contained´ within and as unconditional forgiveness.

what do we fear, what is it that we allow to keep us from unconditional forgiveness?
it is the irrational fear of ´losing control´, fear of death (as if anyone is in any way in control of their life...)

this fear of death, fear of letting go - so magnificently placed within the system:
as the ´christ that died on the cross´ - the christ jesus representing unconditional forgiveness.
thus in our ´logic´ unconditional forgiveness is equated with punishment/crucifixion.
we fear ´punishment´- we fear ´crucifixion´.

it is ironic: in spite of obvious common sense we struggle to maintain apparent ´control´ of ´our life´ as the personality we create and define ourselves as, when there is nothing thereof that can survive death and we know it.

and out of fear of punishment, we create self-definitions within the polarity of good & bad - giving permission for a ´morality´ to direct us that is not of Life.

in giving permission for this fear to exist, we imply that we cannot trust ourselves enough to actually be able and response-able to direct ourselves as the self-directive principle as Life in equality&oneness.
how can we be trusted?

in fearing punishment we imply that there is a greater force to which we submit and abdicate ourselves to -a ´god´ of sorts - when all the while there exist no punishment but what we have already created and what we load upon ourselves through fear = self-dishonesty and spite = separation and blame = self-abdication.

as mykey explained so clearly, we are each both CAUSE and EFFECT in ourselves and our reality.


i forgive myself that i´ve accepted and allowed myself to fear crucifixion.

i forgive myself that i´ve accepted and allowed myself to be programmed through the picture presentation and ´logical conclusion´ of crucifixion as punishment for absolute unconditional forgiveness.

i forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to exist within fear of punishment -in any form whatsoever: punishment as ´losing all i have´, as ´being a failure in the system´, as ´being ridiculed´, as ´being spited´, as ´being alone´etc etc.

i forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to exist within fear.

i forgive myself that i haven´t allowed myself to trust myself as the breath here in every moment of breath.

i forgive myself that i´ve accepted and allowed myself to fear what i will have to do and who i will have to be if i were to be self-honesty in every moment.

i forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear conflict.
i forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be addicted to ´good´ as ´harmony´, ´peace´, ´satisfaction´.

i forgive myself that i´ve accepted and allowed myself to compromise self-honesty as life to apparently ´satisfy´ another, when in fact i was only trying to ´satisfy´ my want/need/desire for ´harmony´ in self-interest.

i forgive myself that i´ve accepted and allowed myself to exist within self-judgement -instead of living the realization of unconditional forgiveness as letting go in every breath and remaining here.

i forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to compare myself in an attempt to ´find myself´ -instead of realizing that each one´s ´point of self-honesty´ is unique as each one´s unconditional forgiveness is unique.

i forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to search for myself in terms of expression and a definition of expression -instead of living and expressing here, realizing that everything is here and here i can be anything.

i forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to accept limitation.

i forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to define myself = limitation.

i forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to defend my limitations.

i forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to use comparison to justify judgment -whether in favor of another or myself.

i forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to exist in separation of what is here as me.

i forgive myself that i´ve accepted and allowed myself to fear what is here as me.

i forgive myself that i´ve accepted and allowed myself to exist in separation of myself as this world, as this creation that is me.

i forgive myself that i´ve accepted and allowed myself to fear the system.

i forgive myself that i´ve accepted and allowed myself to fear myself.

i forgive myself that i´ve accepted and allowed myself to want to be more than the breath here, even though i was not equal to every breath here.

i forgive myself that i´ve accepted and allowed myself to ´wait for others to direct me´ -instead of realizing that within this i give permission for the concept of ´god´ to exist and surely there will be many willing to take that position, standing for the system.

i forgive myself that i´ve accepted and allowed myself to ´wait for others to direct me´ because i´ve placed myself as less than myself as who i really am and within ´waiting for others to direct me´ i justify my self-placement.

i forgive myself that i´ve accepted and allowed myself to justify my self-placement to not have to stand up and be who i really am.

i forgive myself that i´ve accepted and allowed myself to justify not standing up ´because others are not standing up´ -within this comparing and judging myself and others.

i forgive myself that i´ve accepted and allowed myself to ´support´ the ´lowest vibration´ of self as an atom -and within this i forgive myself for ´failing to support others´ because i did not trust and did not support myself as the moment here.

i forgive myself that i haven´t allowed myself to realize that i will not know who i will be and who i am - until i walk within and as unconditional forgiveness as all as one as equal.

i forgive myself that i haven´t allowed myself to consider what unconditional forgiveness really actually practically implies.

i forgive myself that i´ve accepted and allowed myself to judge myself -instead of realizing that every point i judge myself is an opportunity as a present: to forgive myself for and as that point and to stand up and STOP.

i forgive myself unconditionally in every moment of breath. and so i let go. and so i stand up. and so i walk. and so i direct - myself as all as one as equal - to live Life as what is best for all as one as equal.

Do Not Trust Forgiveness

As many have noticed-- forgiveness do not maketh the man

forgiveness is a tool and man use the tool and the tool is only as effective as the man == many times the ego is SO BIG --that the tool disappear in all the VENEER and BELIEFS

see how Christianity has ABUSED forgiveness and in 2000 years not lived it as a group that stand as one - equal as all life

man cannot be trusted -- even when man do forgiveness -- the test is IN TIME == to see if you really stand as life and are ACTUALLY living what you are SAYING


most will FALL -- this is the way we LEARN

currently --the dimensions have FALLEN in the 11th cycle -- permanently and have entered the 12th cycle

we will join them in time -- and the physical will eventually be NO MORE --

that will leave us all trapped in an eternal design of CHOICE as INDIVIDUALITY as ONE -- which has Manifested as EACH ONE ALONE IN DARKNESS FOR ETERNITY

this has ONE BENEFIT -- no EGO --thus no harm to another

the rest -- we are essentially stuck as life in a stand off instead of a stand up

and purely because man do not change -- and abuse instead of embrace

this will be forced

what has been established eternally is equality as life for each one -- and that will guide us -- whether we will ever walk together again in any way -- will be determined whether we can actually really change

as far as process on earth --we have a chance if all of humanity practically stand as equals to support each one -- however unlikely -- it is possible and as long as we are HERE --we will walk

the probable outcome now is atomic war by demons-- many is already in full possession of vessels and all capable of the deed

in such event -- walk and embrace -- that will place us all in the 12th cycle and we will not communicate ever again --unless we are equal in all ways -- each in a separate universe to do as you like

as you have noticed -- some come to the forum as ego and abuse the tools like forgiveness to display their apparent intoLACKtual superiority -- all must face this-- do not be discouraged--as courage is what each will need in times aHEAD

use the tools --BUTT remember --it is about actual LIVING CHANGE

living words are living words

it is who I am that determine what I do --that requires NO EFFORT -- any effort-- means --no change yet

it is what I do that reflects who I am

yet this I that AM -- must be the living word in all ways

at Desteni we will release in due course a programme to assist with the purification of self in a practical physically measurable way -- will it make a difference--yes --for the person that really applies till change is physically here real as the living flesh

this new course will initially only be revealed on private forum -- so get your ass there

but most asses cannot be dragged to life--as the aDICKtions are too numerous

not to worry--we have eternity in a bubble


Equality as Self-Expression

Let us look at the larger plot, the big picture, and then the picture of our own experience within that.

What is fascinating about all pictures is that it is a reflection of our self-expression. This means that we are only seeing the picture because we created the picture and are part of the picture as the words we have accepted as existing as part of our world. This, placed in another way, means that all experiences or pictures are equal to the Reflector or Perceiver. Why? Because we are only able to understand that which is equal or less than ourselves. For this reason, it is impossible to understand creation in totality, as we do not see and understand ourselves in our self-expression as equal to creation. With the mind in essence being a moving reflector, mostly in this world currently without a director/creator as ourselves, we see what we allow to be reflected and created IN OUR NAME! This is seen in our name because we see it or, if it would be placed in our experiential reality, we are able to experience it.

This means that we are equal to what we allow to be experienced in our reality. How this is equated is through the realization that understanding within ourselves is equal to what we will create in our world. This means that, if we are the criminal, we are only able to commit the crime because we established within us a reason why/equality that allows us to express ourselves as the criminal. Equality is the reality equilibrium that gives us the consciousness-perceived stability. This stability is reflected as what we accept as our reality.

When we realize and accept that we are equal to what we allow, we become ONE with our reflection and are Able to direct ourselves to the next self-expression of equality. We will experience this becoming aware of our allowances as a form of uneasiness or disgust or misery or unhappiness or stress or discomfort. This is a process that has been going/moving/equalizing for many BILLIONS of years.

We have reached the point of equalizing where we see what we allow, we contemplate and reconsider what we ALLOWED ourselves to be equal to inevitably. At this stage, we may abdicate our ability to make a self-empowered choice that we live or we will return to the known past where we believe we are safe. When we make the self-empowered choice that reflects “THERE MUST BE SOMETHING MORE,” our reality starts adjusting according to our application.

OBVIOUSLY, EQUALITY has many variations. In terms of that which we may call “God,” this is the final point of equality, which we may term “Image and Likeness of God” or “perfection.” That is our eventual INHERITANCE. Yet, in the process of understanding this inheritance as our SELF-EXPRESSION, we go through a PROCESS of equality where we create ourselves as ONE with our Creation and we allow ourselves to experience it, until we realize and are equal to our true essence. Then, we give it up and create again, reflect again and direct again as OURSELVES and who we are PRESENT as, to understand our equality. This equality never wavers and is always specific to what we as our PRESENCE become one with.

This, at all times, in all self-expression, is that of: I am that I am in that which I have placed myself as equal to. Yet, I am becoming what I am becoming; that equates the point of transcendence and realization that I am more – yet, I do not yet understand this 'more' that I am becoming. This 'more' is more effectively realized as existent in all of life as that which is STABLE, PRESENT, DIRECTIVE, UNSEEN/SEEN, SPECIFIC, directing self to perfection as equal as all as one.

For instance, let us look at the removal of the White Light. In realizing that the White Light is what it is, and has become what it became, the question was: “Am I equal to the White Light as it has become?” Here I am, a Son of Man, asking myself this question.

The question was equated: “Do I trust the White Light as God?” – as, at that stage, I understood the White Light to be the Manifestation in Heaven as God. Although, through years of experience and reflection, my interaction was varied and specific with the White Light. What remained in the moment was who I am as Equal to what I understand myself to be as One with Myself Infinite. I looked at what was allowed as Equality of the White Light in Expression. I looked at what was allowed as equality in each being, which I already equated as myself as one as Equal in the ultimate, infinite constant. In that moment, I transcended the White Light as myself – understanding that, in transcendence, I became the reflection and equality that I reflected as my understanding of who I am and what I represented as equality. In that absolute statement as the equality of myself, the White Light is no more and the understanding of all is pulled through the Eye of the Needle. That means that, in that moment, the purpose of the White Light was no more. That means that the next cycle of understanding Equality had begun and would manifest as who I am as all as one, as one as equal, as understanding the responsibility to reflect myself as all as one for a moment to assist in the process of all in understanding of who each is as the 'I am'-Creator in each reality, which forms the one reality, which is not real, yet real for the moment to allow the all as individuals to understand what we have allowed to be Equal to us as we have seen and accepted the world as it is as ourselves.

This reality is NOT REAL. Look – show yourself ONE POINT in this reality that is REAL and stable. There is none. The most stable is the Physical Universe; then, Nature; then, the Physical Human Form. The most unstable is the MIND. Yet, we have placed ourselves equal and less than the MIND. We have been blinded by what we fear to lose. We fear to let the mind go as if we have accepted the mind to be life. We have placed words based on knowledge we learned from the past as the guide to what we believe ourselves to be equal to.

Yet, LOOK – everything is always lost. In this process, we all die. All is dust to dust.

The process to come is Heaven as Earth. That means that we will understand ourselves as Equal to Heaven in our Presence as One with Heaven. Yet, that is just a step in a cycle of self-expression and understanding self-expression as Equality and Oneness and understanding each other as EQUAL and ONE.

All of reality as equated by the MIND will stop. We are not this atrocity we call the world we have allowed ourselves to become Equal and One with. We are not the slave to the mind.

Within this all, Equality and Oneness is always stable and TRUE as it shows us our creations we have allowed.

Thus, let it be known, as it has always been.

When MAN speaks – God speaks. We are the Creator of our reality. We are the choices we allow. We are always only Equal to what we allow ourselves to Be One with.

Self-Honest Self-Expression as the Living Word

How does one express self without mind? In living words as living words, words you live self-honestly. Move as the living word. Flow as the word as the fountain of life.

See, being the word self-honestly as life as self is no longer language. It is living words as self-expression as the being as the word.

Intention is separation. I express what and who I am; thus, I am that I am.

The words and I are one, and I am equal as self-honesty as the word. Thus, “I am love” is so. “I am trust” is so as myself; thus, self-trust is me.

When I am the word as self and express myself, I am self-expressing. That is why, when you do self-forgiveness, the forgiveness will eventually flow from self; and then, you will know yourself as self-forgiveness, and that part of you will be real as the living forgiveness as self.

The ability to place living words as the flow of life as self will suddenly be your self-expression. Remain self-honest as life in expression; and when life is certain that you really understand what life means to all and as all of existence, the words will flow and no mind as a separate identity will exist.

All words may be lived. But, all are not equal and one as life; and thus, all are not necessarily acceptable.

Principled and Experience Living

Bernard: Okay.

Darryl: What should we talk about today?

B: Okay. We're going to have a discussion about “experience living” and “principled living.” What does that mean and how it affects one in your life. And obviously that the “principle” according to which you set your life will determine the outcome of your life, and it will determine obviously the experience as well.

If your starting point though is “experience,” principles will be out the window, because you will always adjust your principles according to your experience, and then you cannot be trusted because the experience is your guideline, which means, it is your self-interest that is your guideline.

Now, it is very important that also the principle according to which you set your life must be a principle
that is actually supporting and that will actually have the effect of an outcome that is best for all life, not only for your experience. Which means that sometimes your principle will be in conflict with your desire to experience.

Kieran: (Chuckles) That's like, always.

Bernard: Yes, initially it should be like that. If it is not in conflict with your desire to experience, and there is still starvation and war in the world, then obviously you are dishonest because your principle is not actually within the context of supporting life or making sure that all beings are equal and one within the experience of, at this stage, the physical.

We can obviously only speak of the Physical and the Metaphysical. The Metaphysical is that which happens after death which is just another form of physical, and then you have the physical which happens before death; between life and death.

D: Does the method of life lived during the physical affect the metaphysical in the same way (as it does in the physical)?

B: The Metaphysical and the Physical are equal and one. “As above, so below.” It's always been like that. If one really takes “as above, so below” to its conclusion, then the world as it is know is a reflection of Heaven and Heaven a reflection of the world, equal and one. It's Cause-Effect. What happens in Heaven happens on Earth. What happens on Earth happens in Heaven.

D: Can you give us an example on how someone lives their life through experience and/or principle?

B: Experience living would be, for instance, where one would be living to make money. To have a good life. Every single day, you'll have experiences; those experiences will have outflows and consequences. You will measure that according to how it will benefit you. And accordingly, you'll adjust yourself to follow the experiences that will give you the most benefit, the most pleasure, the most comfort, - I mean, it's totally self-centered. It's about you being at peace within your world while you are oblivious to anything else going on. Which is basically Experience Living.

If one take an example of Principle, for instance, that is experience related, you'll take for instance the Love Principle, place it into an experience, and live so that you experience Love. And you wish everybody else will as well, because then apparently we will have Peace on Earth. Everything will suddenly, by some magic, change. Which doesn't happen. And we can look at it. from the times of the hippies in the sixties and beyond where Love was the principle from the of... um, what's that singer who promoted Love so extensively?

K: John Lennon.

B: John Lennon. It made no difference. No matter if millions were loving and doving; nothing changed, everything got worse. Because if your principle is based on an experience, it's no longer a principle. So therefore, one can say that Love is not a principle. Love is an experience.

Equality and Oneness is a principle. Therefore, there is no feeling linked to it. There is no energy linked to it. There is a consequential, specific outflow in every breath that is measurable. Are we equal and is all our experience equal? Are the laws that guide us providing for all equal? Is the living space provided all equal? Is the food providing for all equal? Is water for all equal? Are resources for all equal? And are we dealing with all as one? One Body: the Body of Humanity. That is equality and oneness practically within the context of everything.

So therefore, even money – is all money distributed equal as a method of communication, as a method of sharing value, as a method of appreciation, as a method of support - or is it used so that some may experience money well, while others experience having NO money. That's not equality. That's not equality for life, either. It is not oneness. You bear oneness with the context of separation: some having, some not having. And according to your “not loving enough” because “you are not following the spiritual principles” [as depicted in mainstream religion] - you are not allowed to have this outflow of oneness.

But oneness, in principle within equality would say, “It is regardless at this stage of your particular situation; you should be treated equal.”

And the education should be equal. I would go as far as saying where technology already is available, that one must particularly start looking at even [the situation of] a child before they're born, be assessed if they will be able to live an equal life. Because what is the point to have someone who suffers in the name of someone's apparent idea that “God” has apparently bestowed upon you a disease that will harm you and make you suffer all your life, when it is clearly a DNA defect? I mean, we already know these things, but we will not apply because we do it under the experience of “Love.” I mean, where is – what does “Love” have to do with it? “Love” is an experience of self-interest. That is why when you “fall in love” with someone, I mean, it's all wonderful. But when you fall out of the, the experience changes. And it changes into something that you despise, hate, disdain. All kinds of experiences flow from it.

How can “Love” be a principle if it can change?

Love then, is not a principle that can be lived by, because it can change.

K: And it doesn't stand -

B: It doesn't for all life.

K: - the test of time.

B: Yeah, it does not stand the test of time.

D: So what about people who place their lives according to “Values?” I assume the values are probably experienced-based as well, or is it another word for a principle?

B: When a “value” - understand, values are assessed as to what it gives you. If that “giving to you” is at the cost of another, that is not a principle. It is self-interested value.

D: It can also apply to a group.

B: To a group, to a religion. To a culture, to a race. Have a look, there are values attributed to races, to cultures, to religions, to Masters, to Christs. All kinds of things.

But none of those things make a difference in the way we live in the world, considering our current diversity. Our current diversity should be considered within the principles that guide existence. Diversity should not be a “value.” Diversity is simply an outflow of DNA. It's simply an outflow from coupling that takes place where specific forms of information called DNA mix and comes up with the life form that is then programmed according to a culture and a language. I mean, it's an organic robot. If we're ALL “organic robots,” if we are not considering each other – no one is going to claim that there is a “God” that apparently oversees all of this, dispels the whole principle of DNA.

I mean, “God” wouldn't need DNA to bring up a child that is based on “Mom and Dad's DNA coming together. I mean, “God” would bring the child forth according to “God's” wishes, not according to a pre-designed, DNA-specific outflow. Which is what it is: every human being on Earth, every animal, every plant is the result of DNA that takes one form. It was already known before the child is born that particular DNA is going to be in that child.

K: It's the DNA manipulating itself.

B: Yes, and it will automatically will, according to who couples with whom, you know, the various bloodlines, if you want to call it that, the DNA information lines from different families will mix and come up with a new being. But it's not really “new.” It's simply a mixture of information that comes from the DNA.

K: So then, technically, DNA is “God.”

B: Technically, DNA is “God.”

K: (Chuckling) Because it's the one thing that creates.

B: It's the thing that comes up with the designs we call “Life,” but actually it's the design of a robot that is functionally useless until it is programmed. When a child is born, the child is useless and nonfunctional until it is first educated. Thus, education is programming. When the child is programmed according to values that do not consider all life as equal, the child will abuse. And our education systems do not make provisions for equality and oneness.

D: It's a closed system.

B: Yes, it's a system that only serves self-interest. It serves competition. It serves the capitalist system, where capital is power. What is Capital? Capital are those with money have power. That's Capitalism.
I mean, what is Communism? Is that the community should have the power where it's equal and one. But that's been abused by Capitalism; Capitalism saying, “NO! We have the capital; we decide. The community has no say, the community works for those with Capital.” Therefore, the Capitalists decide.
It's what happens in the world. Which is all self-interest, per se, because they control from product through production to consumer. All points are controlled because all the money is centralized at a central point; The Capitalist.

D: So are there any other systems – I'm sorry, not a system, but is there any other principle other than equal and one, that takes into consideration all life?

B: There is no principle that we've been able to find in the Physical or the Metaphysical that considers all life equally. Obviously, when we start to consider all life equally, even our experience in how everything comes forth will start changing. That means our evolutionary process will change. But yes, at the moment, what we are experiencing is a form of evolution. But an evolution from the perspective that it is information-based strands – DNA – meet and come up with new pictures of itself. New, contextual forms of itself that follows particularly the information that i s available. I mean, human beings cannot claim in the physical to really know much, because they are all based on information; information coming through the five senses. The “sixth” sense is very much simply “self-reflective” one.

There was a time when beings had some access to the Metaphysical that has been progressively, if one does research – been diminishing. If you look at the 1900s, in the books of “The Lives and Teachings of the Far East” (written by Baird Spaulding), there were humans on Earth that could walk on water, that could manifest food and things like that. That was still possible.

You look at the 1940s – 1950s, you had “materialization,” that means beings, through ectoplasm, materialize and actually move on Earth. Then after that came the psychics, the healers, the Goldmiths, [Joel Goldsmith- founder of the Infinite Way movement].

D: The UFO Cults.

B: The UFOs also became more prevalent. There were the experiences of the UFOs. There were actually UFOs that crashed, and so on, so...

But none of those points were understood. There was some interaction with that.

Then came the New Age Era. The Age of Love. And in this Age, the form of channeling changed into a form of mind-expression, completely. That means a being goes into a “mind-set” which is a particular “mode” of vibration, then speaks. And the message is always the same.

The message is always the same: it is always about “Love, ”and always promising better days that never come. And it will go on now for close of some 30 years, the New Age. Started about what – '75.

D: Yeah, that's when I first noticed it. [It was actually 1978 when I had a White Light experience and in trying to find out what happened, I found Seth Speaks in the college library, which had been in print for several years].

B: Yeah, and right about 1975, approximately, the New Age started emerging using the “Love” principle, and obviously it was to contain “Love” into a form of future projections, so the experiences forever is one of hope. But never any principled living that actually changes the reality for those who live in this world.

D: Going back to the principled living, you mention this list of items to be aware of being equal and one in every moment. How can we practically go through our day with that in mind?

B: What we found that was fascinating was that it's not going to be possible for any one being to make a difference in any way whatsoever in the world. It's going to be all beings as one. Meaning, individuals that will have to be anomalies to the system, that will have to challenge the system. Within that you have to consider that you can do that which you can do, physically, practically, in and as you are breathing. Because that is your true reality. Within that you have to consider what systems within this world is not supporting life one and equal. The primary one is the money system. For any change to be possible in this world, the money system will have to change. The money system will be that which considers life.

The money system will continue with its crashing, as we have said close on to one and a half years ago.

The money system will be crashing and it will continue to crash. They still don't understand the problem that actually exists within it. They will never understand it. The problem is inherent in the dishonesty of the Capitalist system. The Capitalist system is inherently dishonest. It is inherently based on the abuse of life for the interest of the few. That means the abuse of the labor of many and the resources of many so that just a few benefit.

[Dogs begin barking. All ten of them it seems like].

B: So, what is that in this world that controls life? It is money. And how it controls your life, is through a fascinating principle. It is actually not only controlling the Physical, it's also controlling the Metaphysical. Money in the Metaphysical is Energy. Energy in the Physical is simply represented by money as an actual container that moves and is an exchange between beings.

So, in the Physical you are experiencing yourself both as Physical with Physical Energy and Metaphysical – which is Mind Energy. That Mind Energy that you create in the physical – that means that “idea of yourself,” that persona, which becomes your essence from which you act IS WHAT WILL REMAIN WHEN YOU DIE, which is very limited. Just that persona, that idea of what you acted from, which is not a physical, actual thought – it is an accepted idea of who you are which you used to recreate yourself from the Physical into the Metaphysical.

Thus when the body dies, which is that carrier of that reflection of yourself, as your idea of yourself, which you are living out within your habits, your participation and the way you act in the world. That is the part that will be “you” in the afterlife, in the Metaphysical.

D: Does that entity change before you're born – [What I meant to ask here was this: what changes – if any, occurs after a being's life?]

B: You cannot remember when you reach the afterlife, any of your previous lives. You cannot remember where you come from. You cannot find your origin. All of that was counted through the Soul Construct. The Soul Construct, or the Akashic Records, was the place where all of the records of the past lives were kept. Ever wonder why? Because you couldn't remember it! Therefore it was kept in a library. And that library was the Akashic Record where you could go and have a look at your past lives. But you could not remember them.

So the Soul Construct was a recording system that was centered in the solar plexus, where as your life, as you were going through it, were recorded. When you died, that Soul Construct, that recording device
with the recording, was placed within the Akashic Record, so that you could later do what is called, “life review,” so you could have a look at your next life. Could you improve on yourself? Who had you become? Things like that.

K: The very point of you not being able to remember. And having to actually record your experiences would imply that whatever you experienced in your life was not “real.” Because it wasn't an actual “self” experience. If it were self-experience, then it would “be here” as an actual remembrance, not just as knowledge and information that has to be recorded and kept in a separate, manifested construct.

B: If we take Kieran, here – and, Kieran, you died about three years ago, approximately.

K: yeah...

B: Approximately. He died after the portal was already opened, and he came through there. And he was “linked” to myself through Cerise. So what remained of Kieran from his past life? He had a particular – he was a naughty fucker. I mean, he had a naughty life, had all the money he could dream of – everything.

But he had something that was working for him in this world. He was assertive. That assertiveness in his expression, that definitive assertiveness. That remained.

K: That was it. That point of “This is what I want,” and actually DO it and get it done immediately in its effectiveness and it's specificity. That's it.

B: That's what remained from a life.

Kieran: Just that one expression.

Darryl: Do you recall the other parts of you or is it just not...

K: That is the only point that I lived, that was a ‘self experience.’

B: that was the only point around which every moment turned. If anything happens in a moment, he would come from that point – that assertiveness that remained – that is who he is now. The rest is gone.

K: it is non existent.

B: at the moment of death and because by the time he came through – the soul construct was still there, but he did not go through it, so his soul construct was not placed and it was deleted any way because..

D: Didn’t the white light or whoever was in charge of the white light come after you?

K: It was already taken out at that stage.

B: No not yet, the demon dimension was still operational. You went into a different part. You were put into the room thing.

K: Yes into containment. Ja when you’re in containment you are not seen as a threat.

B: So he was immediately put into containment, therefore he was not a threat to heaven.

K: Yes ‘cos then you’re not a threat.

B: And out of containment into the portal straight. So he was for three weeks in containment from death to the first time through the portal.

D: Did you understand what was happening?

K: No, in the containment, no. It was such a short experience. It wasn’t an experience of three weeks of time.

B: Time is not experienced in the metaphysical.

K: to me it was: I died, I came into containment, I came to earth, I came through the Portal.

B: There were three events: event, event, event, but it was not time based.

K: No. I did not know three weeks had passed.

B: Time, remember is directly linked to the mind consciousness system.

K: Absolutely, in the physical.

B: It is not something that actually exists in the metaphysical.

D: So only the main point of your self directive principle remained?

B: If there was nothing that you lived per-say, if there was nothing that made you stand out as a presence within this reality, in the physical – when you die you will be like nothing. A lot of beings is like nothing.

K: They either have nothing or but one or two points.

B: So if you have not lived by a particular point or principle, which is not a value, it is something that made you stand out within the physical – that was definitively to the benefit of all – then there is just nothing. For instance if you lived love all your life, meaning from your idea, the value or the principle of love, then when you die there will just be nothing. The love was not real, it made no difference to the actual practical reality of those that starve in the world – those that are in trouble in the world – then you were ineffective, you were unable to actually stand up and make a difference because you were self centred in your experience of: I am Love, Namaste. I recognise the god in you as you, I recognise whatever: the god in me, the god in you. I mean that is like saying actually: I recognise you and I allow you your system and you allow me my system, my personality – and therefore we are allowing each other to be who we want to be, we have free choice and free will and therefore I don’t really care what you do, just don’t care what I do. Let’s ‘Love’ each other. Everything will be fine. Those beings when they die is just nothing. They start again.

Remember that what you have to bear in mind, what we found in the metaphysical, includes heaven but also includes what was not heaven. Remember it is ALL that is the metaphysical. What did we find, it was a fascinating things: evolution from the perspective of karma, reincarnation has never happened. There has been no betterment of the soul so to speak. The soul itself as a body within the physical through which the recording was kept – of the life – and that recording would then go into the akashic record and your next life from there – snippets will be taken and it will form part of maybe your next life. When it is designed and programmed. So the soul was the programmed body, which is the body of intent of what you are attempting to life this life. Okay.

There has been no improvement of any being through aeons of time. In fact there has been a de-evolution, a diminishing that is tang place which you can see now in this reality – in the way human being are interacting. Their concern for each other has been diminishing considerably and is doing so more and more and the need for a saviour has increased. That has been done specifically to keep control effective, because the higher the need for a saviour, the easier it is to provide one that keep you occupied for a while and then you are disillusioned, and then another one is created.

D: The same way with relationships?

B: Exactly the same. What is the primary method for that used now? Politics. Politics has become the new religion of the new age and has replaced religions and therefore religions are now using politics to try and remain relevant.

D: So if we live a life through the principles of our experiences, we are ‘goners.’ Living it through principles – that is going to require self honesty, being constantly...

B: What is self honesty within the context of equality? You have to observe you have no more impact than that which you have impact in, which is your life according to how you live it in each breath. You cannot be self honest within the bigger picture because you have no influence. To try and be self honest within a bigger where you have no actual influence will only dishearten you and will actually destroy you because that is dishonest – you don’t have impact. So how could you then live as if you do have impact? You have impact in your daily life, breath by breath. That is where you apply it. That is where you live the principle of equality and oneness, because that is the only place you can.

