Hi, i am Kim and I am a female Destonian/Earthling and i live in Belgium. I got to know Desteni and the process of Self Forgiveness somewhere in 2008.
I was then on my personal 'spiritual journey', searching to 'attain' and 'accomplish' a great task/goal in my life as I felt quite dissatisfied with the way my life had turned out. I experienced lots of regrets about myself and my life and had turned to spirituality to in a way feel good about myself - not realizing that I was just making matters worse for myself by not actually wanting to face myself, using 'the spiritual journey of enlightenment' as my excuse to run from myself.
However, the Desteni message of self forgiveness and taking self-responsibility rang through and i began my process. I made my process a lot more difficult for myself than it had to be as I was still in this mindset of wanting to 'obtain/attain something great and wonderful', not simply accepting myself as who i am here and still trying to run and hide from myself here.
So this lead me to 'fall' in process, wherein i 'dropped out' completely in my communication with Desteni and participation in Desteni process and Self Forgiveness in total - as I was busy chasing a desire that I had allowed to continue to exist in myself instead of facing it and forgiving myself. I then felt ashamed about myself because I felt that I had done something 'bad' by having 'dropped out', which caused me to completely isolate myself.
Though after a while I started to come to terms with the fact that I live here, this is my life and I am responsible for myself - so this wallowing in self pity, guilt, regret and shame is simply not practical in any way, it's just an energy and at the end of the day I am 'stuck' with myself, so I better just forgive myself for what I had allowed to exist in myself and what I had allowed myself to participate in and stand up again. Herein I had realized Self-Responsibility and Self-Honesty - and I started applying Self Forgiveness again as I realized that this is not something that I can 'reach' or 'obtain' like a 'guru status', but it is a process for self, wherein i stand alone responsible to establish myself as a self-responsible, self-honest, self-respecting and trustworthy being.
Through this process of Self Forgiveness I have managed to actually change myself in fact, as not just a superficial change within a 'spiritual feeling' - but a change of self within complete awareness of who I am here.