Written by Andrea and shared on the Desteni Forum on Nov 26, 2007 12:19 am
To me forgiveness is the unconditional acceptance of self and release of that which you have done which does not serve who you are, and is not best for you. there are so many layers of forgivess due to our own creation and thereafter our own allowances that it truly is a journey and something only you are able to give yourself.
Of course what goes hand in hand with forgivenss is corrective action and the actual understanding of why you forgive yourself.
If you look for example at how forgiveness is being used all over, willy-nilly just because - then you realise that sometimes people dont stand in that forgiveness and honour themselves in that.
If you understand the reason why you forgive yourself (which to many is a foreign concept) then you are on your way. We have taken on the responsibility of our own creation and what we have created and thus we are faced now with self-forgiveness. To each it is the understanding that you are precious to you and that you are alone with yourself into infinity (yet one with all things) - meaning who you are is not dependent on anything outside of you. Therefore true forgiveness and release is a gift that you honour yourself with as you start to realise and accept self.
As for practical application - this goes hand in hand with honesty. we have just now become accustomed to the fact that we are so many layers and this we need to realise so that we strip ourselves clean of the old. So please dont expect yourself to walk around all day - doing all the right things all the time. Work with self honesty where you are able to in each participation.
Sometimes you will just stop and ask yourself why am i doing this or what am i experiencing? I find that working with the videos very uuseful and then later on you will rememebr something out a video and apply it again. That is how we move forward. We utilise what we are shown (in the videos and articles) and apply them throughout while utilising focus. The focus comes from a decision that you make throughout the day to look at what you do and say and just ask the questions.
You will find it interesting that once you access self honesty it becomes more 'familiar' and then the next day you do the same or you will then expand your honesty elsewhere.
I have noticed recently that I have been very angry with myself and it was a suppression that was eating me up. With a shove of honesty I was able to see this and start with applying more intimacy and forgiveness.
So we take it a step at a time and ask ourselves questions.
What i find useful is reading the posts on the web site. If somebody has writen something and i react then I work with that or I see why I reacted. It is very useful. The members on this forum have balls and are not afraid to face themselves - and post it on the forum!
That way each is able to sit, read and have their light bulb moment. One could say that way the entire forum gets to move together just from one member realising something.
As for the boredom thing - well: In this world we are pretty limited in our expression because we have just created it that way. Therefore for each to break free and go mad is the only way. Once you start facing fears and limitations then one is also able to create new ways for you to express.
I find that expression is quite handy when it gets others to express as well - like on the forum. For example doing stuff that other people are able to aprticipate in. So that is where one is able to use your skills of writing, painting and whatever and share. Talk, share and open up this world if that tickles your fancy.
For each it is their own journy, and yes we have limited ourselves in our expression. Perhaps you are able to try new things and see what you enjoy. Then share with us.....
cheers
Andrea