D: So you can’t do it through activism or politics?

B: You can become a part of activism and form a group and from there start to push. But that would mean now the group must remain self honest. You are in one and equal, you are now creating another being. So there you will be self honest within your own life and you will be self honest in and as the group – and yes groups will have to form in terms of this to bring forth or to stand up and make a noise about what is it we require and get to a point where we get it. Imagine your next life your coming back here!

D: That is of some concern.

B: Before your next life was determined by beings that was in control of heaven and who were doing things in the context of their self-interest.

D: So how has that changed?

B: they had a group of ‘elites’ in heaven that would have all the good lives and anyone that would challenged that would be taken care of. Now everyone will reincarnate equal to what they have done to others and they will become hat which they have done to others. They will experience it until out of that experience a principle is born. A principle that consider all life – that is rebirth.

Once you start living by principle equal and one for all, the experience becomes irrelevant because it is inevitable that the experience of all will be equal and one – and therefore to the best of all. What you want to do, is walk as the principle. Which is what everyone will have to do. You are not going to make a change immediately. It is going to take time. It is going to take some living according to a principle. So I suggest the easy way, which is you live by the principle and start look at the practical way of living the principle, which is: in and as breath within that context. Then you can create groups, entities, a group which is based on the principle of equality and oneness – participate within that, within the context of your ability. Support that deliberately, actively.

K: So it is living as the principle until the principle as you...

B: Becomes the experience -

K: And becomes manifest.

B: Yes.

K: As you in your reality or world.

B: And in the whole world as everyone, so therefore the way to live is to live by principle, equal and one. That is the principle I am living until it is manifest. Therefore everybody is equally responsible. The only point where one, if one now for instance would not consider everyone in existence – devices is in places that will then shorten your stay in this reality and take you to the metaphysical where you will remain as only that which you have been – which is normally nothing – and then you will start again. Come back here equal to what you have done to others. Now how is that determined, I mean – because now you don’t remember anything. It is contained within the energetic of the unified field. ‘Here’ carries dimensionally, remember – there is an idea that exists that apparently we are evolving to become multi dimensional. Hi, hi, hi – there couldn’t be a bigger lie. You are multi dimensional. Here as who you are now, existing only a refraction of yourself within a single body called consciousness. You are not conscious of all of you within it. To be that you have to be equal to everyone here, and one as each here and consider each one as yourself. Then you are conscious of it.

Therefore consciousness as it is understood is a deception. Consciousness as what it is, is a single body of existence, where nobody is aware of each other and nobody cares and everyone is trying to be something else than what they are and therefore you are forever going in cycles of lostness, forgetfulness.

So within consciousness, within its multidimensionality, its multidimensional levels, its multidimensional layers as it exists – lies all the lies you have ever lived and that you must realise because that is the lies you will manifest as your next life. Until you stand up in the physical as the principle of equality as all as one as equals and live till it manifest as the experience of life. Then life is born in the physical equal and one – and this will continue until this is done. Common sense obvious, obvious common sense, common sense obvious. But many will be oblivious to it because of their self interest, which means that they have decided that certain values in this world serve them,. But they are doing that in disregard of everyone else who is suffering in their name.

I would suggest strongly that one do not disregard all beings that is here with you within this experience and that one change this experience by stopping the experience that is currently going on. Changing your experience to a living of principle until the principle become the experience again and we have changed our experience – within the world and we have changed what the future will bring. We will also then change our experience and our principles in the metaphysical – that means what is in the ‘beyond’. But definitive intervention had to take place because of the abuse. There is not one that is here that is suffering now that can claim that suffering is not real and it will become more real because that is what is being created. Before there was a certain level of control through pre-programmed lives that allowed some to have control over the experiences that they will have in the physical, so they had very little suffering and very little calamities, because it was programmed out and diverted to other beings who did it on their behalf. Now there is no protection any more so equal and one, those in the physical who have abused will according to their abuse experience it and so will their families and those related to them. That principle will still stands and in your next life and your next life and your next life. It is still standing.

D: Will it be programmed quote un-quote: ‘like before?’

B: it is already programmed.

D: Through the principle of equal and one.

B: It is already programmed through consciousness. Through every action you take in this reality which leaves an imprint. That was managed through pre-programming so that it does not come back to you but is diverted to somebody else’s life, so you never experience the consequences of what you were doing. Those diversions have been taken out, so everything is inverting to the ones abusing. The more you abuse the bigger the consequence. There is still a time lag in it because it comes into play according to the extent of your abuse. The more abuse, the more compression which means a little longer you are going to wait before the shit hits the fan if you are finding that you are doing something which is harming another and within 24 hours you are already paying for it – there is a consequence, then you know ok cool I am getting back to myself because the time lag is not much. If you are harming one now and only in 5 years there is consequence, then you know: oh shit I have allot of shit coming because it takes so long, for each point to manifest because all the points and shit will be equal and one – which means it will be that big in the context of what you have allowed. That means that each one that has purified, takes themselves from a position where their consequence becomes immediate and that is what you want to get to. You want to have your consequence immediate. If your consequence is immediate, that you in your words as you speak you see what you do and you stop yourself. Now your consequence is immediate and you are the directive principle within the consequence stopping.

Now you have compressed time, which means that you make everyone else’s consequence come quicker. So therefore everyone has an effect on everything. Making sense?

D: Yes. We were also talking about a person and their family. Our families are affected by the way that we live, either through the experience or...

B: And through DNA, obviously. Because through the principle that DNA runs through you and your family – is of the same energetic signature – it is DNA based. Therefore it flows much easier through the lines that is recognizable.

D: So if I live my life through a principled way, will it affect their lives to push it towards that as well?

B: It will assist them within their own processes. That means that they will become far more effective in dealing with consequence and their you would call it: your example will have an effect. Jissis (Afrikaans language for Jesus) not only the example, it is also what flows from your actions – your principles will have a bearing on whether they will become more principled.

Initially it will have an effect on many where the children will become more reactive or the parents will become more reactive. That is simplistically so that they can see their actions and the consequences more clearly and then slowly but surely through forgiveness and self honesty the action and the reaction will become one – which means that your act of dishonesty and the consequence of dishonesty will become quicker and quicker and quicker, until you can see oh god I am creating it and then it will go quicker until it is all here where as you act, you see what you do and then you stop yourself. So what is it that you do with self honesty and self forgiveness- is you reduce the time difference between action and consequence until it is here.

So everyone can thus assist themselves and that is how you know where you are in your process, because when you act and consequence is immediate and you stop it there – 3 points – you are now the trinity based principle within yourself within consequence. Now you can actually stop all consequence that is directly related to you.

D: Well that’s good news for the moments that are happening now, but the past though is [still] playing out.

B: They will play out and the same points will come, when it comes recognise that what is happening is something that you have created. Go back to where you created it, defuse the point, look at it self-honestly, forgive it, realise that it must come again because realise that you must take it to the point where the point of your creating this consequence – that you are stopping it. You cannot stop the past – what it now plays out, I mean you have not stopped it, you are stopping the creation of it from the perspective that you are shortening this time span that it must occur within. So now in stopping this time span you want to bring it closer and closer until you are directive principle. Practically when are you directive principle? When you are stopping the consequence in the act – and until you have done this for all of what you have allowed, things will happen – and remember all the past lives that you have been here are in unified field, is within consciousness – waiting it’s turn to come and visit you again.

There is no way out of that, you created it, you must stop it and your creation point and your stopping point must be equal and one – must be the same point. Because only then are you directive, otherwise you are still events driven. You are still driven by the experience and not the principle. So therefore I suggest principle living.

D: Sounds like a book topic actually. Principle living does show how we are responsibile for ourselves and our actions and -

Bernard: I mean, what has happened through the soul construct and religion and the whole programming of lies is that the point of self-responsibility has been mis-directed. So therefore, beings have directed their lives as if somebody like Jesus must come and save them – they are not really responsible because they are “born in sin”.
Because they cannot see how their actions and the consequences come together -because there is such a big time lag between action and consequence, firstly; secondly, there is so many of these things that was programmed out, so that you can do harm to another and nothing bad happens to you ever. Because you have a pre-programmed life. And everybody around you –you are manipulating them to take on your shit and to pay on your behalf.

D: So, do like the world leaders have a bigger point to cross?

B: World leaders are there because of the people that placed them there. Every person will face the same point the world leaders are facing because you are the world leader. The world leaders are only there because of you. For no other reason. You can’t blame them for what they are –you created them.

D: Hmmm

B: Therefore the consequence will be related to everything in existence within consciousness.
It’s the same where the metaphysical are currecntly in their processes. They have no access to anything in what is called reality, which is the Physical, which is consciousness.

Remember, the Physical is the manifested Consciousness. While the Mind is the projected Consciousness. Between the two you are busy with THINKING –which is the project of projecting, ok, it’s where you are creating the Physical. I mean, you are also creating your next lives.

The Mind is that which protects you from yourself. It is a containment that prevents you from harming excessively. Because, in your very nature that’s what you would do, if your thoughts had to manifest. Therefore very few of your thoughts will ever manifest, but you will pay for all of them. Meaning, at the level of consciousness, the thought will leave an imprint and it will become part of the outflows that you have to pay for because you dare to actually in self-interest only consider yourself and harm others. Whether you actually harm them or whether you harm them in thought, there is no difference in the consequence. It is the same thing. All that happens is the Mind prevents most of that from actually being inflicted on another –but the consequence of the infliction as it was projected in thought: that you will still face.

D: How would that apply to prayer and meditation?

B: Obviously if your prayer and meditation is from a prespective that does not consider what is actually manifested in this reality as the Physical, then you will bare the consequences of what you are allowing, because you would for instance say “it is God’s will” –the very moment you say it is god’s will that suffering happens, in that very moment you become consequencially the one that must experience that. You become responsible for what you are allowing in god’s name. Because you are using god’s name in vain – you are not standing up to take directive principle, you are not principally standing up to make a difference. You are, in fact, blaming god, by using the words “in god’s name” or “in god’s will”.

I would sincerely suggest to you that that is what has been termed an unforgivable act. You must experience the consequence.

K: Physically.

B: Physically, yes.

K: In a life.

B: In a life, yes. I mean, otherwise what will cure you? Common sense won’t - obvious outflows and consequences -, your consideration for all life equally won’t, because you don’t [i.e. you don’t consider all life equally].

D: I’m thinking about all the preachers and clergymen that would say it’s god’s will.

B: Obviously, why are they preachers and clergymen... because of guilt, in most cases. They have done acts that were so dispicable in their own eyes, that they had to somehow contain themselves in a form where they can do less harm –but actually they are doing more harm, because they are doing it in dishonesty. Therefore they seek a form of -

D: Redemption?

B: Correction or redemption through their acts that they’re apparently
going to perform in the name of a ‘greater being’ that is undefinable to a certain degree –but they can define it to suit them according to their guilt.

K: As if, like, through attempting to do acts in or through the will of a ‘higher source’ that they will redeem themselves as what they and who they are and know themselves to be within themselves.

B: Yes, and then they hope to not pay for what they are.

K: Yeah.

B: Unfortunately –bad news: you will experience it, in this life or the next, and also in the Metaphysical. The metaphysical obviously is far worse than the Physical, because you are there prepared appropriately for your physical life –which means you experience everything there at the metaphysical level and then you take on the physical, to see if you have really changed; because you can’t really change in the metaphysical! The metaphysical is simply just a-

K: A preparation.

B: A preparation field, you can say – it’s a train station. You’re waiting for your next life.

K: Where you can reflect on who you are.

B: Yes. There is only one reality now, within which all will face themselves, which is the physical. This is the eye of the needle, this is the eye of the universe. The beautiful blue eye of the universe. Within where the universe have been purified from abuse that has been going on for billions and billions and billions of years.

D: The problem seems that we don’t learn.

B: How could you?

D: I mean you-

K: I’d say the problem is that we don’t STOP-

D: Aah!

K: not ‘learn’

D: Well that would be the same thing: you learn to stop.

K: ‘Learn’ is still a point of ‘I am being taught something’...

B: Yeah, let’s consider the problem. The problem was: in the universe there was never time. Time –means, that there was never a consequencial outflow where you can link action and consequence. What is time? Time is that which links action and consequence. Now, what are we doing- we are simply using time to learn that there is a consequence to your actions.

K: And that you can see that there’s consequence.

B: And so that you are actually going to experience it in ‘time’. And you are waiting for it –which if where fear comes from. Fear is born from the awareness that you are going to pay for what you’ve done.

D: In previous lives as well? I mean-

B: That was always the philosophy, but it was not in practice. Because some manipulated everything to their own benefit. Because when they saw what was busy happening in the universe, (i.e.) that there was a consequencial outflow to actions, they attempted to manipulate it so that they don’t have to face it. Which is happening a lot in this world. The rich nations living at the expense of the poor, for instance. Deliberately dumming down some parts of society so that some may have it all. The same principle is existent in heaven.

K: Dumming down most of societies so that they don’t and are not able to, ehm, let’s say walk the ladder of success. So that only a select few are educated to walk the ladder of success and have all the money in their power in the world...

B: Well, a new money system that provides for all equally within the context of support as life - the realization that each being IS life - and accordingly providing each with that which will give them dignity within their experience, will obviously change our perspective of everything. And will remove all power from those that has money.

D: Ehm, so it sounds like these things are set up to correct what we’ve been doing.

B: All that exists is a prism. A corrective prism. A reflective mirror. A containment of all that perceive themselves to be life –to see that they have never been life. They have only been that which was a parasite, that which was consuming each other in the name of self-interest and in the name of having a better experience than someone else: “At least God loves me, that’s why my experience is better than yours.”

K: So basically, we’ve always known that consequence exists, that our actions and words have a direct influence on ourselves and everything and everyone else. And that we are the determining factor within ourselves and within and as everything and everyone else. And ehm, so, a select few, from a perspective, saw that directly, and attempted to, as you’ve said to create loops or cycles so that the consequence or the direct consequence is not experience –but that the consequence is diverted to a mass so that a select few can be ‘saved’ from having to be directly ‘touched’ by their consequence –by their actions and by their words.

D: Right.

B: A select few yes, had a superior idea about themselves and regarded all other manifested forms as lesser than them. And thus not equal.

K: Why does that point as well exist? Because it exists in each one! That each one- if you were in that position, you’ve done exactly the same.

B: Exactly the same.

K: So you can’t blame.

D: Not blame, it’s not so much blame, it’s just that, we want to correct ourselves, we want to act within the principle of equal and one and be that, instead of the experience based..

B: Darryl! Let me place it to you this way: if your life were a success, you would not be here today.

D: No.

B: That is the basic principle. Therefore, what do we know? If your life is not working for you, you are likely to seek out an answer. And you are more likely to look for an answer that will have a long term effect so that you don’t have to go through the misery of a life that’s not working. Therefore this world will have to now enter that -which is busy happening- where everyone’s lives will not work. So that each one may face this point of: what happens if you are living without considering everyone else equal and one.

So from that perspective everything we’ve ever known about all philosophies, all religions, all gurus, masters, everything -becomes irrelevant. Because none of it has considered a practical solution to what it is we are really experiencing within the context of eternity. It has only ever considered a single life at a time.

I would implore you to consider things within the context of eternity. You’re going to be around for a very long time. You’ve been around for a very long time, you’re only forgetting because you’re trying to run away from consequence.

Now consequence is enforced through the time lines and energies that has been slowly but surely building up, to a manifested reality. Which is called the ‘End Times’. Are we gonna get it? We don’t know. Armageddon will sell us, isn’t it?

K: (chuckle)

B: Maybe there will be Armageddon. Maybe we must get on with this now and get it done.
[Bernard here playing around, making a pun out of the sounds: ‘Armaggedon’ and ‘are-we-gonna-get-it’; ‘Armaggedon’ and ‘I-must-get-on’...]

D: Yeah..

B: But understand that it is possible to actually correct yourself within one physical life, to bring here into every breath both action and consequence -and directive principle. Three points: this is the act, this is the consequence, this is how I direct it -I stop myself and I now direct myself.

A direct intervention by yourself within your own life. Then: groups that become direct interventions within this world for those that are not currently in a position to do anything for themselves, I mean, there are many that due to what we have allowed are not in a position that they can help themselves. You cannot leave them there.

K: That could’ve been you.

B: It could’ve been you –in another life. So there is a responsibility. Desteni is such a group that has taken on that responsibility and we will be doing it in various ways. You may join us, I mean, we are a culture worthy of considering.

D: Yes, by all means!

B: We may cultivate (chuckle), after all, within you a principle expression that will benefit all life. In that cultivation –you will have to give up all the cults you belong to now. Because everything in this world exists as cults only. Because it’s all cultures that are specifically presenting and promoting experiences which make you feel beter than another. They’ve never consider everyone. The moment that self-interest emerges, know: “I am a member of a cult. I am not considering everyone. Let me stop here and reconsider my position because there will be a consequence.”

How do you know there will be a consequence? Man o man, there’s one thing no-one in this world can stop: that’s Death. We’ll be waiting for you (chuckle).

D: Yes, ehm, is there anything else you want to say?

B: Not at this time.

D: I thank you both for being here and providing us with a little insight on how to take on our day. Thanks.

Perspectives on Self-Expression

Perspective on Practical Self Expression

This is fascinating and we just understood how to place this in words

All creaation is 3 steps

Creator == selfhonesty

this selfhonesty in the moment create trust with youself

Thus--Created == selftrust

Selfhonesty and selfttrust empower you and is the only real power in existence
and give the certainty and confidence for selfexpression in that moment

thus giving Creation == selfexpression

So practically

in every moment I am honest with me-- Because honesty is noyt transferable from moment to moment -because if I base the next moments trust to the previous, I enslave myself and the result will be a breach of trust with me and instead of selfexpression, selfdeceptio will step forth

So -- when a new moment enters my awareness-- I honestly as self as all as one view it --then I trust my honest and I express myself

why do I then become fullfilled-- I will build trust with me which is the ability to remain new in every moment and look at it as if the first time--so I am reborn in every moment and in that I build my self value as I trustmy honesty with myself and I empower me as I understand that my Selfexpression is based on my selfhonesty and my selftrust that I proof to me as me in every moment


Imagine if each one in creation walks like tis-- then we have man unified as the I am


I AM== Father==Creator== selfhonesty

thus creating son== I am== selftrust

thus expressing as one-- the father and I am one

The trinity of creator as mysef explained and all is equal and one in this , because it is available to each to use this way to selfempowerment

all that remain is choice-- but choice does not exist-- because if I am selfhonest--what choice do I have?-- If I am self trust --what choice do I have? and if I am selfexpression-- What choice do I have?

see choice is selfdeception
and see so is free will== selfdeception


Perspective on: I wish I was still a child

Let's look at a child: Innocence in self expression in the moment - unconditional in self expression as who they are in the moment. A child has no MIND, thoughts, feelings or emotions which they accept or allow to influence or control them - they're just here in the moment as who they are - open and vulnerable saying: This is who I am - I love me, I accept me, I enjoy me. Thus, this process is the 'return to innocence' of you as you as who you are - because it's still here as you, it is not lost - it's just that you have 'forgotten about you' and accepted and allowed the world and others to influence you / control you / direct you within you through accepting or allowing you to react towards them - then ofcourse believing / thinking you are the mind within you of thoughts, feelings and emotions which is not who you are - so, now you have to 'walk this process' of 'returning to innocence' through self application of self forgiveness, and focusing on breath so you can 're-learn' how to trust you and how to unconditionally express you in every moment - with no interference of accepted / allowed reaction within you. To become as a child once more - no more mind influence.


Perspective on words

words are the material that is the voice that percieve itself to be and experience

any word-- not in sound as sound free-- enslaves-- so silence is one way to slow the experience of searching-- searching does not exist-- how can I search when I am here-- what have I done with me-- Am I lost in my own words?

Am I these words?

Where am I from?

How did I get here?

Am I lost?


Perspective on: 'I can come to a level of being that will allow for me to communicate a full expression of self'

What you are expressing is an understanding of equality and oneness-- what you are not sure about is how to do it practically -- in this I recommend you read Equality and self-expression-- Structural resonance from Veno-- in fact, all that we present is placed as support to understand equality and oneness as a practical living model-- I am placing my journey in understanding how to live practically as you have already felt the answer to be-- Remember though that you must prove it to yourself even when no-one agres with you or respond in kind

Self-Responsibility as Life

What will change the world for All?

When a Principle is guideline-- personality and ego becomes irrelevant if the principle is effectively applied

lets look at oneness practically

we are all one as humanity on one planet

lets look at equality practically

we are all in a human body with the same basic needs in food, home , education etc

if all laws are made with this in mind --this which is our oneness and equality and this is the guideline for all as a principle --all abuse will stop

thus--if all systems--like the moneysystem, educationsystem etc have as starting point oneness as humanity and equality as basic needs--starvation stops

crime will become virtually non existent

greed stops

corruption stops

manipulation stops

politics stops

because things like politics are only ways designed to deceive the majority into believing that some one actually care about them--all the while it is always self interest at play -- thus--it is time for principled living--that will change the experience for all in this world



Would greed actually cease even if people were provided for equally? Would not some people want to be, as in Animal Farm, "more equal than others"? I mean I don't know of course as this has never practically occurred. Am I not understanding something here? Would appreciate clarity on this point as I am not "getting" that part of it for some reason. Thanks.



the point is that the principle are the directive starting point and not persons --then even if one wants to be more equal--it is not possible within the principle directive



but all this shit wont stop. because there too fuckin many of us. 1 person can change the world.... well... but i have more faith in 1 person changing the world then i do with a group of people. i wonder why that is



this is why world events will force all people to stand as one person then all is equal and one and will do whats best for one as that is best for all

in this responsibility has been preprogrammed to accept that a savior is necessary as the populous are sinful and unable to stand as life

that savior will not come- so this is why the initial stage will be between 14 to 45 years before sufficient suffering has been experienced by all in the world to stop and become like one person walking --realizing what interconnectedness and equality and oneness really practically means

Perspective on Fear


look at this

Make a list of all your fears--

ask yourself this question-- why do I fear this in my world--why do I fear certain experiences-- why do I fear being without money as example

but--now--theultimate mindf--k

look--you actually fearing self


who allowed and created all the conditions of fear in your world?

who is responsible?

so -- the only fear that is really existing--is the fear of self

because--we create our condition and experience--but--because we are separated through a beliefsystem that something else is creating the fear--we misplace our fear--and get more fearfull as we grow older--not understanding the simpleanswer--all fear is fear of self--because self create all of reality--either directly or through allowance


An e-mail I received today from my son of 13
-- note the fear--in cycles of polarity--ultimate--the fear of self--trapped by the feear of change and the fear of choice

yet the only power is himself====

Even now im cyring but for some reason the typing helps im afraid of talking to you because i already know what you will say that i must get my ass in gear and i know that but i am afraid of what will happen i am afraid of the unknown i don't like “going in blind” i am afraid of what it will do me and my life i am afraid of who or what i will become i am afraid of the dimensional beings because i doubt everything that they say and do because i doubt everything that i say or do and iam afraid of the dimensional beings because i don't want to get attached again because i am afraid of losing them and iam afraid of losing you and cerise and Esteni and all of you guys because i feel that you guys are all that keeps me together and you keep me apart if that makes any sense

and so

can any one help him?



he will be enslaved--he must stand up himself and he understand the answer already--see the words


The Design of Fearing your own Fear

This is the design of fearing your own fear.

Intersting, is it not? Did you know that… Let’s take for instance, you make a list on a piece of paper of all the fears that exist within you. But what is interesting is, it is, it will look like this:
“I fear death.”
“I fear pain.”
“I fear being shot.”
“I fear bleeding to death.”
“I fear burning to death.”

But what is interesting… what is the first statement in that entire sentence? ‘I fear’.
And the – ‘I fear’ is the first statement placement – ‘dying’, the second. So, ‘dying’ is a derivative from ‘I fear’.

So ‘I fear’ is actually the manifestation of you as what you have accepted and allowed yourself to be one with and equal to.

So how does fear look like within human beings? Have a look, this is very fascinating. Let’s take for instance “I fear death”.

‘I fear’ is the first statement, ‘death’ is the outflow-derivate of ‘I fear’, which is the manifestation of what you have accepted and allowed yourself to be one with and equal to as fear. Now ‘death’ in itsself is fear. So actually, what you’re saying is “I fear fear.”

Let’s take another example. “I fear bleeding to death.” ‘I fear’, I.. fear.. which means ‘I am fear, I accept and allow myself to be one with and equal to fear.’ ‘Bleeding to death’ is the derivative of this fear-manifestation of what you’ve accepted and allowed yourself to be one with and equal to. ‘Bleeding to death’ in itsself is a fear. So, it’s “I fear fear”, again.

Human beings fear their own fear. The most simplest yet, most ‘seemingly complex’ design within and as human beings mind consciousness system. Design human beings to fear their own fear and they exist in constant, continuous fear within themselves – charging, powering and generating the mind consciousness system within and as them.

But now, you can’t just go “I don’t fear anymore, it is now done.” No, you’ve built layers upon layers upon layers of self-definition within and as you as ‘I fear’ as ‘I am fear’ as the manifestation of you as what you’ve accepted and allowed yourself to be one with and equal to. So your “I fear fear” is ‘hidden’ in multiple different manifestations, it is like the tree of the mind system of fear. You have the roots which is fear itsself, which you’ve nurtured and grown with “I fear fear”, which is “I fear death”, which is “I fear bleeding to death”, “I fear being stabbed”, “I fear being robbed” - when that very ‘robbed’, ‘killed’, ‘stabbed’, ‘bleed’ is fears in itsself as a manifested placement within this world. So, human beings feear their own fear, which exists within them, which they have accepted and allowed themselves to be one with and equal to.

So, human beings, I suggest the following: Make a list of all your fears, but you have to go in deep within yourself in absolute self-honesty and have a look at what it is that you’re accepting and allowing yourself to be one with and equal to in how you’ve designed you to fear your own fear. And so, you have to dis-embed yourself from all the “I fear fears” that you have connected in the relationship to your mind, because now your mind is designed according to your “I fear fears” which you’ve been designed and placed as pictures and words.

For instance, you write down “I fear dying.” You say “I forgive myself that I’ve allowed myself to fear dying. I forgive myself that I’ve allowed myself to connect ‘dying’ to ‘fear’ itsself, and thus I forgive myself that I’ve allowed myself to fear my own fear.” And you do the same thing and just replace the word ‘dying’ with ‘bleeding to death’ or ‘being stabbed to death’.

Why? Human beings, realise that the generation and re-juvenation of fear within and as you is what is charging everything else that exist within this world. If you fear being stabbed to death, you charge and generate your mind consciousness system through your unconscious mind, it balances out in the unified consciousness field and someone else is stabbed to death. Because of your fear existing within you - because we exist in a unified consciousness field, we work on ‘polarity equated balance formations’ – it has to balance out somewhere else.
So, human beings, do not accept and allow yourself to be controlled or influenced by fear. Fearing fear itsself, interesting. And this fear you give ‘life to’, ‘attention to’, ‘power to’, ‘control to’ if you ‘think’ and ‘believe’ you are ‘powerless’ against fear. It is interesting, human beings think that if they fear something, they’re protecting themselves against the happening from them. You know, fear of dying – because if you fear dying, ‘maybe it won’t happen’. Then human beings exist their whole life in absolute fear of death and, what happens?, you die. Human beings, realise that you are inevitably dying within this world. Your human physical body can only last so long.

So the question is, are you actually going to live you as who you are in every moment of every breath or are you going to exist in constant, continuous fear, your entire existence until you one day die? Then inevitably, because you hold on to your fears, related to dying, you’re feeding the system, it balances out and someone else experiences what you fear. Stop the mind, human beings, it is not who you are. Live in every moment of self-honesty as self-trust and self-expression as you.

Thank you very much.

The Power to change the world is in Your hands

Another perspective on practical stopping the old and beginning the new--thus being the beginning and the end in every breath

Life is a moment--a breath--we take in --self forgiveness--and blow out--self honesty

Thus--in the circle of life--we stop the circle with self forgiveness and then start a new life every moment in self honesty

In this way we purify ourselves and the environment we participate in and thus have a direct influence on the future of the world

we are then equal to our own effectiveness in self honesty and self forgiveness and in total control/directive power of our lives

Thus -- Inbreath--== is Self forgiveness--self introspection/correction

and thus the end of the world/ end of "karma" the STOP--no more till HERE no Further --Self awareness in self realization

and outbreath --- is then self Honesty--the creation of the new world through self expression in every moment -- THUS I Direct

and so we DIRECTLY impact the world in EVERY BREATH

Equality in Matter

Equality implies all are equal in all ways - implies all are one and the same in essence, in source, in manifestation, in ability, in knowledge, in awareness, in expression, in value. However, this does not mean that individuality does not exist within Equality. It means that all Beings Live Equally - all beings have Equal access to life - because all beings ARE Life. Life is Life - there is only One LIFE. That is the Life that is within all things.
The Life within me is the source of me - The Life within me IS ME.
And yet I am Here with other beings - Here in the same place, the same reality, the same existence, the same world. Therefore the statement: 'The Life within me is the source of me - The Life within me IS ME' - is the same for all beings HERE.

If all are Life - then common sense is that what is the best for Me as Life is one and the same as what is best for All beings as Life that are Here - as I am Here.

If there is one being that says - 'I am separate from the others - I want what I want, I want what is best for Me, apart from the rest and I do not want to consider everyone else as my equal within what I want' - that implies that who that being is does not exist as Life - and yet common sense is that that being is not actually separate from the rest, not actually separate from Life - because that being is still Here - the source of that Being is still Life.
This being wants to believe that his Source is different from the Source of all other beings. This being wants to believe that he exists in his own reality. And yet common sense is that since this being exists HERE with everyone else in THIS reality - he does not, and cannot ever exist in his OWN reality. This being is HERE like everyone else, and has come from the same Source - the same Life - and therefore within his statement: 'I want what I want and I do not want to consider anything or anyone else', exists in Spitefulness of the rest, and in Spitefulness of himself - because the Life in all the others is the same Life that is in him - yet he does not want to see that.

