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Veno - Self Forgiveness - Relationship

As transcribed and typed by Veno through the interdimensio­nal portal

Date : 12/10/2007

I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to believe that I require and need another separate from me to fulfill and complete me.

I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to accept my self and incomplete and unfulfilled.

I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to separate me from myself as another.

I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to seek and search for love in another from who and which I have separated me.

I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to separate myself from the word ‘love'.

I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to separate myself from the word ‘relationship'.

I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to believe that I need and require another to be completed and fulfilled.

I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to believe that I need and require another separate from me to be loved and to experience love.

I forgive myself that I haven't allowed myself to consider the words ‘falling in love' – only noticing and considering the word love in the equation and not the word ‘fall'.

I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to dream and wish and hope and desire to be ‘whisked' and wiped off my feet by an eligible attractive man or attractive beautiful woman of which I pictured in my mind as being: The One.

I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to condition and conform to society by desiring wanting and needing a must-have relationship.

I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to influence and change myself to attract a hopeful possible partner.

I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to believe that ‘knees going weak' and ‘butterflies in the stomach' are actually experiences of me instead of realising they are manifestations of the mind.

I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to actually literally ‘buy into' the ludicrousness of the fact that love actually exists.

I forgive myself that I haven't allowed myself to realise that love and relationship is the trap of this world to remain pre-occupied in ‘my own world' instead of opening my eyes and ears to see and hear what's really going on in this world.

I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to ‘fall' into the trap of the mind as love and relationship.

I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to define love and sex under the category of the manifestation of a relationship.

I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to become blind and deaf by the overwhelming experiences of feelings and emotions within a relationship and closed myself off and separated myself from the rest of the world.

I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to use a relationship as an escape from the world to not have to face the world I exist in and experience myself within.

I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to believe that I will ‘find' and ‘discover' myself within a relationship with another.

I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to believe that emotions and feelings for another separate from me are actually experiences of me as who I am.

I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to desire, want and need a relationship.

I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to merely accept and allow emotions and feelings for another separate from me – believing such emotional and feeling experiences to be ‘normal' and ‘okay' because everyone else is also experiencing them.

I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to enjoy ‘being loved' by another – instead of me accepting joy as me as the expression of me as self love.

I forgive myself that I haven't allowed myself to love myself and because of this – I went on a journey to find, search and seek love elsewhere.

I forgive myself that I haven't allowed myself to realise that by me wanting, desiring, wishing and needing a relationship – I was actually asking for a relationship with me.

I forgive myself that I haven't allowed myself to ever in my life, not once in my life – consider me.

I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to start a relationship and go on a relationship quest – because that's what the rest of the world is doing – so most obviously: I must do it as well.

I forgive myself that I have allowed sex, relationship and love to become my obsession, oppression and suppression.

I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to resist myself.

I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to take me for granted.

I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to define holding, cuddling, kissing and sex and intimacy.

I forgive myself that I have allowed my eyes to deceive me.

I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to deceive myself into believing that love and relationship actually exist.

I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to believe, perceive and think that others who are in relationship are happy and content – not really knowing or understanding that what they are projecting is the lie to the world and the deception of themselves.

I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to trust my thoughts feelings and emotions instead of me trusting myself as who I am of life within and as oneness and equality.

I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to judge myself and I this judgment requiring and needing another separate from me to love me, appreciate me and adore me because I apparently couldn't and cant for myself.

I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to think that self forgiveness is ridiculous.

I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to think that self forgiveness is too simple and fallible to actually assist and support me in what I am experiencing within me.

I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to judge and condemn my own words.

I forgive myself that I have even allowed to give the mind as thoughts feelings and emotions the ‘time of day' and taking for granted the breath of life as life of me.

I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to believe that I will only find and discover love, fulfillment, completeness, comfort, joy, well-being, bliss in a relationship with another.

I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to actually believe that God created male and female as is to experience the apparent joys and wondrous ecstasy and euphoria of sex and to make babies and start a family.

I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to live by the laws and regulations of society of the world.

I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to actually believe that people who've been in relationships actually knows anything of relationships and have allowed myself to follow the example of other love sick puppies lost in the mind as I am.

I forgive myself that I haven't allowed myself to notice the word ‘sick' in ‘love sick puppies' and only notice the word love.

I forgive myself that I have allowed the words ‘love' and ‘relationship' and ‘sex' to control me.

I forgive myself that I have allowed the words ‘love' and ‘relationship' and ‘sex' to have power over me and power of me.

I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to deceive and dishonour and lie to myself in the name of love, relationship and sex.

I forgive myself that I haven't allowed myself to be intimate with me – self intimacy is the key of me.

I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to believe that my parents were actually ‘happily married' and that I'd also want to have an experience like that with another: Relationship, marriage, home, car, children, successful business and money.

I forgive myself that I haven't allowed myself to realise that I have ‘fallen head over heals' for the deception and manipulation and lies of the system when ‘falling head over heals' for another separate from me.

Some to get you started…

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