Written originally by Bernard Poolman on the forum on 14 August 2007 3:57 pm
I will shortly make a book available I wrote in 1999-2000-- my process of forgiveness-- 9 years of forgiveness-- letting go-- stopping the fear of loss and lonelyness--an inner struggle we all face (Note: You can find the book here)
Yet, I approached itas follows-- In all situations I must be able to die and still be me fully without having to sort out stuff or forgive stuff-- then I am fully here-- this is tough, because we try and analize what is best-- then look at it from death-- if death was the analizer-- at the moment of conflct== what then-- this world ends--
2,5 years ago I faced death-- a head on collision in 3seconds on a freway-- some demons wanted me out and pulled a car in front of me headon== I was silent and aware
3 questions emerged-- Am I ready to die? and I answered yes-- My life as I have become all revealed
The second was-- How will it feel to be crushed-- I was curious
the 3rd-- I must go marginally lefton impact and only hit one car, which I did
I remained aware throughout and me and Es was virtually without a scratch-- the car-- both write-offs-- in the other car a child died
under the soulconstruct, some one had to die-- me-- the child offered self in quantum time-- and hereI am-- sometimes we chat-- what beauty--and so content with the choice--
I realised once again-- in the silence in the movement of the moment, the answer is clear-- if we would trust it , we will find our greater expression-- within 2 months after that, the portal started opening
Be silent always-- take a breath before you speak, lookinside toself for guidance-- find your way to self expression--never bind it to another, but to all for self realisation-- then supportyourself in your choice, don't justify
I find the choices I made that I could not explain, guided me most clearly, because I only understood in retrospect-- yet I had to overcome fear and justification-- because fear and justification wanted to explain my choice to me-- our expression is in risking our knowledge
knowledge enslaves
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