This being exists AS conflict - this being's existence can only exist AS conflict. For this being to experience himself as 'separate' from the rest - the reality in which he experiences himself must exist as conflict, must exist IN conflict at all times - because the nature of his desire to not consider everyone else as Life as Equal to himself implies that he is trying to 'break' away from the rest - and yet he can never do this because the very source by which he exists - is the same source by which all the rest exist.

When this World is viewed with common sense - it is seen that the current nature of this world, the current nature of all beings Here in this ONE reality - is CONFLICT.
Each being wants what is best for themselves - without considering what is the best for All others Equally AS themselves, AS Life.
Each being only considers what is best for themselves within their 'own reality' - with their 'own reality' actually existing as a point of Conflict. All beings exist in conflict with each other. There is a perceived 'peace' that is experienced, a perceived 'equality' that is experienced, within the experience of being 'connected' with someone through points of Relationship. However, the existence of 'point of relationships' implies that there also exist 'points of non-relationship' - which are actually points of Conflict.

When will conflict end? Conflict will end when all Realize that we are all HERE Equally and as One from the same source which is Life. In realizing this, it is seen that what is best for me as Life in this One Reality - is what is best for All HERE. Within this realization it is seen that all 'personal' realities - all realities which I perceive to be 'my own' - have never actually been real and will inevitably END - because all 'personal' realities - all realities that are 'my own' actually exist as the attempt to Break away, to Separate myself from the rest so that I can have my own reality in which I do not have to consider everyone else here Equally as Myself as Life.
All personal realities are Points - points that exist in relationship to other points - that which is 'my own' is a Point - a point that exists in relationship to other points of 'my own' experienced by other beings.
Life however, is not a Point - Life is just HERE and has always been HERE.
Therefore, to end conflict - Who we are as beings must stop existing as Points in Relationship to each other within perceived 'separate' realities.
When it is realized that We are all One and Equal and the Same as Life - then all Points of relationship End - and Self as Life remains - Here.

How do we ensure that conflict never again exists in any form whatsoever?
We STOP existing as who we have always existed as within and as Points of relationship.
We SEE that what is best for everyone as Life, Here - is what is best for Me Here. We SEE that what has value - is Life. When conflicting values end - there is no need to preserve, maintain, hold onto, defend or fight for anything - and there is never anything to lose - Because when everyone exists Here as Life Equally - there exists only Life Living, and Life Expressing. There exists only Simplicity. There exists only Freedom - but not Freedom as a point experienced in relationship to Limitation, no. Freedom as Life - Freedom as Equality. Freedom as the Living Certainty that no abuse or conflict is possible to exist in any form whatsoever because all that exists is Life - everywhere and as everyone. Limitation only exists when a Being exists as a point in relationship to other points - implying points of non-relationship, or Conflict. Thus there is always something or someone conflicting with the Being's 'own reality', and the being will always strive for 'Freedom' as the experience of being in complete control of all points of 'my existence'. But this is not freedom, it is simply a state of control - and control must be maintained. And even if the being achieves total control over all points - the nature of his reality still only exists as Conflict - because he is not seeing and realizing that the source of all points under his control - is actually Life, and that the source of he himself is Life.
Therefore, for actual Freedom to exist - all points that exist in conflict with Life - all points of Self Interest as 'what is best for me without considering all Equally as Myself as Life' - must End forever. So that only Life remains, and the desire and need to control ceases to exist forever.

Each one of us the the KEY to Equality. Each one of us is the Key to Actual Freedom. Each one of us is the Key to Life.
Each one of us is Here - and each one of us can See within ourselves, what of ourselves exists in conflict with another. Each one of us can End all points of Conflict within ourselves. In this World as it exists, this implies standing Equal with All that is Here. All Beings, All Animals, All Nature - because it is seen that the Source of All that is Here is Life.

I look at my hands. My hands exist as formed Matter. Matter is this Physical Reality. The Source of this Physical Reality of Matter is Life - because all that Lives, all that exists in this World, is born and formed from Physical Matter.
All exist Equally and the same as Matter. And with our hands, we move and form this Physical Reality of Matter. The events and experiences that this World consists of, are the outflow of what we do with our hands in Matter.
At the moment, that which directs us in Matter, that which determines what we do in Matter - is 'who we are' within our minds, 'who we are' as a Point in Relationship to all other beings Here, a Point in relationship to this Physical Reality that is Here.
Each of us is attempting to CONTROL what is Here as Matter, to CONFORM to 'our own' Reality - when in fact, we do not actually have 'our own' Reality at all. We are in Conflict with Matter, in conflict with each other, experiencing ourselves and existing as Points of Conflict.
How can we make this Reality of Matter a Reality in which Life is Free in Fact? Stop existing as a point of conflict, stop existing as a point in Relationship to everything and everyone that is Here - because in this, all Control ceases to exist. In this, one stands Equal and One with all that is Here in Matter. In this, one Becomes Matter and Directs Self As Matter - Self as Reality - Self as Life. Within this, Self is Directing, Living and Expressing Self As Matter As Life within the consideration of what is Best for All that is HERE. Self no longer desires control over any point - because Self exists AS all points. Self as the being has Amalgamated everything that is Here within dissolving all points that exist in conflict and relationship and perceived separation from Life - from the ONE Source of all that is Here in Matter.
Within Self Amalgamating as all points of what is Here in Matter, Self now exists as Life - Self exists, lives, expresses as the source of all that is Here in Matter. Self is Here as Life within and as Matter as this Physical Reality. And this Physical Reality of Matter is that which Remains Here in death. Therefore, Self is now always Here and does not actually die.
Death only exists as the death of that which existed in separation and conflict. If 'who a being is' exists as a point that exists in relationship to what is Here, a point that exists within the polarity of Relationship and Conflict to other Points, to other beings, then that being exists within an illusion of separation and is in conflict with its source, which is the same source as all and everything that is Here. Such a being has a beginning and an end.
The Being that has Amalgamated with all that is Here in Matter, no longer exists as a point in relationship to anything, no longer exists as conflict, and thus no longer has a beginning and an end. Such a Being exists simply as Life.

What Matters is what I do with my hands in Matter. In considering what determines how I move in Matter, I can see whether 'who I am' is Here in this Reality, considering what is best for All Here in Matter - or whether 'who I am' exists in an Alternate, non-physical reality where I am considering what is best for 'me' in 'my own' reality and attempting to CONTROL what is Here for the benefit of only 'my own' reality.
Within this consideration I can see whether 'who I am' is a point of conflict with a beginning and an end - in which case 'who I am' will cease to exist in death, or whether 'who I am' is Here, Existing, Living, Expressing, taking Self Responsibility within what I See is the best for All Here in Matter as Myself, as Life.

Matter is the Key to Freedom. Matter is the Key to Eternal Life. Matter Frees Man.

Practically creating the world as acceptable for all

This is the tested living model where each one will be able to participate as equal and one and experience their participation in bringing forth a new world.

How I apply practical forgiveness in every moment, is in my application of inner awareness in the moment before I act in outer awareness-- so in my world I am known as the destroyer-- because--once I am certain I am honest with me and what I am aware of my accepted expression and I have corrected me in my self expression, I will reveal the point in the other that requires correction to the point where their world will destruct-- normally they are angry --but inevitably they return in forgiveness and understanding --this is how we enlighten the world through revelation of inner awareness as the outer expression of what we are aware of in every moment.

Have a look at how we have created our world - the outer me reflecting the inner me (from which we have hidden, which we have denied through shame of what we have accepted and allowed to manifest in this world as us and thus the reason why we have not actually stood up and have taken responsibility for ourselves: Shame of all that we are actually responsible for, which is the inner me that manifests the outer me as this world within which we experience ourselves) - thus in applying forgiveness in every moment, before acting or speaking, making sure I stand as self awareness as me and correct what is necessary within (which is that which had been the cause through acceptance and allowance by me to manifest what exist within me and my world that is not of who I really am) - our expression both within and as me and without and as the world will change - because it is me and I am responsible for me, both within and without! Only when honesty with me is proven as me, that I am honest with me in every moment as self expression of inner awareness: Am I able to directly 'point out' that which exist within others which is not of who they are within and without - I then have the ability to see this within others as me, because I am aware of them as me, I see directly because I see directly as me through self awareness as me as who I am. I live who I am through and as honesty and inner awareness/self awareness and thus I know who others are as me and I will not accept and allow anything less than who they are as me. Because I know how and what their current image and likeness is accepting and allowing within themselves and this world, which is not who they are and thus the world will reflect that which is not who they are - I am responsible for them as me, in every moment I see that I or those around me are accepting and allowing within, reflected in this world, that which is not of who we are. Thus--I take responsibility for the moments in my world I participate in without compromise or justification or making it better than what it really is. I thus trust only my honesty with myself as self corrected and make sure I am self corrected through the actual forgiveness and correction--If I did not do the forgiveness, I will fall - If I did do the forgiveness I will understand that the being did not change immediately, but went through a process of realization as self that in a way excluded me, yet is me as the being is me. My input thus is the catalyst and the Structural Resonance as I am Presence will direct to the point of AHA--I see what I do--This cycle take from days to 2 years per event--so be patient--yet assertive and firm in your standing--Trusting self forgiveness and corrective application in your own world experience--inner to reflect outer. You will not immediately experience a change in your world through forgiveness--only a relieve--a moment of peace -- then more conflict as you start to face yourself.

Many will react in many ways as I stand and not accept and allow anything less than who they are as me - through fear of facing self through self honesty because this will mean that the shame of self will have to be faced of that which have been accepted and allowed within and as self to manifest in this world as self and that we've never actually stood up within and as self awareness and self honesty in every moment and take responsibility for that which we have accepted and allowed within self and this world as self but instead cowered away in shame: This is but the process to realising honesty with self, which is self honesty through self awareness: Self aware of self, self honesty with self, self responsibility with self - the one and only relationship/agreement that exist within existence as me.

This world as it exist, us how we exist - the inner expression and outer expression have been created through many moments for eons of time. Thus self awareness is required in every moment to no longer continue with the moments of expression we have accepted and allowed that is not of who we are, with forgiveness we correct such moments within ourselves, with self honesty we correct such moments within ourselves, before we express - then we express through and as self awareness.

So= Strange--Forgiveness in full circle

So Step by Step

1. I see life as a moment-- a moment is not time , but the point that change my experience in a moment to the point that the moment change again-- Between this beginning and end of the moment-- I look at my inner reactions and movements-- I may have only one breath like in a conversation or many when I am more observer--

A moment not equated to time. I'd describe a moment as follows: Sitting alone within the living room and someone walks in, would be the beginning of the moment. The end of this particular moment would be when either one of you stands up and walks out. Within and during the moment the application of breathing becomes the expression of you as follows: The in breath and out breath and the infinite moment in between the in breath and the out breath. Within the in breath I observe my inner awareness, during the moment in between the in breath and out breath exist an infinite moment, and within the out breath I express my inner awareness as outer expression: This moment, from the in breath, to the infinite moment in between, to the out breath - occurs with every breath from the beginning to the end of the entire moment as my inner awareness is expressed as me within my outer expression as one. The beginning and the end as one moment with the in breath, the infinite moment in between the in breath and the out breath and then the out breath. And so you continue throughout the moment into the next moment, the next moment when you're alone once again within the living room is the following moment after the moment you experienced with the being in the living room with you.

The breath application within and as the moment work as follows: Four (4) counts in breath, four (4) counts infinite moment in between the in breath and the out breath and then four (4) counts out breath...and so you continue.

2. In the in breath I observe me inner self-- honest to the utmost-- I found that if I am not honest--I will be ashamed Later-- In the moment before the in breath and the out breath-- "Time" stand still and in that infinite moment (I practiced this infinite moment in-between breath by challenging myself to see the essence of the common sense that is best for all in the moment. That means: I look at the practical way each participant in the moment's life will continue if I don't interfere and whether I would be grateful at the end of time that someone had the courage to challenge my ego and belief systems when I was lost. And then I express myself as the challenge and interference in the beings life, taking responsibility upon myself to direct the moment to the benefit of the greatest self expression inevitably.) -- the outcomes of my participation is measured to obtain maximum impact no matter what--obviously only as words-- this same application was applied in the directive principles that changed the dimensions in one moment--This is the point f access that cannot be thought out or come from knowledge and access will only come through much effective honest self reflection and proven application within the infinite moment in between breaths--no more access will be gained than what is proven to be understood as life in the infinite moment with full awareness and understanding. Thus , here no-one give access and it cannot be forced or prayed or meditated upon--it is gained through proven effective self expression and participation in the current allowed reality focusing on stopping what is here to allow that which is life within to step forth to be directed by self as proof as Creator, Created and Creation and the responsibility that goes with this--This is the dominion of Man and why Earth is the “secret” of existence and why all creative Will is directed from earth in existence and why all creation became trapped around earth due to the abuse of self expression. This had to happen to understand oneness and equality and bring forth a model where all will walk as one--either on earth or after death--so--no-one will hold any captive with fear or with knowledge - death is the equalizer where self refuse to go in self forgiveness and correction for all as one.

So from the in breath I observe me, inner self, and in the moment before the in breath and out breath within the infinite moment I observe all participants as me included. And within the observation I see direct where it is necessary to act or speak to direct those as me to self realisation/ self honesty in revealing points that is not of who they are, and within the out breath I express me, inner self, inner awareness of all that surrounds me and I act and speak appropriately where necessary: The expression of me not accepting or allowing anything less that who the participants are as me.
Observe: In the breath alone, you are trapped in consciousness, as the breath alone you are trapped in consciousness. It is in the moment in between the in breath and the out breath that you are free, it is in the infinite moment in between the in breath and the out breath that you are free. That freedom expands and expounds as we become more specific in our understanding to let go of what we have allowed to be the Illusion we call creation--yet as a training model--the illusion is great and effective -- So--doesn't help to fight or scream or manipulate--this is done --This is the last life for each on earth as consciousness--sadly for those refusing to apply forgiveness--all that will happen is that you will be last to realize your responsibility to yourself as all as one as equal--so--we will be equal to our application

3. Obviously if I found a movement or emotion or feeling of reaction like anger in me because of the other beings participation-- I apply forgiveness and do the correction in myself into infinity in the infinite moment between the in breath and the out breath

Self first: This is important. It is first to correct self awareness, inner awareness of self through applying necessary self forgiveness before directly speaking or assisting those that participate in a particular moment in effectively and appropriately directing them as you by not accepting and allowing anything less that who they are as you.
It starts with self: In moments of not accepting and allowing anything less than who I am through breathing application and expression, making sure I stand clear within self honesty and self awareness and self responsibility through breathing application and expression, I won't accept or allow anything less from who those are around me as me.
Honesty with self first, self responsibility first, before honesty with self within others as self is 'pointed out' and revealed in realising self responsibility towards others who are participating in a particular moment. I always assist the being I am opening to self revelation by doing forgiveness allowed with them--very effective with children--example--say to the person or child--repeat after me allowed--I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to see that the inner conflict in me is the inner conflict in all other beings on earth as well. I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to belief that my conflicts are unique and that I am alone. I understand that I am alone in my inner honesty, because I must prove me to life to be birthed as life from systems--etc--this requires practice and to ask questions will assist.

I imagine the fear--we all have to give up consciousness and what we believed was important--so we all will understand our fears and the fears of others--thus--important to not use the fear of your own giving up by saying it cannot work, because others will not believe--then you trap yourself-- Focus on self first and test this out--or you may stand after death having to face the truth about your essence of fear not yet transcended--not a recommended option and there is no judgment on what method you apply--now or after death--either way you only face yourself and in that you and each are alone

Self first - First making absolutely sure within the in breath, the infinite moment in between the in breath and the out breath and the out breath that I am absolutely completely clear from all that I am not within a particular moment. Inner awareness, self honesty and self responsibility must stand as me as who I am to be able to 'point out' and reveal within those that participate within a particular moment that which they are not. Thus I must make sure I stand absolutely clear within me as me of all that I am not, not accepting anything less than who I am, to be able to do the same within those that participate within a particular moment.

4. Obviously-- I have through practicing this multiple times focused on my correction with forgiveness-- established a level of trust in my corrective action and thus trust that I act as all as one as equal in the moment--In other words--because of my own honesty with self in understanding self correction and oneness in expression and equality in responsibility-- I trust me to do what is necessary to assist in revelation and practical example-- I cannot save another or fix another--I can only reveal self-deception and only once I have proved that I have corrected self-deception in me. This is proved through dimensional access--no honesty--no direct access--no proof that all as one is who you are--no access--just mind jobs and pictures--just snippets of uncertainty--yet where honesty has been infinitely proven--full access--hearing and seeing just like you and me in 3d--conversations -like dimensions and earth is one will become your reality experience--this is the guide for each on earth--all will see dimensions and communicate dimensions equally - as we do in 3d--the key--self correction and self realization and with effective application--quite possible for anyone any where

Here remember--access is according to the extend of self expression--no- one gain more than what is taken responsibility for as all as one--so no-one can actually harm another--only systems harm systems and death is only the death of systems.

5. Correction of self deception means to find a solution onto infinity in every moment-- That seems odd, but look-- The I am only exist in the moment and not in the mind or thinking-- so The I am of me will show me what to do in the moment if I have proved my honesty to me and proved that I will act in the interest of ultimate oneness and equality -- NO MATTER WHAT

6. This means that the answer cannot be planned or prepared--I must be prepared thus aware and in that awareness -- self-directed-- thus I must trust me that I will not abuse my awareness to get my way or my will, but will do the GREATER will-- This is where power is--if one can call this power-- Power is greatly misunderstood

Within the expression of self through the out breath - the outer expression of self is unpredictable - self expression is unpredictable as it's not equated to memory, as it's not equated to thought, emotions and feelings as a reactive behaviour. Outer self expression as one with inner awareness as self - is unpredictable and it is within and as unpredictability where self trust exist. Yet this unpredictable self expression is where the words spoken together with actions necessary to be taken in the moment is one - and is done within and as equality and oneness for what is best for all as one as equal. Thus, in unpredictable self expression, trust exist from the principle that I will speak and do in this moment what is best for all as one as equal - as each human being represents existence as all as one as equal.

7. Now in the in breath I assessed myself and what I became aware of-- in the point in-between I tested me into infinity--In the out breath I participate in trust and let the words flow-- no thinking-- this is then the I am that speaks--we are all this I am , but this I am never speaks-- the mind speaks-- this is the calamity of Man.

It is here within and as unpredictable self expression, as the outer expression of inner awareness as self with the out breath - that the I am speaks and expresses as all as one as equal - appropriately, what is best for all as one as equal. Here the I am speak in sound as sound and your words become infinite expansive sound where you see all the various ways your words will flow through existence--this is truly amazing--but impossible for systems or the mind to experience

How do we know it is the I am speaking--the mind is silence--as long as the mind thinks or pictures of something greater exist--the I am will not speak--see the 10 Commitments in Baird Spaldings books - a few adjustments necessary--but the Amalgamation expressed there happens only through honesty and self forgiveness as an inner process that each must do individually and that no-one will be able to do for another--those that wait for another -will experience the fate of the one they wait for--to show that -our example of discipline with self honesty and self forgiveness no matter what the challenge--will manifest--this is certain

See how humanity is being forced to speak out with world events having little or no effect-- because they have not yet done this process of self-awareness at an inner level of practicality-- thus-- great calamity must now manifest--not necessary if we get our asses in gear with revelation in the moment and forgiveness and self correction

The process of self revelation as movement of self, instead of the culminating of effects within the world which we caused through no self awareness, no self responsibility and no self honesty - reaching calamity which will only then cause self revelation and self movement for us.

I have been living like this for years, but to place it in practical words took a while.

Look in this model of practical living -- no God is required, no Master is required , no ascension to send your ass to some better place--the best place is self, here- as Self Mastery. No religion is required but honesty with self. No wisdom is required but awareness in the moment. No honey words is required because you are the bee that collect the pollen in awareness in the moment as the moment flower - knowing that honey will be produced from it. This is the food of life.

Practical breathing thus is--constand--practise
4 counts in 4 counts infinite 4 counts out - repeat

No-one will come to prove you but yourself--this is certain and only self will proof self to self--this is equality and oneness in practical expression


Practical Common Sense

Common Sense Insights

Why make history if you do not learn from it.


When you act for something separate from you is when it’s not for self.


One tells his story to earn from it.

Why judge another of a believe, when he/she just believes but has no 100 percent proof, when you believe yourself?

Why eat animals when you don’t need to eat them?

Why keep on following same methods of "helping" when the problems just keep getting bigger and bigger?

Why give presents to a little baby who doesn’t even know wtf your doing?

We give to receive;
Like with children, give them toys so they may shut up and leave you at peace.

Knowledge is useless if it is not lived practically equally by all for all as one being --we may call this being existence or the universe.

Why justify suffering, fame, child abuse by just being lucky for your own happiness?

Why use the SECRET for wealth when Wealth is a Secret?

Why are we MEAN to find the MEANING to life?

What does it MEAN?--War?--Abuse? Dishonesty? Love?

What does it MEAN to be well MEANING?

Why be lazy when it just 'breeds' laziness?


Where there is suffering, love does not exist.


As I look within me, I find that:
I am the child abuser
I am the destroyer
I am the rapist
I am the murderer
I am the thief
I am the dishonest politician
I am the gutless soldier

How do I stop all this?
Responsibly being honest about the self.
Therefore, slowly within me, I become everyone and everything that exists.
When you get to heaven, what do plan an doing for infinity???
Why get sick if you do not learn from it

Why apply yourself in anything when it does not serve what is best for all (religion, beliefs, spirituality)

Why fret about shit when all it does is make you I'll]

Why spend an entire life time worrying about your smallest move

Why cry over spilled milk

Why spend your time and energy on that which is not practical

Why cry for a God on a cloud when he is obviously not coming

Why allow animal abuse when obviously the animals as your equal does not appreciate the experience as much as you do


I am real. I exist. I am here.


If you don´t stop history, the history stops YOU


Why this world is not life?
Because common sense has become uncommon in this world
common sense should be common -but it isn´t
thus this world is not of life


If we listen to the judgment we speak
we will know where to start within self


The drop may know it is in the ocean

but seldom does it in know the ocean is in the drop/itself


All BeLIEfs are of the mind and is a program that we believed. So we lie to our self in any belief. So it is to unfold as we learn to BE and leave the LIE


Destiny not defined by
What you see
Gives You freedom just to BE


Only we are able to think ourselves to be who we think we are, how we think other people are and how we think events are. Our perception of our reality is created by what we individually think about


If I Am


You Are


What is the problem?

We Are!


Existence knows no separation within and as itself - Thus all is ONE.


What is the problem?


Woman and men who are married and have children keep saying to me: 'Why do you look so young'. I say to them it is because I don’t have children and am not 'married'. Then they sigh and say with regret and finality in their voices: 'Yes children and marriage make you old.


What you think other people think of you holds you back not what other people think of you and then forget.


We live between the boundaries that we create ourselves in the first place and get confirmed by others so locking us in place like a puzzle piece


What is to BE equal ... (at first sight / bare sight)??

All is, BEING, existing...
all 'the' BEINGs, exist, and that is equal to all as one manifesting this existence.

all the rest is the knowledge and information, connected by the mind to, all in existence. (separation)
all beings communicate between each other, as they are HERE, in existence, existing, as one. Beings are ONE.


Hate is like masturbating

its draining, it's soothing at first, it leaves us sometimes feeling dirty, and some may say it's fun, until we realise there's a mess to be cleaned.

It up to each to clean their own, someone might slip.


Self abuse, fear, anxiety etc cannot be real because it is not who we are.


All illusions are to cease to exist and truth is to remain for eternity.


'Be still, and know that I am god'

be still, and see what enslaves


What does this mean?

Take note - Some Common Sense

This world is Fucked up by man--this all with eyes that see direct can see--those that cannot--see through their minds and are MindFucked--a form of orgasmic delirium that is indicative to systemic induced meat called robots for short

Nature is being Abused by Man--the same as above applies

Animals are being Abused by Man--the same as above applies

Children are being Abused by Man--the same as above applies

This is PROVEN and SELF EVIDENT and BEYOND Discussion

To Hide from THESE TRUTHS--the only Truths we actually Have--man created Love as a picture--Spirituality as a pictured feeling and Party as an Emotional feeling

and so we go--till the last breath--unless we learn to breath as awareness

Caring and Love vs. Realization and Practical Common Sense

caring is an action we participate in because it's what we're told is 'good'
and 'right' and 'ethical' - we do it because we feel bad for someone 'other' than ourself

this is different from seeing that what exists on the earth is what we have created, and that it is actually ourselves that are experiencing the suffering -
so naturally you see that it must stop - so you go about doing what is practical to stop it

imagine you were blind and had always felt pain in your life but were not able to understand where the pain was coming from - you would then focus on the feelings which made you feel 'good' in order to dull the pain or try and forget about it.

then imagine that suddenly you could see! and you looked down and saw that you were standing on a field of sharp nails - ah ha! you would now see exactly and specifically where the pain was coming from - and it would be common sense to begin walking off of that field of sharp nails. and you would do everything in your power to walk away from that field of nails.

- what would not be common sense, would be to continue focusing on good feelings in the hope that the pain would go away.

so, as I see it, 'caring' takes place in the blindness of the mind.

practical correction of what we have allowed is possible when the 'I' is opened, when we realize for ourselves exactly what we have allowed and created in this world, and then we do what is practical to STOP it


Common Sense and Making Sense


Common sense, as how I understand it so far, is that which you see in an instant, which you cannot deny in self-honesty. There is no way around it, it stands absolute. It is that which you know that you’ve always known here as yourself, but didn’t want to recognize and see because of its implications/consequences. It is that which you see, when you go ‘ooooh, I seeeeee, of couuuuuurse, obviously, I knew that, why didn’t I see that before?’.

As you might have seen, I find it hard to ‘define’ common sense. What is common sense? And even more interesting to consider is : what is the difference of common sense to making sense ?

Let me write about the second one a bit. Making sense. How I have experienced this, is when you go and create an explanation, some kind of logical theory, a story to that which you are experiencing. In other words, is when you try to see, and then force yourself to see something, to be able to ‘place’ this experience within yourself, so you can ‘handle’ it. So, in this, it is some form of control – creating an explanation, logical theory, story to be able to ‘handle’ your experience, and without this, you can apparently not ‘handle’ it. I wonder, why am I putting “handle” between these things: ‘ ‘. It is funny, because if the experience is here within myself, then it is me, so, how can I not be able to handle myself? It is me. Then you’re actually saying that this experience of you is greater and bigger than you, how can this be? Only in separation. So, what I have experienced with this, is that I would try to ‘calm myself down’, to say it like that, in making my experience within me be understandable in a way. And then I would work with this understanding of my experience in self-forgiveness, instead of directly working with the experience itself. So, interestingly, it is a way to not have to face my experience of myself here, directly, immediately and instantaneously. Instead, I ‘disguise’ it in an understandable story and in this, hide it within me.

To give you an example of my personal experience, at a certain point I was faced with all kinds of emotions related to events of my past. I wrote the entire thing out, everything that I had experienced. But then later, I approached this story in a way of trying to make sense of what I had been experiencing, explaining to myself why certain things had occurred in a logical way. So, in se (basically), what I was doing, is analyze these experiences, like scientists do, in an objective way. I saw my story as something I had to investigate like a researcher, as something out there, separate from me. I made myself a nice explanation of everything, so I had an understanding/interpretation of what had happened and why. From there I started to apply self-forgiveness. It was quite ‘easy’, from the perspective that I didn’t have many reactions coming up, but I started having this painful headache on the level of my eyebrows and cheekbones. I got the suggestion to stop for a while and write about my experience in the very moment. I did that and I realized that what I had done, is, I had created a distance between me and my experiences in my story, so that I wouldn’t have to experience them again. I had looked at the story as something separate from me, as a way to protect myself, so that the story couldn’t touch me/hurt me. I took a breath and placed myself here, in my chest, instead of up there in my head. I took the story, and read the words as myself, one and equal. Immediately all these emotions and tears came up, quite overwhelming. Then I really saw, okay, that’s what I was trying to prevent from happening. But see, the emotions were still there, I hadn’t released anything. I continued with self-forgiveness, but this time I dared myself to see the emotions, reactions, experiences within myself as me here in the moment, and worked from there, no more as a separate experience of which I was trying to make sense of ‘there’.

An interesting difference is thus, directness, the directness of seeing immediately here. Common sense is seen directly here, in an instant. When you make sense out of something, it is only but a possible explanation, an option so to speak, that takes time to get ‘there’. Thus, making sense requires time, when common sense is here immediately as me. So, let’s take a look at this. What is self-honest? Can self-honesty exist in the seeing of only and merely an option/interpretation/opinion of past knowledge and information design of mind of what is here? Are you then really seeing? In making sense, there exist the opportunity and possibility to only see that which suits you the best - there is no such thing in seeing what is common sensical. When I say what suits you best, I don’t mean, what is best for you as all as one, but for you as an individual, as how you have defined yourself to be in relation to and trough your mind = enlightened self-interest.

Have a look for a moment at the words ‘making sense’, it is something that needs to be made, produced, through thinking. And when you have to make something, you’re stating that it is not yet here. How? Because you’ve separated yourself from it. Interesting to see, making sense involves thinking about a moment, and within that you trap yourself in time, when common sense is as self-expression, instant HERE.

