For a long time, since I was a very young child, I have felt the need to ‘stand out’ and be special in the eyes of others, and in ‘my own’ eyes in terms of being conscious of how others view me. I noticed at a young age that there are certain things one could do that would appeal to others that would get me noticed and gain some kind of favor, which visibly came in the form of positive attention. I noticed this primarily with adults, I would do certain things – basically entertain the adu...Continue »
This is something that I realized a long time ago, thanks to the assistance and support I received through studying the Desteni material. It may seem like a small piece of advice but for me this point has been crucial and a real learning curve, as for years I had been attempting to change my actions and not my essence, resulting in nothing more than self suppression and a compounding of the mind constructs that drive me to do what I do and exist as I exist.
It has made my p...Continue »
I have recently been educated about the Kony movement and all the people that are focusing on this issue of bringing Kony to justice. What I firstly noticed was that the man who started the campaign had a personal encounter with one of Kony’s victims. This experience seemed to have a strong impact on the person who started the Kony campaign as – you can see in his documentary video – he vows heroically to the victim that he will bring Kony to justice.
The documentary procee...Continue »
The following is a copy of a letter I wrote today to Michael Landsberg – a popular sports talk show host in Canada – who has recently been opening and talking about his issues with depression, and recent campaign to support the mental illness.
I applaud your work in recognizing a point of self responsibility in where you can have an impact and make a difference in this world.
As someone who had struggled with depression all my l...Continue »
A few years ago, I tried vegetarianism after seeing the movie ‘Earthlings’ – a movie everyone should see. After about a year of this, my body was suffering quite badly, I was losing a lot of muscle mass and my body was beginning to ache and strain, even though I would supplement with other proteins. From this I was forced to start eating meat again, but since this time I have learned some fascinating things. Firstly, I found that all animal abuse – and all other for...Continue »
Since I began participating with Desteni, my perception of the world and myself has changed a lot. Initially, a lot of this shift in perception was due to being exposed to the truth of our reality and ourselves – what is really going on in this world and with human beings.
To say the least, it was shocking, disgusting, horrid – I realized the nature of how this world is actually existing, and it isn’t pretty.
From this, I have developed somewhat of a ‘conscience’, purely by l...Continue »
I can never remember a time in my life where I was truly happy – yet in my life, I have had experiences of extreme happiness, extreme emotional ‘highs’, and lots and lots of good and great experiences of love, light and bliss.
Yet, I have never been satisfied, I have never experienced myself and my world in a way where I lived in absolute certainty in happiness with myself and my world. If anything it was the contrary – all that ever seemed to stand out about my life were t...Continue »
We are born into a world replete with abuse. Before not long into our existences on this earth, we begin experiencing acts of abuse – we see people abusing themselves, each other, and inevitably we are abused. In terms of the example we are given, we don’t stand much of a chance but to be abused, and with this being some of our earliest and most prominent experiences, it is not long before we begin copying this abusive behavior and identifying with it.
Yet despite not havin...Continue »
January 15, 2012
I just had a big reaction to my mother – abusing herself – looking for the miracle cure to her problems – I said what I said to her because I really see a lot of bullshit, but there was lots of reaction, judgment and fear. What am I reacting to? Well there is obviously self delusion, the search for a savior, the search for answers outside of common sense, not even considering another way, not even giving herself a chance, and actually standing up for her se...Continue »
January 12, 2012
I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to believe that I am more than I am as superiority and within this belief, create an expectation of myself to do more than I realistically can do.
I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to exist as inferiority and within this existence/essence of myself, believe and expect that I am limited and that I am not able to walk this slow, steady process
This is a...Continue »