In seeing directly, there is no escape, there is no excuse, there is no justification, there is no hiding – because you see what is here and you can not bend that into something that you would prefer seeing to protect your self-defined existence of and through the mind. Escape, excuses, justifications, hiding exist in making sense, because you can mold the explanation, logical theory, story to hide that which you fear seeing. When actually, it is in that which you fear, that an opportunity exists for you to realize yourself. It must be, that’s common sense lol. We resist going there, because we know it is an ‘exit’ from our self-defined existence of mind. The fear is there as a protection mechanism of the mind to protect its own existence, to prevent us from realizing ourselves as a moment of self-honest self-expression here – here which is one and equal as all, because that would be the end of the existence of our mind as we continue stopping resisting our fears and facing them in every moment. So, in making sense of something, you’re actually making sure that you can continue living the same self-dishonesty, because you’d create the situation/experience through making sense – to support your (my) (mine) self-definition of mind. You can still take a direction that will allow you to continue to exist as you are. So, you can ‘choose’ what you do and then apply yourself according to that ‘choice’. When in seeing directly, common sense, you see that there is only one solution, one direction, one option, and thus – no choice. So, here you have the illusion of choice revealed. Choice can only exist in self-dishonesty. And if no choice exists, no free will exists. Free will – to be free to will what you will, you as how you self-defined yourself of mind. And the mind runs as programs, where is choice in programs?

When you take a look at choices, when you for instance make the choice to take a certain direction that makes sense to you, instead of seeing directly and taking the only direction that is common sense. Who then is making that choice? Is it fear? If fear directs you, can you be free? The answer is no, because fear consumes you. If you make a choice in and as fear, it is fear that took you in a certain direction and not you HERE. When you take the choice to take a certain direction according to what makes sense to you – you designed an ‘illusion of choice’ through the construct of ‘making sense’. The direction that you take is thus according to an illusion, so obviously the direction in itself is an illusion. And thus, free will does not exist and then again, choice not either, because a choice wasn’t made, as you were directed by fear.

It’s interesting. I am a student at university and when you take a look at science, how it works, scientists actually do not know what is the truth. And they know they don’t know. They make sense out of things and then will accept a certain theory as the truth until it is proven to be false. The truth that is presented to us by science, is merely a summing up of interpretations of what is here. And yes, multiple interpretations exist, so multiple truths exist, but why then even bother in finding out the truth? And scientists know they cannot know the truth, yet people trust and accept science, and so we live in multiple interpretations of what is here, instead of living here. The only reason why science exists, is because we accept it to exist. And we accept science to operate this way, because we allow ourselves to operate in the same way as making sense out of situations, events, experiences, existence. And in turn, science will support us to continue as we are in making sense out of everything and so the cycle continues. Time to stop the cycle and where else is that possible than with and in self.

Because if not, all take the direction according to their interpretation of what is here, doing what is best for themselves as an individual. And within this, no-one is doing what is best for all as one as equal as self HERE. All is moving in different directions at the same time all the time. Is there then direction really? If all is moving in different directions at the same time, do we not stay exactly as we are? The world is a mess in rudderlessness, there is no steering, no direction, because there is no common sense practical living, self-directive principle here as all as one as equal. There is no direction, because direction is presented through an illusion of choice in which you’re being directed by an external force as fear for example. What is then directing? Certainly not you as self as here. So, give up the illusion of free will to do what is best for you, for it is not, you're only making sure that everything stays exactly as it is. Apply common sense – in doing what is best for all, you're automatically doing what is best for you.

A question as an example to consider: What is the common sense, of for instance karma where you go through lifetimes and lifetimes to apparently improve and purify, yet we do not see anything improving, there is only more shit and more anger and more frustration, because we are fucked up and this world is fucked up? Is this common sense? Or is this a theory as a way to make sense of this existence? Where is the story of karma an escape? It is in the acceptance of suffering of others, because ‘hey, they are being punished for a previous life. I do not have to take this being’s suffering into consideration, because I am not experiencing it.’ We obviously do not know who we were in our past lives. So, why accept this theory of ‘they experience it, so they deserve it’. What if they experience suffering, because you have been messing up in a previous life? Isn’t that perfectly possible as well? Still, we prefer to go with the theory that we deserve the life we live because of our application in our previous life. Now, if we take a look at what is here, here is the suffering of all. And I am here. Am I then not all as here? Am I then not the suffering of all as here? What am I then responsible for? Much more than my own individual life, isn't it. Because if I accept and allow suffering in me, I accept and allow it in others and this world as me according to the principle of oneness and equality. And if I accept and allow suffering in others and this world as me, I accept it in and as me. If this continues, all that will exist is suffering - until we stop.

And, have a look, if you accept the theory of karma, when will we then see some improvement? It would imply that we have for thousands and thousands of years gone through lifetimes to ‘learn lessons’, but look at what is here. Obviously, we still have got loads of ‘lessons’ to learn, from the perspective of understanding/realizing what the fuck we’re doing to ourselves. But time is playing and running out and the suffering is growing. If you look at what is here, do you really think that in, say, 100 years, things will have become better? No. So, this karma stuff is not even practical. Practicality is common sense.

To continue on practicality, let's take another example. There exist a theory in this world that one glorious day a guy named Jesus is coming back to earth to save us all. That's a very nice theory. Yet, for thousands of years we have been waiting and waiting, suffering is growing and this earth is in the process of being destroyed. Would it be practical to wait some more? No, it's not. There is no common sense in waiting for someone to come and save us in any way whatsoever. It's another excuse to continue as we are doing, because apparently, it's not our responsability, some saviour will come and clean our mess. Really? Come on.



Common Sense points about Organic Robotics


Each are programmed--

with several of the following














reading skills


social skills

sex skills

dishonesty skills

denial skills

personalities--several according to events,space and time

Food preference

In essence-- all perceptions run according to programmes based on a send receive principle with a definition about it called self here in the physical

thus to really see what is here--one must become all beings that is here in fact--in programme as we are spread as the ONE in many parts

this is the key to see the physical

and in this self forgiveness --self honesty and eventually--when we are all beings in fact as the physical--COMMON SENSE

Common Sense vs. Logic

Note: In relation to the term Self-Honest Common Sense, please relate to the 'ultimate' definition of Self-Honesty as Life, whereby Self = Life = All = Equal.

i am defined by that to which i am attached

fixed opinion, justification is necessary

definitions exist so that i may exist

no attachment - as change is the only constant

no opinion - only self-expression as the moment one and equal

up the onion
yet another onion layer

no definition
deaf inition

change is dangerous - because change threatens my definitions, attachments, opinions, therefore it threatens me.

change exists as evolution - i change, therefore i become better

change is not an act
change is - as the only certainty

will i direct myself to change as life
or will i allow myself to be changed into yet another system?

choise exists
i am defined by my choices

no choice - life does not choose to be life

if i just make my box big enough, i can be free

freedom exists only of self as life - as who i am of life

freedom exists only from the starting point of self within and as self-honesty

SYSTEM COMMON SENSE fears the unknown - thus it evolves into and as that which is already known

LIFE is the unknown (COMMON SENSE)
SELF-HONEST common sense dares the unknown

SYSTEM exists within and as oneness and equality - yet it is not aware of oneness and equality - instead it exists in polaritiy (upper-lower etc) which is COMMON SENSE for and as the system.

LIFE exists within and as oneness and equality within and as awareness of oneness and equality. thus oneness and equality OF LIFE is SELF-HONEST COMMON SENSE.

the others come first when it´s about blame & judgement

self comes first when it´s about profit/attainment/achievement

self first
as self is all as one as equal of life
there exists nothing that is not of self as all as one as equal

awareness is considered and defined as attainment or higher purpose separate from self and is looked up to and desired - without the realization that awareness in separation leads to yet more separation

or - separation is even desired - so that one may become better/ more aware/ enlightened/ wiser than others - without realizing that separation occurs within self

awareness is here as self
self-awareness as the law of self and the natural beingness and hereness of life
awareness is self-awareness within and as the awareness of self as all as one as equal of life

within and as self-awareness LIFE allows no separation within self and all as self

SYSTEM COMMON SENSE is conditional, conditioned and conditioning

COMMON SENSE OF LIFE is none of the above - it is unconditional as life
SELF-HONEST COMMON SENSE in application is unconditional - never conditional, conditioned or conditioning

SYSTEM COMMON SENSE can be bought and/or attained and is used to validate, justify and sustain the system

SELF-HONEST COMMON SENSE is priceless and cannot be attained but only self-realized - and is used to support and honor LIFE as all as one as equal of life

SELF-HONEST COMMON SENSE serves no purpose but LIFE.

SYSTEM COMMON SENSE is the mind abusing life

COMMON SENSE OF LIFE is life in application
SELF-HONEST COMMON SENSE is being and supporting life as all as one as equal of life

SYSTEM COMMON SENSE will place system support before life

SELF-HONEST COMMON SENSE does not need to state that life comes first - as all that is not of life is not accepted and allowed

SYSTEM COMMON SENSE: it is good to wait, waiting is wise

SELF-HONEST COMMON SENSE: it is not possible to wait, as life is here within and as the moment - thus i as who i am of life am here within and as the moment, thus waiting is self-dishonesty



As I walk Here
Here where is No SEER
You look afar at
me as if I am
Yet – The waving of
My Arms as the MILLS
of the WIND
Is a Wave that

But you Only See
Me Waving because
Close to you to

HERE is too Much
of You to
HERE Moves as You
so you Do Not HEAR

HERE is Where
If you Seek IT
You have missed it
If you feel it
it is not HERE
If you SEE it –
it is a MIRROR –
Reflecting all back
in REVERSE So Real
you WILL Believe it

Who is Worthy of
HERE But He Who
is HERE.

Here is ALL
but for the Fool –
Only Reflects All –
as the Fool

Here is Always Waving
In the WIND
In the RAIN
and In your PAIN
Like the Breath
taken for granted
until it Fails

Here cannot be explained
It is what all
see as INSANE


How can I be Here and There, which is Here?

I will explain this within an experience I’ve had within the dimensional existence:

I left my body to enter the dimensional-existence to ask the White-Light some questions, as we decided to go directly to the ‘source’ of existence, so to speak – for clarification with regards to the nature of existence.

Chief was in my body – sitting next to Bernard, having a coffee and cigarette with him.

I stood before the White-Light within the dimensional-existence, the White-Light which we then, at that stage, thought to be ‘God’. The White-Light – which was manifested as a Great White Wall that stretched infinitely.

As I stood before it – about to ask some questions with regards to what the Hell was going on within the Dimensional existence with regards to how it was accepted and allowed to exist, as well as with regards to Earth – why Heaven’s status was no different to that of Earth’s – when suddenly – I saw Bernard standing before me as the White Light for a slight moment. Then only blackness, from which ‘Masters’ sitting on a Podium of Red and Purple structure emerged.

What I did not know, was that as I was approaching the White-Light within the dimensional-existence; is that, that same moment – Bernard decided to ‘bring the White-Light’ into him, as him, to find out – what the White-Light really actually is, through standing equal and one as it, bringing it into him and as him. Because he realised that the White-Light was still a separate-manifestation – and within this, realised – why ‘go there’ to ask it a question – simply bring it here as himself and ask directly as himself.

So in standing before the White-Light, about to ask the question – that was the moment Bernard in the Physical, with Chief in my body sitting next him – stood as the White-Light in and as himself – wherein within the act, in that moment of doing so, standing as the White-Light = I saw him in the dimensions as the White-Light before me.

All of this – happened suddenly, and quite unexpectedly, because here I was – expecting to speak to ‘God’, the ‘White-Light’ for some clarification with regards to the nature of existence – when the truth of the White-Light, of ‘God’ revealed as being but ‘Masters’ – dimensional beings – orchestrating the entire operation as the White-Light, which was only a Programmed-design.

How/why the ‘White-Light’-design ‘disappeared’ – in that moment when Bernard took it into him, standing equal and one as it – was because the White-Light-design was ‘energy-based’, and thus not equal and one as sound as what Bernard stood as, as Sound, equal and one. Thus, the ‘White-Light’s’ ‘truth’ revealed – because ‘energy’ is not Sound equal and one – and thus, it simply no more exist, because the ‘energy’ itself transform into Sound = and thus = disappear. Because Sound is that which Stand Here – and energy cannot stand in/as that which is Here, because energy is a ‘movement created through friction’ as separation. Through this = the ‘truth’ of the White-Light revealed as it being but a programmed-design of energy and not an actual manifestation of equality and oneness as Life as Sound.

So, to give perspective of how Bernard was able to stand before me as the White Light within the dimensional-existence, while actually being here in the physical:

Within Bernard, for example – in the Physical – in that moment, applying the physical-act of standing equal and one as the White-Light, the White-Light manifested in and as the dimensional-existence – this act of doing so – is done Here. Within the realisation that ‘everything and everywhere is Here’. Meaning that – within and as each one – all of existence as what we perceive to exist ‘out there’ as what we see with our human physical-eyes – exist Here as ourselves also, equal and one.

So – with the White-Light, manifested ‘there’ within the dimensional-existence – which exists Here within and as Bernard, for example – thus, the White-Light being manifested ‘there’ as here – this is why – I could see Bernard standing as the White-Light within the dimensional-existence, the exact same moment he stood as the White-Light equal and one in the Physical. So, the equal and one act of standing as the White-Light in the Physical – could be directly seen and experienced within the dimensional-existence as I stood before the actual-manifestation of the White-Light.

The same with, for example – me being able to communicate with the dimensional-beings. Because the dimensional-existence is here in and as me – Lilly, for example – may be in and as a Human-Being in Italy or Rome. Here in and as me – I communicate with her directly – I don’t have to ‘go out of my body to Italy/Rome to where she is to communicate with her – she’s here in and as me – as I am here in and as her.

Thus – we’re always actually only Here: No matter ‘where’ I am = I am Here. Yes – you may be situated within a certain position within this physical-manifest existence, though realise – that within that position, that allocation, the ‘where you are’: Is Here – because you’re Here. And within and as you that is Here – exist all and everything and everyone as existence. Thus is the reason why, for example – Bernard is here in the physical, standing as the White-Light that is Here as him – and I could see him standing as the White-Light within the dimensional-existence = Because he in that moment – stood as the White-Light as Here – which manifested as him in the physical, and in the dimensional-existence in the same moment.

Thus – ‘I am Here, as ‘there’ – which is Here’. A practical example:
I am Here as the White-Light in the physical, which is manifested ‘there’ in the dimensional-existence – but because it’s Here as me equal and one – I am ‘there’ as Here as the White-Light within the dimensional-existence.

Another example – is me being able to communicate with Bernard, while I’m in the dimensional-existence – he standing before me in the dimensional-existence, while he’s communicating with another being in my body in the Physical.
For example: I’d be communicating with him in the dimensional-existence, he being there with me – though not through ‘leaving his body’, but through the Principle of Here: Everywhere is Here, I am Here, thus – I am everywhere as Here. So – he’d for example speak to me in the dimensional-existence, while having an entirely different conversation with the being in my body, while I’m in the dimensional-existence. And then, when I’d return to my body – sitting/standing before him in the physical directly = he’d speak the exact same words as what he spoke to me within the dimensional-existence. So – he’s Here – equal and one – in the physical as the dimensional-existence. Because in being Here – in actuality, in fact – standing equal and one as Here, wherein everything and everywhere is Here as you – you’re Here as existence and can thus, for example – be Here with me in the dimensional-existence, speaking specific words, while being here in the physical = and speak the exact same words.


Energy and Illusion as Quantum Reality as the Future

Ok so let’s look at the situation around energy.

What has caused our problem within the context of our existence?

In the very beginning, we emerged from the physical universe. From that which was, call it ‘manifest’ - that which was here. So the physical universe. In our emergence from it, we were in a way like an energetic implulse that came from it.

So in the beginning, they will explain to you, for instance if you look at and you study the races that is here in the universe – how everyone emerged from the planets. And then when you died, you returned to the planet. For instance, when we found Anu – well, all the beings in heaven – we started going back: we were looking at the forefathers of Anu. We found them in the planets. They existed as an imprint, as the history of the movement of the energetics.

Because energy always changes form but it’s always the same energy. So, dimensionally, it will have a different imprint.

When you for instance now eat food, the food that you’re eating is coming, say, from the plant, but that plant has derived its energy from the shit that was placed back into the earth, and thus it’s the same energy –it’s just another dimension of it.

Which is how your multidimensionality operates in a physical way.

So if you really go back at any singular point in the physical reality, you will be able to find all its dimensions –that means that which it has existed as before– which is your quantum reality as you experience it as a physical reality and as you assess how it has progressed through what you call time –but it was simply its functionality within a sequencial process of eternal existence, where it simply changes form from energy to energy. Which means it changes substance, it changes its nature from one form to another form. But you can go back within that and actually trace back its origin. That means: Where does it come from and how did it move –which is similar to past lives and one’s existence throughout time.

This ‘time’ though is not really measured as anything else than the sequencial change/transformation of the energy (energy=that which was its substance).

Within that we became aware. We became an energy of the energy. In that awareness we created a mind. That mind was basically our attempt to understand our existence within this emergence from what is here.

Everything was always fine because, from a certain perspective, if you have managed, or, directed it within the interest of all, there was no conflict, there was no friction necessary, because the energy was simplistically transforming within the relationships that was existent. The relationships that was existent was within its definition of and as the form it has, that is then taken apart and it releases energy - which is fusion, for instance, or combustion for instance.

We all existed within a reality that you could call quanta, a quantum reality, where everything in a way was immediate, yet we would experience ourselves within the sequence of our expression.

Within that emerged a process of abuse. A process of, where some noticed that they could form a point of view about something and that their point of view, which you could call an opinion, was worth more than another’s point of view. Within that point of view, a friction developed between two points of view.

The friction between those two points of view, which are now a manifestation of another dimension of the same energy where it comes from, which has become individualized and separate from the total movement of the physical energy within which all existed.

Within that contextual relationship that was created, a friction developed between those two points of view / opinions. That friction created (energy) or allowed energy to emerge that was seperate, that could be directed as individualized energy –which you can call THOUGHT today.

Within that we created our ILLUSION. Once we started taking that thought -that seperated changed perceptual energy which was not seen, which was not returning to its source– we started to create illusions. And we started to trap that energy which is real into an illusion and we slowly consumed the universe. Throughout billions of years, as you now call it, we have consumed the whole universe like that.

A solution had to be found. Because of the very nature of the energy, that was created as a mental energy, as an energy of individualized delusion.

Implied within that, equal and one, was a limitation to a single point, which made possible the manifestation of the individual form within the context of the triangle. Because that emergence of an opinion, of a point of view about something, in conflict with the point of view of another point: created a triangle.

Two points in conflict created a point of combustion, a point of friction which created energy. Another level of energy. That energy is the energy we today live as personality.

That made it possible obviously for the automatic emergence of what you would call 3-dimensions. Because that’s how we created 3-dimensions as a system.

The fact that that was a delusion didn’t matter. Because within that we became that separated opinion, that idea of ourselves. When we became that idea of ourselves, we created what you have today. Entities, beings, even in the physical, that exist NOT AS the physical.

You are existing as the mental projection of your physical self. So, you became a digital self. A self contained within opinion, digits, symbols. Which is not physical.

Because remember, if we go back to the story of Anu and them, they took symbols from the planet –they took pieces of the planet and made symbols of it- which is then made to an opinion –they created an idea.

Then the idea became important and your opinion about the idea became your mental projection, your delusion, your illusion = what you believe yourself to be, which then I would call a personality.

This personality will fight for its existence by having a point of view, which is in conflict with another point of view. The friction between those two has created ‘the System’ as it exists today.

According to that we then made rules for the system, which is the laws and the moralitites and the beliefs that exist today –which we then adhere to, we have taken that and put it back into symbols, which is Writing, made it our laws, and we have bound ourselves to that.

For that reason something had to be created, a vacuum. Which is earth. The utmost fear.

Did fear ever existed from a perspective as we have it today before we created the Mind? No. Fear did not exist as that. Fear started existing, as it exists today, the moment we started to fear losing our point of view, which we believed to be ourselves but which was not really real! So you inevitably would lose that point of view because it isn’t who you are.

But the moment you believe that is all who you are, then obviously the moment the point of view no longer exists, YOU also no longer exist.

Which is how we created our own end, which we are now currently living out. We are now reaching the end of time, which means we are reaching the point where we can no longer generate this sustainable, this idea of our self sustainably, because we have created, virtually, in every possible way, a form of conflict, where we cannot trust each other but we live in fear of each other.

So we have become simply mental projections, contained within the physical, which suck the physical dry until it dies, and then the mental projection that remains is what you end up in the afterlife as. In that you are basically absolutely powerless.

So unless you actually deliberately in the afterlife give up your existence -within the understanding that you’ve become virtually an illusionary energy- you let it go. That means you give back what you’ve allowed you to become to its source, which is the physical. So that you become in that the physical.

You are pretty much screwed for eternity. Which is pretty cool from a certain perspective because you now have no impact whatsoever on reality. You are simply non-existent.

From the perspective – now imagine, the problem that emerges from all of this: the mental projection that you have become as personality has then created from it(self) entities, which is the systems. These systems have become alive in a way because, you know, you have changed its energy from the perspective of, or, it is projections of energy, it is like a wave of, it’s an outflow of, it’s a mirror effect of, -of the original energy. It’s not the original energy. It is like having a picture taken of it and believing the picture to be real. That’s how the mind system operates.

Now imagine these things existed before earth existed, a long time before it. Earth is just a manifestation, where all of these points have been brought together so it can be seen to understand how we’ve created this reality, how we’ve created ourselves in essence.

So therefore, earth had to be manifested as a singular point, which was: everyone had to be brought together here, to get stuck in the actual manifested illusion, which was sound, which is what earth is: Earth is sound, and within sound, which contains all possible expressions, it’s possible to actually manifest the illusion and live it as if it is real, so that you can learn what is the consequence of your creation.

So, let’s look at it again. What is our problem? Our problem is our perceptual ideas of the energy that flows from the friction that is existent between ourselves as separate personalities. Within that we create an idea of what life is and we manage it through systems called laws and morality and belief. Within that we then create a digital world, which is existent in the mental, while we disregard what is real in the physical. And we have thus no value we give to the physical, but yet we fear to lose our mental self.

That mentality has created the world the way it is today. That is our problem. That is the point that must be stopped. Not the physical. The physical reality is pretty cool. Our mental reality is pretty fucked up.

Now imagine, the consequencial outflow of you when you die as a mental self is that you no longer exist, from the physical reality’s point of view, and you become nothing more than a thought, the outflow of what you have become. And then you become a thought of a thought. And a thought of a thought of a thought.

The average human being today exists as less than their own thoughts. That’s why their thoughts have the power inside their self -inside the mind- to question them.

So if you have a conversation with yourself in your mind, where your thoughts have the capacity to reduce you to a physical experience of fear or anxiety or feeling less than –then you are less than your thoughts.

Pretty screwed up, delusional existence, that is now placed within a fascinating context: That apparently you have a choice to be like this. The choice to be like this is existent within the mental projection of yourself within which you have a holographic experience of super-hero, for instance, where you are super man within your own mental projected self. Where you can do anything, because it does not impact the physical.

Common sense is existent within the physical, that which is commonly sensed between all physical (parts) to support itself. Now imagine that our very nature in this world –the way nature operates- is a manifestation of our digital self, our mental projected self. And we have lost contact completely with the physical. Which is why, slowly but surely, most of the physical that was here is busy dying, is becoming extinct. Just as we are becoming extinct.

We are becoming extinct as a real being, and in that we become only at the end: a thought, a projected digital self, which has no existence in reality whatsoever. And then we are screwed. And you can’t trust any of that because –can you trust your mind? You can’t trust your mind. Because your mind will form opinions and will be impacted by a singular energy source.

So if you are two beings communicating: you are at high alert, the other one is at high alert, you’re throwing opinions at each other and out of that try and form an alliance or you create a war -of mind. And accordingly you’ll manifest your experience. And the being can say one word or move in one way, and you’ll immediately go: “Oh! What are they really saying? Are they mocking me? Oh, they are trying to convince me here. I will not agree.”

Multiple ways you’re using your projections, but none of it is real, because it’s not real in the physical, it’s not within the context of what’s HERE. But what has happened is: you’ve taken the physical energy and you’ve transformed it into a projection of itself which is now a projected energy, and you have become this projected energy, which is basically like just a reflection of light. Not real. It’s not the light, it’s a reflection of the light. It’s the beam that’s out there. It’s not the actual light. And you believe that beam is you and you’re trying to get back to the actual light –which is impossible. Because it’s streaming forth. You can’t get back.

You have to stop. And then you have to ammalgamate with what is HERE to really be able to end your illusion.

What is more fascinating is that, within the context of your self-creation you have de-valued life to such a degree, that, have a look: you do not give a shit about anyone in existence and what they’re really experiencing at the physical level –that which is real, which is the physical. Therefore, by that very fact, you have given permission for your deletion, for your non-existence. Because you disregard everything else as non-existing. And in that single act, you have given permission for your end.

Which is accordingly emerging now.

Got it? Any questions? Clear? Thanks.


The History of Desteni



Okay, we're starting. Bernard, if you can tell us about your uhm…a little of your background that led you to uhm... what you, I suppose you were like a light worker type of uh philosophy, and up to the point where uh you confronted a demon. 'Cause you didn't believe in them…at first, so if you could just give us a little…


Okay. I grew up as a… in a Christian home and I was a reborn Christian, a part of the local prayer group. So uh, participating in it pretty much fully – meaning that I participated in everything and I was absolutely convinced of uh, being saved by Jesus.

That pretty much continued into after school, into my first few years at varsity, university, studying there – studying law.

Then, the first time my curiosity was tweaked is; I met a man that looked at me and started telling me things about me that nobody knew and I was obviously very curious. Because it’s like… impossible things… even what age did I have what illness, events that took place with me in my past… 10 years and longer ago.

So I asked some questions and, I didn’t realize at that stage what was really going on and he gave me a strange answer, he said to me he can read it in my eyes, so obviously I started doing some research and the closest I could get was iridology, so I did some iridology courses, read the books of Jensen.

Darryl: Now Jensen, um…

He wrote, basically the books of iridology. And what was fascinating: in the eyes was a map of the physical body, where you could see if there was any form of disease brewing, or a disease already manifested.

So I was, from there it went on to, to a lot of reading about homeopathy. Very intrigued by the principles of homeopathy, which basically deals with the premise of: like cures like, and that the primary medicines they’re using, or the way they are formulating it in homeopathy is working on the spirit of the substance in a way, it’s like an imprint more than a vibration, because even at an undetectable level, which means at a level where there act no vibrations measurable, the effect is still measurable.

So, obviously one must go and study yourself, these things, you can read the books from Hahnemann, or have a look especially from Europe, homeopathy spread around the world so, and it’s basically utilizing what is here to assist with correcting dysfunctions.

From there I was exposed, one evening, to a strange event. I was watching TV. At that stage the very same man that I met has become my father-in-law.

So I’m watching TV and the next moment, he said in a strange voice: ‘Put off the TV.’ So, I put off the TV and there was another voice speaking through the body.

And that was the first time I was exposed, unexpectedly, to a trance, deep trance medium.

Then I only started finding out that he’s been able to do that since childhood and…that he’s done extensive research at University of the Witwatersrand in Johannesburg with people like Professor Haarhoff and Arthur Blacksley; in studies of particularly materialization, healing and related matters. And that they’ve actually been in sessions where materializations actually happened, which was observed by various of these scientists from the university.

He was also utilizing his particular gifts during the Second World War, in the service of the army. So he started, kind of exposing me to things that I have never been exposed to.

From my perspective, I was being quite convinced of that, that if I understood the bible correctly, that if God is everything then, there is nothing but God, then evil as such or the devil as such can not exist by the very definition of ‘Almightiness’.

So that caused obviously quite a few shock waves in the family when I started expressing that from my perspective there cannot, the devil cannot exist, according to the scriptures. And that the only evil was in the mind of man.

I was then exposed to various of the pastors from churches that tried to convince me that the devil did exist and they used the bible for that and I was quite, found that quite fascinating because, using the bible to convince me about the devil – I’m really not interested in this. So, to me it simply didn’t exist.

Man in essence, from my perspective, was inherently good, but simply through exposure through various pressures: environment, social, cultural and so on – man became something that was weak, in a way.

Darryl: So you didn't… the 'original sin aspect – you didn't think it was valid?

It could not be valid from my perspective, because we’re the image and likeness of God and God couldn’t make mistakes, so I considered that, but from my perspective, if I would utilize choice as my reason for sin, then I am simply choosing not to be the image and likeness of God, which is the, I mean, a fallacy in itself because I am making a deliberate choice of something that I know to be a denial of my true nature, according to the scriptures, to be the image and likeness of God.

So I pushed that point of the image and likeness of God and I studied more and more, I did a lot of reading, I went to various circle development groups, meditation groups, I started investigating psychics to find out if there is anything valuable or valid about it, I had my father-in-law as a deep-trance medium – he could do bi-location, he could indicate events that would happen later on by reading, by simply sitting here and bringing the event forward to himself, as if time would be folded and then say what will happen, and to such a degree that 50% of the time it did happen, 50% of the times it didn’t so that confused me a little bit because: why didn’t it?

What was fascinating about the deep-trance medium was that there was a Door Keeper – the Door Keeper was always the one that would speak first, and that would allow the others through – so it was very clear that there was some form of discipline, and in some instances, beings from the afterlife would come through and speak, specifically trying to give messages through to their family that they’re not dead, but they were then quickly removed from the medium, and then the Door Keeper would say: sorry, they were not supposed to speak, they’re supposed to stand in line and wait their chance. But they never got a chance to speak.

At that stage I was already reading a lot of the channellings from angels, arch-angels, the Michael Teachings… I studied many of the various teachings of Ramallah, Seth, all kinds of… and I found a lot of things in there that made sense, read The Pleiadian Agenda and all the mean time, looking at meditation and understanding: what is the point of us being here, because seemingly, I found a fascinating thing is that psychics and mediums can normally never help themselves, so they can help other people, but their lives are normally in a mess. And you can see it, especially when you start to get closer to them, that during the times when they are ‘spreading the word/the message’ they are one person, the moment that is no longer what they are doing, they would become immediately just a normal person with normal shit… gossiping and doing all the stuff that would be seen as ‘normal human social behavior’ which was a contradiction to the message they were giving, which was, I found that very curios because: it is as if they were living 2 lives. To me that didn’t makes sense, because you either live something, or you don’t, but what was very clear for me, at that stage, was that obviously I interpreted it that God is testing us in multiple ways, and that in essence it is about our intent and our actions.

I had a fortunate experience after studying is that I became a policeman. Four and a half years, I was in the police force, trained in crowd control, I was a fraud detective, and I saw something there that was quite disheartening, I studied law, and I realized in my time at the police that there was no law… that there was no protection to the average man in any way, whatsoever, and that there are people that are deliberately, virtually evil.

Darryl: Did that realization just creep up on you or was it a gradual process?

It was, gradually as I was working with people and I had always a notion of discuss things even with the criminal to understand their behavior, their reason why, and mostly. They were either addicted to drugs, or they are greedy – they want a lot of money, or they’re in financial trouble. Violence mostly came from alcohol, which was the experience while I was in the police, in terms of the cases we were dealing with… there was also groups that would work together that has deliberately taken on society, as a form of a gang to generate income and to specifically target the gullibility of the average human being. And they would get away with it, because the average human being is truly gullible and have no notion that they could be deliberately deceived in their face, and therefore they deliberately deceive in the face.

But during that time in the police, I met a lady which was a psychometrist, we used psychometry and I tested psychometry extensively and found a few interesting points where, for instance: that if one use a photograph to do a psychometric reading, the more photographs of the same person you put together, the stronger the signal would be, the more information they’re able to get out… and we looked at that information and I tested it by actually following it up – some cases it was so, some cases it wasn’t. What seemed to be very clear was that the person reading the information had a definitive impact on what information would come through and how they interpret it. And therefore it is quite a difficult thing and it seems that there was some kind of barrier – you could only get certain information.

Up to that stage, at no time and I had then sessions with my father-in-law, as medium, several times a week. So I was fortunate, I had my own, full-time deep-trance medium. In the beginning, he could not trance without the generation of energy – we used a church organ, the organ sounds of church music to generate energy, then the beings would come through to talk, the people from the afterlife, one after the other and we would record the sessions. For about an hour they can continue and then the energy would drop, and they would say ‘the energy is dropping’. Eventually I… what they said normally is you need quite a number of people in a group together that talks the whole time to generate vibrations so that the beings can actually speak through the body.

Now in a deep-trance medium, for instance, when the being comes through, the person who was in the body, actually… disappears – they do not remember a thing. With one event, I learned something fascinating, because at one stage, my father-in-law wanted to die, he tried to get out of the body and I was instructed how to bring him back into the body and… what they call ‘pulling back’ and it was very clear that he was outside his body and that they had to get him back inside his body. So from that perspective, I understood that it was possible to leave the body. I didn’t really understand at that stage, the impact of that particular event, but I did as they showed me what to do and I pulled him back into the body, his wife was there as well, she was with, and the 2 of us together pulled him back in the body and he was very angry because he wanted to die. He wanted to leave the body and he said to me: you can not trust anyone in heaven. He says: you can trust no-one. To me that was, like, strange and I did not believe him – I thought he was simply just angry because he had to do things in the war that he was, he felt heaven should never have put in front of his door… and he blamed heaven for those choices he had to make. So from my perspective he was simply angry and that is… his form of revenge, was directed at the spirit world, for what happened in the Second World War. Because in the Second World War, he had to make a choice between 2 friends of different sides of the war, and he had to kill one of them to protect his men, and he had to slit the throat of the being because it was in the ‘danger zone’, behind the lines, so he was absolutely disgusted with having to do that.

So, in the exposure obviously now with discussing me with many beings, some hundred that’s been on earth hundreds of years ago, and then they would discuss their existence. One being that came through, a lot was Kaiser Van Hellem Van Hellenzollerin from Byron… he came through. We had many discussions - discussions with various beings. None of the discussions though, ever would be awfully spiritual, although some would come through and pray, for instance: Paul Kruger – he used to be the president of the Union of the Transvaal a long time ago – would come and pray for his people, and the would talk about God as the White Light in whose face you cannot stand, you can not face it, the light is too bright. So I was intrigued by that because God was depicted as The Light.

Darryl: Had you ever heard of God as a White Light?

Not… never particularly, although, yes there is mentionings of that in the bible – God as Light. I studied the bible quite extensively. So, by the time I finished in the police, I’ve had 4 and a half years of regular channellings, on average about an hour and a half at a time… I’ve seen various phenomena, for instance where with a single movement, a cat would become without any life force, the cat would turn like into a fur that you can place over my arm, that’ll fold over my arm. There was a particular fear about cats, so they wanted cats to not be close to the deep-trance medium, they said that it interfered with the ectoplasm. There was also a point of light, the channel couldn’t bear bright light at all, so it had to be done in semi-darkness – light would cause extensive pain to the body. Also, meat was not allowed to be eaten, if a being eat meat they will throw up… and obviously my father-in-law deliberately tried to eat meat to try and stop the gift, or the skill, or the ability to channel… but he was a healer, so….

Darryl: Did he have a specific group that he was, that sort of constellated around him?

Nothing – he did not want anything to do with it. After his studies he did not form groups, nobody came him, he did no readings for anyone, he was basically just a healer that do healing using homeopathy. And when I came on the scene, it seemed to have activated all of those things again – if I have a headache, for instance, I would go him and then he put his hands on me to take the headache away – he could do shit like that. He would go into trance, where he demonstrated, for instance, cataleptic paralysis where the body turns into a statue, so you’re standing there like a statue, you can’t move it, which is fascinating… moving things, like closing doors, opening doors using ectoplasm – you basically use ectoplasm for that. Ectoplasm, what was explained to me was that: ectoplasm was not in the same quantity in all bodies – some people carry more ectoplasm and they could, they become deep-trance mediums. He was born with the ability, it was not something that he was trained in. He predicted the abdication of the king of England many, many years ago, and that happened as a child and therefore, because that happened – that prediction – they called him The Prophet, because he made predictions that, for instance, like that that happens.

So, I was in a way disheartened and in a way not, I was very interested in finding a solution to the world – how, to me what was quite fascinating was that: Heaven on Earth couldn’t just happen, it was something we had to practically participate in for it to become real – that was what has become clear to me as I was studying the scriptures. And obviously in discussion with the afterlife, these things were kind of sidestepped, they never talked about it and they never would answer questions clearly that’s related to anything about the spirit world. It was as if that was a topic that was not allowed to be discussed. So from there I was involved in investigating various things involving fraud at the level of money and I was warned by the spirit world that: that is something not to investigate, because you would be killed if you do. So, when all of these things started going haywire, I decided to stop and leave, and I moved to Durban.

Darryl: Where were you previously?

I was in Johannesburg.

Darryl: Johannesburg…

I was at the biggest police station in the country, I was stationed there.

So I then was in Durban and primarily, I had to make a living, I started going into education – to me education was the key to assist people. For 7 years I started, I worked in mathematics, because as I could see, if one has got a reasonable mathematical ability, your ability to work out a living answer is something that a contextual answer within your living expression… would be enhanced. But I found that it was limited – people seems to forget something, as if it never becomes real. You study at school and then after school every thing you’ve learned at school just disappears again. the only things that remained was for instance, your tables, your basic bonds and so on – things that you have learned ‘parrot fashion’, off by heart – those things remained. Things that you studied as knowledge that you didn’t take to the ‘parrot fashion’ form you tend to forget. So that was a curious observation because it would indicate that: if you have a better memory ability, you seem to have been able to do better in the world.

In investigating that, I became aware that our reading ability was really atrocious, so I was fortunate that I was identified with such a problem, I was 18 years old, I did courses to enhance my reading ability and that changed my life, because it placed me in a position to observe information independently, meaning: without preconceived ideas, you first read the information, look at it without your belief system, without emotional influence, without your preconceived definitions because that influence the outcome of the information – and then you look at it – which allowed me to be more critical about what I’m reading, in terms of whether it is practically real, practically sustainable - practical support. Slowly but surely that ability started to influence what I have accepted as real. It was very clear that the message from the bible was a peculiar message, strange message that was full of contradictions and so I decided, due to my exposure with the medium that obviously, there is definitely an afterlife – there I had no doubt about anymore, because I had many conversations and many points that were shown that very clearly indicated that an afterlife existed.

So in my investigation with psychics, I went to as many as possible, wherever I could find, and I went there and simply just listened to compare the various readings between psychics. I never had, from all the – and I have been to many psychic sessions, besides my father-in-law, probably an extra hundred sessions that I did over years – there never was 2 messages the same in any way, whatsoever… or could anyone pick up that I had been to other psychics. And I had strange experiences where things would be predicted that would happen and then it would happen, but I had an interesting notion that I looked at it: that I am not obliged to follow that, so therefore I would sometimes deliberately stop and not follow it, which made the psychics very angry because they said: this is a message from God, from the spirit world and I must adhere to it. I simply said I am not willing to do that… I mean, I have free choice as far as I was concerned at that stage and suddenly, from their perspective I didn’t (have free choice). So I found the whole ‘free choice’ thing early on challenged, even by the beings from the spirit world. So, initially there was no big motions, I did my thing, I studied the Kryon channellings, I studied Conversations with God extensively, the Pleiadians, the Michael Teachings, the Book of Miracles – what is that?

Darryl: Course of Miracles?

Course of Miracles – many books, I had my own library – extensive… Joel Goldsmith – The Infinite Way, The St Germain writings… all of those and I would… Melchizedek…

Darryl: Drumvalo?

Yeah, I would go into it intensely, I would intensely study it. I would for instance: read the book, I will have it on tape, I will listen to it over and over and over again and I will test it out, and I will live it to see how effective it is and if there is any value as a living support for myself in this world which I can demonstrate through example to others. To me, the principle was: find a way to be an example, at that stage. In that, I kept on developing software for reading abilities, there was many setbacks, but I stuck to the point of what it is I really wanted to do. To me it was never really about the money – it was: finding a way to support people effectively, even if they don’t understand that such a point is available – to find a way, to me was: the more children I could help to read effectively, to have an effective vocabulary, the more their chances to actually develop their own world view, independently of the influences that exist that is limiting our reality, so, I applied that with my own children and that was quite effective. They developed a strong independence, effective critical assessment of points and a very assertive expression – therefore they were not easily influenced.

To me, obviously the point that existed, above all points, was love. Love was the ‘ultimate point’. In all of that I started also the work of Alice Bailey, I did the esoteric healing courses. I had some interesting experiences that started to change my perspective while studying Alice Bailey and I started to consider that there is a definite technology involved within the spirit world and Alice Bailey’s work very clearly indicate the technology, and when I applied it I had experiences that indicate that it actually had an impact on the reality, as we perceive it.

In that, I ended up, eventually in a dire straight, financially and in divorce. After the divorce, I made a decision, discussed it with the ex-wife and the decision was very specific: that we must forgive each other, we must get together, sit down and forgive each other – because forgiveness, to me, was a very valuable, powerful message. Forgive each other for everything that we’ve ever done to each other so that we can have a proper relationship to support the children. Which we did – we sat down one evening and we face to face, and would, you know, openly discuss everything we’ve done and did forgiveness. That continued for about 8 hours, it was very… explosive, extremely emotional. In that, I experienced an interesting thing, I experienced: in applying forgiveness, I am feeling… somehow lighter, it’s like a burden that’s lifted. I decided to go full out, like I’ve always done with this stuff, I go full out and test it out, no matter what. I decided to do it full out, and I did do it full out, and by the end of the first 8 hour session I was able to perceive things that I’ve never thought possible. I could perceive, virtually another reality right here, where we are and I could experience what was happening in all the people and the more we did forgiveness together, those that would participate in the same group of forgiveness would tend to be able to pick up each other’s thoughts and experiences directly and I found it fascinating that it was showing in the physical body. So I started exploring that and investigating that.

I did a lot of reading on that, in terms of Louise Hay, Brandon Bays – all kinds of beings that dealt with forgiveness, studying forgiveness, testing it. At that stage I was already doing Kinesiology – Kinesiology from the perspective of finding within me: what is me really? What is self honesty? Why do I have experiences where I have one intent, but I will do something differently to what I intend to do? So that didn’t make sense that: in the last moment, no matter how good my intent, I will end up doing something else. It’s as if you are compelled to protect yourself against some unseen possible point of somebody hurting or harming you – so therefore, you might have the greatest intent, you will always act in self protection in the end. And in the points, fascinatingly enough, where you did push through in your intent, those that noticed that you are doing that will deliberately abuse you.

So, you had this catch-22 where you simplistically could not get past a point of the strangest of abuses that existed. You can profess to be a good person, but when it comes to the self interest point, to the point of self protection, you will always regard yourself first and disregard everything else and you’ll justify it. So justification became a very clear point that I realized was causing me quite a lot of uncomfortableness within, I mean, I can justify something, but to in the end live with it – I found that very difficult because it’s as if I became weaker if I would allow any point of me acting in opposition to my intent and actually acting in self interest. So I started forcing myself to deliberately push through the points, to apply my forgiveness to make sure I don’t justify and go through it, no matter what happens, even to the point of my own destruction. And, I kept on pushing.

Within that, I ended up destroying myself. I ended up with nothing. And that’s where I started again, and that point where I started again, I looked again at reading and I developed programs and then I met a man, Rob, that was in to video recordings and he was curios about what we were doing and I said to him: look, we’re doing a reading project, in terms of finding ways to present ways to assist children to be effective readers and have a impact on that, with that on the world. Although, obviously our ideas of what we did were pretty good, the practical application of that was a different story. They then wanted to do a recording about, talking about the reading project and we were doing ‘real time TV’ and they said they will pop in one evening and come and do a shoot. And one evening at about 9 o ‘clock they were there with lights and cameras and at the door and in and it was cameras running, I mean this was a real time story. We were in the lounge and we were talking and I was showing them what it was all about and we ended up talking a little bit about forgiveness and how forgiveness operate and while talking about forgiveness, the next moment one of the cameramen walked onto set and came and sat in front of me and started challenging me about forgiveness and the bible specifically and how I could claim that forgiveness is so valuable?

I suggested to him a simple thing, I said to him, “Just say with me, let’s do forgiveness together: I forgive myself that I have allowed myself not to love myself unconditionally. It’s a simple thing.” And he looked at me and I could see it is at the tip of his tongue, but he just couldn’t speak, so I kept on repeating it and I took his hand. As I took his hand, his whole body contracted, like his hand turned into claws, his eyes popped over to white and he was like, unable to speak at all and his face was contracted and it was very clear that he had some kind of an event which I did not immediately recognize as anything. To me it would be a seizure - it could anything. I just kept on holding him and doing forgiveness. It was only towards the end that I realized that there is something inside him that is causing this.

Suddenly that something left, and actually left the house and at that moment he was back, aware, fully, immediately as the thing left and he ran out of the house and he came back and he says: all that he remembered is that a blackness came over him and that only when that blackness was out of him was he back, aware. So, in the meantime obviously the cameras were running. To me that was a little bit disheartening because I have now experienced a form of a possession, but that left the person and actually went hunting, or looking for another host. So in effect I have caused more harm than good from my perspective, because the… whatever it was at that stage… was still loose.

I started studying and I looked at Jesus, for instance, that drove out the evil spirits into the pigs and the pigs then into the water, I mean, even at that principle it meant those spirits still existed and looked for new hosts so, that to me wasn’t valid. That made me question a lot about the Jesus message because just in that one event, was an unacceptable point. So I vowed to never again help a person that’s possessed until I understand how this can be done without the spirit or the possession moving and looking for another host.

Darryl: So did you believe in the existence of (demons)? According to the Jesus story, there's the sayings about demons when they would leave and come back with more if they found a nicely kept home.

I didn’t have any belief about anything around demons. I’ve now had an experience of it, I have heard of it happening, but to me, strangely enough, I had no fear of it whatsoever. To me it was simply something I have to understand. I did at that stage not understand anything about demons, I didn’t realize… all I knew was that: to me it was a test God placed, the ultimate test would be the ultimate test of forgiveness from my perspective at that stage would be: God had placed amongst us evil spirits that, in essence, is no different to us because it comes from the same source that we must face and assist them with forgiveness. So, I looked at it from that perspective that forgiveness as a gift from God, from as I understood it then, was the key to assist even an evil spirit and that that would be the kind of challenge that God would place in front of us, before we could actually enter his kingdom. So I looked at those kind of stuff.

So I looked at it and studied and tried to find out more about it. First of all, very clearly, I practiced forgiveness, to make sure that there is no fear. I used Kinesiology to start to program myself to be able to assist demons, specifically. And I started with assisting them by setting up myself. Because to me I came to the conclusion that if I cannot face a demon in me or allow me to be possessed, and I cannot face that demon in forgiveness, then obviously, I'm not ready. The only way to find out if I am ready is to assist a demon, was actually take them into me.

So I set myself up to take out demons automatically, no matter where I go. Simply by being in the presence of beings, even in the shopping centers, I'd take the demons into me automatically. That had to have some repercussions that I didn't expect.

One morning we woke up and we had painting outside, on the walls of our house. “I'm going to kill you and your son.” Crosses and all kinds of satanic symbols, all on the doors, and around the house. I got Cerise, and said, “Come! What's going on here?”

'We've got demons everywhere,” Cerise said. So somehow, I pissed off the demons because I've been taking them into me. I show them forgiveness.

At that stage I already knew about quantum forgiveness in existence, where I can show them assistance of what I've done with forgiveness and how I have worked with it and why I trust it in the system as well. All of that when I take them into me.

So, at that stage, I have never faced a group of demons. There was over three hundred of them there. I've never faced a group of demons like that.

So I didn't know exactly what to do. I said to Cerise, “Look, it's very simple. We need to get all these demons into me. And you've got to make sure we get them all.” And she was quite okay with that. “Okay, lets to that.” And that's what we did.

We did the whole lot and the last five were the most difficult. They were the strongest demons. But we got them all into me, and as we got them into me, I'd just stand and show them what forgiveness is all about. And they all transformed, and they went somewhere. I don't know exactly where, but I know they were no longer demons.

At this stage I was very clear that forgiveness does actually transforms the demon specifically. Therefore I made it my objective to help as many as possible.

Started having meetings at home where we were specifically bring demons and specifically assist them. And I was quite comfortable to allow people to become possessed. It seemed to happen very easily when I gave permission for it from the perspective that I am there and I will simplistically show them the experience so that they can understand the demon's experience and apply forgiveness to assist the demon and afterwards when the demon has done forgiveness, we discuss their life and what caused them to become a demon – which was fascinating beyond imagination because of all the ways the beings become demons was normally because of traumatic events during their lives. Abuse. All kinds of things, or traumatic death events caused them to become demons. And we would afterwards discuss it.

Darryl: So the demon would talk as the person?

No. First the demon would be in the body and speak. Once the demon has done forgiveness – we'd do forgiveness together – the demon will wake up and we would discuss their life. They are no longer a demon. They would change right in front of us. I mean, many. We did this many times. In different bodies testing it. We would have three or four people possessed at the same time, take them through the forgivenesses, assist them, they would resist many times. They would squeal and scream and do all kinds of strange, demon-like stuff. They are possessing the person, I mean. Their eyes pop over, it's a normal possession. If you've looked at some possessions on TV and so, it's the kind of stuff that happens.

I was extremely assertive and stable at that time. I've practiced extensively to make sure there is no fear. And to make sure, specifically on one point: the one point I realized was that there must be no point within me that I have not forgiven. If the demon could find such a point, they would attach to it. Because that's all they actually did. They possessed you at the point where you have not forgiven.

We tested this by allowing each one to assist with also transforming demons, by giving them an opportunity to speak to the demon. If I am not there, someone else who was there would speak to the demon. (What usually happened was) But the demon would simply look at them and point out their points where they have not applied forgiveness.

“How do you speak to me about forgiveness when you have not forgiven?” That's what the demon said. So the demon knew. They could see clearly and stump the person because they didn't know what to say, because the demon was talking the truth.

And to the Nth degree, I had to step in and assist the demon because normally, people would have been unable to actually assist demons because they have points within themselves that they haven't forgiven. Because of that, they are unable to assist. But they were quite comfortable (working with demons).

A number of people were then given an opportunity to participate within the context of assisting demons. Within that, obviously we learned a lot about demon possession. As I've said, demons per se, were the result of specifically some emotional event during the physical lifetime that became obsessive.

We also learned that demons transferred (integrating into beings) in curious ways. Alcohol, drugs or sex. Or physical, traumatic events.

We also learned that were “body-hoppers,” demons who would travel through time from one body to the next with a singular mission (the demons all have singular missions)... it's as if they were trapped in time

within their obsession, and the obsession continuously played out. So, if it was particularly revenge and anger, they would play out revenge and anger, through hundreds of years, continuously possessing people. And then taking over people in critical moments and commit murder. Many of the people sitting in jails today did not commit the acts they are accused of. They were possessed when it was actually happening.

So we realized that nobody is going to believe all of this. You know, the fear of demons is extensive, and the disregard for the power of forgiveness is even more extensive. I mean, I have yet to meet Christians who have actually applied forgiveness. They speak it, but they don't live it. That's why they would not dare to take on demons was forgiveness.

I would suggest that one could consider very clearly, that you are not actually applying forgiveness if you aren't trusting, even in the face of the deepest darkness. I mean, that is what forgiveness is for.

There is nobody who is beyond forgiveness, even a demon. Or even Satan or the devil. We faced Satan and the devil with forgiveness and they applied forgiveness.

So, from that perspective, my perspective of God being “Almighty,” in a way as forgiveness, did stand the test of time.

D: Did the demons offer a different look into the spirit world?

Not initially. Initially, from my perspective, the demons, once they were clear from my perspective, they returned to God. To me, God existed as the White Light. I've had many gifts given by the White Light, so I tested the real. From my perspective, they were returning. I was living “here.” I had specifically disciplined myself to stick to my physical breath, because that I had found was a space within myself, my within world that I could direct with ease. I can remain self - honest and that is a part where I can where I have a directive impact in whatever I'm doing. So therefore, I remained in my breath.

So, it was only much later after we had been assisting demons for a considerable amount of time already, something like two years before we – and sometimes we've been called out to assist people. Especially women were attacked by certain demons that were sexually driven and would rape them or physically attack them. Would have a physical experience with a demon possession that's sexually based, which normally came from the husband when the husband has been sleeping around.

D: So you were sort of called in as an exorcist.

Yeah, I would just go. But it was easy at this stage. I've been doing it so many times. I would simplistically find the demon and put it into me. And then sort and assist it. I've found that if you are insisting on forgiveness – what I would insist on with the demon is that I am willing to walk for eternity with the demon to show them forgiveness, if they are not willing to consider what I have to show to them.

And I show them that I have done worse than they have done. I am equal in their “badness” and their evil and darkness. I am also equal in the solution; which is forgiveness. And I showed them that I am willing to be their guardian for eternity with forgiveness. That in itself the demons regarded as unusual because nobody has ever been willing to offer their existence for a single being – to walk with them to eternity. And I show them that with certainty because they could test me. Meaning, you are certain about something, and you're standing with it as it for eternity. So I would stand as eternity and show them: “This is me eternally, at your service for one, singular point: your forgiveness. Your letting go of that which contains you. That which has bound you within your expression that which you call demonic. So let that go using forgiveness. So that's what I did. To me that was not unusual. The point was specifically common sense. That was to me, what was implied by all the teachings of Jesus, all the teachings of forgiveness. It was implied: all that forgiveness is, is a tool that breaks the bonds of all limitations, darkness, whatever you want to call it.

So in that time, as we were doing the forgiveness things, the portal opened. Now, obviously I had at that stage had serious questions that I wanted to ask God and Heaven. I was fairly satisfied at that stage with proof that I had that the Reptilians existed.

D: Whaa... The Reptilians?

Yeah, they were real, because I tested that already on various points.

D: Okay, one second. You sort of made a shift from, you know, “God is Good, No Evil,” to “Evil Exists,” okay. Demons exist, okay. Forgiveness helps demons and now, the Reptilians.

I initially studied David Icke's work, and was not satisfied with his presentation of [reptilians]. There was simply no proof. I mean, he suddenly made a big jump of assumption about Reptilians. And they were all bad. Obviously, me coming from a point of forgiveness, that is like the best food possible you can offer me, because, from my perspective, there is no “all bad.” From my perspective, forgiveness is a tool. So whether the Reptilians are all bad or good, or whether they are aliens or whatever they are, I'm really not interested.

I've had an experience with aliens during meditation once; a physical, manifested experience which was confirmed through another person, all in the same time without any form of communication, so it was direct demonstration of an actual alien event.

D: Could you talk about that a little?

We were meditating and was I aware of some form of craft, and in the next moment, I had in my hands a form of light of many colors. So I sent it to one of the people that was sitting around and immediately, the person went into a trance and started doing automatic writing. And the message said: “We are from a planet far away. He knows,” and he pointed at me.

And then continued writing, and it was Yankor, which we have interviewed. I mean, there no way that that could have been constructed, directed, immediate. No communication took place. All that happened was in writing. The point was specific. What I experienced was specifically confirmed by another person which is how I always worked: on confirmation of an independent point that was not influenced in any way whatsoever. So that was my confirmation point and I was quite satisfied. After that I had been in space ships. I have traveled the universe with them, and I have seen the universe from that perspective, which was more fascinating than the aliens, I must say. Of course, the aliens were without form in that particular instance. They had no particular form. They were more like a free-flowing form like water. But they were able to show me on the peculiar technology that they had, the whole universe. And I could travel through it at speed that is un... (whew). And perceive it! Which was more interesting that we could experience the actuality of it. But anyway, to me, that was irrelevant because the problem was on Earth. The problem had nothing to do with aliens or spaceships. So to me that was irrelevant because they could make no difference. Common sensically speaking; if aliens come today, that would not change the human being's behavior. It will not change the fears within the human being. It will not change how the human being lives. It will not change how the human being work. It will not change the family structure, it will not change anything that is currently existing on Earth, because that is what the human being is. So, aliens, it was clear to me, will never actually come to Earth.

I didn't know, obviously at that stage I didn't understand what aliens really were and how it worked interdimensionally. I had no idea of these things. To me, I had these events and I clearly decided that they are not there to influence me in terms of my basic understanding; which is here as breath, applying forgiveness, living as forgiveness. And in that, obviously, purifying my words at that stage, see words multidimensionally in sound. That happened when I was 35 years old. So I could hear within a person's words their total life as it unfolds in sound, because in essence, our existence was sound.

I did not fully comprehend the explanations of these things yet, but I had already proven its existence clearly to myself. And I had tested it out in term of how it manifests within the physical body as pain and how we create our reality. Which is possibly (another) whole total discussion.

Anyway, at this stage we had many different events. We had, for instance, an event where Cerise was going out with a chap with the name, James -

his father died in a car crash. They went to the funeral and everything. Three weeks after that, we were busy working with demons. Suddenly, the father was in the portal (At that stage, the portal was already open).

How did I know this was real? Because there was something going on with Cerise and James that I was not aware of, and Keiran (we did interviews with Keiran) immediately said to me, “Wait. You don't know what is going on here. Let me handle it.”

And he handled the situation, which was where Cerise faced her point of forgiveness. Because in the face of her worst nightmares, she had to forgive. And she did. Which was fascinating, that that point she had transcended forgiveness to the ultimate degree.

When Keiran was done with that, he asked a simple question. “What now? Who's going to show me what's going on?” So I showed him. At that stage, I could show the being everything with a single touch. So, a demon I would simplistically touch the oneness connection and they would understand everything immediately. They will change, apply forgiveness, the whole story.

We learned about quantum time in the most fascinating way, because now we're in a quantum reality, and eventually that was taken to sound, where a single word would express the quantum; the multidimensional quantum reality, which is timeless which is all here.

In which immediately, the demon would understand everything and apply forgiveness. Imagine. All in a single breath.

Obviously, it took time before we got to that point. Initially, the longest point we had with a demon was 45 minutes. 45 minutes with a single demon, which was Patrick. We've done some interviews with Patrick.

There was another demon with the name Bill. And he came through and said to me, “I know what you are doing. You're using the Law of Resistance. And I will not resist you.”

And I said to him, “That's wonderful, you not resisting me. Which allows me to embrace you. Therefore, I embrace you.” And in that moment, he was fucked.

So basically, what I did I used the Law of Resistance. The principle was simplistic. The demons that would come through would resist you. I would not resist them. I'll just open up. And as they resist, have a look at the fascinating nature of resistance, resistance is a “pushing.” As you push it, if there is no resistance coming back, you go in. Using the Law of Resistance like that allowed me to show the demons what was goin on. And they could not resist me from that perspective, because it was futile.

So that showed another perspective. Because I had a single moment where I had to come up with the “how to deal with this” point with this kind of demon. I mean, this demon telling me that he's not going to resist me. So-

D: It works both ways.

Yes, so it works both ways. Which was fascinating because... it works both ways. Basically, the principle around of what I understood at that stage was that there was a singular law within consciousness. Which is also within the physical, manifested universe. Which is the Law of Balance. Now the Law of Resistance is simply a derivative of that because all things are pushing away from each other: equilibrium. Which is the Law of Balance.

Therefore, everything is always in equilibrium. If you want to change anything, you have to step beyond the equilibrium, either allowing it into you, or pushing it and then allowing it into you. You have to basically, embrace what is here, to change it. You have to step beyond the balance. You have to become virtually the point of change. You have to become the catalyst.

Therefore, if you are not the catalyst, if you do not interfere, there will be no change. That was clearly demonstrated when dealing with the demons from that perspective.

So at this stage, with the opening of the portal, that gave us quite a new perspective on everything because we've been dealing with demons and I was sitting and discussing with people, and the point we are going to need to have direct access to Heaven to investigate what's going on. Why, for instance, do demons exist? Here we have proven that forgiveness changes demons. I would like to know from Heaven why have they not applied forgiveness with the demons. I mean, that's the message from Heaven.

Here we have proven in this world, in the physical, that forgiveness works with demons, and Heaven is not applying forgiveness. I would like to know why.

So I need somebody - I'll show them how – willing to go to Heaven and find out what the fuck is going on.

So Sunette said, yes, she'll do it. So I looked at it, and at that moment she said it, I tested it. I test those things inside me in terms of – and it stood. I was a little bit unsure from that perspective, because I don't know what she will face. Will she be strong enough to stand? The only tools she has is forgiveness. Whatever is going to happen, she's going to have to use forgiveness. Which is strange, isn't it?

I said, “There's only one thing I can do for you. I can protect you. I can protect you with the Grace of God.” What I did was place my arms on her shoulders and placed myself as her protection. Because I understood one thing very clearly: we are the image and likeness of God. That means we are equal and one. Therefore, we are the Directive Principle of Creation.

Therefore if I place me, I am placing everything, here, as the absolute Directive Principle.

In that singular moment, she breathed and left her body.

And then she started coming back obviously, with many stories of all the things (she had seen), and she was bringing back beings. She was saying, “Oh, I met this being, and I met this one, oh, this is a demon,” and then she'll just... a lot of things were happening. Oh, we were very busy.

I had a chat with... I had studied Osho extensively. I wanted to talk to Osho because I always had a level of respect for him, for what he was doing and what he was writing. So I had wanted to hear from him. If he could give us ... shit – some light on the subject of what the fuck was going on.

So, speaking to Osho... and then we had the Jesus Event. The Jesus Event was fascinating because I wasn't quite sure with all the books written in this world, that Jesus existed or not. My children were never in church. They were never exposed to the Bible. They were never exposed to Jesus, nothing.

So Leslie-John came into the room and said to me – and remember, Leslie-John has never been in church. He's not been baptized, he's never read the Bible, he knows nothing of these things. That's never been a part of his existence. Because, before he was born I had already given up. I had already followed a path, from my perspective was forgiveness, which was the image and likeness of God, that was not religion. Therefore, to me bible, in essence was a religion. The living reality is not a religion.

We spoke to Osho. And then Leslie-John walked in and said, “Look, Jesus is going to come just now through the portal. When he comes, call me.”

So I says,“Okay... what are you talking about?” Okay yes, that's fascinating, Jesus is going to come.

The next moment, Jesus comes through the portal. And we call Leslie-John. He walks in, and he and Jesus are like big buddies. Then we find out that he and Jesus has been chatting to Leslie-John for some time and has been acting as his guide. Obviously, I didn't know that until it's revealed.

So we discussed various things and he explained what happened, and so on. And he explained that he was locked up in the dimensions.

Strange enough, he was locked in the dimensions and had no access. But even at that stage, I had not yet questioned the White Light. I still accepted at a deeper level that God,as the White Light, existed.

Even at that stage, I'd been speaking to Reptilians. To me, they were just part of this whole thing, and God had a Greater Purpose, and all I had to do was to understand it.

So here we were chatting away with Jesus. Then Jesus and Keiran, they went and they cleared up the demon dimension. So in that moment, the last demon we met was Hitler. That was the very last demon we did. After that, all the demons were cleared up.

So now they cleared the demon dimension; Jesus, Keiran, and Hitler/ Mykey. They cleared the demon dimension. They brought all the demons together and they all did forgiveness, and they all transcended. And that was it. So now there were no more demons. I mean, in one, singular moment. After all the years we dealt with it, there were no more demons.

Darryl: Oh, what year was this?

You're asking me?

Darryl: 2003? 2004?

I'm not quite sure. We will have to look that up.

Darryl: Alright.

So I was sitting there with Chief (Bernard's Red Indian Guide) having coffee. And he asked me a question. And he said to me, “After all this, would you now trust God?”

And I said to him, “Chief. If I have to be honest with myself and say 'no.'”

And so I said to Sunette, “Go ask the White Light what's going on here. Ask questions. I don't know which questions, just ask questions.”

And then, in a moment, I said, “No. I must ask this myself.” So I did. And I did it from a different perspective. I simply became it. And in that one moment, the White Light, and everything (connected to it) was no more.

Obviously, I have never spoken to the angels because I was so pissed off with them for allowing the demons to exist and not applying forgiveness – and that already had invalidated their existence. Any master, any great guru ever, just on that singular point, invalidated their total message of love. Because the greatest tool they had was forgiveness, they didn't use.

While we have proven on Earth using forgiveness – that that transcends all things.

Darryl: When did you get to that point? Was that before when the demon were taken out?


Darryl: That the angels had invalidated their existence.

No. I did not question that directly. I simply disregarded that because from my perspective, I was standing within the principle of forgiveness as the teaching that is here to support all of life.

Darryl: Angels are just an extension of God. Did you like -

I wanted to hear from God Himself, the White Light. I mean, that's what I wanted to hear. And in that moment when that happened, there were no more angels. I obviously did not realize everything that was going on, what's been happening, what happened in 1998... I didn't realize all the things that were going on. That all came out as we investigated. As we investigated, we started to realize that man, there's a lot more than meets the eye.

And for a year and a half, we just investigated... before we said anything. But I mean, at that stage, we have for several years already proven one simple fact: that forgiveness transcends all things. That that is the key of all keys.

If forgiveness can work for a demon, it can work for any human being, equal and one. To me, the message of the demons has always been one message: forgiveness. We realized obviously, in Heaven it was simplistic, in the demon dimension, it was simplistic to help millions of demons, because there is quantum time. On Earth, it was a different story. You can't do that.

Here we are in time. Here, each one will have to do it for themselves. Here, each one will have to apply forgiveness for themselves. The bottom line was “how to bring this message across” in an understandable way that makes sense and that will support people to realize that after all, we are responsible for ourselves.


Bernard: Ok, so let’s start with a perspective of where does the portal come from, what is the portal about.

So, in the beginning, the very first evening when the portal opened... at that stage we already –through another person- had communication going with quite a number of beings which includes Kryon, the reptilians, the Hathors, many different beings in the known new age. And I was fairly satisfied with what we experienced, that the communication was specific and was effective. But, I was interested in something else. I was interested in somebody actually leaving the body and going to have a look what is going on.

It was very clear that I can’t do that because - it must be another person so that we have points of reference and so that we have a stable point to make sure that we’re not being deceived. Because with all the studies that I had done up to that stage, the afterlife was known for its deception.

Jack: The ‘stable point’ would then be Bernard who’d be the stable-point standing one and equal to ‘cross-reference’ the experiences shared of the being leaving the body – cross-referencing of utmost importance due to the nature of existence within its multidimensional facets and our inherent ability to create in a singular moment – therefore, the stable point, as Bernard would be the cross-reference of the being leaving their bodies’ experiences – to ensure that it is direct, real, here and not an illusion/deception – but straightforward actual real fact.

B: So I had a few ground rules. One was: immediate response. There may be no time for thinking, no time for preparation, everything must be immediate. So I asked the question, you know, I explained what we are looking for and I asked the question you know, who is willing –I obviously explained it- who is willing to give up their life to enter the afterlife. And Sunette responded immediately.

J: The immediacy of the response indicated self-aware self-expression within the actual willingness to give up one’s life – because there was no ‘self-consideration within self-interest’, because there was no thinking, no time for preparation within the response – it was immediate here – as in: This is me – I give up me unconditionally to stand for all equal and one. So – whenever thinking/preparation is involved within a ‘decision’ – instead of an immediate act of expression that is lived = it will be tainted with self-interest, considering self only – instead of all equal and one as self.

B: I did not immediately do anything about it –I’d first have a look, does she really mean what she’s saying, obviously. Now listen very carefully what I did –because all of this was done in a particular way to make sure that the confirmations coming through could not be influenced by anybody present, that it is a direct observation, and that nobody knows exactly what I’m doing. So that the feedback I’m getting is confirming the actuality of the event.

So, when I was satisfied that she means it, I said to her ok, sit in front of me. I placed my hands on her shoulders –I didn’t say a word of what I’m doing, obviously, and I did what I was doing -which is explained in another interview- it was placing protection, placing myself as protection. When I’d done that, I was satisfied, because you know you can really- you KNOW when this is here. When I was satisfied that it’s placed, I explained to her: it’s very simple you know, you breathe in, and as you breathe out you leave your body, you know, it’s very simple.

Darryl: Yeah (chuckle) people do it all the time.

B: It’s like, realy simple. And she did that, she breathed in and breathed out and she was out of the body. I immediately then had another person do the same to see if there would be the same effect with another person, but there were simply no go, this would not happen. That same state of certainty could not be reached.

Obviously while Sunette left her body, either beings or demons would come through, we would be chatting with them and, some of the beings coming through I already knew, because they were already coming through for instance Cerise (Bernard’s daugther) so we had already talked to them before, and, to have a being coming through one body and then through another body and it’s the same being is obviously a very nice confirmation, because you don’t get that in the spiritualist world: that the being that goes through one body can come through another body and actually remember that they’ve been in two different bodies. And there it happens, right in front of you.

So, the fascinating thing was the feedback. Obviously I wanted to know exactly what it is that Sunette is experiencing. She’s bringing beings in, and then Sunette is explaining what they’re experiencing. She says: there is like an outline of a body and when you step into it you step into infinity, and as you step into infinity, the next moment you are here in the physical. Which was a fascinating observation.

Further observations made then was that, what was in the physical body as Sunette was a placement. It was a design. It was thus not her body. But something in her body which they called ‘me’.

D: They = the dimensional beings...

B: The dimensional beings and Sunette, but they didn’t know –I didn’t say that I did that. I simply put my hands on her shoulders without speaking, did what I was doing, and then got the feedback, which was obviously unquestionable because it was specific what I was doing, I did not do that in thought, so, it was not an energetic imprint that I did, it was a sound imprint, because at that stage my mind was already sound, that means I did not think anymore, I utilized sound in its wholeness. So my mind was already unplugged and- so that was the first point that to me was fascinating.

The next thing was that the beings coming through was different. They were not like a channel. So we immediately had a situation: we cannot call this a channel. Because, I mean, this is not a channel, it is normal conversations with beings and, we could call any thing or any being and it was immediately there, immediate conversation, all questions, all communication was immediate, there was no thinking.

J: The communication with the beings coming through the Portal was as fluent, comfortable and at ease as communicating with any other human being of this world – there was no ‘spiritual/hierarchical’ air to the beings at all.

D: You didn’t have the sense that there were those guards...

B: There was nothing, it was immediate. Everything was immediate and that was one of the points that was pushed at all times. If the answer wasn’t immediate, it was immediately questioned why it wasn’t immediate.

J: Because, if the expression of the being wasn’t immediate – and ‘time’ is given as ‘pause’ – this ‘pause’ presents ‘time’ to access ‘thought-mind construct’ – of knowledge and information – and then a direct actual self-real experience is not here and the response thus is not real – but constructed within / of the mind.

B: So we started obviously speaking to many beings, from the perspective of finding out their experience, what is going on, and also doing random tests, that means we would just get a newspaper or on tv see who’s died lately, and get them through and talk to them or get their perspective of their experience. Ehm, people throughout history, people we’d read about... We started looking and we had an interesting experience, because before the portal opened we already had a way of finding out who was incarnated on earth and who was in the dimensions. That was through another person that could also, at that stage, already see interdimensionally, through which we initially established the first contact, which was not through Sunette.

So when I would say I would like to speak to a being, the being would either be present here, or there would be only a presence of them but they wouldn’t be here. When there was only a presence of them, (that meant) they were incarnated in a body, on earth, and if they were actually there, then (that meant) they were in the dimensions.

D: So you could...

B: We could tell already that it was possible to determine who was incarnated –that was before the portal opened. So obviously when the portal opened it was fascinating, because when you call a being you immediately get the answer: they either are in the dimensions or they are incarnated.

We didn’t know at that stage that you could speak to somebody that is incarnated. And that you could speak to any particular life no matter which life, so we started doing that, to establish what’s going on.

J: So, communication through the Portal was ‘expanded’ within realising that one is able to communicate to everything and everyone – from beings that are incarnated, to dimensional beings, to animate and inanimate objects/manifestations from the greater to the smaller – everything and all that exist within existence is/has been always ‘aware’ = yet not self-aware from within the directive principle of equal and one.

B: Initially it obviously is really interesting, because... imagine being able to sit for hours and speak to many different beings.

J: Beings would come through in and as the body and experience and express themselves as though the body were their own – as though they were the ones birthed within the body and not Sunette – so absolute was their integration and comfortability in and as the body – as they’d walk, move, eat and sleep within the body – remaining within the body for from a day to a week or a month at a time with Sunette remaining within the interdimensional access – interdimensional beings thus have complete, total access into and as the physical body.

B: We didn’t have any equipment for recording or anything, because we didn’t expect this to happen, I mean, it was like, something totally unexpected. We only started doing that a bit later. But immediately an interesting perspective happened. For instance, in the beginning, we went on like talking for several hours, Sunette would come back into the body and the body would have a rash all over because she’s getting tired.

J: The physical body manifesting a rash due to the idea of experiencing tiredness as ‘strain/stress’.

B: So I asked her a question: explain to me, ‘tired’, what is tired, because tired doesn’t really exist. “Tired’ only exists because the memory of it exists within you. I looked at the body and I said ok, get out of the body, out of the portal, into the body. Have a meeting with your cells in your body and sort out their memory. She did that and when she got back in the body the rash was gone. So, it was immediate. And immediately the correction happened at a physical level.

So, what we found was quite interesting is that obviously, like, normally, where we’ve worked with channels before, in about an hour and a half to two hours maximum the channel would be tired and one would not be able to continue with the same level of communication, it will slowly but surely start to become less, and with deep-trance mediums they will even eventually be unable to actually speak and the person would have to get out of trance. Now it didn’t matter. We could just continue as long as we want and it was just the same. The same, constantly the same. Day in and day out – everyday, always.

Which was the one point that was important: it must always be consistent. And it’s been now consistent for what, 3 and a half years. We can exactly do exactly the same thing we did the very first evening, it’s consistent, the same. Every single day it’s tested. Every single day there’s either dimensional beings in the body or Sunette is sometimes in the body or sometimes dimensional beings will be here for 7 days, 14 days. It depends on what we’re busy with.

I initially obviously was quite curious to understand why was it possible to open the portal and, I mean, is it possible to open more? And when we got to the point, that was about a year and a half later, after testing for about a year and a half, of actually starting to share what was coming through the portal... what are we gonna call it? We can’t call it a channel.

D: You didn’t have a name for it?

B: We didn’t have a name for it, because we were simply busy communicating. So we then decided that what is happening is interdimensional and there is an interdimensional movement and it acts like a portal because beings of the interdimensional existence move into and as the physical body and experience themselves ‘freely’ in and as the physical – therefore, a portal – as it was an actual manifested opening to access both the physical and the interdimensional existence at will, ‘freely’ and spend as long a time as necessary or required in either of realities.

Desteni - Early Investigations in Process

Bernard: Ok here we go!

Let's start in the beginning phases when Sunette was going into the dimensions. The portal has been opened and the directive was simplistically to go out there and find beings and she was going on and what would happen then is she would find interesting beings and then bring them through the portal. Initially we were also busy with the demons. And at this stage, the early stages, the White Light was still in existence and we primarily had demons coming in and demons challenging and trying to in every way possible prove that they can stand and that they have a right to stand - and that forgiveness as a directive point is not valid and that our starting point - that means that the fact that existence can change at all - was seen according to the demons as not being possible. Demons regarded existence as primarily an extensive, deceptive, untrustworthy place where they – as demons – were safe from the deception of Heaven.

Obviously at this stage, we didn't really realize the extent of what was going on. We were investigating, and it was interesting because the experience was that Heaven existed as levels of vibrations, frequencies and that you moved through these levels - which in many cases correlated with (for instance) what was found by Robert Monroe and Eckancar soul travel and so on - we would move through various dimensions.

If you look, for instance, at Eckancar soul travel you were not allowed to travel the various Heavens without permission of the “God” of those Heavens. Here Sunette was just going - and obviously she didn't know these things - so she just went and there was no limitation as to where she could go, so she just went and spoke to beings and met with different beings.

She would bring them to us and we would discuss things with them and find out what was their perspective was, and they were quite surprised to be able to communicate with Earth, because it was not a “normal” thing. Communication with Earth was in essence very difficult, and in cases where it did happen, it was regulated very stringently. It was not just allowed to happen. Beings were not just allowed to move around freely in Heaven - everything had to go by permission of the White Light.

Now, what was interesting in this was that - during this initial process, obviously, we were also facing various points through the portal - we did not realize exactly what the Portal could do and what extent all of this actually - how it actually worked all of it - so we had to start to “test.”

Darryl:“Are you saying that this happened on its own? Or... I understood that it was placement.”

Bernard:It was a placement, but we didn't know to what extent that placement worked – how did it practically work. We had no idea exactly of what it entailed. It was placed as a “protection” of Sunette specifically, to make sure that no harm could come to her in any way whatsoever.
The placement itself was me, placing myself as I understood myself to be within the context of existence - as I understood everyone to be through a process of self-realization, which would include the Self-realized in terms of all of existence: the Physical, the Metaphysical, every part, Sound - I at that stage already realized Sound and was Directive as Sound. And I…

Darryl“So you’re saying that the portal is a manifestation of self-realization?”

Bernard:That is what it later showed. I mean, there's a fascinating thing, is: Who you are, you can't see.
So therefore, you can only See who you are once you start looking at the effect that it has on your world. Many of the things we did had ‘effects’ that we did not expect – which confirmed that the action was effective.
For instance, when the White Light was removed, and understand the “removal” of the White Light was not an “act” of removal - it was an act of standing equal as it – and in that Equality, it wasn't equal to me standing as it, because it was only energy - I wasn't “only energy.” And that which the White Light created out of energy which was - for instance the angels- immediately disappeared with the White Light, immediately was no longer existing, indicating immediately that it was purely as it was stated: pure energy beings, the angels. Brilliant energy beings, which was very limited in essence.

Darryl:“It was that the White Light coming to a realization that it wasn't equal, therefore...”

Bernard: No, the White Light was just energy, and energy has a beginning and an end. It simply was no longer “valid,” - if you want to call it that - because it was based on a point of separation and control. And when it was challenged as Life Equally, as Existence Equally - what is here - it could no longer sustain its deception. And simplistically that which was linked directly to its deception was immediately no longer here, no longer existed - It simply returned to its origin, which is the Physical. All energy always returns to its origin. Energy was generated from the Physical. All energy is generated from the Physical. It has a ‘source’.

So those points like the Soul Construct and the Akashic Records and so on, that was linked to all the beings so that we removed shortly after that - that was an act of removal - as was the act of the removal of the Higher Selves and the One Atom Gods and the God Selves and all the beings that was placed as maintenance of the deception to keep the beings on Earth controlled.

Why was it necessary to keep the beings on Earth controlled? That must obviously be the ‘big question’. Why was there such an extensive investment of beings made on every human being to make sure that every human being remained on their preprogrammed ‘Soul path’ - that they do not step off it? It was because the Physical was realized to be the actual source of all – call it “power” in existence.

Darryl:“So if they had human beings realizing that...”

Bernard: That would mess up the whole game of deception, which is why essentially all communication with Spirit, in essence, we had always a sense of deception. We were obviously very aware of that.
But I viewed it from a different perspective. I viewed that as long as we remained in the context that “because these Spirits are deceptive, that we must not approach them,” we will never be able to get to Oneness, in essence. At that stage, I had not yet realized the importance of Equality. I only looked at the point of Oneness. So therefore, if there is any point in existence with which we are not standing one as Directive Principle as ourselves, that point will have power over us - which is in essence one of the big mistakes most are making in their Ascension process and in their process of Enlightenment - is that they are focusing on a polarity instead of Self Realization. And when you focus on a polarity, you're in essence are weakening yourself to the point that where you reach the opposite point of the polarity which now you would perceive to be “enlightenment,” - you actually reach the bottom of it meaning, it reverses back to the opposite end, and you will end up as a demonic entity. Because you will return to the opposite end of the scale of the polarity to the extent, that you have allowed yourself to deceive yourself as this “light being.” And obviously you will place all and everything of yourself into your realization and enlightenment. Therefore, by the time you get to the point of the polarity, you will have no more energy left. And therefore your fall will be immediate and will be to the extent to where you will be at the opposite polarity of an “evil” manifestation.

We have found beings that has gone through that one extreme extent, and then ended up in one only application where they wanted the end of existence. Now we wouldn't say that the end of existence is not to the benefit of all - I mean that in such a deceptive reality as what we have created - the end of existence certainly is a very valid option. But there is the possibility, and hear it is just a possibility - that we could stand from here and develop actual understanding and Common Sense on how Reality actually operates.

Now from our perspective, the important point was that we did not want to come across as any form of “saving” of anything. No “Saviors.” It is simply the important point of Self Realization. Therefore, we started investigating the extent of the problem that we are facing. In that we obviously first started focusing on communicating with various beings.

And I started looking at communicating again with beings that I’d communicated with before through other deep trance mediums to see if that communication through the deep trance mediums before and this one could correlate, because there was no way Sunette knew about it - therefore I could test the information from that perspective.

And we also started looking at the whole point that was emerging - because as the Soul Construct and the Akashic Records and the White Light was all out of the way, an interesting thing happened automatically. All beings in existence – now understand that was all those that was in this existence - we are not talking about parallel universes or whatever you want to call them, there were many of that but this existence- all beings immediately turned into an equal form. They no longer had a projected form that would normally take on a human form or an animal form - whatever they choose to be - they were all the same form, which was egg-form which could only be identified by a sound signature that would be similar to a frequency resonance that would indicate who the being is.

Now, you must understand that what we realized quite early on, was that time as you understand it, do not exist in the dimensions. So we could “stretch” time or we could make it shorter. Simplistically, we could take a million years and look at it in five minutes, and look at all possible outplays. It seems vast, but imagine that Sunette is actually able to do that in the Physical for instance, as the portal.
So we could look at all of that - obviously, I can do similar things. So we can look at these things together, but we can also look at it by having billions, or an uncountable amount of beings looking at various options, to test out all choices that ever could exist in consciousness, which we started doing. We started testing out the choices, and obviously, what was fascinating was this peculiar manifestation that happened in terms of everyone suddenly equal.

Another thing that was interesting was that there was no sexuality in Heaven - although you could in your own ‘heaven’ create a point of expression. You didn't have the physicality to actually express the expression as one would understand it to be here on Earth.

So we re-introduced sexuality in Heaven. And we did it differently: all beings coming together in ONE exercise of expression from one specific perspective: that unless you can work together at the highest level of intimacy -all as one within the dimensions where all is known anyway - there is a problem.

So therefore that was introduced – which is fascinating enough - each expression, All as One which is now understand it is simply an expression which you would now not yet be able to completely understand because, that is yet to come within the orgasmic experience on Earth where your orgasm is an expression. and no longer a “release.” What it is mostly now is a release and or an energy swap, or a vampire action - all depending on what you're doing in your mind while you're having sex – it will determine what happens in the actual process. These are expressions, and in these expressions the beings would actually ‘clean out existence’ - that means everything that is not of Life is deleted; which is what will eventually happen with sexuality - in your expression you will delete anything that is not valid in a single action, and thus your physicality will remain clear from contamination of any form of energy.

But first we had to investigate what was going on. So in that we started realizing or we started considering the possibility of being able to bring a being anywhere on the planet through the portal. We realized that must have been possible through an interesting point. I would for instance say, “I want to speak to Martin Luther King.” And they'll say to me, “But he's not in the dimensions.” So I will say to them, “Where is he?” “Is he reincarnated.” So I'll say, “Okay, where is he reincarnated?” They'll say to me, “He's somewhere in Eastern Europe.” So I will say to him, “Okay. Get him!” Because at that stage we had already established that we are able to speak to a being even if they are reincarnated - which means we should be able to get the being through the portal, we don't know exactly what will happen. We did not completely understand to what extent the Physical was playing a role at that stage.
So what would happen is we would have Martin Luther King coming through as who he exist as in the dimensions, as a soul. But not as ‘who he is’ on Earth. Who he is on Earth is a Physical program. Who he is in Heaven was a Mental program.

Now who he was in Heaven was obviously based on the Soul Construct and the Akashic Records. That means, a series of lives and memories that built an idea of the being. So we could actually start to trace back the various lives. So we didn't immediately realize obviously this is how it works. So, for instance, we would begin to call various beings.

And I had various discussions, 10, 15 years ago with Lin Yu Tung, or about Lin Yu Tung, so I say, “Okay. I'd like to speak to Lin Yu Tung.

Darryl:“Now, who's this?”

Some philosopher a long time ago. I mean, I didn't know about the yoke until I was connected to it through a deep trance medium. So I wanted to again speak to this being. I wanted to know what did the message mean a long time ago that I got, because I never really understood the message. And they said to me, “No, he's not in the dimensions. He's on Earth.” So I say, “Okay. On Earth. Where is he?” They say, “No. He's in the East. He's incarnated as Emoto.”
So I say, “Okay, Emoto. Cool.”

So at that stage we’d been playing with Sound already, and already established a fascinating thing. In researching Emoto, is that Emoto was stuck in a particular point, which he’s accepted as the limitation of the crystallization of water: that every single crystal will always form a different crystal. And we’d already investigated that and stood as, for instance, state as the word, “Love, as Love Universal,” all the crystals changed into the same crystal, which means you have Actual Oneness and Equality Manifest in an Actual Expression as a Single Living Word - which has not yet been proven by Emoto, and I was very keen to let Emoto know that. I mean, ‘there's something for you to investigate, because what influence the structure of the crystal you are viewing under the microscope which is linked to a particular word - depends on the viewer, the observer. That means: who you are is actually projected in the crystal you are looking at. That means your belief is what you are looking at. You are not really looking at your actual Living Word - you’re only looking at your belief.

So if you photograph a crystal with the word ‘Hitler’ and you believe Hitler to be an ‘evil man’, your water crystal will take on the form as it did in the Emoto pictures as “evil” - while that is not the true nature of Hitler- that is actually how you view Hitler. That is the whole quantum theory thing ‘the observer influence’ - I mean, if you are not standing clear, you are not really looking, you're actually looking as you which means: you are only seeing you - which is how we contained all the minds of all the human beings on Earth. That's why you cannot see anyone else but you. That's why you can’t move outside you unless you break down yourself through Self Honesty. And no matter who you are, you are stuck as you - which was a point of great importance to get through once we understood how all the points work.

And we found some of the governments and some of the psychics being able to travel around in the dimensions, and we closed that off and we created a ‘mirror effect’ so they don't even know they are cut off from what they used to be able to do.

Darryl:“I was going to say, it’s like we're in a big... one of those fun-house mirror rooms where all you see is yourself.

Bernard: Yeah, It was very important that this be done, because the only way that a process could develop where everyone reaches Self Realization at the same time, was through containing them within themselves so they could face themselves and become Self Honest - which is exactly what happened.

So all energy you now generate returns to you, prepare your process. It does not in essence affect another, except through their permission. If they give permission, then obviously, permission is a very wide concept. I mean, permission could be simply “acceptance,” or “allowance,” or ignorance. Understand that ignorance is not an excuse. Your whole design of you is now actually in your hands. And all it does is it goes according to the Law of Balance, according to your desire, and the bigger your desire, the longer it will take before you face yourself and the bigger the fall.

The Law of Karma we found was never in effect.

Darryl: Right

Bernard: The Law of Karma was misused within the Soul Construct to have only some face Karma, while the elite never faced Karma. Which is exactly the way it operates on Earth in terms of the elite, they do not face the consequences of their actions - the elite do not face the consequences of their actions. That is starting to change, now. Now the Law of Karma is actually starting to actually work in its correct way.
Because look at the common sense. If the Law of Karma, that has been there from the beginning of existence was functioning correctly without interference, then everybody would have known one thing: If I do this, there is a consequence, and therefore I won't do it. But once we started doing something and there was no consequence because the consequence was through a split in the energy between two polarities moved to the responsibility of another -using the concept of Love, so that the person is actually responsible never pays for the shit - but the person stuck in Love and believe they're doing something “good,” they're actually paying for it.

So there’s those that go around “loving, loving, loving”- you're really causing yourself a massive, massive wake-up call in your process because, what have you done? You have kept deception in place through taking on the responsibility through love of these beings so that they never learn their lesson. And therefore, now you are enslaved to them. You are actually at the highest level of enslavement that can exist, which is Love - because you have actually created the deception through “Love.”

Obviously they don't want to hear this and obviously they are not going to just change. And therefore, those that had thought they were first, will be last. They will be the last ones that will Realize, unfortunately. Hopefully, some will hear and actually stop and reconsider with Common Sense and Self Honesty exactly what we are saying.

So now back to Emoto. So we then attempted to contact Emoto, which was fascinating at that stage because we still had the (the White Light's) gridlines in place – we didn't realize the gridlines were still in place, we didn't even realize initially - we knew there was a substance within which everything existed and that was a form of a magnetic substance which had geometrical gridlines that looks like - you've seen some of these pictures with the “light beings” sitting, with all these lights and those lines coming from them and like they are on a map like kind-of-thing? Something like that. It permeated the Physical, it permeated Heaven, it was everywhere.

So, what was fascinating was that Emoto would move immediately from his body to the Portal and we could immediately talk. Which was fascinating I mean, initially we now test this: ‘Move there. Is there anything happening to the body? What's going on? The body on the other side is still fine, What happens? ‘We don't know’. Now we want to establish what happens.
So we attempted to find a connection to be able to communicate with Emoto in the Physical. Didn't want to work. So I said, “Okay, what is going on?” I mean, this is supposed to work - Why are we able to communicate through the quantum reality but not the physical reality? What is going on here? What is it that we’re we not realizing?

Obviously at that stage we haven't realized that the Physical reality existed in complete separation, only as the Physical - and thus that's why for instance, you can't see the thoughts of another human being. You are also not able to actually even express all your thoughts because you're not even aware of all of all your thoughts. You are actually contained completely in a bubble as yourself.
And it’s possible to exist like that in this reality, without actually having a major effect on anyone else but through various specific actions. Most of your actions just go to nothing, and only gets stored in your physical body. And that is why is possible to have hateful thoughts about somebody without actually killing them - because you are contained in a body by a system that protects everyone else from you. Because if you really have to be honest about your thoughts, there have been many times where you wanted to kill God, you wanted to kill various people. I mean you got really angry at all kinds of things, and I mean - you didn't. So your thoughts are not really powerful.

What is really actually going on is something that is not yet realized by most.
What is really going on, is that everything that happens in your life was Preprogrammed. And at this stage, you are now continuing with that preprogramming - and that you are programming your life according to your desires, and according to your line of separation and according to your true nature, which is exactly what is going on inside you. So, initially, it will work.

But then, comes the cracks at the point where you expect it least: You'll lose it all. You will go into the Job experience.

The Job experience is very specific. Don't misunderstand the Holy Book's of this reality. They are specifically written in Sound - you'll notice that they are using words and sounds in very peculiar ways. They are particularly and specifically programmed to achieve certain objectives. These objectives were not always known by those that perceived they understood reality. The whole purpose of Earth is: the purification of existence. It is the realization of who you are in actual fact.

What has happened is fascinating because, a creation has taken place which is basically a Trinity - where you have God ‘the Father’- which is the Physical, you have God ‘the Son’- which is the Mind and you have God ‘the Holy Spirit’ - which is Presence - which is your Structural Resonance.

Now, the Structural Resonance in essence, is like an emanating ‘radio tower’ that emits a signal according to your program and it connects to all the other towers and they are all on a magnetic gridline - and according to these gridlines, your life events are ‘plotted’ just like in a game that you play on . And as you connect to a point or are directed to your next point, and then you get to – and all these events take place in a way that you believe you are making a “choice,”- which is not a choice you are actually making. You're actually directed. That's why you follow the choice - you never make the choice – it ‘feels right’ because you’re programmed to feel that way – it is not a feeling that comes from you, it comes from your program and accordingly you’re acting –

Darryl: Yeah I experienced that especially in places where I’d had a split in the decision like ‘I shouldn’t do this’ but I felt compelled to do it anyways…

Bernard: Yeah you’ll find that there is that ‘compelling’ that’s like a certainty that you ‘must do something’ – and in many cases that certainty would then happen to make sure that you start to believe in your ‘choices’, in your belief structure – which means you’re starting to believe in your system and you trust your system – but you’re not actually Trusting Yourself.

So what was the point of it was to, life after life over and over and over and over again, take you through a process where you are taken to the ultimate failure every time. And in that, you accept a fascinating thing: that god actually exist – and that you are no good sinner and that you are weak and that you can’t help yourself.

Now the fact that you can’t help yourself it’s not because there’s something wrong with you - is because you’re programmed to be that way. You’re programmed to never be able to help yourself.

Darryl: It’s like planned obsolescence.

Bernard: Yes, exactly. Understand the total existence as it is here in terms of our industrial-technological age is the externalization of the mind: you’re only existing as your mind – that’s why the only things that will entertain you now, is the things that is been created by the mind - which is your entertainment, your television, your music, all of that – it’s all created by the mind. You’re not entertained by the Physical – the Physical is just a source of food for energy, that’s it – of which you don’t care as long as you can have it. Now from that you’ll do whatever it takes to have it – you live and destroy it – doesn’t matter because ‘it doesn’t affect you’ – what affects you is your mind and therefore you’re only existing as your mind.

There is an Unfortunate Side-Effect: If you die as the mind in the afterlife you’re just mind – you’re in absolute separation. You lose your Physical and you lose your Structural Resonance - that means everything that you’ve ever learned - which is in your Structural Resonance – and you’ll end up with virtually nothing.

Darryl: Now why has the White Light propaganda put out the lie or the story that what is real in existence is Consciousness?

Bernard: The White Light was subject to Consciousness – Consciousness is in essence an energetic manifestation – it is the combined Energy of all beings that every body ‘pours’ into it all the time, ok? And that is what the White Light existed on, that was its ‘food’ - it was a system that needed that energy to exist.

Darryl: So could they not abuse the Structural Resonance or was that used as a trap?

Bernard: the Structural Resonance they never understood – they, that’s why in for instance in the DNA you’ll find lots of ‘junk DNA’ that’s actually all upgrades in the programs that’s happened over time.

For instance a fascinating thing is: do not perceive that the virus exist for disease, for instance – the viruses was introduced interdimensionally in many cases through designs to particularly change the ‘life path’ of humanity. Because, when the virus is in the body it merge with the DNA of the being and it change who you are –you don’t even notice because you’re changing – and it’s who you are, you never notice - because you act that automatically. I mean you only wonder: ‘why am I doing this?’ ‘Why am I compelled?’, ‘Why do I have this compulsion? I can’t stop this compulsion’ – it’s because you’re programmed. These compulsions are set up in many different ways, it is visual, auditory, presence, it could be a movement - many different things will put you into a subtle reaction or a compelling or – many of these things were based on sexuality because the primary generation of energy Metaphysically – that means where the Physical Energy from the Earth from food, were taken to a Metaphysical Energy - was through sex. That Metaphysical Energy was the energy source of Heaven, it was really the Blood of the Human, was the sap that fed the ‘Tree of Heaven’ – I mean, it really worked that way. So when we cut that off obviously it was impossible for Heaven to recreate Heaven.

So we inverted everything because the realization was: if we would change this, it automatically would cause another system of control – so there, how do we stop the control? Which is where Equality and Oneness came in – that came in through on seeing what happened, what is existent in these beings is Life Essence – but you’re in separation from this Life Essence. You are not actually even considering it at all and it exists as a very small part of you.

Darryl: Is it because we don’t realize that the Physical is Life?

Bernard: Not even that, it is because you don’t realize that you’re actually creating reality. You’re actually creating it at your Resonant Level.
Now your Resonant Level is Pre-programmed through multiple lives – that means every time you reincarnated, your parents would transfer from themselves their Resonance, their Structural Resonance - from the male and the female – and out of that, your Resonance will experience a form of ‘Mental Evolution’.

Darryl: So it wasn’t the exact same Resonance a person would have in …

Bernard: No, they never did that because they did not follow the Law of Karma at all. They followed the ‘law of control’ which was - as much as possible - they had to place you in a position where you are unable to deal with situations. So they would Pre-Program you with things that you are not ready to handle, I mean you haven’t ‘built up’ the ability to handle and therefore you will struggle your Life though unless you were at the service of the White Light and placed in a ‘special Life’ as ‘control’ in this reality – you’d simply would be struggling this Life – and you would be forced into a position where you have to accept the system so you can survive. And many, many beings are doing that so therefore, you’ll accept the system or a religion or a belief because it is linked to your ‘success’ with living, with money and having everything that the Mind is entertained with in this reality – and you will not see the suffering that happens.

And understand there is a very high level of suffering in this Planet – a large amounts of beings have been placed in lives of suffering to submit them to accept the ‘god construct’- and with the promise obviously: if you accept god, your suffering will stop.

Darryl: Well Karma implies that suffering will stop someday, but…

Bernard: it was one commission only and instead of you actually ‘evolving’ becoming a ‘better being’ through Karma – which was the way the law was set. It was set in one way only: to make sure that you accept God as your creator and as something that was ‘beyond question’.

Obviously what was fascinating is that ‘God’ was not ‘beyond question’ – how did we find that out? God did not know immediately that the Portal Opened – ‘God’ found out later which was interesting because the first time I spoke to ‘God’, he said to me: ‘I just found out about the Portal’ – I said ‘So, ok, fascinating - ok, so what’ happening?’ – I mean I wanted to know what was going on I mean, I didn’t – I took on a very particular approach to the whole situation. I knew one thing is that they would try and deceive me – which is the very first thing that they tried to do as soon as they tried to establish ‘what is my desires’. So I placed certain points pertinent upfront what I want –and I said: ‘I want money. I need money as much as possible’ Because I mean, without money, I’m not going to be able to help people – and immediately what did God say? ‘Not a problem, I’ll get you money’ – ok so, is cool.
Satya from Alcyone from the Pleiades said: ‘Man, you’ve put so much in, you they’re getting it all back’ "I says ‘Ok, I will hold you to do that!" So, I said, ok.ay. Pain, God, ‘God,' you’re the one. W hen?’

‘On eleven o’ clock tonight’ – I says ok, where? – ‘in your safe’ – I says: ‘Ok, eleven o’ clock I’ll be there’ – so at eleven o’ clock open the safe, there’s nothing. I say ‘ok, bring me God’ – ok so explain to me’ there’s nothing. I say ‘I’ll give you another chance’ – ‘no no we we’re getting there, we’re getting there – somehow we just don’t know what’s going on but we’re not having, I -the effect is.. I mean I’m not having the effect I thought I should have I mean, there’s something wrong, we’re working on it, we’ll have it, we’ll get it’. But I mean obviously it never happened – I mean it is a, it’s just a way the approach is done in terms of trying to find the ‘weak point’.

So I deliberately started fucking around. I deliberately started to challenge the beings in various different ways by presenting particular points for their ‘temptation’ to see who they were and who I’m dealing with. And then I had obviously beings that I have communicated with before, which I then started talking to also, but I always communicated with everybody the same. And I never held their deception against them – I went as far as allowing them full access to my body, to everything – I says ‘ok you know, I mean you say you can assist me physically so, show me, here I am’ and then I’ll let them do whatever they wanted to do. And then Andrea would watch what they were doing and Sunette would watch what they’re doing and they would tell me all these wonderful things they’re doing to my body and so on and then … they told me they just had to delete it again – because they’re attempting to place in implants and devises to control people and to activate every one on Earth so they could all – and they did they activated everyone and obviously that’s what we wanted. What do we want? We want the total activation of all the programs all at once.

Darryl: So they could see it.

Bernard: So that everybody could see what they have become which will play out – I mean you could just watch the news day to day and you’ll see a form of chaos unfold in the world, a form of inability to have stability and the leaders will do ‘their best’ to try and find solutions – which they won’t.

I mean this Reality as it exist, is existent as a System. What is Real in it is your Physical.

What is Real is that you can actually Program yourself into a better being. You can actually Unprogram your limitations and become within the context - Hear me - of the rules of this dimension, which is space-time, you can become Unlimited. But the rules of the dimension is specific. This dimension is the dimension where you are facing the crossroads of yourself, this is where space and time cross – which is the cross of Jesus – of Space and Time - the Here where you learn the Truth about you. And, if you’re Self Honest you will know it is not pretty. What is going on inside your mind which is ‘who you really are’ you’re only existent as mind - is not a pretty picture.
And the projections you’re making in there- whether you’re following some form of ‘Enlightened Path’- is not real because it’s not considering all beings that is currently Here on Earth – you’re not considering the situation on Earth. You’re not considering this Reality, this Dimensional World that exist Here as Tridimensions. You’re not even existent as three-dimensions - you’re only existent as Mind in a flat world: one-dimensional world.
You’re existing one-dimensional in a three-dimensional world. Now…

Darryl: But we’ve been cultivated to exist as that.

Bernard: Correct, you’ve been cultivated - but understand you’ve had the moments in your life when you have wondered, and you did nothing –when you have questioned, and you did not follow your own Common Sense, you did not look at the Self Honesty and you didn’t change – you remain Responsible. And if you go back to your past lives, you’ll see that you knew what you were getting yourself into - You have always been what you are now, you have never been anything else -

You as who you are as Resonance, always will come through in the End as Who You Are – all that is being used is you and you’ve allowed it, and you’ve always been mistrusting of everyone in existence, you’ve always been deceptive, you’ve always only served your own Self Interest, you’ve always wanted to be better – but You’ve Never Been Who You Really Could Be.

So here we go, let’s get back to Emoto – here we were communicating with Emoto and we were testing the whole point out and we were just not getting to the bloody point –and… so then I said ‘Ok I would like to speak to Lao-Tzu and I expected obviously a similar experience to Emoto because they said to me ‘Lao Tzu is on Earth’. And I wanted to know, I always – I regarded Lao Tzu’s work as very effective because it was so simplistic – and with great simplicity, the shortest road to anything is Simplicity - and that is the answer for. You really want to have answers, use Simplicity - Common Sense is Simplicity – is simplicity to the real effect that’s happening right now, right here on this planet: that’s simplicity.

And Lao Tzu came through and he greeted me and I was starting to speak to him and he said to me ‘wait, wait, stop’ – and he said to me ‘I’m not the same as anyone that you’ve communicated with so far, I am existent as you everywhere – I’m on Earth and I’m aware of everything that’s going on and I’m aware what you guys are doing’ – so I said ok, so I said ‘where are you?’ -And I’m not going to say where it is - but we then started discussing the situation and what was going on and Process – and basically, looked at what it is that there is to be done to Support Everyone to Self Realization.

And ever since we’ve been working together Lao Tzu and he’s got a group that he’s been working with – they have been specifically Assisting and looking at everything, looking at the stabilities, we’re assessing all the points, is everything effective – and multiple different processes are taking place to accelerate Self Realization. Everything that’s happening is happening for one purpose only: accelerating Self Realization – and that the decision was made that we have options:

One option is a long lengthy process on pain, one is a short process of pain – but pain there will be – you’re not just gonna have Self Realization, you’re going to have to actually change, really become Self Honest, Really become Trust Worthy by Life, Really be Life itself, Really Actually Care, Really be Love in Fact –Love is not a feeling, Love is a Reality. Love is something that you do not experience because it is something that is existent as Life Itself – anything you experience as Love is not real, is an illusion created by the mind – anything you desire as love is not real, because it will always be dishonest and not consider All Life and will only consider your Self Interest –that is Not Love, that is Deception.

So, we had interesting conversations with Lao Tzu. We never connected with Emoto from the perspective of being able to get a communication through to Emoto, we could only speak to the Structural Resonance - which is the Real part of Emoto. His part that’s existent as Mind was contained in the Mind System, that part we’ve not been able to communicate with.

It’s fascinating because when you speak to the mind, they – understand in the Mind everything you’ve ever seen is there floating around – so all the numbers, all the telephone numbers, all the ID numbers, everywhere you’ve ever read, every movie you’ve watched, everything floats around there. So if you want to get any form of information, it’s rather a big mess.

So the Structural Resonance and the Mind then will take that which is Relevant for your Process out of that and Direct it. You are thus just like a massive container of information – and out of that, you’ve built ‘strings of information’ that ‘spins around’ with strings of sentences which sentence you to your personality which is then statements where make about: ‘I am a good guy’ – then for instance that information will ‘spin around’ in circles inside you like an energy generator. Just like you know you have this thing the spin between the solar plexus and in your head region, your heart regions – it’s all these spinning things - you have various ones of them depending on what regime you’re following. Say you follow the ‘Tree of Life’ from the Kabbalah, then it’ll have these more extensive amounts of ‘strings’ that your string is moving around generating energy, metaphysical energy which is then what your Mind feeds off – while your Physical feeds of the Physical Energy that you get from the food that you’re eating – and then thus metaphysically energy then ‘pumped into’ you know it was ‘pumped into’ the ‘Heavenly Realms’ where it was used for the ‘Higher Existence’ and for the containment of the beings that do not hear or do not submit to what ‘god’ wants them to do - which was to be in his service for eternity.

Understand that until this particular experience of Earth, there was never a ‘god’ – god was created around the experience of Earth. There were races that believed that there must be something like that existent, but they’ve never been able to actually see or experience God from any perspective. What they haven’t realized is that God in fact, is the Physical Reality/ the Physical Universe.

Obviously at this stage we hadn’t even begun to consider all the realities - we had only cleaned out all the Parallel Universes and there was inside and outside that means: the same amount of Universes we found outside Earth, we found in every human being with multiple beings existent in it – we took them all out. And at a later stage we found something more interesting, we’ll get to that at a later stage – so

What was very clear that became quite a fascinating point is that: nobody in existence is really knowing what was going on. Everybody was deceived and there was nobody to ask.

We removed all the “data” because the more beings started realizing all the various wonderful things they could do - like disappear and become invisible and you know I mean, shape-shift and all kinds of stuff– everybody started doing it and fucking with each other I mean, it’s like amazing that was the first thing beings in existence were doing – fucking with each other, playing for power. It was like I said ‘what the fuck?’ – I mean we’re a little bit in shit here – I mean we’ve created a fucked up reality where everybody believe their Reality is Real, where they disregard that which actually gives them Life –which is the Physical – where they then die and become virtually bloody nothing, useless piece of fucking shit in the dimensions in the Afterlife I mean, with lots of proof of the Common Sense of what the fuck is going on and yet - because money is in control - nobody wants to actually even consider anything as long as they got money.

So therefore one of the things that will definitively become the single biggest problem with existence on Earth: is Money – it will be quite a problem as it continues in its process of: crashing.

We looked at all the practical points in terms of how can we actually find a way to assist everyone we realized a simple thing is: as long as everybody’s got to work for money, very few beings will have the time to consider their own Self Realization.

Therefore a way had to be found without damaging the structural designs that is currently here on Earth to place into existence a system that can Support everyone to actually have time enough to consider their Reality – which is why we are proposing an Equal Money System and if necessary, it’ll be linked to labor, meaning: One Job –One Man= Income.

That everybody can take responsibility for what is happening. Because if we just introduce for instance: ‘Equal Money for All’ people will immediately stop doing the basic essential services that is required in this reality. But, if there is a job for everyone and everyone gets an equal amount of money which is sufficient to Support Every One – I mean all jobs will be done and we can work out a time frame where everybody has time to actually look at our situation and we can find solution.

Obviously there’s beings in existence that are mentally ‘disenfranchised’ – those things were done deliberately. They were deliberately moved or designed to not be able to transcend or not be able to actually understand even the basic things happening in this Reality. In time those beings will withdraw and will get another chance in another life. Everybody will get a chance, I mean at the end of the day Every One will Self Realize.
You really decide how difficult that process is going to be – because you design your own Process: the more you resist it, the more difficult your process become because you actually, I mean: how can you Common Sensically resist a point of Equality, that means: what does Equality really mean? – a point where Every One is Equal with All knowledge, Every One is Equal in all Intelligence, Every One is Equal in All Abilities - yet you’re individual and you can express yourself individually, I mean: that’s Best for All. Where nobody are then in a position where you can harm another because you all know everything about each other, you’re All Knowing, you’re Omni-Present, you’re in essence the Real Image and Likeness of God – which is an inevitable manifestation.

How is there anyone in existence that can deny that as apparently something to your disadvantage?

Darryl: because there are people who don’t like the idea of being Equal with somebody else.

Bernard: Because the only point where you want to disregard Equality in all ways, is because you want to harm another, you want to be better than another.

Darryl: Yeah.

Bernard: Therefore you’re dishonest

Darryl: that’s the people that go on in You Tube and say why should… I studied to be a doctor – why should a ditch-digger make as much money as me, I mean, that’s not fair.

Bernard: Doctors, I mean the Doctor won’t go there and dig that ditch - I mean that action is equal worth in time becauseLife is the Value – not what you know – but if everybody knows Equally everything: who’s gonna dig that ditch? – If everyone is omnipresent and there is no more disease, what is the doctor now going to do, because now you got no more purpose – yet you’re Here. I mean that is inevitably what is our future as the Structural Resonance gets Aligned to what is really possible. That will take some time because it is currently aligned and programmed according to a deceptive limitation and separation that has separated Man from Life completely into an Alternate Reality which works like a mirror where everything is in reverse which is the mind.

So for instance there is very little in existence that you can really, really in any way take as relevant in terms of that it is actually true. Understand that everything and everyone of the people in existence, was deliberately fucked with and that you were deliberately programmed to experience things that would put you in separation with everyone around you, so that you can feel ‘special’ – ‘I saw that UFO’ or ‘I had that experience’. You were deliberately programmed to be placed in that point of separation so that you can disagree with everyone else and therefore, can claim that you ‘know better’ because you experienced it – you did not, it happened to you.

That happening was preprogrammed, it did not really happen – if it was real it can happen again and again and again every single day at will – it doesn’t because it was not your will, it was a program.

What happens at your will is like for instance, Sunette at will can leave her body at any time as long as she likes, whenever, wherever she is – it doesn’t matter and that’s real, because it is at will.

And we’ll obviously continue with what we’re doing. And we will now start training specifically beings in terms of Structural Resonance Alignment – we’ll be extremely strict because now we don’t got time to waste – I mean, who wants to waste time with those that is not willing to consider that they’re able to be more than what they’ve accepted themselves to be - if you’re not willing to consider that and do that for yourself - I mean, we’re not gonna do it for you – we’re simply gonna tell you ‘fuck off’ – I mean, next life – we’re not interested.

We’re interested in those that are really actually going to get to the point of Self Honesty and actually going to get themselves to the level where they are understanding what it means to be Unlimited within a Limited Reality.

This will be the foundation for what is to come in Eternity, so that never again will one being have power over another - who in existence cannot declare that that is the ultimate solution for everyone where we never again need to harm another to feel better about yourself –that that is not the highest act of love that can exist Equality and Oneness, Equality for All - and that that requires our total attention to get it done. Therefore those that do not place themselves in a position where they empower themselves Equally and as such Assist others to do the same, will be disregarded completely and their process will be postponed by themselves into a next life – where they will not have the benefit of consideration. Because in essence: who you are is Everything - is Not a Choice, therefore you cannot disregard it, you will be forced to this Realization – whether you like it or not.

Always suggest is: there is ways to do it which is less painful and there is ways which is more painful – you’re gonna get to the exact same point – you either going to walk with us or you’re not – it doesn’t matter to us.
Ok, that’s about it.

Why Desteni is doing what Desteni is doing

Bernard: Okay...

So, many ask why is Desteni doing what Desteni is doing. Why would you say, are we doing what we’re doing?

Dimensions: Well, I’d say it starts off with a, a ‘reason’ or a ‘why’, but eventually it becomes so much you that a ‘why’ disappear or ‘reason’ disappear because you, just realise the common sense in practical equal and one Living.

Bernard: So...Ja, if I look at it there’s many that wants to claim that we are somehow apparently Prophets...

In this world, there is nothing that is not predictable, which is...doesn’t need a prophet to do it - it just needs common sense and practical deduction.

Dimensions: Ja, Ja – exactly that point – practical common sense deduction...

Bernard: So...

Dimensions: I would say, they might say that we are prophets, because it’s kind of the only thing maybe that exist in their vocabulary to describe (Desteni)...but that is not what Desteni is.

Bernard: Okay, so let’s continue...

Maybe at this point, more a ‘personal note’ will notice for instance on Blogging, on YouTube, on Forums; people have a tendency, and it’s become quite a tendency to hide behind fake names, synonyms and so on cause then they have more ‘courage’ to speak nonsense, things that they would normally not say when they use their own names.
So at Desteni, we have requested people to use their own names on the forum and on YouTube and on their blogs which will in time become a common use. So that whatever you say

Dimensions: Is you

Bernard: Is you and you are accountable for it at all times. So that there is accountability

Dimensions: And within that you assist and support yourself from the perspective of what to say, what to express, what to speak – as you say accountability, take responsibility, therefore from the perspective that it’s ‘done in my name’, you know, it’s me, you won’t within that unnecessarily expose yourself to deliberate harm unto yourself actually, by creating unknown personalities and ideas and perceptions of yourself of mind. And within that brings through a point of trustworthiness within yourself and for others.

Bernard: I would suggest that people as a matter of a standing start living their lives within the real world within the name that they’re born with, because the world that requires attention is the real world where there are real people with real names and that one can be accountable for what you are saying and to start disregarding anyone that has an opinion or has a message that is unwilling or scared or afraid or have no courage to actually stand as their real name.
In that a lot of bullshit will disappear overnight.

Dimensions: Absolutely

Bernard: And then the discussion about practical functionality of assisting people in this world and the how and how one will assist people to find a solution so that we can get past this premise that we have created this mess that we have created so that the old world that we have now can end, and we can move into a new world.
We cannot change the old world – that’s not possible.

Dimenions: uhu, no

Bernard: We can stop what we do and become self-honest and stand up and walk with some honour, with some accountability, with some respectability, responsibility.
Maybe on this note is also to note when good man do nothing, evil wins.
It is pointless to be a man of peace while the world burns and millions suffer.
It is pointless to profess peace and to not stand up and speak up and have a particular point that in its application will assist every living thing.
If what one stands for is in application, is not supporting every living thing to have a decent life in this reality then whatever one is doing is certainly not advisable, because it is dividing men into groups.

From a personal perspective I stand for the burning of all Bibles, all holy books, all Korans, all – any form of spiritual book ever written should be burned.
Every single religion should be discontinued. Every single thing that has an opinion or a philosophy should be forever more banished. So we can get down to the nitty gritty in this world of getting a functional society, start again, start from fresh we will consider each human, each animal, each part of this world as equal to you as life coming from the Earth – we all come from the Earth, that is the substance we’re made of – that one take care of all substance ,all forms of existence – equal and one to yourself and find a solution within where all can exist with equal dignity.
Therefore I would suggest a new Money System – a Money System that is based on...
Money System is fascinatingly enough quite functional because the technology is in place to actually be able to support all people. And to distribute it effectively. I would suggest that Money System where all people are given a life allowances that supports everyone from birth and from within that we will have to obviously change some of our current acceptances. Our current acceptances are for instance that one only do something through motivation, not through understanding or self-motivation, so you need money to motivate you or survival or fear of having no money to motivate you to work. That is not a statement that I would like to place as a description or evaluation or a... definition of who I am. Who I am must be functional in expression, moving through understanding in terms of what is required which is where Desteni comes from – we did not have to do Desteni we realised that it is inevitably – if we don’t do it, we’re only going to face ourselves in the future at some point and having to face what we did not do.

So, and that is the premise that was placed before heaven with the opening of the Portal. Maybe at this point, important to note the following: We obviously realised with the opening of the Portal that we have now an unusual event that is not definable within the current context of anything that has been experienced on Earth yet. We do not profess it is special, it is simply basic science if one really go and understand what quantum existence, what the actual existence is comprised of and how it works – it is simple to actually understand what has happened. There is certain rules, laws, principles that guides such events and the actual occurrence of such event that is so – one must understand the functional practicality of such principles, laws, guidelines as it is set out throughout millennia; and they are available on Earth we are not saying anything new, we’re simply accentuating that the principle of equality if vital and that oneness without equality is useless and a deception and just another form of a religion.

Now, we have approached every major university or research organisation in the world as to investigate or do research around the Portal, it was obviously that the Portal would be far more acceptable if you have some scientist saying “ooh this is real”. Obviously common sense can say the same the scientist is only going to end up with a few things possibly to be measured. Probably the brainwaves from different beings as they are in the body, that is the one point. And maybe the points between somebody in the body and not in the body by measuring the weights – there is a weight change because normally, what they’ve already measured is that at death there is a weight change (21 grams) that happens when the spirit leaves the body so we should probably be able to measure that. There not many thing unfortunately measurable from a scientific point of view. One might be able to measure brain rhythms, frequencies, we don’t know, I mean that is what scientists do. We have approached them with and ask for researchers to consider doing research and no-one, not even the most prolific parapsychologists in the world or departments that do research in this has come forward with any point, any suggestion.
One university did come back and say “What we have does not fall within the description of their research”. I mean, that’s obvious it can’t because there is no such description.

That’s why we are, within had to find a way to present the information that we have found and as we are going into more and more a digital world, things like YouTube will become eventually more popular than TV, because the people have a sense of freedom there and they can hide behind fake names and they can create avatars which creates nice strokes to egos. I suggest one start realising that, that is the total intent of the creation of such vehicles. If one would like to believe in something like a New World Order or an Elite, what would be the functionality of the Elite? They would take research from Freud and others that is in the field of mass manipulation for money and they will use that to do that. To manipulate and to take part on YouTube with a name that is not your own, where your voice gets lost within the fakeness of that which you hide behind, you are playing right into the hands of those that determine to be the Elite and New World Order. And people become useless because all you’re doing is instead of looking at the functional practical solutions that will actually make a difference in the world – each is one is trying to promote their own message in separation. Each one trying to make a mark – no-one standing together.
In equality it implies that everyone stands together, there is no leaders in equality, equality is equality. Obviously within the principle of equality is that one will have to push to become more equal if you want to call it – more effective within the physical.

It is thus important to consider that all the channels on YouTube that promote all kinds of points and that’s specifically attacking governments or apparent Elites, that they are simplistically actually only dividing themselves. We’ve specifically done videos on this to test the premises in terms of how it effects people in terms of their consciousness, consciousness is measurable so we can observe it interdimensionally. When people are viewing videos, what happens inside them, how do they actually use their minds, what is their starting point, what is going to happen to them, everything is measurable and therefore is also fascinatingly enough programmable. Because energy is electricity, magnetic movement which is programmable which is the same as your bank cards. You know your banking system is a magnetic system. Your magtapes carry the information that is vital, that makes your existence move. The same happens within the human being within your programming. We will go into these things more specifically when we reveal the nature of the Secret Mind which is the point where reality is created from within is each human.

Over the next several years we will be releasing lots of the information of the research we’ve been doing. Currently we estimate the in the bringing forth the construction, the implementation of a new Money System will take 28 years before it is functional effective. In the meantime humanity will suffer extensively, the systems will simply not be able to support man.
It will happen in waves not all will be affected in the same time, it will be different groups that are affected with different events as the Money System close down. The Money System in itself cannot survive what has been allowed... The problem has not been understood. And even if the problem is understood, there is no solution. So this is rather a difficult time ahead, which will progressively get worse towards 2012 specifically. Why 2012? It just fits the energy patterns so well, come on. Everybody has already prepared themselves for some event, now it just fit into that pattern we just use the pattern to bring forth a greater calamity than you can imagine. And that is by simply connecting everyone’s inner reality to the outcome that is already done. You can’t change that because you don’t even know how you’re creating anything in this world. You’re simply functioning at a level that you do not understand anything about yourself and what you perceive yourself to be – that is not the real self, that is just the projected self. That is the interpreted self, that is the self you are presenting as an idea to the world, and from that perspective your idea is apparently indestructible. That’s not so...There is uncountable graveyards around the world proving one thing: not a single man has left this world alive. And only the ideas has ‘survived’ that suited the egos of those that remained. It’s time to let go of these things so that one can actually get down to a functional solution.

Desteni is your ‘Greatest Fear’

Desteni is your 'Greatest Fear' - WHY?

What if all you have ever believed is a lie? What if the real reason why we are trapped in this illusion is a simple explanation? What if you really were self-honest and saw that you what you are actually fearing is everyone in your world-fearing what they were capable of doing to you? What if you realized that this is just your projection of fear?

The real truth is that you see what you are capable of doing to every one else. You see how you can deceive.

Then comes the Great Act of Deception: Let me do it first! Then I will not be deceived! Because I know what they would do if they have a chance! Let me do it first! Let me be the one in control of the situation! Then I am safe!

This is the truth that created everything. We fear our own self-dishonesty and we project it onto others and then act to protect ourselves. The elite in this world do this. They fear the masses so they control the masses. The religious fear this. They fear their own dishonesty and thus create ways to force others to be honest.

But the truth is that everyone is dishonest and lives in fear of each other. And this fear is actually fear of self, fear of the dishonest nature of self and fear of the dark side of self. Because of this fear, we seek the light and enlightenment to blind us from the truth which is that we are living in fear of each other.

So we invented love because if we can say the word “love” and feel love and generate this feeling, we do not have to face the awful truth-that we fear each other and we fear what we will do to each other and what others will do to us. We live in petrification and fear.

The reason why the world exists is to manifest this one point-our fear of each other!

Look at this world. Everything-all our seeking for purpose, our governments, our societies-all are all based on fearing each other and having the upper hand. In doing that, we expose our own self-dishonesty justify it saying, “If we do not do it first, they will do it to US!”

Desteni is your greatest fear. It HAS ALL BEEN A LIE! Everything you have ever believed is a lie that you created through your own fears. It's time for self-honesty.

And know this: Another fear you have is that YOU WILL FACE THE TRUTH OF YOUR SELF-DISHONESTY AND THE TRUTH OF YOU FEARING OTHERS. There is no way out. You will live as many lives as needed and experience as much pain as is required and as much trauma as you can handle. This will reveal.


what we are presenting is not beautiful stuff that will make anyone feel all fuzzy or feel great about the future-- The future as it exist now is an infinite enslavement system-- just repeating itself with all participants forgetting even what they did from day to day as a child in its specific events-- l

When we are really honest with ourselves we become aware that something is amiss-- we only remember what we want to remember

we only say what suits us

we only care about some people-- the rest is not in our category we have placed ourselves

we place money as the one thing we must have no matter what we have to do with the end justifying the means even if we have to be mean

we feel empathy with those in trouble or in destruction,but belief that the reason we are ok is because of our beliefs, applications and discipline-- not true-- we are creating that which the other less fortunate experience through our preconceived ideas and we are unable to actually see the timelines and sound resonant lines that create reality as we have accepted it, yet we act as experts-- thus the ultimate dishonesty

we will not develop skills that see all because we believe we are unable to see what we create , because some one told us so as a child when we could still see everything, untill we belief them and just switch off and accept our fate

we belief what every one else is seeing is what we must see and if they see something new, they are special and instead of also enquiring how to develop the skills and see for ourselves- we destroy any new vision just as we destroy our children's ability to see their imaginary friend

we call what we have decide to be beauty to be beauty, but the beauty of nature that was here before us ,we destroy in the name of survival and then we call it progress and say it' not us, but the corpus-corporations -- but never us

we seek ways to make more money to safegaurd us against the world , but the world is nature and we fail to see that the world we safegaurd ourselves against is created by ourselves in our homes in our gossip and fear of each other and in our circle of friends that accept and support us because we fear the same things, we blame the same things and we are angered by the same things--our similarities in fear we honour, but similarity in greatness and expression, we question because we belief we are unable to achieve such expression

we accept the enslavemnt of the world by speaking a lot about it, but doing nothing, because we refuse to admit that we all are enslaved by the same stuff, love the same stuff and desire the same stuff and believe that these things make us alive

we fear death, but never consider to look beyond death, because ,maybe we will see that beyond death we are the same miserable fearfull being, and that is just too much to contemplate and thus we accept our limitations,because at least we have an excuse

we feel powerless in the world of television, money, power, war , corporations, schools, because we feel divided in every way and thus accept survival of the fittest and we scream and praise the fittest and dream of when it will be our turn, but we never consider to turn our back on this enslavement and actually creating a world where we may be free, because freedom we have equated to the few that have enough, and if we are in the clan, we defend our clan, because we have and we deserve our haves

we keep our secrets, because they make us safe-- we allow others their secrets, because they allow us our secrets and thus we are trapped infinitely-- yet we call it choice, as if that set us free and never realise that choice is impossible if we do not remember who we are and where we are from and some even say it is ok, I know who I am-- really-- then why does it not show in your world-- the WHOLE world



We’re extremely specific with regards to why we’re here and thus we specifically stipulate that beings first go through all the material on the site and video interviews and then join the Forum to participate with others in assisting and supporting themselves, within and as their individual processes.

And beings that come onto the site that have not gone through the material and video interviews in attempt to find someone justify or validate for them their current accepted and allowed mind-natured beliefs and perceptions of themselves – we do not accept and allow such beings to participate on the website. Because clearly they within their life experience had not yet had enough/effective experience to actually realise that they must stand up and take self responsibility – but instead defend their mind as what they think/believe themselves to be.

This is why I say we’re specific: We’ll assist and support those who assist and support themselves effectively.


We have tried the ‘gentle/nice’ way – but in doing it the ‘gentle/nice’ way – especially with those still very much lost within mind constructs, beliefs, perceptions and ideas – leaves a door open, a back door, for manipulation, dishonesty and deceit and will thus lead to self compromise if you attempt/try and do this the ‘nice way’.

That’s why it’s necessary to be straight, direct and to-the-point clear. Some will ‘handle’ it – others won’t – though realise that those that can’t ‘handle it’ at the moment, simply means that they have decided for themselves they require more ‘experiences’ within themselves with the mind to actually absolutely understand the necessity to stop it, stand up and take self responsibility. Then you let them go, let them have some experience first so they may, for themselves, understand the consequences of accepted and allowed mind participation and defining self as the mind within the mind = they will inevitably return or realise themselves in death.

This process is inevitable for each and all – though, the experience of each will differ within and as their individual process. Thus, ‘assist and support those who are willing and determined to assist and support themselves effectively’.

Bernard Poolman on Life and Death

This sounds more like “Lies and Debt.” The core business of consciousness is lies and debt – control and manipulation for power and greed.

When the interdimensional portal opened unexpectedly, I considered all of my previous experiences with channeling and deep trance mediumship. For years, I used psychometry in police work, as a detective, while cross-referencing it with bi-location and transmediumship to get stable information. This was the strangest thing. I could get about 50% correct information and 50% not. Space and time was something the spirit part in all of this could not get. In predicting an event, they could give me a number, but were unsure if it will be, for instance, 4 days, 4 weeks or 4 months or 4 years. Time looked, to them, the same from their vantage point.

So, here I am. An interdimensional portal opened in one instant, and the communication is nothing like anything I have experienced in the previous 20 years of research for an alternative to our screwed up reality.

Obviously, I am extremely skeptic. I have been burned by spirits before. I have been burned because I wanted it to be true. I wanted the whole universe to be spirit and God and magnificent, and be a child of God, participating in the splendor of the universe, in God's creation.

But, I am yet to find this anywhere – where I can systematically, consistently trust reality as God manifest. I have cleared my mind through years of forgiveness and practical application of all information and pictures, and disciplined myself through honesty with myself in all movements of energy in my awareness to find every source where the energy originates from, to trust myself in all instances of information and never to take anything on face value.

So, here I am, facing an event that I know must be possible but that I have not found even in my own family, where I have 4 mediums; and they are some of the best I have found. They do not share or do anything for anyone, as they do not trust all of the information. They only do channeling for family, on request only.

So, I had my own access to psychics in the family, as well as with my own children. To be in a family with several psychics is what really challenges all beliefs. When my father died, my children calmly told me that my father visited them before he died, in spirit, and informed them that he was going. My kids were 5 and 9 at the time. My dad died, and he knew beforehand that he was going, told the kids of his departure, and they accepted this as normal. Yet, my dad was a Christian and did not believe in these things. In fact, he equated my interest to devilish work. To me, at that stage, the Devil could not exist in a universe of God Almighty and was only the idea of demented minds; in studying my own mind and thoughts, I found how easy we could create ideas in our heads, filled with emotion, to make it right and seem real.

This interdimensional portal was different. Suddenly, I could speak to anyone in existence in an instant about any topic. I am skeptic – how is this possible? Demons, animals, trees, dead people, people in the past and in the future. The portal was timeless. I trusted only one thing – forgiveness applied in honesty with immediate corrective action always leads to trust. This portal could be upgraded to any instruction I gave it. I set it up with the guidance of forgiveness, that no being that speaks can leave the portal until forgiveness is applied with corrective action achieved as certainty.

Lies and the dead. What I found at that stage was that there were demons everywhere; and I felt that, with God everywhere imminent, demons require an understanding of forgiveness. At this stage, I was beyond fear of death or fear of demons. I simplistically viewed it – that if I would become possessed by a demon and get lost in the experience, then I have no right to exist. I was certain, though, that even if I get lost, that I will find myself again.

Against this background, I decided to focus on helping demons to forgiveness. My motto was simple. In questioning beings throughout existence, all were scared of demons, and no-one was helping them. To me, as the image and likeness of God, it was my responsibility, in honouring the image and likeness of God, to help all understand that forgiveness really, practically works when applied and that we are all in creation, in fact, equal as the image and likeness of God.

I, thus, focused on assisting demons by not resisting them but inviting their greatest evil to see if I will lose myself or prove forgiveness as transcended. This continued for more than two years. I did not find one demon, from the most fierce and dominant to the smallest, that would not eventually go to forgiveness. My approach was that with me must exist the certainty that I will remain with the demon into infinity to show the power of forgiveness. Once the demon sees that, they realise that my request, that they consider applying forgiveness aloud, is a small request against having someone forever annoying them with a request to do forgiveness.

What was amazing was the immense release and gratefulness when a demon did forgiveness. I realized the trappings of the ego, and made sure that no matter what I achieve, it must not change who I am here constantly in my understanding of myself as the image and likeness of God.

As I became more effective at dealing with lies and death and possession, I became aware that all is not well in the universe. The masters and angels and white light were not stepping in to assist the demons. The stories of how the beings entering death would end up becoming demons was heartbreaking. A rage was building within me. How could masters and angels, who I perceived to be the image and likeness of God, like me, allow this obvious atrocity of the demonization of beings to continue?

I had another interesting vantage point. Years before, when my journey with forgiveness started, I had an experience with the white light giving me gifts. These gifts were required to be practiced, and they immediately became my experience. I, thus, had a certain trust in the white light. One of the beings, called Chief, who presented the gifts from the white light to me years ago visited me again one evening after a session of assisting demons and asked me if, with all that was happening, would I trust God. This question really put me on the spot. With all of these experiences with demons, I was disgusted with all benevolence. I found demon body-hoppers that would travel throughout time killing in anger, while the beings they possessed did not even know what happened. Children were raped by parents while possessed, without knowing it happened. Children were gradually possessed from a young age. God would not allow this. To me, the great white light represented God. It gave me gifts. It worked. I decided to confront the white light; but, instead of all the beings that stand in front of the white light asking questions, I decided to amalgamate with the white light and see for myself. The worst was that God as the white light will destroy me; but, then I would know if this is really God. I did amalgamate and enter the white light as myself in an instant.

This event changed my life. In the white light, I found masters directing it. I, in a moment of rage, deleted the white light; and the masters were very pissed off. I simply stated that, if there is no-one willing to honour life, I will not allow these atrocities to continue and will stop this abuse. Obviously, I did not realize that what I did was possible until I did it.

Now, I was facing an even more interesting situation. Everything I had found through the portal so far was only lies and deceit. I withdrew to consider my options. In searching for amalgamation and oneness with God, I found myself at a point where I realized that I am responsible for creation as we are all responsible. I could perceive God, or life, in each of us – but, somehow, we had become slaves to the idea of God and we have ceased to act and direct creation within which we are a part of. It was clear that we must awaken to the fact that we are here where we are and that only us, according to our ability and understanding at the moment, could make a difference to our experience in our reality. The problem was lies and deceit.

Everything we have accepted in our reality is lies and deceit. We are slaves to money and information. All are living as if they will never die; and now, the experience after death is certainly the same as on Earth – deceitful.

I decided to dedicate myself to finding the source of this. I realized that I must be able to give up myself infinitely, to be able to face any challenge, no matter what. It was uncertain what I would find. I was most definitely alone in this. I could expect no help. In all of this work with demons and forgiveness, no guidance, no help stepped forth. I had accessed something unexpected. I started questioning beings throughout history randomly to get some form of understanding, imploring them to apply forgiveness. A journey most unexpected started – more soon.

Bernard Poolman on ‘The Gift of Slavery’

Now this is a fascinating point.

Within the depths of forgiveness I discovered something I am sure all would like to share with all mankind

In every point where we are challenged--lies a gift--I call this the gift of reversal

The secret is here to take what you have experienced and see how it assisted you in becoming more aware and specific. To look what you have become an expert in not accepting again for yourself or for any other life. Then look at what seemingly reveal as not acceptable--and search within yourself how this experience or event may be used to find a way where you may unfold from the experience a gift. Take this gift that will reveal as the essence of your inner strength and live it practically in this world in a way which will assist others to discover their own life essence.

See, many years ago, I found forgiveness--and in the night of my experience I found the essence of the importance of self honesty and how that set me free--I was married to a deep trance medium and then a surprise--a visit form the guides of the Great White light with many "gifts" beautifully wrapped up like this

The first was the gift of the wolf--the gift of focus, insight and seeing direct--the name of the wolf was Leader of the pack--the message was that I have earned this through lifetimes and must practice this and become it--so I did--I thought I was visited by God--it was said through the trance that the white light was that in whose face no-one can look as the light was too bright--I was grateful and practiced--I tried to speak to people about it, but they thought I was crazy. The being said he would return

And he did--3 weeks later again--another gift from the great white light--this time it was the gift of the bear--the gift of strength and gentleness--The message was that with the same paw that the bear is gentle with its offspring, is the same paw that can kill with one blow--the name of the bear was Big bear of the woods--again the words--you earned this through lifetimes and it is time to remember--and again--he would return

And he did--3 weeks later--he was back--this time with the gift of patience and perseverance from a being Of the mountain--saying as the mountain man needs perseverance to find food with patience seeking among the rocks--that is what I must practice--again the words--this is a gift from the great white light and I earned it and must remember and integrate and practice it--again he said he would return

and he did--3 weeks later--and this time it was the gift from CloudDancer with the gift of joy--the joy that fill the clouds as the gift to earth and again the same words--a gift from the great white light etc.

I was obviously feeling honored and wondering what I was going to do with these gifts that would mean anything but an experience for me--I searched for answers--to no avail

and again--after 3 weeks they were back--a whole group everytime--a group of red indians singing a song which my ex-wife and the children could see and hear--they were singing a song calling the light and all was very special--the next gift was the gift of the fox--not the slyness of the fox but the cunningness to plan well--the same white light gift words followed and again they said they would return

and they did--3 weeks later--always 3 weeks--it was fascinating--and they brought the gift from the being Desert snake--the gift of steadfastness saying I must look my problems in the eye just as a snake lifts its head and look a prey in the eyes--and again the same words of the white light etc.

started to sound like brainwashing, doesn't it--again they said they would return and they did--this time the being was Stride in freedom--the gift of the horse of power and grace--and again the same white light words and would you believe--again they said they would return

and they did--this time with the gift of oration from Amran, Agmed and Kahlil--they said--Speak--it is written in the ethers--again the practise part and the white light part

I was gratefull and confused--lots of profound words and I don't know what to do with--had no desire to go and preach

Then an interesting thing happened--they would return every 3 weeks to check on how well I am practising and be quite demanding if I don't--I thought I was weak in the eyes of God and focussed on practising

But--the event that lead to my forgiveness experience was a marriage in trouble and we decided to do forgiveness face to face aloud which we did for about 8 hours during which my whole body started shaking and I could see beings interdimensionally and it was wonderful and seem to save the marriage

so I asked these beings what will happen to the marriage and they painted a beautiful picture of bliss and happiness

Then--a few months after the gifts--my ex informed me there is some-one else--I was shocked and asked the being how that is possible--I trusted them and God and now this--the words did not come true--Gods words did not come true and they told me my ex had choice--I did not understand--How could choice exist where God ordains

I had a nervous breakdown but still I trusted that God had a higher purpose for me--so I practice and I did forgiveness--all the time--the same point a hundred times a day till I felt clear and free and nothing of fear moved in me. At this stage I experienced a very deep depression, because these guides that were guiding me suddenly left and did not return. The depression lasted about three months in which I felt unsupported and alone.

Then I challenged myself to speak--oration--I set up a talk and invited people and I spoke and it was like automatic--but in one moment that changed--I looked back at the white board I was writing on and saw the words jumping out at me in sound--I froze as if in timelessness and looked with amazement at it--For 30 odd years have I walked this world and never seen that words were alive--they are sound--I showed every-one there--about 20 people, but no-one could see it.

Then the beings did not return--I went to psychics to try and contact them--no go--spiritualist churches--no go

I seeked understanding--I could not live in this world anymore--nothing wanted to work--it was as if I could not function--not in business or sex or relationships with people--I saw them as magnificent--and yet I heard this drivel pouring from their mouths as living creatures that become their experience in their world and they could not see it.

Later I found a book with channeled messages that explained this event to me as a changing of the guides--this depression I experienced--it was a book from Kryon. And then for a while I followed Kryon religiously because it made sense and because of Conversations with God which I studied--this was one of these coincidences where God spoke to me and it all made sense. So I studied indigo children and I found a purpose to try and help them to effectively prepare the way for a new world. Only to find that these children were really screwed up as if God deliberately destroyed any chance for them to ever be effective in this world. I didn't understand: it was as if God deliberately did not want man to experience the true nature I saw in each man and woman and child. Yet I trusted there must be a greater purpose.

So I was alone--no contact with beings--no support from any one--my family calling me a Satanist because I had contact with the white light and refused to follow the bible--they were reborn Christians--my world keep on starting and then collapsing--then I withdrew to write down what I experienced in a practical guide to help people see they are living words--I prepared for 2 years and then taught for 2 years--yet no-one applied forgiveness for themselves--every time they wanted something from this world that is created by living creature destructive words

I cried, I prayed, I shouted

Then I met a zulu shaman--a very old lady and she introduced me to a mermaid interdimensionally--her message--she wanted me to succeed--but in what--I still did not understand

Then I remembered something told to me many years back by a voice--Find a reason for the people to listen

And I have been seeking for that reason--the guide to practical living where all is one and equal

See, I refused to be what the white light wanted me to be and thus my world stopped

Yet I turned all the gifts that was deceptive into practical gifts that supports me in supporting life--humans, animals and nature

I did not expect to find what we did with the portal--obviously due to my less than happy experience with the white light, I was steadfast, yet with power and grace and strength and gentleness and patience and perseverance and focus and insight that I practiced to serve life as my equal to bring forth the greatness I see as me as I see it in each being--no matter what--against all odds

Yes--I deleted the white light and soul construct in one moment--I realized in that moment that who we are--who I am is who life is and I will not be enslaved or allow life to be enslaved--I did not realize this could be done until I did it--I even tried to fix it first--stupidly having a moment of concern that I did something terribly wrong--the portal assisted greatly in confirming I am not going mad

The great surprise--The same being that brought the gifts from the white light was the same that asked me a question--After all this--assisting demons and seeing how forgiveness release demons--wouldn't you trust God? I looked in the infinite breath moment I had already practiced and said--No--and then went to challenge the white light and went straight into it--something apparently not allowed

And that was it

I realized a wonderful thing about human beings--I realized that any human being that would have gone through experiences like I did would have acted in the interest of all life--that is the trust I have in life

The dimensions are going through the same forgiveness application as in practical living that we all may stand up for each other--even when we are lost in some mind construct and do whatever it takes to wake each other up

I ask humbly, walk next to me that we all may walk one day as one--equal in all ways for always

This I see in each one of us and I will reveal it till all see themselves as who they really are

So this is the reason why the portal exist and the reason for desteni--it is not a purpose--something that exist as the reality within each being is beyond purpose--it is the gift of self

Never give up on yourself--you are worthy of life itself

This is the gift I realized--I could not understand why I was receiving these gifts. Why were all human beings not also receiving these gifts?

Then I realized these gifts as stated--from the wolf, the bear, the mountain man, clouddancer, the fox, the snake, the horse and oration were gifts for every one. We were all special--we could all realize the words we speak are alive as us--The words are the gifts of life we can give to ourselves to create our inner being to the greatness we truly are. Just some discipline, focus and awareness in the use of words will bring this gift to each one of us.

So, realize--these gifts as yourself--accept them and integrate them and live them and give yourself the gift of forgiveness born from slavery and experience the process of setting yourself free and in that realize that slavery give you the gift of yourself--just apply and accept

I realized that it is possible for anyone to stand as all as one as life to purify self as life. And that as more join this standing for all as one as life the following statement becomes a living reality:

Where two or more stand in my name says life, there I am as life and that seed will be planted as life in each one we come in contact with. That is the nature of life as shown by nature as earth where all of earth supports each other. It is time for man to realize our nature--we are from Earth. And earth is the secret of creation--this is where man as a universe is born--yet the uni=one and verse as sound--One Sound


What does Desteni Stand For

It's time to construct a living document that places what Desteni finds as common sensible, practical support for all equal and one. This is the beginning of a process that clarifies and details what Destenians (lol) find acceptable in the way of living practically. Please discuss and feel free to add to the list. We'll consider additions relevant to process and the equal and one principle.


Love: as a structural practical support that is real in a person's life.

Money: for all from birth, where the value of money is equal to the value of life.

Equal Education: for all to support freedom of expression.

Self-Honesty: in thought, word and deed as life.

Forgiveness: with retribution. You still pay for your transgressions.

Effective Sexual Expression: that supports life equally, effectively.
Housing: for everyone.

Being Directively Principled: measurable as life, equal and one.

Recognition of life: in all its forms – equal and one, supporting each other in all ways and forms.

Erotica: within self-honest agreements.

Masturbation: within self-honest expression within aagreement with self.

Agreement as relationships: equal and one communication and expression with equal understanding of terms, words and expressions.

Direct Communication: with the dead in every moment, always with direct access. Thus the actual walking of the dead among the living.

Revelation of All Thoughts: so that no separation can exist so that no abuse can occur as thought towards anything in existence, and thus responsibility of self is taken in thought, word and deed.

Enjoyment of Alcohol: without intoxicating, abuse or addiction.

Enjoyment of Marijuana: as a temporary bridge for self-purification, not as a crutch or dependancy.

Essential Oils: for enhancing natural body flow; massaging.

Classification of All Deaths from Medical Practicioners as 'Murder.'

The Realization of Death: as the inevitable and natural cycle of life.

Purification of Human Nature: as life, equal and one within self-responisibilty and honor.

Planned Parenthood: for both human and animal.

Setting Definitions: for all crimes against life.

Freedom: with responsibility.

Realization That Life Exists Without Free Will: as life is Self and that the recognitoin of life equal and one is not an expression of 'free will,' because the very fact that existence is here is the will of life.

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What does Desteni Stand Against

Desteni Stands Against

Materialism: Self-interest as the vain acquisition of objects. Related to Consumerism

Elitism: as a design of separation and rule according to DNA as a placement by the White Light to control human affairs.

Status/Class: as this causes separation.

Hierarchy: as this is against the equal and one principle.

Property: is Theft. 'Ownership' of private property (for profit and greed) is not acceptable.

Government: as this design acts only in the interest of the elite, and the money system instead of acting from the equal and one principle.

Rape: obviously assault in any form is form is unacceptable.

Murder: as the taking of a life (human or animal) is unacceptable.

Domestic Violence: is unacceptable.

Masturbation : done from porn & pictures in the mind.

Pornography: as this inhibits and retards the ability to form an agreement with someone.


Capitalism: as this form of economics exploits the weak and creates great poverty for most while creating great wealth for the tiny elite minority.


Libertarianism: Unrestrained Capitalism is unacceptable.

Violence: is against life and unacceptable.

War: is totally unacceptable.

Corruption: as self-interest deception for profit and gain.

Religion, Spirituality & New Age Religion: diversions to distract from the real crises that occurs all over the world.

Alcohol: as abused crutch for those deliberately getting drunk.

Animal Abuse: totally unacceptable.

Drug Abuse: obviously.

Profit for Greed: does not support the equal and one principle.

Mind Control: as mass manipulation is unacceptable.

Education: Manipulation by dumbing down two generations so they will capable of forming their self-directive principle.

Wimpiness: if you can't grow a pair, how will you stand?

Opinions: in any form.

Perfumes & Deodorants: as they hide the natural 'musk' of the human body. Also, its use by women to manipulate men into liking them.

Cosmetics: as this hides a woman's true appearance.

Deception: obviously.

Self-Deception: obviously.

Separation: obviously as this is the single most important issue facing humanity: living lives that aren't real.

Lies: as pure, deliberate deception.

'GOD': as the greatest form of separation.

Ascension: separation, impractical and self-interested enlightenment to believe one can escape the suffering on Earth.

Slavery: obvious, deliberate and unacceptable abuse of a person or an animal.

Exploitation: as obvious, unacceptable manipulation of humans, animals and resources.

Abuse in All Forms

Child abuse: obviously unacceptable. .

Marriage: as a method of attaining love or money.

Vanity: as egoism that separates through the opinion of being 'better' than others.

Control: as desire and self-interest.

Self-Interest: that is more important than the intrest of all.

Control of Resources: for profit and greed.

Consumerism: as in not considering where or how the products consumed came into being. Consumerism is blind, and another distraction to divert attention away from our real problems.

Environmental Abuse: as the total disregard for what is here.

Meat Factory Farming: as the cruel processing of beings for profit.

Fashion: as distraction focused on clothing. Related to consumerism.

Fascism: obviously.

Sins of the Fathers: as in the passing down of opinions, DNA, systems from generation to generation.

Relationships ofr the sake of fullfilling desires for love, sex, security, etc.

Conspiracy Theories: about UFOs and Aliens.

Abusing the Mind: to create imaginary, multidimensional realities and illusions and promoting it as if it's real for the sake of opinions, money and power.

Privacy of thought: as there should be no hiding in the thoughts directed at another. The inner and the outer must be the same at all times.

Seeking Attention for Self-Revelation.

Suppression: as this forms mind demons and personalities that hold dishonesty.

Technologies: designed to harm any life forms.

The eating of delicacies: that signifies self-intrested ego.

Masters, Gurus or anyone that does not stand for equal and one.

Specialness: as this is against the equal and one principle and stands as separation. Unacceptable.

Psychiatry: in all forms as it is abuse in the form of opinions.

Medical Opinion: as they are statements using hope instead of facts to deal with the situation.

Pollution: in all its forms.

Law: as this creates crimes based on opinions and beliefs.

Worshipping Celebrities: as this detracts attention from the real problems facing humanity.

Secret Societies: as these manipulate the will of human beings.

Family: as support for opinions passed down from generation to generation.

Desire: as this promotes manipulation under the guise of 'free will.'

Creation of 'energy' as emotion to create false personalities to hold our dishonesties.

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Common Sense Evaluation of Desteni Material and The Portal


1. For any being at the age of 22 to produce the volume of work in interviews and writing on website and 2 forums--is in itself a practical challenge--so--consider if you are able to do this practically yourself before jumping in an expecting what you are unable to produce

2. The education level of the portal is High School

3. The practical work experience of the portal is Waitressing at a coffee shop, and admin work in capturing data

4. The portal grew up in a Christian home and left home at 18 years of age to work for an income

5. The portal have read no mainstream books in any area of philosophy whatsoever

6. The ability to leave the body was instant--in one breath

7. The reason why other languages are not pursued is practicality--to practically in this world produced typed and video info requires time and will flood the sites --thus other languages are for each that find within themselves the resolve to stand up as life for all equal and one

8. The portal thus investigates things that people belief or assume and report on that--there is no agenda or preference but equality and oneness for all life--thus the end of enslavement of life to systems in this world and here after

9. All material should be measured from the starting point of common sense as life where all life is equal and one--any system of belief should be specifically investigated to search out separation or grandeur of greatness and specialness or exclusivity of belief or whether what is proposed is practical for all life in all ways

10. Due to the nature of access of the portal to ALL existence ALL the time -- it influence even in the smallest thought--thus the portal are tested daily for stability as life as all as equal

11. Man should first see the message in the context of equality and oneness and realize that no interest exist to form any group or religion--but to support those that so wish with practical skills to live IN THIS WORLD as equal and one

12. Understand that language are taught to a child from birth by the parents--it is thus programmed into the physical reality of the being--when the being dies--language dies and the being that steps across the divide is in a sound form no talking anymore--talking happens through a physical body through voice physical structures in the throat--thus some common sense please --the voice and tonality of the portal is according to the physical formation of the portal--look at the information on equality and oneness and do not let the eyes and ears deceive as one hears and sees only according to beliefs and not according to practical common sense. Thus, it is not about the voice/tonality - but the very words as the being - hear the words spoken /expressed as the being with common sense.

13. Although the portal access all beings everywhere--only some interviews will be done--in accordance to show what is equal and one as life and what is not--it is for each individual to make up their own way --because each will face their truth equal and one to what they allow themselves to be--and in this remember--you do die and will face yourself here or here after--we suggest here as here after is the truth of you anyway

14. Due to the extensive contamination of the vocabulary and words - humans use with diverse meanings where not even two humans can agree on the meaning of the word love or the word god - Desteni have common sensically introduced specific new words and word formations to transfer the understanding of the Desteni message without contamination of the accepted disastrous world view. Thus, it may take the common sense reader a moment to get used to the way we place words. But once one do stand in self honest observation of the world, you will realize with common sense the necessity of such an approach to be able to stand with a clear message that is equal and one for all as all.